Saje aku nak menulis tentang perkembangan anak2 aku kali ini..
SI BOBOI
Dah mulai semakin lancar mengeja. Bila dah lama aku tak kasik homework, dia mulala tanya kenapa aku dah lama tak kasik dia homework. actually, bukannya mommy doesnt want to give you anymore homework...it just matter, time is not permitting enough for mommy to spend my usual time with you as before. byk masa mommy layan diri mommy sendiri because mommy has lots of unfinished job needs to be done. sampai satu tahap, mommy feels saturated and anymore cant get hold with it. but, mommy just has too...because mommy hasnt got more choices to choose. ini pon, kain2 baju mommy pakai campak2 aje..dah tak kuasa nak lipat elok2 mcm sblmnya utk packing. kalu tgk bilik mommy skrg...mmg kuuhhhh smgt sgt2 serabaiiiiiiii........ini pon mommy dah kene kuarantin duduk bilik sendiri dan tidur sendiri.
Perkembangan boboi yg lain, dia semakin minat melukis..his colouring is much2 better than before as well as his drawing. Well done my son, i am totally impressed with you. so, skrg aktiviti my son, instead of counting and spelling and reading..most of his times are filled with drawing activity. Smlm, boboi drew helicopters...mcm tak sangka juga mommy yg anak mommy dah pandai lukis mcm2. Sblm2 ni, favourite boboi adalah melukis org lidi..From this experience, aku berpendapat, anak2 sebenarnya perlu dilentur dan diberikan pendedahan. Cthnya, kalu dia selalu buat practise colouring dan drawing, Insya-allah lama kelamaan dia akan semakin improve dan improve..
Smlm ade sesuatu yg melucukan telah terkeluar dr mulut boboi..
Boboi-I want to buy power rangers toys to complete this..
Dad-Daddy has just bought you one before, how can daddty afford to buy you more.
Boboi still persuading..
Boboi_I need toys you know, because later when I have grown up like you, I wont be able to have time to play with my toys.
Daddy's brows lifted up..
Daddy-Where did you get idea to think this way?
Boboi-Because, when I big like you, I wont playing with loads and loads of time. I am going to be busy working and working like you..
Dalam hati aku, mmmm mcm2 budak2 zaman skrg ni berfikir. Pandai pulak dia pikir idea yg bila dah besar nanti, adults takkan begitu melayan mainan bebudak ni sume..
SI GEGIRL
Gegirl masih tak begitu fasih bercakap. Istilah fasih aku ni lebih kepada bercakap macam bertih jagung. By the way, whatever, she's trying to say, to this extent mommy could understand her languange. Gegirl picks lots of words from his older brother, boboi. Her languange is mixed between malay and english. Words gegirl yg paling biasa aku dgr skrg adalah...
'wait a minute'
'wait'
'downstair'
'upstair'
'like it'
'dont want'
'help me'
'wash hand'
Monday, December 01, 2008
Pindah
Punyala letih tak habis2 dek kerana nak pindah..sampai aku pon naik bosan mengemas tak sudah2. Hati aku pulak mcm dah nekad nak balik mesia. malas dah nak duduk sini lama2 sbb sibuknya mcm tak sudah2. lagi dekat2 nak balik..lagi mcm2 nak diuruskan dan nak bereskan. hari ini aku tersenyum gembira sbb car be yg aku bid dah pon sampai di rumah. sampai2 je car bed tu di rumah, semua org excited termasuk boboi sendiri. Semua org bekerjasama punggah kesemua brg2 ke atas. Tinggal ade lagi sebijik carbed yg kami tak collect di Herts. Dua2 carbed aku menang bid kale biru. So, mlm tadi aku memanjangkan langkah beli the matching duvet for my 2 kids. 1 set transformers dan satu set princess.
yg bestnya ni ari aku berjaya jugak menang bid set meja dan kerusi barbie for gegirl. utk set desk boboi mmg dah puas aku mencari..tapi, tak ada pula yg berkenan di hati...kiranya skrg sumenya dah hampir complete jugala..
set bedding kami plak, aku dah siap2 order thru internet. harap2 by this friday sumenya akan sampai..cume aku masih tak pasti nak beli single duvet tak utk anak2...sbb aku sendiri ingat2 lupa sama ada aku ade single duvet atau pon tidak.
yg bestnya ni ari aku berjaya jugak menang bid set meja dan kerusi barbie for gegirl. utk set desk boboi mmg dah puas aku mencari..tapi, tak ada pula yg berkenan di hati...kiranya skrg sumenya dah hampir complete jugala..
set bedding kami plak, aku dah siap2 order thru internet. harap2 by this friday sumenya akan sampai..cume aku masih tak pasti nak beli single duvet tak utk anak2...sbb aku sendiri ingat2 lupa sama ada aku ade single duvet atau pon tidak.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Menegang..
Terasa benar kulit perut aku ni mcm menegang. Kurang pasti adakah sbb baby yang menegang atau perut aku yg sedang menegang. Satu hari mmg lebih dr 2 kali aku akan sapukan bio-oil sejak dua-menjak ini...Ini semua gara2, kulit aku mcm kegatalan yg terlampau. Aku perasan, kalu aku lambat aje apply bio-oil maka akan nampakla kulit perut aku tu mcm kering. Umpamanya kulit aku ni cepat sgt menyedut minyak. Last2, hari ini tanpa lengah2 aku pergi ke town. My honey pon pelik atas mimpi apa aku yg tak ada plan pergi ke town. Aku pergi ke town pulangkan brg2 yg patut sambil tu beli few pairs of maternity clothes and jacket. Jacket aku sblm mengandung skrg tak buleh nak kancing. Cuaca pulak bukan main sejuk skrg ni. Sambil2 tu aku tak lupa nak beli cream Coco Butter. Kot2 pakai minyak tak jalan, jadi kali ini aku beli concentrated cream. Kadang2, malam2 tanpa aku sedar tangan ni cepat saje nak merayap atas perut dan menggaru..Sabar sajela..Kkdg tu kegatalannya bukan setakat di perut tapi di keseluruhan badan.
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Menegang..
Terasa benar kulit perut aku ni mcm menegang. Kurang pasti adakah sbb baby yang menegang atau perut aku yg sedang menegang. Satu hari mmg lebih dr 2 kali aku akan sapukan bio-oil sejak dua-menjak ini...Ini semua gara2, kulit aku mcm kegatalan yg terlampau. Aku perasan, kalu aku lambat aje apply bio-oil maka akan nampakla kulit perut aku tu mcm kering. Umpamanya kulit aku ni cepat sgt menyedut minyak. Last2, hari ini tanpa lengah2 aku pergi ke town. My honey pon pelik atas mimpi apa aku yg tak ada plan pergi ke town. Aku pergi ke town pulangkan brg2 yg patut sambil tu beli few pairs of maternity clothes and jacket. Jacket aku sblm mengandung skrg tak buleh nak kancing. Cuaca pulak bukan main sejuk skrg ni. Sambil2 tu aku tak lupa nak beli cream Coco Butter. Kot2 pakai minyak tak jalan, jadi kali ini aku beli concentrated cream. Kadang2, malam2 tanpa aku sedar tangan ni cepat saje nak merayap atas perut dan menggaru..Sabar sajela..Kkdg tu kegatalannya bukan setakat di perut tapi di keseluruhan badan.
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Menegang..
Terasa benar kulit perut aku ni mcm menegang. Kurang pasti adakah sbb baby yang menegang atau perut aku yg sedang menegang. Satu hari mmg lebih dr 2 kali aku akan sapukan bio-oil sejak dua-menjak ini...Ini semua gara2, kulit aku mcm kegatalan yg terlampau. Aku perasan, kalu aku lambat aje apply bio-oil maka akan nampakla kulit perut aku tu mcm kering. Umpamanya kulit aku ni cepat sgt menyedut minyak. Last2, hari ini tanpa lengah2 aku pergi ke town. My honey pon pelik atas mimpi apa aku yg tak ada plan pergi ke town. Aku pergi ke town pulangkan brg2 yg patut sambil tu beli few pairs of maternity clothes and jacket. Jacket aku sblm mengandung skrg tak buleh nak kancing. Cuaca pulak bukan main sejuk skrg ni. Sambil2 tu aku tak lupa nak beli cream Coco Butter. Kot2 pakai minyak tak jalan, jadi kali ini aku beli concentrated cream. Kadang2, malam2 tanpa aku sedar tangan ni cepat saje nak merayap atas perut dan menggaru..Sabar sajela..Kkdg tu kegatalannya bukan setakat di perut tapi di keseluruhan badan.
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Dgn itu juga instinct aku seolah2 berubah. Kalu sebelum ini aku mcm ada feeling to carry a baby girl. This time, aku rasa aku carry baby boy pulak. Sbbnya, masa mengandungkan boboi punyala aku gatal tak hengat sampai naik2 blister. Tapi, sekurang2nya di waktu boboi aku gatal di saat2 akhir pregnancy. Utk kali ini berlainan pulak, aku gatal dah di awal2 5 bulan lagi. Mahu tak seksanya kalu dah nak kene tunggu another 4 mths dari utk berhenti menggaru mcm monyet gatal kene gigit kutu. Terasa perut aku bagaikan pedih2. Bukan sbb apa..sumenya atas kesan dr garukan aku dr hari ke hari...Ntah bila aku akan berhenti menggaru. Malas dah aku nak pikir larangan2 org utk berhenti menggaru akan jadi stretch mark sbb mmg pon aku dah ade stretch mark...huhuuhuh...Mula2 tu aku fikirkan, mungkin juga aku allergy fish oil sbb aku makan fish oil capsul for baby's brain and eyes development. Tapi, walaupon aku dah berhenti sbrg 2-3 hari aku masih sama tak berhenti menggaru. Mungkin aku terpaksa mandi dlm air minyak supaya kulit tak begitu kering. Mana tahu dgn sekali sekala aku lulur dgn gula+extra virgin oil kulit aku akan jadi ok..siapa tahu?
Friday, October 31, 2008
Kelegaan..
Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi, boboi dah semakin matured dan boleh diharap utk buat homework dan tahap confidentnya juga lebih baik dr yg sebelumnya. Nampakla juga semangatnya nak habiskan semua pages dalam exercise book dia. Kkdg sampai ke malam hari dah nak masuk tidur dia tak mahu berhenti nak buat exercise. At least, di waktu cuti2 sekolah ni, tak delah aku begitu serabai nak melayan kerenah dia. Di kala aku busy depan PC membuat keje sekolah aku, boboi pon sama2 busy buat exercise dia sendiri. Cuma, kkdg adela juga dia mengacau bertanyakan itu dan ini.
Tahap pembacaan boboi pon semakin baik berbanding sebelumnya. Dia dah mulai pandai mengeja dan juga pronounce simple2 words. Meskipon begitu, he needs always me to remind him. Kalu tak, mmg sgt2 mudah dia nak lupa. Dr segi matematik aku tak begitu risau. Dr pemandangan aku, boboi minat matematik dan kurang bermasalah dr segi itu. Buat masa ini, aku mmg lebih fokuskan literacy berbanding numeracy. Sedikit demi sedikit mungkin aku akan beralih arah ke arah itu. Masalahnya di Mesia, expectation dia agak tinggi sedikit berbanding di sini. Terpaksala aku asah bakat si boboi ni sendiri sbb aku tak hantar di ke skool private mahupon skool yg bagus di sini. Jadi, aku pon kenala jadi cikgu tambahan utk anak aku sendiri. Mebe di Mesia nanti, selagi aku tak masuk kerja, bulela aku pelan2 mengajar boboi dalam bahasa melayu, bahasa arab dan mengaji. pada masa yg sama, aku akan tetap hantar boboi ke nursery private, otherwise maybe skdr hantar boboi ke KUMON just for practise dan polishing. Yg penting, kena pastikan boboi fully equiped with appropriate knowledge sblm masuk darjah 1. Just hope, boboi will reach his level of suitable knowledge bila tiba masanya.
Tahap pembacaan boboi pon semakin baik berbanding sebelumnya. Dia dah mulai pandai mengeja dan juga pronounce simple2 words. Meskipon begitu, he needs always me to remind him. Kalu tak, mmg sgt2 mudah dia nak lupa. Dr segi matematik aku tak begitu risau. Dr pemandangan aku, boboi minat matematik dan kurang bermasalah dr segi itu. Buat masa ini, aku mmg lebih fokuskan literacy berbanding numeracy. Sedikit demi sedikit mungkin aku akan beralih arah ke arah itu. Masalahnya di Mesia, expectation dia agak tinggi sedikit berbanding di sini. Terpaksala aku asah bakat si boboi ni sendiri sbb aku tak hantar di ke skool private mahupon skool yg bagus di sini. Jadi, aku pon kenala jadi cikgu tambahan utk anak aku sendiri. Mebe di Mesia nanti, selagi aku tak masuk kerja, bulela aku pelan2 mengajar boboi dalam bahasa melayu, bahasa arab dan mengaji. pada masa yg sama, aku akan tetap hantar boboi ke nursery private, otherwise maybe skdr hantar boboi ke KUMON just for practise dan polishing. Yg penting, kena pastikan boboi fully equiped with appropriate knowledge sblm masuk darjah 1. Just hope, boboi will reach his level of suitable knowledge bila tiba masanya.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Lebih baik jadi kera sumbang!
Kkdg aku rasa ade baiknya jadi kera sumbang..Bila dah bercampur masyarakat banyak pulak bunyi dan sok sek sok seknya termasuk mendengar masalah org2 sekeliling yg mana tak semuanya kita mampu nak tolong..
Smlm org yg stand by nak masuk umah aku nego utk masuk umah aku awal...terus terang mmg kami tak dapat nak menolong...sbbnya aku sendiri dan suami ada masalah kami sendiri..cume, harapan aku..penolakan kami atas cadangan dorang itu tidak akan dijadikan suatu isu..Kalu ikutkan sebab musabab mmg aku dah tak mampu menolong org dah sbb diri aku sendiri pon tak tertolong...
Smlm org yg stand by nak masuk umah aku nego utk masuk umah aku awal...terus terang mmg kami tak dapat nak menolong...sbbnya aku sendiri dan suami ada masalah kami sendiri..cume, harapan aku..penolakan kami atas cadangan dorang itu tidak akan dijadikan suatu isu..Kalu ikutkan sebab musabab mmg aku dah tak mampu menolong org dah sbb diri aku sendiri pon tak tertolong...
Friday, September 19, 2008
My boy..
Aku dapat berita menggembirakan semalam. I'm happy Harris is making very good progress in his learning. Maybe now he has started to understand my always concern to him..
Aku akui, semenjak dia masuk Year 1, mmg nampak sgt perubahannya. Dia dah bule membaca dgn cara yg sepatutnya, dah bule addition hingga ke angka belasan..I am very impress! Smlm aku stay back couple of minutes just to learn certain sounds at school. Dan aku kira Harris pon sama2 curi dgr sekali.
I admit that I was doing mistake in his last semester for not that care about his performance as well still battling to put Harris in track to happy to be at school. Aku harap2, Harris akan still maintain begitu...Aku juga bersyukur, at least skrg my darling is getting more involved in Harris education and development.
Cume, aku agak sedih juga...sbb bila everything is now already on track, kami pulak yg dah nak balik ke Mesia..
Aku akui, semenjak dia masuk Year 1, mmg nampak sgt perubahannya. Dia dah bule membaca dgn cara yg sepatutnya, dah bule addition hingga ke angka belasan..I am very impress! Smlm aku stay back couple of minutes just to learn certain sounds at school. Dan aku kira Harris pon sama2 curi dgr sekali.
I admit that I was doing mistake in his last semester for not that care about his performance as well still battling to put Harris in track to happy to be at school. Aku harap2, Harris akan still maintain begitu...Aku juga bersyukur, at least skrg my darling is getting more involved in Harris education and development.
Cume, aku agak sedih juga...sbb bila everything is now already on track, kami pulak yg dah nak balik ke Mesia..
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Aku sunyi..
Tiba2 aku rasa sprt kesunyian...sunyi sbb aku tak ramai kawan kat sini...maksud aku kawan rapatla atau kawan sorak2 mcm kat university dulu2..Byk masa terpaksa control ayu bila berbual sbb takut2 menyentuh sensitivity seseorang...kkdg tu rasa bosan juga...lagipon, aku faham sgt2, kenapa aku tak terpilih dalam kelompok dorang..sbbnya sama ada aku yg tak rajin nak mengkelompokkan diri aku dgn mereka atau pon mereka yg segan dgn aku sbbkan status..Status maksud aku..sbb aku datang ke mari...sambil study sambil tu accompany my darling bekerja..Kalu ikut serba-serbi, mmg life kamu jauh lebih selesa berbanding kawan2 di sini...tak perlu makan terlalu bersekat, tak perlu nak share rumah dgn org dan tidak juga terlalu bergantung kpd org...Adela juga sorang dua kawan2 aku yg serasi..itu pon kebetulan org2 yg aku kenal mmg dtg dr area Selangor atau KL...Yg lain2 tu, byknya area utara, mungkin sbb tu juga susah sket aku nak masuk line. Kkdg tu, tiba2 je dlm borak2, mula2 tu cakap melayu-selangor atau KL...kalih2 terus jadi bahasa utara dorang. Bila dorang dah speaking bahasa dorang mulala aku terasa asing...Kkdg aku fikir, arghhh, bukannya mati pon kalu tak ada kawan..cume, kkdg cume terasa aje kesunyiannya...
Takat ni kawan yg aku mcm ok2 sket, adalah sorang akak tu..nama dia Kak R...buat PhD kat sini anak 4...orgnya pon tak byk cakap sgt...nampak gayanya bule simpan rahsia..cuma, somi dia sajela yg aku ngk byk cakap orgnya..My darling pon nampak mcm bule ngam dgn somi Kak R...sbb dulu Abg B, mmg bisnes sendiri..kalu bercerita pon..mmg figure $$$..Mungkin juga, ada org di sini yg tak suka cara Abg B bercerita...mcm seolah...le eleh..ala2 gempak je Abg B ni..By the way, aku dan my darling orgnya pon jenis tak kisah...takat borak projek juta2 lemon2 tu mmg besa sgt2la utk org keje private or bisnes sendiri..so, kita sbg pendengar...apa pulak nak kisah..lagipon, itukan rezeki masing2...sama jugak mcm aku tumpang gembira kalu kawan2 aku dah cecah gaji puluhan ribu...walaupon gaji aku nanti takat so-so saje berbanding mereka..Pada aku, aku sudah cukup dgn apa yg aku ada...Lagipon, my darling is doing well too in his career...Biarla dia yg be the breadwinner..dan aku skdr supporting saje atau kerja skdr suka2 utk melepaskan kebosanan terlampau aku sambil to find way to socialize with people..Kiranya, dlm byk2 family kat sini...Biasa family Kak R yg paling murah rezeki...Kami pon tak kisah nak jamu dorang dgn makan mcm2...atau dapat buah tgn dr kami pon mcm2 juga..
Si Gin-kira ni kawan aku yg aku bebas sket nak borak2..Besanya aku tak kisah nak x-change idea dgn dia...like citer pasal skooling anak, nak organize rumahtangga, shopping designer stuff..and so on..Baru2 ni, kami dua dok bz nak beli kebaya...Cume dia dah decide lebih awal nak beli kebaya nyonya di kebayas..dan aku plak prefer alternative murah sket di Kedai si Shah..sbb ni kira my 1st attempt...so, takut nak beli yg mahal2..takut aku tak berapa serasi..karang aku maleh nak pakai...
Aha dan Eez, org2 baru sampai di sini...Setahu aku, Aha bukannya org yg jenis cepat terasa...sbbnya, dah adik beradik pon suma ada 6 org lelaki dan dia seorang perempuan...Asal org Pahang tapi menetap di KL...Biasa aku ctc dia pon sbb nak ty resepi..sbb dia tu punyala masya-allah rajin masak...kira macam dia tu antara my salvage cooking Godmotherla...
Yg si Eez plak, aku takdela constraint sgt nak borak...sbb dia pon dah terbiasa dgn cerita2 yg aku dah terbiasa...Dia pon anak bukan calang2 org...so, kalu citer figure sampai ribu-raban segala...should be dia tu takdela nak fikir apa2..nak kata aku ni bercerita hebat mcm ala2 org kaya..
Si Eez pon orgnya rajin memasak..besa kalu kal dia pon..bukan tanya apa2..tapi, dok ty tips2 masakan...nampak sgtla aku ni mmg kaki makan..hahahhaha...
Takat ni kawan yg aku mcm ok2 sket, adalah sorang akak tu..nama dia Kak R...buat PhD kat sini anak 4...orgnya pon tak byk cakap sgt...nampak gayanya bule simpan rahsia..cuma, somi dia sajela yg aku ngk byk cakap orgnya..My darling pon nampak mcm bule ngam dgn somi Kak R...sbb dulu Abg B, mmg bisnes sendiri..kalu bercerita pon..mmg figure $$$..Mungkin juga, ada org di sini yg tak suka cara Abg B bercerita...mcm seolah...le eleh..ala2 gempak je Abg B ni..By the way, aku dan my darling orgnya pon jenis tak kisah...takat borak projek juta2 lemon2 tu mmg besa sgt2la utk org keje private or bisnes sendiri..so, kita sbg pendengar...apa pulak nak kisah..lagipon, itukan rezeki masing2...sama jugak mcm aku tumpang gembira kalu kawan2 aku dah cecah gaji puluhan ribu...walaupon gaji aku nanti takat so-so saje berbanding mereka..Pada aku, aku sudah cukup dgn apa yg aku ada...Lagipon, my darling is doing well too in his career...Biarla dia yg be the breadwinner..dan aku skdr supporting saje atau kerja skdr suka2 utk melepaskan kebosanan terlampau aku sambil to find way to socialize with people..Kiranya, dlm byk2 family kat sini...Biasa family Kak R yg paling murah rezeki...Kami pon tak kisah nak jamu dorang dgn makan mcm2...atau dapat buah tgn dr kami pon mcm2 juga..
Si Gin-kira ni kawan aku yg aku bebas sket nak borak2..Besanya aku tak kisah nak x-change idea dgn dia...like citer pasal skooling anak, nak organize rumahtangga, shopping designer stuff..and so on..Baru2 ni, kami dua dok bz nak beli kebaya...Cume dia dah decide lebih awal nak beli kebaya nyonya di kebayas..dan aku plak prefer alternative murah sket di Kedai si Shah..sbb ni kira my 1st attempt...so, takut nak beli yg mahal2..takut aku tak berapa serasi..karang aku maleh nak pakai...
Aha dan Eez, org2 baru sampai di sini...Setahu aku, Aha bukannya org yg jenis cepat terasa...sbbnya, dah adik beradik pon suma ada 6 org lelaki dan dia seorang perempuan...Asal org Pahang tapi menetap di KL...Biasa aku ctc dia pon sbb nak ty resepi..sbb dia tu punyala masya-allah rajin masak...kira macam dia tu antara my salvage cooking Godmotherla...
Yg si Eez plak, aku takdela constraint sgt nak borak...sbb dia pon dah terbiasa dgn cerita2 yg aku dah terbiasa...Dia pon anak bukan calang2 org...so, kalu citer figure sampai ribu-raban segala...should be dia tu takdela nak fikir apa2..nak kata aku ni bercerita hebat mcm ala2 org kaya..
Si Eez pon orgnya rajin memasak..besa kalu kal dia pon..bukan tanya apa2..tapi, dok ty tips2 masakan...nampak sgtla aku ni mmg kaki makan..hahahhaha...
Monday, September 15, 2008
Aku gembira..
Diam tak diam hari ni dah masuk 15hb..My boy dah mula settle fr schooling. Kalu dulu mesti meragam ya amat..sampai aku pon tak larat nak battling..skrg ni alhamdulillah dia dah berubah sedikit demi sedikit...Dah mula nak enjoy skool...dah mula tak liat sgt nak celik mata nak bangkit pagi nak pi skool..Aku bagitau dia, later back in Mesia..dia akan ke skool and need to learn to be independent, because mommy can be there to accompany him to canteen or even to see him learning in class. Susah juga kalu dapat anak manja ni..Aku rasa, benda2 ni sume bergantung kepada his social development...Sbb tu juga ade org tak kisah nak joinkan anak ke mana2 skool gathering supaya to boost up their children confidence and level of maturity.
Pagi tadi, lepas breakfast kat rumah..aku sempat pergi awal sedikit utk join skool breakfast club..mula2 tu dia mcm refuse juga...tapi, lama2 kelamaan baru dia nak settle dan nak minta makan itu dan ini..Komen dia...
'I like the butter in here. Why our butter is not that delicious as it is at school?'
Aku just pause..Whateverla, my boy as long as it makes you happy, mommy will be happy for you too. For this semester, aku no longer make his lunch pack..Instead, he will have his school dinner at shool. Have to pay some pounds of course..but then, if this is what I can do to make him change..., why not?? Bila aku ty dia, adakah dia nak join breakfast club lagi utk hari2 yg lain..dia jawab YES..so, aku just bagitau dia yg it is important for him to sleep and get up early in the next morning...Pendapat aku, utk mendisplinkan anak..kita sendiri as a parent pon kene sama displin dan kene bagi a lot of encouragement pada anak2..di samping tu, kene selalu bagi kata2 perangsang dan ingatan to our kids, why is it important for us to do this and that...not simply just saying...ohhh you kids have to this and this without giving them any specific reason...
Pagi tadi, lepas breakfast kat rumah..aku sempat pergi awal sedikit utk join skool breakfast club..mula2 tu dia mcm refuse juga...tapi, lama2 kelamaan baru dia nak settle dan nak minta makan itu dan ini..Komen dia...
'I like the butter in here. Why our butter is not that delicious as it is at school?'
Aku just pause..Whateverla, my boy as long as it makes you happy, mommy will be happy for you too. For this semester, aku no longer make his lunch pack..Instead, he will have his school dinner at shool. Have to pay some pounds of course..but then, if this is what I can do to make him change..., why not?? Bila aku ty dia, adakah dia nak join breakfast club lagi utk hari2 yg lain..dia jawab YES..so, aku just bagitau dia yg it is important for him to sleep and get up early in the next morning...Pendapat aku, utk mendisplinkan anak..kita sendiri as a parent pon kene sama displin dan kene bagi a lot of encouragement pada anak2..di samping tu, kene selalu bagi kata2 perangsang dan ingatan to our kids, why is it important for us to do this and that...not simply just saying...ohhh you kids have to this and this without giving them any specific reason...
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Cooking craving
Sejak dua menjak ni aku mcm kemaruk mencuba pelbagai resepi. Mungkin juga sbb aku skrg sdg berbadan dua...atau aku gembira tgk org puas hati dapat merasa air tangan aku.
Hari ini, aku masak lemon roasted chicken, chicken chop with bbq and black pepper sauce plus mashed potato..letih betul badan ni dibuatnya. Dahla malam tadinya berjaga dok packing barang2. Ini semua gara2 my darling aku yg tiba2 buat plan nak balik Mesia secara mendadak..Satu barang cookware pon aku tak beli waktu summer sale lepas sbb ingatkan akan still stay di sini till end of next year...tapi, tup2, ntah macamana hati my darling berubah tanpa dapat dikompromi lagi. Aku skdr pasrah. Sekiranya, ini adalah jalan terbaik yg Tuhan rasa utk aku dan my darling lalui, aku akan belajar utk menerimanya dgn tabah dan redha.
Actually, aku tumpang gembira my darling dapat diterima masuk kerja baru di tanahair...tapi, dlm masa yg sama hati aku bergundah gulana...sbb mungkin terpaksa berjauhan dgn my darling dan anak2 utk barang seketika, nak2 plak aku kini sdg berbadan dua. Terasa sprt bagai satu beban di kepala...walaupon, aku dah cube utk memujuk utk my darling utk still stay di sini until end of november sbg alasan kami tidak balik ke tanahair dgn suasana terkocoh2 mcm skrg...tak habis rehat, tak habis berjalan dan sekurangnya2, kalu my darling dan anak2 balik mesia hingga nov, pendekla juga masanya utk diri ini terasa terseksa berjauhan dgn mereka...tambah2 skrg, dlm keadaan aku yg fragile..kehadiran suami dan permata hati di sisi merupakan antara pembina kekuatan dlm diri..Ntahla, kata Wahi, dalam saat skrg..hanya diri aku yg dapat membantu diri aku sendiri..
Hari ini, aku masak lemon roasted chicken, chicken chop with bbq and black pepper sauce plus mashed potato..letih betul badan ni dibuatnya. Dahla malam tadinya berjaga dok packing barang2. Ini semua gara2 my darling aku yg tiba2 buat plan nak balik Mesia secara mendadak..Satu barang cookware pon aku tak beli waktu summer sale lepas sbb ingatkan akan still stay di sini till end of next year...tapi, tup2, ntah macamana hati my darling berubah tanpa dapat dikompromi lagi. Aku skdr pasrah. Sekiranya, ini adalah jalan terbaik yg Tuhan rasa utk aku dan my darling lalui, aku akan belajar utk menerimanya dgn tabah dan redha.
Actually, aku tumpang gembira my darling dapat diterima masuk kerja baru di tanahair...tapi, dlm masa yg sama hati aku bergundah gulana...sbb mungkin terpaksa berjauhan dgn my darling dan anak2 utk barang seketika, nak2 plak aku kini sdg berbadan dua. Terasa sprt bagai satu beban di kepala...walaupon, aku dah cube utk memujuk utk my darling utk still stay di sini until end of november sbg alasan kami tidak balik ke tanahair dgn suasana terkocoh2 mcm skrg...tak habis rehat, tak habis berjalan dan sekurangnya2, kalu my darling dan anak2 balik mesia hingga nov, pendekla juga masanya utk diri ini terasa terseksa berjauhan dgn mereka...tambah2 skrg, dlm keadaan aku yg fragile..kehadiran suami dan permata hati di sisi merupakan antara pembina kekuatan dlm diri..Ntahla, kata Wahi, dalam saat skrg..hanya diri aku yg dapat membantu diri aku sendiri..
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Gua tensen...
Sejak dua menjak ni...aku masak asik tak menjadik...agak2 adakah oven aku tu yg sebenarnya nak kondem...atau aku ni yg masak tak betul? Kali kedua aku try buat cotton cheese cake..alhamdulillah menjadi..cume dia sedikit lembap..so, hari ini aku repeat the process semula sbb aku nak bakekan dia sedikit kering....aku gantikan susu kepada sour cream dan aku tak buat water bathe...dan hasilnya....kek aku merekah dan habis lembap..arghhhh sungguh kutensen! Mcm dah give up plak aku nak buat kek..aku rasa, maybe oven di rumah aku tu dah tak sesuai utk masak kek lagi kot..atau pon, sms aku buat adunan cheese cake tersebut, aku tertuang lebih sedikit sour cream around maybe 10-20ml....could bela...so, lepas ni..mebe dah tak de sebab aku nak memasak kek sbb oven aku tu nampaknya dah mulai mengong...bukan stkt oven, microwave kat rumah tu pon dah mula berbunyi2..cume menunggu hari gamaknya tu nak kene hukuman tembak...apa2pon, microwave tu sungguh2 berjasa biarpon aku beli 2nd hand...Kalu ikutkan, brg2 dulu jauh lebih bagus dr barang2 skrg..tadi, aku survey2 nak beli kenwood chef dan kenwood blender nampak sgt kualitinya dah menurun...sblm2 ni, my darling beli vacuum dyson...mmg dah tak sama kualitinya mcm tahun2 yg sblmnya...so, lightweight...takut2 je kalu terlebih lasak...mahu mudah je vacuum tu nak rosak..
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Kebaya
Entry kali ni aku cerita pasal kebaya...
Pelbagai jenis kebaya aku jenguk2 di internet. Kebanyakannya menawan kalbu...Entah apa agaknya akan jadi pada aku...kalu aku diberi peluang bershopping di kebaya di Indonesia..mahu semua kebaya2 yg aku berkenan dlm sesebuah kedai kat sana aku nak borong sume bawak balik mesia...Sedangkan, skdr browsing di internet pon, aku dah mcm cair smcm...Cume satu ajela persoalannya, kalu aku beli kebaya dgn keadaan aku yg pregnant skrg...bule muat lagike kebaya tu nanti?? Biasanya dlm keadaan aku tak naik badan...kira berat maximum aku 56-57kgs kebaya siap size M tu aku masih boleh nak sarung lagi..itupon, pakaian dlmnya aku kene pakai top dan bottom girdle beautiful...kalu aku pakai jenis baju dlm yg tebal2, mmg alamat tak masukla gamaknya...
Syukur juga, baju kebaya Indon yg aku dok plan2 nak pakai sempena raya tahun ni...aku sempat pakai utk photoshoot student2 di sini utk dihantar di paper...sbb kalu ikutkan by the time habis puasa, kandungan aku dah berusia 4 bulan....tak tahula bule muat lagi atau tidak baju kebaya aku tuh...Yg ni pon, aku tgh berkira2 sama ada nak order baju size M atau L dr web yg aku jumpa online...Actually size M dan L ni takdela byk sgt bezanya...cume, pada aku utk size aku ni...mmg elok2 je kalu pakai size M...sbb kalu pakai size L bahunya akan jatuh...Aku harap2 sgtla aku takkan membesar mcm tong drum lepas selamat melahirkan anak ke-3 nanti..Kalu tidak...alamatla baju aku tu jadi terperuk dan tersimpan dlm almari....
Pelbagai jenis kebaya aku jenguk2 di internet. Kebanyakannya menawan kalbu...Entah apa agaknya akan jadi pada aku...kalu aku diberi peluang bershopping di kebaya di Indonesia..mahu semua kebaya2 yg aku berkenan dlm sesebuah kedai kat sana aku nak borong sume bawak balik mesia...Sedangkan, skdr browsing di internet pon, aku dah mcm cair smcm...Cume satu ajela persoalannya, kalu aku beli kebaya dgn keadaan aku yg pregnant skrg...bule muat lagike kebaya tu nanti?? Biasanya dlm keadaan aku tak naik badan...kira berat maximum aku 56-57kgs kebaya siap size M tu aku masih boleh nak sarung lagi..itupon, pakaian dlmnya aku kene pakai top dan bottom girdle beautiful...kalu aku pakai jenis baju dlm yg tebal2, mmg alamat tak masukla gamaknya...
Syukur juga, baju kebaya Indon yg aku dok plan2 nak pakai sempena raya tahun ni...aku sempat pakai utk photoshoot student2 di sini utk dihantar di paper...sbb kalu ikutkan by the time habis puasa, kandungan aku dah berusia 4 bulan....tak tahula bule muat lagi atau tidak baju kebaya aku tuh...Yg ni pon, aku tgh berkira2 sama ada nak order baju size M atau L dr web yg aku jumpa online...Actually size M dan L ni takdela byk sgt bezanya...cume, pada aku utk size aku ni...mmg elok2 je kalu pakai size M...sbb kalu pakai size L bahunya akan jatuh...Aku harap2 sgtla aku takkan membesar mcm tong drum lepas selamat melahirkan anak ke-3 nanti..Kalu tidak...alamatla baju aku tu jadi terperuk dan tersimpan dlm almari....
Friday, August 22, 2008
Soalan Cepu Emas
Bebaru ni..out of my son curiosity I was asked by him soalan2 sprt di bawah:-
Q: What God looks like? Why I cant see him but God can see me?
A: Do you feel hot? Can you feel hot? So, the feeling of having God is like that you believe the existence but you cant see or feel it.
Q: Why God can see everything?
A: Because God is almighty and so powerful. Thus, no one could ever beat Him.
Q: Why must we stand, ruku' and sujud when we pray?
A: Because that is the rules. Like for example you eat with hands. Do you eat with feet?
Sekian....
p/s: Tx wahidah for helping me to answer my son's Qs in greater detail with more logic explaination..
Q: What God looks like? Why I cant see him but God can see me?
A: Do you feel hot? Can you feel hot? So, the feeling of having God is like that you believe the existence but you cant see or feel it.
Q: Why God can see everything?
A: Because God is almighty and so powerful. Thus, no one could ever beat Him.
Q: Why must we stand, ruku' and sujud when we pray?
A: Because that is the rules. Like for example you eat with hands. Do you eat with feet?
Sekian....
p/s: Tx wahidah for helping me to answer my son's Qs in greater detail with more logic explaination..
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Shopping spree...
Smlm sambil hantar boboi utk hearing test, aku sempat juga membeli belah utk diri sendiri dan anak2. Kebetulan Monsoon dan M&S tgh sale. So, dapatla aku membeli sbrg dua utk diri aku sendiri dan anak2. Balik rumah, setiap seorang my kids dapat their own chosen toy. Boboi dapat cashier machine and gegirl pulak dapat nursery rhyme book. Nampak my kids enjoy very much with their new presents. Aku ada beli juga common words and exercise math book for boboi. Kali ni aku beli stage 3-5 years old. Takpela, we go to basic first then baru bule allevated ke yg lebih complicated. Aku just hope boboi could do better reading when he is in his Year 1.
Yesterday, I was testing him with some new words..alhamdulillah he could pronounce it..Aku mmg dah byk kali stress to boboi supaya to spell out the words if he couldnt read it. So far, cara itu aku kira agak berkesan. Cuma one thing yg boboi still lack till now, I havent had much time to teach him mengaji. By right, at his age, he can start his muqqadam. Tapi, biasalah...it is not an easy job for mom to teach their own kids for sometimes. Byk masa...boboi kkdg main2 dgn aku...sbb yelah, dia tau, I am his mom...mmg menuntut kesabaran..dan adakalanya mmg buat temperature aku rise manjang...aku rasa, kalu org lain ngk aku mengajar anak aku dgn cara mcm tu, mesti dorang geleng kepala...sebenarnya, bukan aku sorang je yg mcm tu...my cousin back home pon she admits the same thing, cant control her temper when teaching her only daughter.
Yesterday, I was testing him with some new words..alhamdulillah he could pronounce it..Aku mmg dah byk kali stress to boboi supaya to spell out the words if he couldnt read it. So far, cara itu aku kira agak berkesan. Cuma one thing yg boboi still lack till now, I havent had much time to teach him mengaji. By right, at his age, he can start his muqqadam. Tapi, biasalah...it is not an easy job for mom to teach their own kids for sometimes. Byk masa...boboi kkdg main2 dgn aku...sbb yelah, dia tau, I am his mom...mmg menuntut kesabaran..dan adakalanya mmg buat temperature aku rise manjang...aku rasa, kalu org lain ngk aku mengajar anak aku dgn cara mcm tu, mesti dorang geleng kepala...sebenarnya, bukan aku sorang je yg mcm tu...my cousin back home pon she admits the same thing, cant control her temper when teaching her only daughter.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Dah baik sket..
Hari ni dah masuk hari-7 dr hari pertama aku sakit. Alhamdulillah mata aku dah makin ok dan badan pon sudah beransur pulih. Dah mula boleh buat kerja rumah sedikit2. Dah mula boleh cuci pinggan dan hari ini aku dah memulakan projek 'membaking' kek chiffon cheese. Tak tahula bagaimana dgn rupa bentuknya nanti. Very simple process and hope the outcome is fantastic too.
Boboi sprt biasa jadi org kanan aku memukul adunan putih telur sampai naik bertanduk. Sambil2 tu gegirl pon mengacau nak sama2 pegang mixer. Kecoh jugakla sebentar dapur tu. Kkdg bila anak2 dah membesar aku terasa bagaikan satu kelegaan yg tak terkata. Kalu sebelum2 ni, aku pening kepala bila anak2 ada di rumah dan tak dapat nak concentrate kerja. Skrg nampaknya, bila anak2 dah mulai independent, mereka serba sedikit kurang nak mengacau dan aku sudah boleh nak buat kerja aku sendiri bergantung kepada mood mereka.
Tadi pon si boboi buat lawak...
'Honey, I'm home' katanya..
Tersengih2 aku dgr boboi cakap mcm itu. Agaknya dia sedang berimaginasi main ibu dan ayah kot dgn si gegirl. Si gegirl pon aku tgk dah makin membesar. Nampak lagi berisi berbanding si abg. Keletah dgn bahasanya yg tersendiri. Suka menyanyi tapi orgnya kuat merajuk.
Boboi sprt biasa jadi org kanan aku memukul adunan putih telur sampai naik bertanduk. Sambil2 tu gegirl pon mengacau nak sama2 pegang mixer. Kecoh jugakla sebentar dapur tu. Kkdg bila anak2 dah membesar aku terasa bagaikan satu kelegaan yg tak terkata. Kalu sebelum2 ni, aku pening kepala bila anak2 ada di rumah dan tak dapat nak concentrate kerja. Skrg nampaknya, bila anak2 dah mulai independent, mereka serba sedikit kurang nak mengacau dan aku sudah boleh nak buat kerja aku sendiri bergantung kepada mood mereka.
Tadi pon si boboi buat lawak...
'Honey, I'm home' katanya..
Tersengih2 aku dgr boboi cakap mcm itu. Agaknya dia sedang berimaginasi main ibu dan ayah kot dgn si gegirl. Si gegirl pon aku tgk dah makin membesar. Nampak lagi berisi berbanding si abg. Keletah dgn bahasanya yg tersendiri. Suka menyanyi tapi orgnya kuat merajuk.
Kek chiffon cheese
Bahan A
60g susu segar
40g cream cheese (brand Philadelphia)
25g butter
Bahan B
65g cake flour (ayak)
Bahan C
4 biji kuning telur (besar)
Bahan D
4 biji putih telur (besar)
100g gula caster
1/8 sudu teh cream of tartar
secubit garam
Cara-caranya
1. Panaskan oven pada suhu 170-180 degrees.
2. Masak bahan A menggunakan kaedah double-boil sampai bahan2 cair dan sebati. Kalau cheese masih berbintil-bintil, tapis semua bahan. Sejukkan.
3. Campurkan bahan C pada adunan A yang telah sejuk. Gaul hingga sebati.
4. Campurkan bahan B dan gaul hingga sebati dan licin.
5. Pukul putih telur, cream of tartar dan garam hingga kembang sedikit. Sambil mesen mixer masih bergerak, masukkan gula caster sedikit-sedikit hingga habis. Pukul terus hingga putih telur menjadi kaku. ( Saya gunakan kenwood mixer dengan kelajuan 5 selama 1 minit 20 saat).
6.’Fold-in’ 1/3 putih telur kedalam adunan cheese. Setelah digaul hampir rata, tambah lagi 1/3 putih telur dan fold-in lagi hingga hampir rata. Akhir sekali, tuangkan adunan ini kedalam lebihan putih telur tadi. Fold-in sampai rata.
7. Tuang adunan ke dalam loyang chiffon berukuran 9 inci. JANGAN sapu butter dalam loyang.
8. Bakar dalam ketuhar selama 45-55 minit.
9. Bila kek dah masak ( atas kek akan kelihatan lebih coklat sikit dari kuning keemasan dan puncak kek dah turun ke paras yang hampir rata. Keluarkan loyang dan terus terbalikkan loyang dengan keknya sekali. Biarkan sehingga betul-betul sejuk. Kalau nak cepat, taruk depan kipas.
10. Hidang.
Tips penting : Saya rasa.. jadi atau tidak chiffon kek ini jatuh banyak pada cara putih telur dipukul. Putih telur tak boleh terlalu kaku. Cukup sampai..bila pemukulnya diangkat, ada segumpal kecil putih telur yang melekat pada hujung pemukul telur dan telur dalam mangkuk masih kelihatan licin, kilat dan bila digoyang, tak bergerak.
60g susu segar
40g cream cheese (brand Philadelphia)
25g butter
Bahan B
65g cake flour (ayak)
Bahan C
4 biji kuning telur (besar)
Bahan D
4 biji putih telur (besar)
100g gula caster
1/8 sudu teh cream of tartar
secubit garam
Cara-caranya
1. Panaskan oven pada suhu 170-180 degrees.
2. Masak bahan A menggunakan kaedah double-boil sampai bahan2 cair dan sebati. Kalau cheese masih berbintil-bintil, tapis semua bahan. Sejukkan.
3. Campurkan bahan C pada adunan A yang telah sejuk. Gaul hingga sebati.
4. Campurkan bahan B dan gaul hingga sebati dan licin.
5. Pukul putih telur, cream of tartar dan garam hingga kembang sedikit. Sambil mesen mixer masih bergerak, masukkan gula caster sedikit-sedikit hingga habis. Pukul terus hingga putih telur menjadi kaku. ( Saya gunakan kenwood mixer dengan kelajuan 5 selama 1 minit 20 saat).
6.’Fold-in’ 1/3 putih telur kedalam adunan cheese. Setelah digaul hampir rata, tambah lagi 1/3 putih telur dan fold-in lagi hingga hampir rata. Akhir sekali, tuangkan adunan ini kedalam lebihan putih telur tadi. Fold-in sampai rata.
7. Tuang adunan ke dalam loyang chiffon berukuran 9 inci. JANGAN sapu butter dalam loyang.
8. Bakar dalam ketuhar selama 45-55 minit.
9. Bila kek dah masak ( atas kek akan kelihatan lebih coklat sikit dari kuning keemasan dan puncak kek dah turun ke paras yang hampir rata. Keluarkan loyang dan terus terbalikkan loyang dengan keknya sekali. Biarkan sehingga betul-betul sejuk. Kalau nak cepat, taruk depan kipas.
10. Hidang.
Tips penting : Saya rasa.. jadi atau tidak chiffon kek ini jatuh banyak pada cara putih telur dipukul. Putih telur tak boleh terlalu kaku. Cukup sampai..bila pemukulnya diangkat, ada segumpal kecil putih telur yang melekat pada hujung pemukul telur dan telur dalam mangkuk masih kelihatan licin, kilat dan bila digoyang, tak bergerak.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Bangun tidoooo
Bangun dr tidur, tekak pulak terasa sakit dan pedih. Terus ke bilik air buat apa2 yg patut. Berus gigi, siap dgn lidah sekali...Terus muntah2..Biasala, aku mmg mudah sgt rasa mual kalu berus lidah...mulala segala brg nak dikeluarkan dr anak tekak aku.
My honey tetap meneruskan tugas sbg suami mitahli..almaklumla isteri sakit...aku mmg tak larat..asik terbaring dan berselimut...kalu ikutkan suhu aku dah tak naik lagi..tapi entah kenapa rasa seram sejuk tu masih lagi menyelubungi tubuh badan aku..sengal2 tu jangan katala..sakit kat leher, pinggang dan rusuk...
So, utk breakfast cum lunch aku just makan bubur nasi bersama ikan bilis goreng yg ditumis dgn kicap dan bawang merah. Kiranya dah 2 hari aku mcm tu...tak lalu aku nak makan solid food. Pagi ni bila timbang berat..dah pon susut ke 54kgs...perut pon dah makin kempis...
Kkdg ade jugak my honey bersungut...mulutnya tak sudah2 sebut nak balik Malaysia...kkdg kesian jugak dgn my honey..nak keje lagi, nak jaga bini sakit, nak buat keje rumah dan nak masak lagi...Tapi, tula apa bezanya, kalu org tu seorang isteri yg bekerja? sama jugakkan, nak tak nak kene jugak buat tugas2 mereka.....
Andai kata aku berpantang kat bumi UK ni lagi...aku pon tak kisah nak telan bubur dan ikan bilis plus lobak or brokoli hari2..nak cakap camne..nak perfect, kenala balik mesia...Skrg ni pon, my honey tgh tunggu offer keje kat mesia..tak tahula dapat atau pon tidak...
My honey tetap meneruskan tugas sbg suami mitahli..almaklumla isteri sakit...aku mmg tak larat..asik terbaring dan berselimut...kalu ikutkan suhu aku dah tak naik lagi..tapi entah kenapa rasa seram sejuk tu masih lagi menyelubungi tubuh badan aku..sengal2 tu jangan katala..sakit kat leher, pinggang dan rusuk...
So, utk breakfast cum lunch aku just makan bubur nasi bersama ikan bilis goreng yg ditumis dgn kicap dan bawang merah. Kiranya dah 2 hari aku mcm tu...tak lalu aku nak makan solid food. Pagi ni bila timbang berat..dah pon susut ke 54kgs...perut pon dah makin kempis...
Kkdg ade jugak my honey bersungut...mulutnya tak sudah2 sebut nak balik Malaysia...kkdg kesian jugak dgn my honey..nak keje lagi, nak jaga bini sakit, nak buat keje rumah dan nak masak lagi...Tapi, tula apa bezanya, kalu org tu seorang isteri yg bekerja? sama jugakkan, nak tak nak kene jugak buat tugas2 mereka.....
Andai kata aku berpantang kat bumi UK ni lagi...aku pon tak kisah nak telan bubur dan ikan bilis plus lobak or brokoli hari2..nak cakap camne..nak perfect, kenala balik mesia...Skrg ni pon, my honey tgh tunggu offer keje kat mesia..tak tahula dapat atau pon tidak...
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Aku demam
Kalu sblm2 ni, anak2 yg demam..kali ni giliran si ibu pulak yg demam..sekejap sejuk..sekejap berpeluh sakan...sampai muka aku naik merah...pd masa yg sama, mata bengkak aku tak surut lagi...
Bila mommy sakit, daddyla yg kene amik alih kerja2 rumah...dia yg jaga anak2, dia yg memasak dan dia yg kemas rumah...walaupon, tak perfect, tapi OKla..at least adela daddy puts some efforts..
Boboi pon makin matured...bulela juga disuruh2..gegirl plak makin melasak..mentang2la nak dapat adik...bukan main aktif anak dara aku yg sorang ni..lepas tu plak, kuat merajuk..kerap sgt bangun malam, mengamuk tak tentu fasal..kkdg sampai naik pening kepala aku...ada jugak yg aku buat bolayan...mana taknya, dah mommy puas pujuk pon, masih tak bule nak settle..kkdg, daddy yg amik alih...mujur daddy memahami...faham2 sajela..mommy skrg tgh alah...sket2 pening...sket2tak bule bau itu dan tak bule bau ini...mcm2 ajela mommy ni...skrg ni elok plak tak de maid...mmg nak tak nak kene buat sendiri..walaupon, kepala berpusing2 tak bule bau dapur..terpaksa juga mommy kuatkan smgt memasak utk family...byk kali juga, mommy terbayang2, menu yg sedap2...tapi, bila dah masak...kbykannya, tak lalu sgt nak makan...dlm tak lalu2 pon...berat mommy tetap naik...lani dah jadi 55-56kgs..sng aje berat mommy nak naik tang2 peknen...tapi, nak susut..masya-allah punyala amik masa...
Skrg ni, mommy tgh smgt nak buat roti..puas mommy tenung dan browsing resepi roti...sampai rasa, perut pon mcm kenyang bila ngk gamba roti..tapi, nampaknya kene postpone dulu hajat mommy ni...sbb mommy kene tunggu betul2 sihat dahulu..baru bule buat projek roti dgn anak2 nanti...
Bila mommy sakit, daddyla yg kene amik alih kerja2 rumah...dia yg jaga anak2, dia yg memasak dan dia yg kemas rumah...walaupon, tak perfect, tapi OKla..at least adela daddy puts some efforts..
Boboi pon makin matured...bulela juga disuruh2..gegirl plak makin melasak..mentang2la nak dapat adik...bukan main aktif anak dara aku yg sorang ni..lepas tu plak, kuat merajuk..kerap sgt bangun malam, mengamuk tak tentu fasal..kkdg sampai naik pening kepala aku...ada jugak yg aku buat bolayan...mana taknya, dah mommy puas pujuk pon, masih tak bule nak settle..kkdg, daddy yg amik alih...mujur daddy memahami...faham2 sajela..mommy skrg tgh alah...sket2 pening...sket2tak bule bau itu dan tak bule bau ini...mcm2 ajela mommy ni...skrg ni elok plak tak de maid...mmg nak tak nak kene buat sendiri..walaupon, kepala berpusing2 tak bule bau dapur..terpaksa juga mommy kuatkan smgt memasak utk family...byk kali juga, mommy terbayang2, menu yg sedap2...tapi, bila dah masak...kbykannya, tak lalu sgt nak makan...dlm tak lalu2 pon...berat mommy tetap naik...lani dah jadi 55-56kgs..sng aje berat mommy nak naik tang2 peknen...tapi, nak susut..masya-allah punyala amik masa...
Skrg ni, mommy tgh smgt nak buat roti..puas mommy tenung dan browsing resepi roti...sampai rasa, perut pon mcm kenyang bila ngk gamba roti..tapi, nampaknya kene postpone dulu hajat mommy ni...sbb mommy kene tunggu betul2 sihat dahulu..baru bule buat projek roti dgn anak2 nanti...
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Mata bengak
Bangun drpd tidur..belek2 muka dicermin..aku lihat..mata kanan aku bengkak...ade selaput di sebelah dalam..ade jugak aku cuba keluarkan sbb ingatkan mcm ctc lense yg tertinggal kat dlm mata...tapi, rupa2nya bukan...mungkin jugakah ini terjadi sbb infeksi mata?
gegirl plak tak sihat..dlm satu malam..byk kali sungguh terbangun..tak terbilang dgn jari..haus agaknya...skrg ni...temperature dia dah turun..mungkin disebabkan byk minum air..bercup2...
malam tadi..anak2 sume tido awal..termasuk juga dgn aku..cume my honey je yg berjaga sampai ntah pukul berapa...bila aku tykan dia...apa yg dibuat di tingkat bawah tu...jawapan synonym dia...kejekan komputer...
gegirl plak tak sihat..dlm satu malam..byk kali sungguh terbangun..tak terbilang dgn jari..haus agaknya...skrg ni...temperature dia dah turun..mungkin disebabkan byk minum air..bercup2...
malam tadi..anak2 sume tido awal..termasuk juga dgn aku..cume my honey je yg berjaga sampai ntah pukul berapa...bila aku tykan dia...apa yg dibuat di tingkat bawah tu...jawapan synonym dia...kejekan komputer...
Thursday, July 17, 2008
The Carpenters - Top Of The World
Such a feelin’s comin’ over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won’t be surprised if it’s a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It’s because you are here
You’re the nearest thing to heaven that I’ve seen
(*) I’m on the top of the world lookin’ down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I’ve found ever since you’ve been around
Your love’s put me at the top of the world
Something in the wind has learned my name
And it’s tellin’ me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There’s a pleasin’ sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won’t be surprised if it’s a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It’s because you are here
You’re the nearest thing to heaven that I’ve seen
(*) I’m on the top of the world lookin’ down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I’ve found ever since you’ve been around
Your love’s put me at the top of the world
Something in the wind has learned my name
And it’s tellin’ me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There’s a pleasin’ sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
Please Mr Postman- The Carpenters (1975)
(Stop)
Oh yes, wait a minute Mister Postman
(Wait)
Wait Mister Postman
Please Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Oh yeah)
For me to hear from that boy of mine
There must be some word today
From my boyfriend so far away
Pleas Mister Postman, look and see
If there's a letter, a letter for me
I've been standin' here waitin' Mister Postman
So patiently
For just a card, or just a letter
Sayin' he's returnin' home to me
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Oh yeah)
For me to hear from that boy of mine
So many days you passed me by
See the tears standin' in my eyes
You didn't stop to make me feel better
By leavin' me a card or a letter
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Why don't you check it and see one more time for me, you gotta)
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(C'mon deliver the letter, the sooner the better)
Mister Postman
Oh yes, wait a minute Mister Postman
(Wait)
Wait Mister Postman
Please Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Oh yeah)
For me to hear from that boy of mine
There must be some word today
From my boyfriend so far away
Pleas Mister Postman, look and see
If there's a letter, a letter for me
I've been standin' here waitin' Mister Postman
So patiently
For just a card, or just a letter
Sayin' he's returnin' home to me
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Oh yeah)
For me to hear from that boy of mine
So many days you passed me by
See the tears standin' in my eyes
You didn't stop to make me feel better
By leavin' me a card or a letter
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(Oh yeah)
If there's a letter in your bag for me
(Please, Please Mister Postman)
Why's it takin' such a long time
(Why don't you check it and see one more time for me, you gotta)
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
Wait a minute
(Mister Postman)
Mister Postman, look and see
(C'mon deliver the letter, the sooner the better)
Mister Postman
The Beatles-Help!
Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me, help me, help me, oh.
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me, help me, help me, oh.
The Carpenters - The end of the world
Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
`cause you don't love me anymore?
Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.
I wake up in the morning and I wonder why ev'rything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand, how life goes on the way it does!
Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said good-bye.
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
`cause you don't love me anymore?
Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.
I wake up in the morning and I wonder why ev'rything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand, how life goes on the way it does!
Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said good-bye.
Friday, July 04, 2008
Masak mee kari
Smlm aku masak mee kari...jadinya, aku dah terbabas makan jugak waktu dinner...esok paginya aku bangun dan timbang aku masih tetap 56kgs...kkdg nasib2 jadik 57kgs...ces! sakit ati plak aku...degil betul lemak tu nak hilang..jgn lepas ni lagi naik mencanak2 sudahla..sbb skrg ni aku dah rasa mcm berat dan malas aje...paling bes aku rasa sms berat aku 51kgs..badan pon ringan...walaupon tu bukan ideal weight yg terbagus utk aku...tapi, dah kira pencapaian bagus stkt ini...
Smlm aku terlajak makan mee kari..biar pon semangkuk kecil...Pagi tadi aku skdr breakfast nestum milo, mkn tghari mee kari semangkuk sederhana dan telan 2 biji pau...sahle dgn pattern makan mcm ni..take time sket aku nak susut berat...
Dalam aku mengemas2 dapur..aku terpandangkan menu 3 days diet...Menu bule tahan ketat..tapi, bule jamin bule susut 3kgs dalam masa 3 hari..tapi...tahanke aku nak makan tuna aje? ade tu makan hard boiled egg ngan sekeping roti toast for b/fast...phewwwww...nasi mmg langsung takde...kalu nak makan ayam pon stkt berapa slice..yg lain mmg byk buah2an mcm brokoli and carrot...kalu kuat semangat bule jugak aku mencuba...tapi, rasenya kene tangguh next week sbb nak ngk result diet aku kali ni mcmana...so far, menten takde perubahan..kalu susut pon stkt 55.5-56kgs...Aim aku skrg nak bagi berat tu menten ke 55kgs...and then sedikit demi sedikit ke 53-54kgs...Kalu dapat around 53-54kgs pon dah ok dalam masa sebulan ni...Yg penting jeans aku tu sume aku bule pakai..kalu tak masak aku nak kene beli jeans baru..mmg haru!
Diet minggu ni..aku cube amik breakfast mcm cereal or quaker oat. Tghari aku makan berat sket...tak pon just amik roti 2 keping ngan scrambled egg 2 bijik...pehtu dinner makan light2 aje..air so far min 2L aku teguk..mmg kejenya masuk toilet aje buang air...saba ajela aku...Mungkin aku akan nampak effectnya clear sket dlm minggu depan...Minggu ni mungkin susah sket...Sit up pon aku try buat..dalam 20-40 sit up...Jalan kaki 20 mins 3 kali seminggu...sakit jugak perut ni dibuatnya..tapi, kalu dah terboroi nak cakap camnekan..kan..kan...terpaksala jugak...
Aku harap diet aku menjadi..somi aku dah ajak aku berpuasa..tapi, tatau bile nak buat..tak tahanla beb nak bukak posa sampai kul 9 malam..mau aku tak jadik melepek..dgn nak siapkan thesis lagi...
Smlm aku terlajak makan mee kari..biar pon semangkuk kecil...Pagi tadi aku skdr breakfast nestum milo, mkn tghari mee kari semangkuk sederhana dan telan 2 biji pau...sahle dgn pattern makan mcm ni..take time sket aku nak susut berat...
Dalam aku mengemas2 dapur..aku terpandangkan menu 3 days diet...Menu bule tahan ketat..tapi, bule jamin bule susut 3kgs dalam masa 3 hari..tapi...tahanke aku nak makan tuna aje? ade tu makan hard boiled egg ngan sekeping roti toast for b/fast...phewwwww...nasi mmg langsung takde...kalu nak makan ayam pon stkt berapa slice..yg lain mmg byk buah2an mcm brokoli and carrot...kalu kuat semangat bule jugak aku mencuba...tapi, rasenya kene tangguh next week sbb nak ngk result diet aku kali ni mcmana...so far, menten takde perubahan..kalu susut pon stkt 55.5-56kgs...Aim aku skrg nak bagi berat tu menten ke 55kgs...and then sedikit demi sedikit ke 53-54kgs...Kalu dapat around 53-54kgs pon dah ok dalam masa sebulan ni...Yg penting jeans aku tu sume aku bule pakai..kalu tak masak aku nak kene beli jeans baru..mmg haru!
Diet minggu ni..aku cube amik breakfast mcm cereal or quaker oat. Tghari aku makan berat sket...tak pon just amik roti 2 keping ngan scrambled egg 2 bijik...pehtu dinner makan light2 aje..air so far min 2L aku teguk..mmg kejenya masuk toilet aje buang air...saba ajela aku...Mungkin aku akan nampak effectnya clear sket dlm minggu depan...Minggu ni mungkin susah sket...Sit up pon aku try buat..dalam 20-40 sit up...Jalan kaki 20 mins 3 kali seminggu...sakit jugak perut ni dibuatnya..tapi, kalu dah terboroi nak cakap camnekan..kan..kan...terpaksala jugak...
Aku harap diet aku menjadi..somi aku dah ajak aku berpuasa..tapi, tatau bile nak buat..tak tahanla beb nak bukak posa sampai kul 9 malam..mau aku tak jadik melepek..dgn nak siapkan thesis lagi...
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Please help...my son refuses to go to school...
Is it only me should be put onto blame if my son doesnt want to come to school???
Almost everyday..Ms Harvey keeps reminding me..boboi has to go in bed as early as 7 p.m..which I feel very hard job to commit...7 p.m for this season is still bright...boboi sometimes playing with me...saying that..it still morning and he hasnt got any feelings to shut his eyes and sleep...my oh my...what a tough job for being a mom...
We need rule to make everything in pace...We had no choice but have to sacrifice our hapiness for a while until everything has gone back to normal...
Of course, I feel shame about myself...when now...not Ms Harvey the only person who is telling me... boboi has to go to bed early..but now Mrs Pagement&seymours have also come in the loop to tell me what I should be doing...Phewwwwww...Pity me....
I dont know what is the problem with Boboi..all I know this happening because he is more than happy to stay home rather than off to school...He can do whatever he wants at home...watching his DVD, playing games and even his toys...I dont think my son is stupid...because he does well in his reading and knows all the aplphabets and numbers...Can do some additions and substractions...If he was really damn crapped...he wouldnt even know every single words that I have just written by now..
I think, maybe this happens because God wants us to be more systematic and have a quality life...in addition, to make my honey realizes how important to put the children early in bed...Its not something I am creating to make our life difficult...but children have to be in system...eventhough, I agree I am actually not a systematic person if compared to my husband...But, when it comes in organizing your family life...maybe for sometime we have to come to an agreement to stick into the rule to make it happen...The most important thing, while waiting the children to settle...both of us have to work together to make sure it is working...Doesnt mean I want to take my husband for granted...but, it is because..the children do not want to settle ealry if they are with me in comparison to with their dad...So...if this is the case...then, my honey has to consider the situation just perhaps to sacrifice for period of 2 weeks to tune the kids...
Almost everyday..Ms Harvey keeps reminding me..boboi has to go in bed as early as 7 p.m..which I feel very hard job to commit...7 p.m for this season is still bright...boboi sometimes playing with me...saying that..it still morning and he hasnt got any feelings to shut his eyes and sleep...my oh my...what a tough job for being a mom...
We need rule to make everything in pace...We had no choice but have to sacrifice our hapiness for a while until everything has gone back to normal...
Of course, I feel shame about myself...when now...not Ms Harvey the only person who is telling me... boboi has to go to bed early..but now Mrs Pagement&seymours have also come in the loop to tell me what I should be doing...Phewwwwww...Pity me....
I dont know what is the problem with Boboi..all I know this happening because he is more than happy to stay home rather than off to school...He can do whatever he wants at home...watching his DVD, playing games and even his toys...I dont think my son is stupid...because he does well in his reading and knows all the aplphabets and numbers...Can do some additions and substractions...If he was really damn crapped...he wouldnt even know every single words that I have just written by now..
I think, maybe this happens because God wants us to be more systematic and have a quality life...in addition, to make my honey realizes how important to put the children early in bed...Its not something I am creating to make our life difficult...but children have to be in system...eventhough, I agree I am actually not a systematic person if compared to my husband...But, when it comes in organizing your family life...maybe for sometime we have to come to an agreement to stick into the rule to make it happen...The most important thing, while waiting the children to settle...both of us have to work together to make sure it is working...Doesnt mean I want to take my husband for granted...but, it is because..the children do not want to settle ealry if they are with me in comparison to with their dad...So...if this is the case...then, my honey has to consider the situation just perhaps to sacrifice for period of 2 weeks to tune the kids...
Am a total loser..
I am an idiot! coz failed to fulfill my evening mission for only taking fruits for dinner. I was a real loser coz couldnt help to overindulge myself and rein my passion towards foods...I am totally hopeless...All these while I was abusing myself by binging forbidden foods and now my weight has hell creeped to 57kgs..Only this morning, I managed to find my weight has gone down to 56kgs after my yesterday hard work to control my desire by taking just FRUITS for my dinner..What a tough job...Sometimes, I may sound childish, always thinking delicious food in my mind...but this is something that I shouldnt be blame alone...coz I was born to always enjoy foods at big portion...How I wish, I could turn back my clock in my teens when I was a skinny and perfectly curve lil girl..
I have never thought that I am really a plum girl until my lil brothers kept talking to me..how big my bum is...and even worse they thought I was about 60-65kgs by the fact I was just only 54-55kgs ...Of course, I feel so bad to hear their critism...but, at least...I know I should not always in my comfort zone thinking I am just OK..and shouldnt be bother about losing any fats for more...
I was maybe too excited cooking this evening...We had nasi goreng sea food, tom yam sea food, nasi putih and kailan ikan masin..its quite long time we havent had proper dinner...so, when the dishes are a bit variety...I was like...couldnt help myself from having them more and more...I was done well in the afternoon...but normally fail in the evening because its very tempting to see everbody is eating while you have to restrain yourself...It is a tough job though...I wish I could do well...
Doesnt mean am not blessed with my weight right now...but it seems all my jeans have turned tight...let my legs suffocate and restless all the times...So, why should buy more jeans at bigger size...since seems to me..it just encouraging yourself to put more weight rather than make yourself in control...Hope could do better for tomorrow....................................
I have never thought that I am really a plum girl until my lil brothers kept talking to me..how big my bum is...and even worse they thought I was about 60-65kgs by the fact I was just only 54-55kgs ...Of course, I feel so bad to hear their critism...but, at least...I know I should not always in my comfort zone thinking I am just OK..and shouldnt be bother about losing any fats for more...
I was maybe too excited cooking this evening...We had nasi goreng sea food, tom yam sea food, nasi putih and kailan ikan masin..its quite long time we havent had proper dinner...so, when the dishes are a bit variety...I was like...couldnt help myself from having them more and more...I was done well in the afternoon...but normally fail in the evening because its very tempting to see everbody is eating while you have to restrain yourself...It is a tough job though...I wish I could do well...
Doesnt mean am not blessed with my weight right now...but it seems all my jeans have turned tight...let my legs suffocate and restless all the times...So, why should buy more jeans at bigger size...since seems to me..it just encouraging yourself to put more weight rather than make yourself in control...Hope could do better for tomorrow....................................
Monday, June 30, 2008
Aku kene diet...
Dalam sibuk2 writting ni...tgk2 berat aku naik mencanak2...arghhhhh bosan..bosan...dr 54kgs aku naik jadik 56 to 57kgs...whats wrong with me? Last week mcm2 makanan aku makan...yg tak patut di makan..kat rumah ni pon ade makananan junk..kerepek pisang..yg sebelum2 ni aku makan sampai boyak perut aku dibuatnya...
List makanan last week...
-2 kali seminggu mc donald(itupon makan fries and 1/2 burger and air coke)
-dunkin donut(adela 3 ketul)
-coklat( beberapa ulas)
Nampaknya aku kene serius jaga makan..tapi, selagi kerepek tu ade kat rumah..selagi tu aku asik nak mengunyah...sama gak ngan coklat tu...so, mcmana ni?
SKrg ni pukul 1.15...aku dah succes minum about 1.5L air..so, i just need to drink another 1L lagi...sudahnya asik nak terkencing2...malam ni tataula menjadi atau tidak plan aku nak makan buah saje for dinner...itupon, kalu tak tergoda..sbb konon2nya dinner ni nak masak tom yam..atau nasi goreng...
List makanan last week...
-2 kali seminggu mc donald(itupon makan fries and 1/2 burger and air coke)
-dunkin donut(adela 3 ketul)
-coklat( beberapa ulas)
Nampaknya aku kene serius jaga makan..tapi, selagi kerepek tu ade kat rumah..selagi tu aku asik nak mengunyah...sama gak ngan coklat tu...so, mcmana ni?
SKrg ni pukul 1.15...aku dah succes minum about 1.5L air..so, i just need to drink another 1L lagi...sudahnya asik nak terkencing2...malam ni tataula menjadi atau tidak plan aku nak makan buah saje for dinner...itupon, kalu tak tergoda..sbb konon2nya dinner ni nak masak tom yam..atau nasi goreng...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Day 2 in nursery...
Today is gegirl day 2 in nursery..she seems settle very quickly...she cried only a few minutes and then happy with her surrounding. Yesterday, she was sitting on the floor crossing her legs and clapping her hands happily at home which I presume she may gets it from nursery. I am not that worry with gegirl because she is good in making friends. Nor to leave her to someone else to babysit her eventhough for the first time. She is not that fussy..easy eater and not that choosy too. She eats almost everything..vegetables, fruits and pasta..In fact, I noticed the other day, her tummy was a bit bulging maybe too full with nutritious foods. I passed by gegirl room today and the food smell...really makes my tummy rumbly...Thats why I am not that suprise if gegirl has sudden jump of her appetite...
As for boboi..I more than happy for his progress. He is doing very well and I can see he is making an effort as well to sleep independently. He got 2 stickers so far..so, he has to work more to get another 3...for him to get his present. Since, I am the one whose sending the children to school, we have to leave the house much earlier than before. I usually wake up around 7 or 7.30 a.m. Have a shower and then putting the children clothes including have had their breakfast first before leaving home. I can see boboi is happy to be among the earliest children arrive at school..Lets hope...everything goes smooth sailing. I should thank to my honey as well, for his co-operation to accompany the children to sleep. Its really helps us a lot since the children wont settle that quick if they were with mommy..
As for boboi..I more than happy for his progress. He is doing very well and I can see he is making an effort as well to sleep independently. He got 2 stickers so far..so, he has to work more to get another 3...for him to get his present. Since, I am the one whose sending the children to school, we have to leave the house much earlier than before. I usually wake up around 7 or 7.30 a.m. Have a shower and then putting the children clothes including have had their breakfast first before leaving home. I can see boboi is happy to be among the earliest children arrive at school..Lets hope...everything goes smooth sailing. I should thank to my honey as well, for his co-operation to accompany the children to sleep. Its really helps us a lot since the children wont settle that quick if they were with mommy..
Monday, June 16, 2008
Nenek Pauline-gegirl day one
Today is gegirl first day staying with nenek Pauline. Pauline is our neighbour. Lonely single mom who is now already in her 60's. Just recently lost her lil bro. I guess, she may be still in her mourning phase. I could remember in our visit at her home, she mentioned to us how awful her feeling was..seeing someone who is younger than her passed away in sadis way..her lil bro commited suicide maybe after feeling so depressed about himself...thinking that he was the burden to the family since Pauline did mention to us, his lil bro was not working but depending to his wife to earn the money since he was unfit. How I can see people with no religion solving their problem in different way than us..
Perhaps, after what just had happened in pauline's family, she decided to join charity and infact, she wasnt asking for more to baby sit gegirl. When we had a chat about 2-3 weeks ago, I begun to learn it is not always money to buy hapiness..I was totally honest to tell her how desperate I was to fine someone to look after gegirl and I was so relief by the fact, she is happy to offer her hands with reasonable price. So, we had to agree for me to pay just for 10pds per day...which I think it really help us a lot..
Back to gegirl first day at Pauline's house..she just cried for a few minutes and then fell asleep. pauline told me..gegirl was sleeping for long hours..only woke up at 1 p.m. I decided to let my eyes blindfold for this..eventhough I dont really like the idea my kids to sleep too long in our baby sister's house. It happens so many time..gegirl seems comfortable to sleep more if she is with someone else rather than us...Just cant complaint more..at least, I've got someone to take care gegirl while I am busy with my work...Gegirl apparently enjoy her day with Pauline. The very first day we visited Pauline to re-discuss, my kids looked comfortable at her home. I was bit worried during that time, thinking if my kids going to mess her tidy hall. She had fresh flowers in her room..which made the guest so welcoming...I like to see as well, her house was clean..at least, I no need to worry too much about our baby sitter hygenity...
Pauline brought gegirl to feed the ducks in the University. Yes, I bet she enjoyed it very much because she likes to be free running everywhere. Before, I was leaving the house to pick up gegirl. We had simple chat and she introduced me to her pal named Pete. Pete is pauline's good friend. They've been knowing each other quite sometimes. We sharing some tips to cultivate strawbery's trees. It was nice to get to know with Pete. Eventhough sometimes, I found difficulty to understand his talking maybe due to his accent or vocubalry. I was recently crapped in speaking English since most of my time just sitting alone in the house and rarely speaking except with my kids. The children also enjoyed eating ice cream..they both competing each other to win to finish the ice cream. Boboi was cheating many times, splatting the ice cream in Pauline's floor and without shy..Boboi open Pauline's fridge..maybe eyeing if he could get something more..Seems to me, everything went well for both party. In fact, Pauline was asking to pick up the Boboi one day from school to bring them to the park...For me it is fine..so does my honey..as long as Pauline is honest to us..I guess I shouldnt be too worry..
Other story for this day. We went to see Dr Hennel for gegirl's arms. Her eczema was getting worse. I shall note we had an appoinment book at 3.40 on 30th of June. Hopefully by that time, gegirl has already recovered...so, no need for us to come to the surgery again and again..
Perhaps, after what just had happened in pauline's family, she decided to join charity and infact, she wasnt asking for more to baby sit gegirl. When we had a chat about 2-3 weeks ago, I begun to learn it is not always money to buy hapiness..I was totally honest to tell her how desperate I was to fine someone to look after gegirl and I was so relief by the fact, she is happy to offer her hands with reasonable price. So, we had to agree for me to pay just for 10pds per day...which I think it really help us a lot..
Back to gegirl first day at Pauline's house..she just cried for a few minutes and then fell asleep. pauline told me..gegirl was sleeping for long hours..only woke up at 1 p.m. I decided to let my eyes blindfold for this..eventhough I dont really like the idea my kids to sleep too long in our baby sister's house. It happens so many time..gegirl seems comfortable to sleep more if she is with someone else rather than us...Just cant complaint more..at least, I've got someone to take care gegirl while I am busy with my work...Gegirl apparently enjoy her day with Pauline. The very first day we visited Pauline to re-discuss, my kids looked comfortable at her home. I was bit worried during that time, thinking if my kids going to mess her tidy hall. She had fresh flowers in her room..which made the guest so welcoming...I like to see as well, her house was clean..at least, I no need to worry too much about our baby sitter hygenity...
Pauline brought gegirl to feed the ducks in the University. Yes, I bet she enjoyed it very much because she likes to be free running everywhere. Before, I was leaving the house to pick up gegirl. We had simple chat and she introduced me to her pal named Pete. Pete is pauline's good friend. They've been knowing each other quite sometimes. We sharing some tips to cultivate strawbery's trees. It was nice to get to know with Pete. Eventhough sometimes, I found difficulty to understand his talking maybe due to his accent or vocubalry. I was recently crapped in speaking English since most of my time just sitting alone in the house and rarely speaking except with my kids. The children also enjoyed eating ice cream..they both competing each other to win to finish the ice cream. Boboi was cheating many times, splatting the ice cream in Pauline's floor and without shy..Boboi open Pauline's fridge..maybe eyeing if he could get something more..Seems to me, everything went well for both party. In fact, Pauline was asking to pick up the Boboi one day from school to bring them to the park...For me it is fine..so does my honey..as long as Pauline is honest to us..I guess I shouldnt be too worry..
Other story for this day. We went to see Dr Hennel for gegirl's arms. Her eczema was getting worse. I shall note we had an appoinment book at 3.40 on 30th of June. Hopefully by that time, gegirl has already recovered...so, no need for us to come to the surgery again and again..
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Mrs Bookman..
Last Friday, we went to see Mrs Bookman to discuss fr heart to heart our recent concerns on Boboi..After 1 week school break, boboi was reluctantly going to school. Often, we had a fight in the early morning and boboi kept breaking his promises fr day by day until mommy getting sooo upset. Mommy could just tought 3 possible reasons attribute to this..
1) He is so engrossed at home. Happy to wake up late. He can do whatever he can do. He can wath his dvd or playing games as much as he could provided mom or dad gives him permission
2) He is not that happy at school. He told me quite many times how bored he was in the class. It was tiring. The hours are longer. Sometimes he has to go to the field while he chose just to be in the reading section to chill off and reading books. The teacher sometimes just doesnt bother what he is trying to say. Could be because he may not speak what he wanted to say clearly or perhaps his voice is too slow for someone to catch his words.
3) He is tired. Not getting enough sleep because usually he is sleeping late waiting for his mommy whose still stay up late night to finish her work
SOLUTION:
So, mommy decided heading to Mrs Bookman after told by Mrs Paigement that the school has a family councelor for parents to be able to discuss fr heart to heart their kids's problems. We had about 15 mins talk. My honey also was there so that he could understand how much mommy wanted to sort this thing out. Because what had happened so far, does put mommy to pressure and make mommy's day upside down and feeling unhappy about herself.
We came out with initial strategy to organize more our family time table. Trying to arrange our dinner as early as 6.30 and the kids must have gone in bed early maybe at 8.30. We were given award sticker by Mrs Bookman to encourage boboi stays in track while we in direction to make everything in pace. It is not that easy to make boboi to sleep at his own without my honey's helps for sure. So, we have to work together to make these works. So, another 3 weeks, Mrs Bookman will come to our house for visit to see is there any improvement we made to that extent.
We just hope, our efforts are well worth..boboi will have much fun looking fwd everyday to come to school....
1) He is so engrossed at home. Happy to wake up late. He can do whatever he can do. He can wath his dvd or playing games as much as he could provided mom or dad gives him permission
2) He is not that happy at school. He told me quite many times how bored he was in the class. It was tiring. The hours are longer. Sometimes he has to go to the field while he chose just to be in the reading section to chill off and reading books. The teacher sometimes just doesnt bother what he is trying to say. Could be because he may not speak what he wanted to say clearly or perhaps his voice is too slow for someone to catch his words.
3) He is tired. Not getting enough sleep because usually he is sleeping late waiting for his mommy whose still stay up late night to finish her work
SOLUTION:
So, mommy decided heading to Mrs Bookman after told by Mrs Paigement that the school has a family councelor for parents to be able to discuss fr heart to heart their kids's problems. We had about 15 mins talk. My honey also was there so that he could understand how much mommy wanted to sort this thing out. Because what had happened so far, does put mommy to pressure and make mommy's day upside down and feeling unhappy about herself.
We came out with initial strategy to organize more our family time table. Trying to arrange our dinner as early as 6.30 and the kids must have gone in bed early maybe at 8.30. We were given award sticker by Mrs Bookman to encourage boboi stays in track while we in direction to make everything in pace. It is not that easy to make boboi to sleep at his own without my honey's helps for sure. So, we have to work together to make these works. So, another 3 weeks, Mrs Bookman will come to our house for visit to see is there any improvement we made to that extent.
We just hope, our efforts are well worth..boboi will have much fun looking fwd everyday to come to school....
Monday, May 26, 2008
If your colleagues are much advance/ succesfull than you...
What would you feel if your colleagues are much advance/ succesfull than you?
ANSWER:
For the first, I would feel so bad. Angry with myself. Thinking, maybe because I havent done enough from them. Or perhaps not putting my efforts to the fullest to get worldwide recognition as for example. Could be because, I am not devoting or putting my heart 100% to my work and that is why the reason, I am still stuck here and not going anywhere eventhough the opportunity is always there but I always taking it for granted! That is the weakness of me in the past. Not taking my work deliberately. Maybe I was thought, doing PhD is something I am not looking forward to do. I just do it, for the sake because I am force to do it. WIthout any specific reason or determination sincerely come from my inside. To be succesful, you need a passion. People with passion, they outdo their work better than the others. Perhaps, I am people with no ambition...people with no ambition normally they are left behind among others. It just matter...Am I seriously wanted to be a women without ambition and objective until I am 6 feet under?????
How can I turn myself to be more passionate worker?
THE ANSWER IS:
.....To be continued....
ANSWER:
For the first, I would feel so bad. Angry with myself. Thinking, maybe because I havent done enough from them. Or perhaps not putting my efforts to the fullest to get worldwide recognition as for example. Could be because, I am not devoting or putting my heart 100% to my work and that is why the reason, I am still stuck here and not going anywhere eventhough the opportunity is always there but I always taking it for granted! That is the weakness of me in the past. Not taking my work deliberately. Maybe I was thought, doing PhD is something I am not looking forward to do. I just do it, for the sake because I am force to do it. WIthout any specific reason or determination sincerely come from my inside. To be succesful, you need a passion. People with passion, they outdo their work better than the others. Perhaps, I am people with no ambition...people with no ambition normally they are left behind among others. It just matter...Am I seriously wanted to be a women without ambition and objective until I am 6 feet under?????
How can I turn myself to be more passionate worker?
THE ANSWER IS:
.....To be continued....
Sekejapnya..and Mr 'K'
Sekejapnya masa berlalu..kalih2 nak masuk bulan June dah..kalu pk2 balik..ntah apala yg aku buat spjg awal tahun?? Maybela byk adjustment at the same time ade waktu2 yg aku sakit and then my honey plak balik mesia..which takes me time to be in my work mood again. Finally, after we had gathering here for summer BBQ, I gained my strength again to focus back to my thesis. Actually, I was blasted with this one guy, who does care me enough in here compare the others. CARE that I mentioned just now, does not mean, he has the feeling towards me...but, he cares to humiliate me with his sick persistant question. Well, it is fair for him to ask me the same question. May be because, he just had no idea what to say or to start any conversation..But, the way he was talking to me, left me horrified like he wanted to put me down to the lowest part of the world. Everytime, we had a chat, usually it went wrong and it seems now that I am starting to rebel and maybe who knows in future I can turn to be harsh people to him as perhaps this is what he is really looking forward from me.
At the same time, I would like to thank to this annoying people 'Mr K'..Again, thanks for your concerns and also your bad mouth..and from the bliss that you had bestow to me, to make me grow stronger and finish my PhD. You havent gone through as what I have gone through...so, you cant really say...you are good enough better than me...Maybe and the moment, you are so overwhelmed, you had passed your exams for your master with nothing hampering your path...But, how could you even know...that your journey is always smooth sailing in future??? Well, I am not coward..and I am not idiot...if you want me to face you..I am ready to do so..and I will make sure you wont make me fret over my business..eventhough, I know you really care about me..or even my family!
At the same time, I would like to thank to this annoying people 'Mr K'..Again, thanks for your concerns and also your bad mouth..and from the bliss that you had bestow to me, to make me grow stronger and finish my PhD. You havent gone through as what I have gone through...so, you cant really say...you are good enough better than me...Maybe and the moment, you are so overwhelmed, you had passed your exams for your master with nothing hampering your path...But, how could you even know...that your journey is always smooth sailing in future??? Well, I am not coward..and I am not idiot...if you want me to face you..I am ready to do so..and I will make sure you wont make me fret over my business..eventhough, I know you really care about me..or even my family!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Cerita ttg boboi..
Hari ni aku nak tulis pasal perkembangan si boboi..kesian juga dgn si boboi...asik saje ketinggalan pelajaran..sbb tu juga, mommy kene lebih struggle supaya boboi lagi pick up..sampai berdenyut2 kepala mommy dibuatnya...lagi merisaukan mommy, my sil II, bagitau, bebudak sblm masuk darjah satu dah kene pandai..
1) menulis 1-100
2) mengira tambah dan tolak
3) menulis a-z
4) membaca bahasa melayu yg simple2..
jenuh jugak mommy nak bagi anak mommy pandai...kkdg tu naik hopeless mommy dibuatnya...tapi, boboi alhamdulillah dah menunjukkan perkembangan positive..tu ari mommy test dia..dia dah bule score 13/17 magic words..walaupon boboi tak score 100%...tapi..yg penting perkembangan tu tetap ada...
Kalu sblm ni..boboi mcm tak pandai connetkan suku kata..skrg dia mcm dah dapat hint nak connectkan suku kata...mmg challenging mengajar anak in BI..sbb sblm2 ni pon mommy tak ada pengalaman...setakat pengalaman in teaching how to read in BM tu adela sket2..
Buku oxford reading tree pon...alhamdulillah, boboi dah bule pass stage 2 and 3...walaupon ade certain words yg dia mcm masih tak fasih..tapi, would relentlessly, to encourage boboi to practise the book sampai pandai...so, since skrg ni boboi dah ok utk stage 3..mommy dah berkira2 nak cari buku utk stage 4&5..tak perlu beli byk2...pilih2 aje mana yg boboi berkenan bila pergi ke kedai buku nanti..tak pon, mommy aje yg pergi pilih dan beli sendiri..
Fasal mengenal huruf...mommy tak sempat test lagi..sama ada boboi bule tulis straight capital n small letter...tapi, smlm...boboi ade buat exercise dgn mommy...matchkan small and capital letter...mommy perasan boboi ade confuse sket dgn capital letter 'D' and 'L'..sometimes, 'b' plak...boboi ingat 'd' dan sebaliknya..Yg mommy tgk, boboi mmg tak minat kerja2 repetitive..misalnya tulis alphabet byk2 kali..sbb bosan katanya...baru suruh nulis 'o' beberapa baris..byk betul alasannya..sekejap2 kata ngantuk..sekejap2kata very difficult...sekejap2 kata not easy...bikin mommy and daddy naik hangin aje..Skrg ni, mommy and daddy just buat sehabis baik...kalu tulisan boboi tak cantik lepas ni..jgn salahkan mommy and daddy pulak..sbb boboi sendiri yg pilih tak nak practise menulis byk2 kali...
Angka..stkt ni..mmg boboi dah fasih kenal dan menulis angka 1-20..ade sekali tu...mommy dgr boboi kira 1-30...so, nanti akan mommy usahakan boboi fasih sampai 100. Kalu bule, masa shopping tu..mommy ambil peluang..boboi baca tag price..supaya dia dapat kenal angka dgn lebih byk lagi..
Bab mengira tambah dan tolak...mommy sdg usahakan..stkt ni..boboi ok utk mengira...dan ade pemahaman sedikit utk menambah..Tapi, mommy belum lagi uji boboi on paper lagi...Mmg tgh menunggu game DK utk addition and substraction...make it as a fun game sambil boboi belajar..almaklumla..boboi ni suka belajar secara leisure..so, terpaksa juga ikut rentak dia..
Membaca in BM...wah ni tough juga...mommy tgh berkira2 nak beli buku 'Bacalah Anakku'..rasenya, mommy akan buat ni terkemudian sket..lepas mommy habis studyke cthnya...lagipon ade org kata..kita familiarkan bebudak ni dgn reading english..barula kemudiannya familiarkan dia reading in BM pula..Kalu susah2...terpaksala mommy hire cikgu BM utk ajar boboi sebelum masuk primary school kat mesia nanti..
Apa2pon, mmg mommy dah bercadang amat2..utk pindahkan boboi ke skool offsted yg lebih bagus..dekat King Joseph..harap2nya, boboi lebih pick up di situ...skrg ni, maybela boboi ditahap perkembangan sederhana..sbb asik ketinggalan pelajaran dan masuk skool offsted so-so aje...
1) menulis 1-100
2) mengira tambah dan tolak
3) menulis a-z
4) membaca bahasa melayu yg simple2..
jenuh jugak mommy nak bagi anak mommy pandai...kkdg tu naik hopeless mommy dibuatnya...tapi, boboi alhamdulillah dah menunjukkan perkembangan positive..tu ari mommy test dia..dia dah bule score 13/17 magic words..walaupon boboi tak score 100%...tapi..yg penting perkembangan tu tetap ada...
Kalu sblm ni..boboi mcm tak pandai connetkan suku kata..skrg dia mcm dah dapat hint nak connectkan suku kata...mmg challenging mengajar anak in BI..sbb sblm2 ni pon mommy tak ada pengalaman...setakat pengalaman in teaching how to read in BM tu adela sket2..
Buku oxford reading tree pon...alhamdulillah, boboi dah bule pass stage 2 and 3...walaupon ade certain words yg dia mcm masih tak fasih..tapi, would relentlessly, to encourage boboi to practise the book sampai pandai...so, since skrg ni boboi dah ok utk stage 3..mommy dah berkira2 nak cari buku utk stage 4&5..tak perlu beli byk2...pilih2 aje mana yg boboi berkenan bila pergi ke kedai buku nanti..tak pon, mommy aje yg pergi pilih dan beli sendiri..
Fasal mengenal huruf...mommy tak sempat test lagi..sama ada boboi bule tulis straight capital n small letter...tapi, smlm...boboi ade buat exercise dgn mommy...matchkan small and capital letter...mommy perasan boboi ade confuse sket dgn capital letter 'D' and 'L'..sometimes, 'b' plak...boboi ingat 'd' dan sebaliknya..Yg mommy tgk, boboi mmg tak minat kerja2 repetitive..misalnya tulis alphabet byk2 kali..sbb bosan katanya...baru suruh nulis 'o' beberapa baris..byk betul alasannya..sekejap2 kata ngantuk..sekejap2kata very difficult...sekejap2 kata not easy...bikin mommy and daddy naik hangin aje..Skrg ni, mommy and daddy just buat sehabis baik...kalu tulisan boboi tak cantik lepas ni..jgn salahkan mommy and daddy pulak..sbb boboi sendiri yg pilih tak nak practise menulis byk2 kali...
Angka..stkt ni..mmg boboi dah fasih kenal dan menulis angka 1-20..ade sekali tu...mommy dgr boboi kira 1-30...so, nanti akan mommy usahakan boboi fasih sampai 100. Kalu bule, masa shopping tu..mommy ambil peluang..boboi baca tag price..supaya dia dapat kenal angka dgn lebih byk lagi..
Bab mengira tambah dan tolak...mommy sdg usahakan..stkt ni..boboi ok utk mengira...dan ade pemahaman sedikit utk menambah..Tapi, mommy belum lagi uji boboi on paper lagi...Mmg tgh menunggu game DK utk addition and substraction...make it as a fun game sambil boboi belajar..almaklumla..boboi ni suka belajar secara leisure..so, terpaksa juga ikut rentak dia..
Membaca in BM...wah ni tough juga...mommy tgh berkira2 nak beli buku 'Bacalah Anakku'..rasenya, mommy akan buat ni terkemudian sket..lepas mommy habis studyke cthnya...lagipon ade org kata..kita familiarkan bebudak ni dgn reading english..barula kemudiannya familiarkan dia reading in BM pula..Kalu susah2...terpaksala mommy hire cikgu BM utk ajar boboi sebelum masuk primary school kat mesia nanti..
Apa2pon, mmg mommy dah bercadang amat2..utk pindahkan boboi ke skool offsted yg lebih bagus..dekat King Joseph..harap2nya, boboi lebih pick up di situ...skrg ni, maybela boboi ditahap perkembangan sederhana..sbb asik ketinggalan pelajaran dan masuk skool offsted so-so aje...
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Kepalaku pusing
Bertambah pusing kepala aku lepas kal si Gin. Berkobar2 dia bercerita ttg hak2 seorang isteri. Mmmm, aku mmg setuju dgn apa yg dikatakan kpd aku...Tapi, pada aku yg dah lepas tu..sudahlah...aku pon tak menyalahkan sesiapa, melainkan diri aku sendiri...At least, skrg my darling dah setuju to spend for childcare gegirl..dan tak kisah kalu aku nak stay back at school atau nak tidor lambat..in fact, dia yg tlg jagakan anak2 di waktu malam dan weekend....and some of house chores mmg dia buat biasanya hujung minggu mengvacuum dan mengemop lantai/ carpet..Kalu dia baik hati, mmg dia yg masak utk kami...
Mmgla kalu ikutkan dalam islam..isteri deserve to get a maid kalu suami mampu..dan sebenarnya kerja2 rumah yg org lelaki di mesia selama ini fikirkan adalah kerja2 isteri itu sebenarnya kalu ikut perspektif islam adalah kerja2 suami...Sebenarnya itu yg aku buat bertambah pening. Pening sbb memikirkan, ramai suami2 di mesia yg naive dan kurang berpengetahuan agama yg mendalam..lepas tu, suka membuat alasan, sbb isteri tak pandai uruskan rumahtanggala cthnya tak pandai masak dan tak cekap buat kerja2 rumah..maka, dorang nak kawen lain...Mcm2 saje org laki ni...Buat kepala org perempuan berdenyut tak fasal2!
Malas nak fikir perkara2 complicated...Nak cerita pula pasal anak2..Yg aku perasan, anak2 skrg dah ada satu tabiat..bila aku panggil nama..lambat betul menjawab...tak kirala sama ada si abg mahu pon si adik..Boboi pon dah nampak macam ok nak makan...Hari ini dalam tensen2, aku buat sup sayur dan ayam utk anak2 dan aku sekali..Sambil tu aku rebus pasta utk makan sekali dgn sup tersebut..Beriya budak2 makan..termasuk dgn aku2 sekali...Si boboi yg jarang nak makan tu pon..teruja sekali nak join makan...kalu tak tu, mmg manjang nak makan coco pops dan susu saje..
Si boboi skrg pon alhamdulillah bule diharap..Kalu aku minta tlg, okla juga kkdg dia tu nak buat...si adiknya plak, ntah kenapa hari ini...asik dok pegang2 shi-shi dia..agaknya geli tgk bekas chicken pox dia kat situ..atau terasa merengsa....So, hari ni dia dok berlenggeng pakai seluar dan tak pakai diapers...sbb mula2 aku pakaikan, dia asik bukak diapers dia..itu yg lagi buat aku tambah serabut. Bila aku ajak kencing..tak mahu pula...Nampak suka betul dia tak pakai diapers...terasa ade angin kot shi-shi dia..Tapi, satu sajela si gegirl ni..tak pandai cakap...bila aku siap2 makan tadi...tgk2 dia dah geli2 pegang dan seluk bottom dia...Laaaaa, rupa2nya dia poo-poo...Dah satu kerja mommy dia nak kene cuci short dan terus mandikan dia..Aku harap2, bila dia masuk nursery nanti...org kat sana, dapatla train dia...kot2 dia dok mogok tak nak pakai diapers kat nursery tu pon bagus juga...
Mmgla kalu ikutkan dalam islam..isteri deserve to get a maid kalu suami mampu..dan sebenarnya kerja2 rumah yg org lelaki di mesia selama ini fikirkan adalah kerja2 isteri itu sebenarnya kalu ikut perspektif islam adalah kerja2 suami...Sebenarnya itu yg aku buat bertambah pening. Pening sbb memikirkan, ramai suami2 di mesia yg naive dan kurang berpengetahuan agama yg mendalam..lepas tu, suka membuat alasan, sbb isteri tak pandai uruskan rumahtanggala cthnya tak pandai masak dan tak cekap buat kerja2 rumah..maka, dorang nak kawen lain...Mcm2 saje org laki ni...Buat kepala org perempuan berdenyut tak fasal2!
Malas nak fikir perkara2 complicated...Nak cerita pula pasal anak2..Yg aku perasan, anak2 skrg dah ada satu tabiat..bila aku panggil nama..lambat betul menjawab...tak kirala sama ada si abg mahu pon si adik..Boboi pon dah nampak macam ok nak makan...Hari ini dalam tensen2, aku buat sup sayur dan ayam utk anak2 dan aku sekali..Sambil tu aku rebus pasta utk makan sekali dgn sup tersebut..Beriya budak2 makan..termasuk dgn aku2 sekali...Si boboi yg jarang nak makan tu pon..teruja sekali nak join makan...kalu tak tu, mmg manjang nak makan coco pops dan susu saje..
Si boboi skrg pon alhamdulillah bule diharap..Kalu aku minta tlg, okla juga kkdg dia tu nak buat...si adiknya plak, ntah kenapa hari ini...asik dok pegang2 shi-shi dia..agaknya geli tgk bekas chicken pox dia kat situ..atau terasa merengsa....So, hari ni dia dok berlenggeng pakai seluar dan tak pakai diapers...sbb mula2 aku pakaikan, dia asik bukak diapers dia..itu yg lagi buat aku tambah serabut. Bila aku ajak kencing..tak mahu pula...Nampak suka betul dia tak pakai diapers...terasa ade angin kot shi-shi dia..Tapi, satu sajela si gegirl ni..tak pandai cakap...bila aku siap2 makan tadi...tgk2 dia dah geli2 pegang dan seluk bottom dia...Laaaaa, rupa2nya dia poo-poo...Dah satu kerja mommy dia nak kene cuci short dan terus mandikan dia..Aku harap2, bila dia masuk nursery nanti...org kat sana, dapatla train dia...kot2 dia dok mogok tak nak pakai diapers kat nursery tu pon bagus juga...
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Bukannya best pon
Bukannya best pon kalu my darling tak ada kat rumah. Cuma perasaan my darling je ingat kami ni happy kalu dia tak ada...mungkin my darling fikir kami kat sini habis enjoy bila dia back to Mesia, sbb a few hrs before his flight..sempat my darling join kami shopping sakan kat Tesco sampai habis £70. Extraordinary sket shopping kali ni..Itu pon, sbb mommy dok beli stok gula dan plain fluor berkgs2..Sekali-sekala baca BBC online, bila writter tu dok suggest stocking ur foods to prepare breakdown at least for a month supply, terus mommy tak fikir panjang..beli saja staple foods yg mommy terlintas...a few days when daddy was in mesia, baru mommy found out our rice stock dah hampir habis.
Tapi, tula bila daddy tak ada, bukannya panas selalu pon periuk nasi tu...Like today, the children only request to eat fish fingers. Dua kali mommy bake fish fingers. Puas pujuk boboi makan nasi or at least potatoe...still boboi refused to...Lainla gegirl, tak leceh sgt nak makan..baked sweet potato pon dia layan makan sama2 dgn mommy..Mungkin jugak, daddy ingat kami happy2 kat sini..pasal beriya2 kami beli aiskirm sampai 3 kotak..masa daddy tak ada...Alahai daddy ni...makan aiskrim pon dah nampak kami kat sini happy sgtke kene tinggal dgn daddy balik kg?
Ntah2 daddy yg lebih happy dan merrier kat mesia sana...dapat overindulge mkn mknan mesia, jumpa family dan kawan2...mungkin jugak dapat lepak sampai lewat pagi dgn dorang...dan free dari kami ni yg adakalanya menyerabutkan kepala dia...Faham2 sajela anak2, kalu sehari kami tak tinggi suara tu...mcm special day plak jadinya..hehehheh...
Itupon, smlm mommy called daddy, mcm ye tak ye je daddy jawap...mcm dapat cakap sekejap dgn mommy pon dah ok..dapat ngk mommy dan anak2 sekejap pon dah mcm cukup...Alasannya sbb daddy tgh sibuk installedkan program utk lap top baru si Ca...Daddy...Daddy...kkdg tu rase kecik hati jugak..kalu dah berjumpa komputer...mcm komputer tu lebih penting dr segala2nya...Kalu kat rumah tu, kkdg sanggup sengkang mata ntah berapa pagi hanya kerana godek2 komputer...Kkdg komputer tak ada masalah pon, daddy godek sampai jadik bermasalah...
Bila siang hari, mmgla rasa mcm ok dan secure sket bila daddy tak ada..TAPI, kalu dah malam hari..mahu seriau dibuatnya! Mana taknya, gelap aje kat luar sana...baru bunyi itu dan ini berdetik sket...dah berdebar sungguh rasenya...Mcm inike nak duduk jauh2 dr daddy??? Itupon, daddy yg sebut2, dia nak stay kat UK dan mommy dan anak2 kat Mesia..Mmmm, kalu macam ini tak payahla daddy...melainkan kalu betul2 terpaksa...Letih hari2 nak tanggung rindu, hari2 nak rasa kekosongan, hari2 nak penat layan anak2 sorang2...Kadang2 terfikir juga, macamana hidup seorang single mom...Pastinya amat2 membosankan...Mmg mommy dapat imagine, macamana situasi my MIL bila kehilangan yg tersayang walaupon dalam usia 70-an...Janganla cakap, nak berjauhan kerana DUIT...sbb duit tu buleke membeli kerenggangan perhubungan antara suami dan anak2 atau mungkin isteri bila duduk asing2 nanti?? Tak kirala hanya hanya utk 1-2 tahun...Tapi, mommy kira effectnya tetap akan ada juga..Berapa kali, boboi dok sebut...kenapa daddy tinggalkan dia? Kenapa daddy balik mesia seorang diri? Bila daddy nak balik sini? I miss daddy...I want my daddy's working back here..Hampir hari2! Huh, kalu begini kekdahnya, mahu rabak terkoyak hati mommy bila ditalu soalan yg sama oleh anak2 setiap masa...Puas mommy explain kat boboi, boboi tetap tanya soalan yg sama...Ini baru 4 hari tak ada kat rumah, bosannya dah tahap gaban...inikan plak..kalu daddy duduk berjauhan lama2 dr kita...Tak tahulah apa pulak aktiviti mommy...Kalu kat mesia tu okla jugak, ada kawan2 dan sedara mara...Tapi, kalu dalam perantau mcm ini..dgn keadaan mommy ni yg bukannya rapat sgt dgn sesapa kat sini...mmg boring betul rasanya!
Dalam boring2 mommy, sempat jugak buat aktiviti...tebas rumput, baca majalah, buat smoothie, bercakap2 dgn pokok bunga..sume ni pon, mommy buat utk distract perasaan mommy...Perasaan rindu, risau dan sgt2 ternanti2 kepulangan daddy...Mcm2 yg mommy fikir...ok atau sihatkah daddy kat sana, selamat tak dia? Mmg mommy doa2..semoga daddy selamat pergi dan balik berjumpa kami kembali di sini...
Boboi dan gegirl plak, mcm semakin hyper active bila daddynya tak ada..asik aje nak melekat kat mommy...sampai nak masuk toilet nak nenbuang dan mandi kat toilet pon payah...kkdg tu, pantang mommy terlelap sekejap..ada saje projek2 dorang yg buat mommy marah...elok plak sini skrg dah mula nak masuk musim panas...manjang si gegirl asik nak keluar rumah..sampai dan naik hitam muka dia...Tadi pon, boboi tak ke sekolah, makin bzla mommy's day today...Tapi, mujur jugak si boboi ada..lega sket mommy nak pergi mandi...Kalu tak, sure si gegirl dah kecoh2 nak masuk bilik air jugak...Itu pon, masa mommy nak mandi, semua org kalu bule nak masuk bilik air...Bila mommy tanya boboi kenapa nak masuk bilik air?? Katanya, sbb nak tgk mommy mandi..Terus, mommy halau budak2 keluar dan kunci pintu bilik air siap2...Tahu2, bila mommy dah sudah mandi dan pakai baju..kemudian turun bawah, anak2 semua dah tidur..Penat agaknya sbb siang harinya asyik sangat bermain kat luar rumah...
Kalu ikutkan mommy mmg betul2 letih. Chicken pox tak habis recover lagi..tapi, tak dapat nak berehat puas2...Mujur jugak, doctor kasik recommendation mommy to refrain from work till Monday. Dapatla jugak mommy sket2 berehat...Yg jadi tak rehat, bila banyak sgt house works arrears yg mommy kene buat bila mommy dah pulih sakit sket2...Since Sunday, mmg tak berhenti mesin basuh kat rumah tu berjalan...mmg berlonggok2 baju...sampaila ke hari ini..Ntah bila agaknya nak clear...Bila, baju dah habis basuh...kain baju kering plak berbakul2...Ntah bila mommy nak larat dan habis lipat...Tu yg langsung tak sentuh kerja sekolah sbb mommy mmg betul2 penat..dan penat mommy bukannya penat dibuat2..Sekurang2nya, dapur tu mommy dah clearkan sket2...much better keadaan table top kitchen cabinet dan dapur drpd hari2 yg mommy sdg sakit terlantar...
Words gegirl hari ini...
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Tapi, tula bila daddy tak ada, bukannya panas selalu pon periuk nasi tu...Like today, the children only request to eat fish fingers. Dua kali mommy bake fish fingers. Puas pujuk boboi makan nasi or at least potatoe...still boboi refused to...Lainla gegirl, tak leceh sgt nak makan..baked sweet potato pon dia layan makan sama2 dgn mommy..Mungkin jugak, daddy ingat kami happy2 kat sini..pasal beriya2 kami beli aiskirm sampai 3 kotak..masa daddy tak ada...Alahai daddy ni...makan aiskrim pon dah nampak kami kat sini happy sgtke kene tinggal dgn daddy balik kg?
Ntah2 daddy yg lebih happy dan merrier kat mesia sana...dapat overindulge mkn mknan mesia, jumpa family dan kawan2...mungkin jugak dapat lepak sampai lewat pagi dgn dorang...dan free dari kami ni yg adakalanya menyerabutkan kepala dia...Faham2 sajela anak2, kalu sehari kami tak tinggi suara tu...mcm special day plak jadinya..hehehheh...
Itupon, smlm mommy called daddy, mcm ye tak ye je daddy jawap...mcm dapat cakap sekejap dgn mommy pon dah ok..dapat ngk mommy dan anak2 sekejap pon dah mcm cukup...Alasannya sbb daddy tgh sibuk installedkan program utk lap top baru si Ca...Daddy...Daddy...kkdg tu rase kecik hati jugak..kalu dah berjumpa komputer...mcm komputer tu lebih penting dr segala2nya...Kalu kat rumah tu, kkdg sanggup sengkang mata ntah berapa pagi hanya kerana godek2 komputer...Kkdg komputer tak ada masalah pon, daddy godek sampai jadik bermasalah...
Bila siang hari, mmgla rasa mcm ok dan secure sket bila daddy tak ada..TAPI, kalu dah malam hari..mahu seriau dibuatnya! Mana taknya, gelap aje kat luar sana...baru bunyi itu dan ini berdetik sket...dah berdebar sungguh rasenya...Mcm inike nak duduk jauh2 dr daddy??? Itupon, daddy yg sebut2, dia nak stay kat UK dan mommy dan anak2 kat Mesia..Mmmm, kalu macam ini tak payahla daddy...melainkan kalu betul2 terpaksa...Letih hari2 nak tanggung rindu, hari2 nak rasa kekosongan, hari2 nak penat layan anak2 sorang2...Kadang2 terfikir juga, macamana hidup seorang single mom...Pastinya amat2 membosankan...Mmg mommy dapat imagine, macamana situasi my MIL bila kehilangan yg tersayang walaupon dalam usia 70-an...Janganla cakap, nak berjauhan kerana DUIT...sbb duit tu buleke membeli kerenggangan perhubungan antara suami dan anak2 atau mungkin isteri bila duduk asing2 nanti?? Tak kirala hanya hanya utk 1-2 tahun...Tapi, mommy kira effectnya tetap akan ada juga..Berapa kali, boboi dok sebut...kenapa daddy tinggalkan dia? Kenapa daddy balik mesia seorang diri? Bila daddy nak balik sini? I miss daddy...I want my daddy's working back here..Hampir hari2! Huh, kalu begini kekdahnya, mahu rabak terkoyak hati mommy bila ditalu soalan yg sama oleh anak2 setiap masa...Puas mommy explain kat boboi, boboi tetap tanya soalan yg sama...Ini baru 4 hari tak ada kat rumah, bosannya dah tahap gaban...inikan plak..kalu daddy duduk berjauhan lama2 dr kita...Tak tahulah apa pulak aktiviti mommy...Kalu kat mesia tu okla jugak, ada kawan2 dan sedara mara...Tapi, kalu dalam perantau mcm ini..dgn keadaan mommy ni yg bukannya rapat sgt dgn sesapa kat sini...mmg boring betul rasanya!
Dalam boring2 mommy, sempat jugak buat aktiviti...tebas rumput, baca majalah, buat smoothie, bercakap2 dgn pokok bunga..sume ni pon, mommy buat utk distract perasaan mommy...Perasaan rindu, risau dan sgt2 ternanti2 kepulangan daddy...Mcm2 yg mommy fikir...ok atau sihatkah daddy kat sana, selamat tak dia? Mmg mommy doa2..semoga daddy selamat pergi dan balik berjumpa kami kembali di sini...
Boboi dan gegirl plak, mcm semakin hyper active bila daddynya tak ada..asik aje nak melekat kat mommy...sampai nak masuk toilet nak nenbuang dan mandi kat toilet pon payah...kkdg tu, pantang mommy terlelap sekejap..ada saje projek2 dorang yg buat mommy marah...elok plak sini skrg dah mula nak masuk musim panas...manjang si gegirl asik nak keluar rumah..sampai dan naik hitam muka dia...Tadi pon, boboi tak ke sekolah, makin bzla mommy's day today...Tapi, mujur jugak si boboi ada..lega sket mommy nak pergi mandi...Kalu tak, sure si gegirl dah kecoh2 nak masuk bilik air jugak...Itu pon, masa mommy nak mandi, semua org kalu bule nak masuk bilik air...Bila mommy tanya boboi kenapa nak masuk bilik air?? Katanya, sbb nak tgk mommy mandi..Terus, mommy halau budak2 keluar dan kunci pintu bilik air siap2...Tahu2, bila mommy dah sudah mandi dan pakai baju..kemudian turun bawah, anak2 semua dah tidur..Penat agaknya sbb siang harinya asyik sangat bermain kat luar rumah...
Kalu ikutkan mommy mmg betul2 letih. Chicken pox tak habis recover lagi..tapi, tak dapat nak berehat puas2...Mujur jugak, doctor kasik recommendation mommy to refrain from work till Monday. Dapatla jugak mommy sket2 berehat...Yg jadi tak rehat, bila banyak sgt house works arrears yg mommy kene buat bila mommy dah pulih sakit sket2...Since Sunday, mmg tak berhenti mesin basuh kat rumah tu berjalan...mmg berlonggok2 baju...sampaila ke hari ini..Ntah bila agaknya nak clear...Bila, baju dah habis basuh...kain baju kering plak berbakul2...Ntah bila mommy nak larat dan habis lipat...Tu yg langsung tak sentuh kerja sekolah sbb mommy mmg betul2 penat..dan penat mommy bukannya penat dibuat2..Sekurang2nya, dapur tu mommy dah clearkan sket2...much better keadaan table top kitchen cabinet dan dapur drpd hari2 yg mommy sdg sakit terlantar...
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Sunday, May 04, 2008
sagging tummy...
Hari ini aku nak cerita pasal sagging tummy...ntah macamana dalam boring2 aku...i was stumbled across tummy tuck website..perghh...beranike aku nak buat tummy tuck if let say, aku punya duit beribu????
JAWAPANNYA: Ishk, macam ngeri sungguh aku nak go thru the procedure...macam tak sanggup! rasenya biarla kulit aku ni berkedut macam kulit gajah...tapi, macam tak sanggup nak tgk badan sendiri macam kene lapah! kalu stkt mini tummy tuck tu..okla lagi..kalu full tummy tuck tu..ngeri beb aku tgk result dia...naik pening kepala pon ade tgk gamba2 dorang...
pada aku, as long as my darling tak kisah dgn appearance aku...aku rasa...aku just happy to be myself...yelahkan nak buat mcmana sbb aku sendiri bukan keturunan puteri raja...kulit anjal seribu...walaupon mengandung kembang kuncup pon kulit tetap superb...dgn badan aku yg sedia berisi sblm pregnant..kemudian maintain tembam slps pregnant..mcmana plak aku nak expect kulit aku masih sama macam zaman muda remaja?? mak aku pon terkejut tgk kulit aku...apa nak buat..nasi dah jadi bubur..
sume ni pon gara2 jamu barut nona roguy..aku jd naik rashes...utk ilangkan rashes aku pon ikut nasihat dr apply hydrocotisone..dan bile rashes aku surut..kulit perut aku plak yg jadi berkedut...kedutnya bukan stkt satu dua..tp kedut seribu! Dah lepas2 tu aku ade gak apply bio oil nak bagi moist..nampak jugakla pengurangannya...tapi, kulit aku yg dah rosak tu..dah mmg tak bule aku nak buat apa...mungkin kalu aku dr awal aku tahu effect hydrocotisone tu mengeringkan..dah pasti dr awal aku pakai dia dgn bio oil!
antara side effects hydrocotisone adalah ianya bule menipiskan kulit..dan bila kulit nipis dia akan jadi wrinkle..dan itula yg terjadi kat perut aku...aku mmg ade sedikit tension bila baca side effect ubat ni...dan bila baca benda2 ni..ni yg aku rasa mcm banned sungguh2 ubat dr...sbb tu kkdg aku lagi rela tak makan ubat dr kena makan ubat! pada aku ubat2 commercial ni penuh dgn adverse effects! Kalula dr tu dr awal bagitau kat aku..apa maksud thinning sket..dan apa side effectsnya..tak mungkin aku hingin nak pakai hydrocotisone ni...sbbnya aku ingat lagi...slps melahirkan si boboi...kulit perut aku takdela seteruk lepas aku pakai hydrocotisone ni...ntahla..kkdg macam nak marah je dgn dr2 bodoh kat sini...tapi, nak marah skrg pon tak guna...sbb kulit aku yg dah macam kulit gajah ni pon dah tak ada ubatnya...exercise macam nak rak pon belum tentu kulit perut aku ni jadi betul! melainkan kalu aku gemuk dan pregnant semula mmgla kulit tu akan jadi licin semula! Sama jugak dgn ubat antiviral yg dr kasik kat aku masa aku kene chicken pox bebaru ni...hai takkanla dr tu bodoh tak baca...kalu aku dah sedia kene chicken pox selama beberapa hari..takkan mendatangkan sbrg kesan kat aku..sbb chicken pox aku dah hampir naik semua dan tak akan dapat ditahan2 dgn antiviral tersebut...
Itu pon aku pandai2 sendiri berhenti makan ubat antiviral tu..bila tiba2 aku jadik sesak nafas dan sakit kat dada..langsung tak hingin ubat tu aku nak sentuh! ntahla, semenjak aku melahirkan gegirl ni..aku mmg a lil bit dubious dgn ubat2 dr ni...kalu aku demam sekali pon..kalu bule malas aku nak telan ubat..biar aje aku develop system immunisasi aku sendiri...sbb tu jugakla anak2 aku tu jarang aku nak kasik ubat beriya...dan aku sedikit pathetic dgn idea org2 kat mesia..anak baru sakit sket pon..nak cepat2 hantar ke dr...sket2 nak ke klinik...nak makan ubat dr!
JAWAPANNYA: Ishk, macam ngeri sungguh aku nak go thru the procedure...macam tak sanggup! rasenya biarla kulit aku ni berkedut macam kulit gajah...tapi, macam tak sanggup nak tgk badan sendiri macam kene lapah! kalu stkt mini tummy tuck tu..okla lagi..kalu full tummy tuck tu..ngeri beb aku tgk result dia...naik pening kepala pon ade tgk gamba2 dorang...
pada aku, as long as my darling tak kisah dgn appearance aku...aku rasa...aku just happy to be myself...yelahkan nak buat mcmana sbb aku sendiri bukan keturunan puteri raja...kulit anjal seribu...walaupon mengandung kembang kuncup pon kulit tetap superb...dgn badan aku yg sedia berisi sblm pregnant..kemudian maintain tembam slps pregnant..mcmana plak aku nak expect kulit aku masih sama macam zaman muda remaja?? mak aku pon terkejut tgk kulit aku...apa nak buat..nasi dah jadi bubur..
sume ni pon gara2 jamu barut nona roguy..aku jd naik rashes...utk ilangkan rashes aku pon ikut nasihat dr apply hydrocotisone..dan bile rashes aku surut..kulit perut aku plak yg jadi berkedut...kedutnya bukan stkt satu dua..tp kedut seribu! Dah lepas2 tu aku ade gak apply bio oil nak bagi moist..nampak jugakla pengurangannya...tapi, kulit aku yg dah rosak tu..dah mmg tak bule aku nak buat apa...mungkin kalu aku dr awal aku tahu effect hydrocotisone tu mengeringkan..dah pasti dr awal aku pakai dia dgn bio oil!
antara side effects hydrocotisone adalah ianya bule menipiskan kulit..dan bila kulit nipis dia akan jadi wrinkle..dan itula yg terjadi kat perut aku...aku mmg ade sedikit tension bila baca side effect ubat ni...dan bila baca benda2 ni..ni yg aku rasa mcm banned sungguh2 ubat dr...sbb tu kkdg aku lagi rela tak makan ubat dr kena makan ubat! pada aku ubat2 commercial ni penuh dgn adverse effects! Kalula dr tu dr awal bagitau kat aku..apa maksud thinning sket..dan apa side effectsnya..tak mungkin aku hingin nak pakai hydrocotisone ni...sbbnya aku ingat lagi...slps melahirkan si boboi...kulit perut aku takdela seteruk lepas aku pakai hydrocotisone ni...ntahla..kkdg macam nak marah je dgn dr2 bodoh kat sini...tapi, nak marah skrg pon tak guna...sbb kulit aku yg dah macam kulit gajah ni pon dah tak ada ubatnya...exercise macam nak rak pon belum tentu kulit perut aku ni jadi betul! melainkan kalu aku gemuk dan pregnant semula mmgla kulit tu akan jadi licin semula! Sama jugak dgn ubat antiviral yg dr kasik kat aku masa aku kene chicken pox bebaru ni...hai takkanla dr tu bodoh tak baca...kalu aku dah sedia kene chicken pox selama beberapa hari..takkan mendatangkan sbrg kesan kat aku..sbb chicken pox aku dah hampir naik semua dan tak akan dapat ditahan2 dgn antiviral tersebut...
Itu pon aku pandai2 sendiri berhenti makan ubat antiviral tu..bila tiba2 aku jadik sesak nafas dan sakit kat dada..langsung tak hingin ubat tu aku nak sentuh! ntahla, semenjak aku melahirkan gegirl ni..aku mmg a lil bit dubious dgn ubat2 dr ni...kalu aku demam sekali pon..kalu bule malas aku nak telan ubat..biar aje aku develop system immunisasi aku sendiri...sbb tu jugakla anak2 aku tu jarang aku nak kasik ubat beriya...dan aku sedikit pathetic dgn idea org2 kat mesia..anak baru sakit sket pon..nak cepat2 hantar ke dr...sket2 nak ke klinik...nak makan ubat dr!
Rumahku disewa org...(03/05/08)
Tanggal 03/05/08..rumah kami di 'S' akhirnya disewa org...student Nottingham Univ...dr Nigeria..Tsolefelo namanya...ok gakla..dapat jugak lepas sket bayar duit bulan2 rumah 'S'..
Sebenarnya, sedih juga terpaksa sewakan rumah kami kepada org..tapi, tulah..dah lama sgt ditinggalkan...mengikut pengalaman kami, rumah yg ditinggalkan lagi byk berpenyakit...balik Mesia, beberapa 3 bulan lepas...tahu2, bumbung bocor, paip bocor..tile retak..itu yg membuatkan kami, akhirnya buat keputusan utk sewakan juga rumah tu pada org...walaupon, dalam hati aku terasa berat...sbb mungkin aku sayang dgn rumah tu...kenangan pertama lepas kahwin terus pindah ke situ..rumah tu jugak, yg dulu aku susah payah bersihkan dan mopkan hampir tiap2 minggu...siap dapat complimentary...kawan aku yg datang..cukup suka dgn rumah kami...bersih dan fresh katanya...dan kawan yg berikan complimentary tu pon bukan calang2 orgnya...aku sendiri dah byk kali pergi rumah dia...mmg perfectionist tahap gaban..tak pernah aku nampak dapur dia berkecah...sentiasa berkilat dan teratur..mmg aku respect sungguh2!
Sedihnya aku mungkin terpaksa terima hakikat, kalu rumah aku tu nanti bila aku jenguk dan tak serupa rumah..dah kotor berdaki...dan hancur sana dan sini...dan berbau semacam...mcm2 betul yg perempuan fikirkan..elok lagikah agaknya nanti curtain aku? masih wangi lagikah rumah aku nanti? berbau rokok tak agaknya? almaklumla..tenant aku kali ini adalah lelaki2...
Adik aku, Ca dah siap ambil tender, akan turun rumah aku sebulan sekali at least, utk kutip duit dan racunkan rumput..harapan aku, agar adik aku tu jujur...dan tak makan duit org...itu je yg aku harap2kan...dan setahu aku, mmg Ca bule dipercayai...cume, serba-sedikit...kami kene pastikan, bagitau siap2 apa yg kami nak supaya dia faham dan terang....
Sbg token, aku dah siap2 minta tlg my darling bawak balikkan printer utk Ca...bulela Ca pakai utk buat assignment dia tu nanti..Harap2nya semuanya berjalan lancar...dan seperti yg diharapkan...
Sebenarnya, sedih juga terpaksa sewakan rumah kami kepada org..tapi, tulah..dah lama sgt ditinggalkan...mengikut pengalaman kami, rumah yg ditinggalkan lagi byk berpenyakit...balik Mesia, beberapa 3 bulan lepas...tahu2, bumbung bocor, paip bocor..tile retak..itu yg membuatkan kami, akhirnya buat keputusan utk sewakan juga rumah tu pada org...walaupon, dalam hati aku terasa berat...sbb mungkin aku sayang dgn rumah tu...kenangan pertama lepas kahwin terus pindah ke situ..rumah tu jugak, yg dulu aku susah payah bersihkan dan mopkan hampir tiap2 minggu...siap dapat complimentary...kawan aku yg datang..cukup suka dgn rumah kami...bersih dan fresh katanya...dan kawan yg berikan complimentary tu pon bukan calang2 orgnya...aku sendiri dah byk kali pergi rumah dia...mmg perfectionist tahap gaban..tak pernah aku nampak dapur dia berkecah...sentiasa berkilat dan teratur..mmg aku respect sungguh2!
Sedihnya aku mungkin terpaksa terima hakikat, kalu rumah aku tu nanti bila aku jenguk dan tak serupa rumah..dah kotor berdaki...dan hancur sana dan sini...dan berbau semacam...mcm2 betul yg perempuan fikirkan..elok lagikah agaknya nanti curtain aku? masih wangi lagikah rumah aku nanti? berbau rokok tak agaknya? almaklumla..tenant aku kali ini adalah lelaki2...
Adik aku, Ca dah siap ambil tender, akan turun rumah aku sebulan sekali at least, utk kutip duit dan racunkan rumput..harapan aku, agar adik aku tu jujur...dan tak makan duit org...itu je yg aku harap2kan...dan setahu aku, mmg Ca bule dipercayai...cume, serba-sedikit...kami kene pastikan, bagitau siap2 apa yg kami nak supaya dia faham dan terang....
Sbg token, aku dah siap2 minta tlg my darling bawak balikkan printer utk Ca...bulela Ca pakai utk buat assignment dia tu nanti..Harap2nya semuanya berjalan lancar...dan seperti yg diharapkan...
My darling balik Mesia...
Pukul 5 p.m, my darling bertolak ke airport dgn Dib dan anak2..sayu rasanya hati ini..mungkin sbb aku sendiri jarang berjauhan dgn suami..dan mungkin juga sbb aku smmgnya attach dgn suami sendiri...air mata aku tetap tumpah dan bergenang...arghhh, sesentifnya hati seorang perempuan...cengengkah aku? entahla, malas aku nak fikirkan...
kali ini, my darling balik mesia seorang diri utk melawat pusara my late fil dan juga menziarah keadaan my family in law...kkdg terlintas difikiran aku...my darling hanya meninggalkan aku dan anak2 barang seminggu aku dah feeling mcm ini..mcmana agaknya, keadaan my mil bila my late fil meninggalkannya buat selama2nya?? kkdg terharu dan respect dgn my mil..seorang pencinta yg setia...aku tak pernah nampak my mil marah2dgn my late fil mcm mak aku marah2 pak aku...tapi, mungkin situasi antara keduanya itu berbeza...sbb altho my late fil sakit, at least, anak2 my mil masih mampu menggajikan pembantu..utk mengurangkan beban tergalas di samping my mil masih dikelilingi oleh anak2 dan cucu2..jadi, tak sunyila rasanya...sementara mak aku plak, dr muda ke tua, masih lagi terpaksa membanting tulang walaupon dalam keadaan sakit...dan pada masa yg sama kena plak menjaga org sakit..iaitu pak aku...sukar juga adik2 aku nak faham, kenapa mak aku tu suka marah2..tapi, aku faham bukannya mudah nak balancekan emosi kalu dalam situasi menekan sebegitu...tambah2 lagi..hujung bulan ini...by schedule mak nak kene operate kedua2 buah pinggang sbb batu karang...mungkin serba sedikit...perkara tersebut agak merisaukan dirinya...aku berdoa...agak mak selamat dalam operation nanti..dan takkan ada sbrg komplikasi...
Sewaktu aku kal mak bagitau yg my darling nak balik mesia..dia pulak yg mcm risau..like, ok ke aku kat sini? tak takutkah aku? aku katakan pada mak...tak perlu nak risau..sekurang2nya aku ada boboi and gegirl..cumenya, kalu ade lelaki yg bukan muhrim nak masuk rumah tanpa pasangan dorang..mungkin, aku mati2an takkan berani nak buka pintu....melainkan mr postman ke..itu pon, kalu aku mmg expect dia akan datang..
Sekurang2nya, condition aku not that bad seperti pertama kali my darling balik mesia seminggu sbb ade interview..mungkin sbb aku dah sedia redha...ditambah plak aku sendiri dah bz dgn diri aku dan anak2..yg tgh terkena chicken pox..tak dapat nak peluk beriya my darling macam tahun lepas...cume, dapat peluk2 gitu aje...sbb yelah, dgn keadaan aku yg berkeruping..kalu, aku tak betul2 look after diri aku...might be, lagi teruk plak scarring dia jadinya...
boboi dan gegirl mcm biasa..anak2 yg masih tak memahami...jadi, bermula malam ini..bermulala saat keboringan aku tanpa my darling...beberapa jam sblm my darling bertolak...sempat jugak kami ke tesco..stock up apa2 yg perlu...yg pastinya bila my darling tak ada di rumah...dapur tu mungkin akan kurang berasapnya...my darling pesan, aku jgn nangis..dia katakan pada aku, dia akan kembali berjumpa dgn aku dan anak2 semula..
kali ini, my darling balik mesia seorang diri utk melawat pusara my late fil dan juga menziarah keadaan my family in law...kkdg terlintas difikiran aku...my darling hanya meninggalkan aku dan anak2 barang seminggu aku dah feeling mcm ini..mcmana agaknya, keadaan my mil bila my late fil meninggalkannya buat selama2nya?? kkdg terharu dan respect dgn my mil..seorang pencinta yg setia...aku tak pernah nampak my mil marah2dgn my late fil mcm mak aku marah2 pak aku...tapi, mungkin situasi antara keduanya itu berbeza...sbb altho my late fil sakit, at least, anak2 my mil masih mampu menggajikan pembantu..utk mengurangkan beban tergalas di samping my mil masih dikelilingi oleh anak2 dan cucu2..jadi, tak sunyila rasanya...sementara mak aku plak, dr muda ke tua, masih lagi terpaksa membanting tulang walaupon dalam keadaan sakit...dan pada masa yg sama kena plak menjaga org sakit..iaitu pak aku...sukar juga adik2 aku nak faham, kenapa mak aku tu suka marah2..tapi, aku faham bukannya mudah nak balancekan emosi kalu dalam situasi menekan sebegitu...tambah2 lagi..hujung bulan ini...by schedule mak nak kene operate kedua2 buah pinggang sbb batu karang...mungkin serba sedikit...perkara tersebut agak merisaukan dirinya...aku berdoa...agak mak selamat dalam operation nanti..dan takkan ada sbrg komplikasi...
Sewaktu aku kal mak bagitau yg my darling nak balik mesia..dia pulak yg mcm risau..like, ok ke aku kat sini? tak takutkah aku? aku katakan pada mak...tak perlu nak risau..sekurang2nya aku ada boboi and gegirl..cumenya, kalu ade lelaki yg bukan muhrim nak masuk rumah tanpa pasangan dorang..mungkin, aku mati2an takkan berani nak buka pintu....melainkan mr postman ke..itu pon, kalu aku mmg expect dia akan datang..
Sekurang2nya, condition aku not that bad seperti pertama kali my darling balik mesia seminggu sbb ade interview..mungkin sbb aku dah sedia redha...ditambah plak aku sendiri dah bz dgn diri aku dan anak2..yg tgh terkena chicken pox..tak dapat nak peluk beriya my darling macam tahun lepas...cume, dapat peluk2 gitu aje...sbb yelah, dgn keadaan aku yg berkeruping..kalu, aku tak betul2 look after diri aku...might be, lagi teruk plak scarring dia jadinya...
boboi dan gegirl mcm biasa..anak2 yg masih tak memahami...jadi, bermula malam ini..bermulala saat keboringan aku tanpa my darling...beberapa jam sblm my darling bertolak...sempat jugak kami ke tesco..stock up apa2 yg perlu...yg pastinya bila my darling tak ada di rumah...dapur tu mungkin akan kurang berasapnya...my darling pesan, aku jgn nangis..dia katakan pada aku, dia akan kembali berjumpa dgn aku dan anak2 semula..
Friday, May 02, 2008
Dah nak mula recover...
Diam tak diam..dah nak masuk 2 minggu aku dan gegirl kene chicken pox..aku pon dah mula menguatkan diri buat kerja2 rumah..mcm vacuum lantai, angkat baju kotor dan cuci pinggan...Cumenya, yg aku perasan kalu aku buat kerja lebih sket..mulala aku cepat letih...cthnya mcm semalam pukul 8 malam aku dah pengsan...
My darling pon aku dah ready bookingkan ticket balik mesia..Sunday ni kul 10 malam flight dia...menangiskah aku? ntahla..malas aku nak gambarkan...cume, ade jugak rase sedih sbb aku dan gegirl masih tak abis chicken pox tapi my darling nak kene balik mesia..balik pon cume seminggu..utk melawat pusara my late fil...dan juga to visit keadaan mak dia..my late father in law menghembuskan nafas yg terakhirnya pada jumaat lepas pukul 1.30 a.m. Semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat ke atasnya...Aku kira, dah lama juga penderitaan yg my late-fil lalui sejak didiagnosekan sbg pesakit diabetes and pneumoia..in addition, aku pon dah pasrah..since our return fr mesia..yg my darling dah pesan..if anything happen to his father..only my darling yg akan balik sendiri dan settlekan segala perkara yg perlu...
Now, bila aku dah almost recover...dah mula nak kene pikir pasal PhD aku..yg aku aim busuk2 pon mid July ni aku dah submit 1st draft aku...sv aku pon dah mula kepochi..bila nak abis...dan aku pon sendiri dah naik nervous..bila nak abis...bila aku dah ade smgt waja nak abiskan keje..byk pula dugaan yg mendatang...adakah aku menyesal????
Aku pon dah dapat solution utk childcare gegirl..skrg dok tergaru2 sama ada nak antar gegirl ke montessori atau nursery besa2..tapi, beza reganya dalam £10/ day gitu..which is quite a lot..Kak Min pon dah kasik greenlight kalu kalu aku nak tumpangkan gegirl kat umah dia..dan Lela pon dah mcm ok nak tlg jagakan gegirl buat masa ni...aku check kat Kids Unlimited...mmg ade kekosongan utk June for gegirl...kiranya...alhamdulillah...semoga aku menggunakan masa yg ade dgn sebaik2nya...utk siapkan kerja2 aku ni...so, bulela in August ni kami sekeluarga pi berjalan ke Disney Paris pula!
My darling pon aku dah ready bookingkan ticket balik mesia..Sunday ni kul 10 malam flight dia...menangiskah aku? ntahla..malas aku nak gambarkan...cume, ade jugak rase sedih sbb aku dan gegirl masih tak abis chicken pox tapi my darling nak kene balik mesia..balik pon cume seminggu..utk melawat pusara my late fil...dan juga to visit keadaan mak dia..my late father in law menghembuskan nafas yg terakhirnya pada jumaat lepas pukul 1.30 a.m. Semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat ke atasnya...Aku kira, dah lama juga penderitaan yg my late-fil lalui sejak didiagnosekan sbg pesakit diabetes and pneumoia..in addition, aku pon dah pasrah..since our return fr mesia..yg my darling dah pesan..if anything happen to his father..only my darling yg akan balik sendiri dan settlekan segala perkara yg perlu...
Now, bila aku dah almost recover...dah mula nak kene pikir pasal PhD aku..yg aku aim busuk2 pon mid July ni aku dah submit 1st draft aku...sv aku pon dah mula kepochi..bila nak abis...dan aku pon sendiri dah naik nervous..bila nak abis...bila aku dah ade smgt waja nak abiskan keje..byk pula dugaan yg mendatang...adakah aku menyesal????
Aku pon dah dapat solution utk childcare gegirl..skrg dok tergaru2 sama ada nak antar gegirl ke montessori atau nursery besa2..tapi, beza reganya dalam £10/ day gitu..which is quite a lot..Kak Min pon dah kasik greenlight kalu kalu aku nak tumpangkan gegirl kat umah dia..dan Lela pon dah mcm ok nak tlg jagakan gegirl buat masa ni...aku check kat Kids Unlimited...mmg ade kekosongan utk June for gegirl...kiranya...alhamdulillah...semoga aku menggunakan masa yg ade dgn sebaik2nya...utk siapkan kerja2 aku ni...so, bulela in August ni kami sekeluarga pi berjalan ke Disney Paris pula!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Satu keluarga kene chicken pox..
Bulan ini dalam sejarah..the whole family terkene chicken pox..tatau dr mana virus chicken pox ni kami dapat..sebab kami mmg tak bertemu langsung dgn manusia yg berpenyakit chicken pox..yg aku dapat agakkan mungkin semua ni gara2 sewaktu kami excited survey2 rumah yg agak kurang kehygenicannya di 'A' road...Mak aku pon pelik, dia sangka kat UK takkan ada penyakit chicken pox begitu..tapi rupa2nya macam2 penyakit ada...yg dia dah tak pernah kene..cucu2 dan anak menantunya KENA!
Semuanya bermula dr my son...3 weeks ago sewaktu cuti sekolah...pendek kata rancangan aku nak beriya mengajar my son hand out dr cikgunya sumenya tergendala..my son byk berehat..dan sewaktu dia dah nak mula recover..aku plak tiba2 demam panas sejuk..mengigil pon ade..selang beberapa hari...hah itu dia....muka aku naik blister2...mula2 tu merah dan kecik2 aje...aku sangkakan mungkin sbb allergic skin care...rupa2nya...aku dah terkena chicken pox! Sebelum ni tak pernah tahu pon chicken pox tu camne rupa bentuknya...Kiranya, inilah kali pertama...terkene penyakit melarat ni...bila umur dah tua2..
Mmg teruk aku kene attack kat muka..pastu ka belakang telinga, badan, tapak tangan dan jari pon ade! tawakkal ajela..semoga scar tu akan hilang...Gegirl kene selang sehari dr aku...mmg sedeyla tgk keadaan gegirl..habis merah2 muka dia..hari kedua gegirl kene...dia dok meroyan...menangis2..terbangkit2 dr tido..tergaru2 badan dan anunya...itupon aku rase gegirl jadik naik gatal2 sbb my darling kasik dia makan ayam, telur dan fish finger tanpa pengetahuan aku...kesian my darling kurang arif pasal jaga org tgh chicken pox..
Punya gegirl meroyan..aku yg tgh tak larat habis dibalunnya..tak pasal2 bila menstrualnya datang..aku plak dibalingnya dgn botol air dia..kesian betul dgn aku..masa tu barula aku terpiki..takpela...kalu my darling nak bawak gegirl balik Mesia...aku pon tak kisah..nak tinggalkan gegirl kat Mesia pon aku ok2 aje..sbb mase tu aku mmg tak larat dan hanya berbaringan saje..Pukul 4 pagi baru gegirl berenti nangis dan tertidur...barula aku dapat lega sama nak lelapkan mata....mmg dugaan besar sungguh utk aku menghadapinya...Dgn ini kerja2 aku mula tergendala semula...Tak tahula bila nak habisnya kerja2 aku ni..Aku mmg kesian betul tgk chicken pox gegirl..kat bahagian 'shi-shi' dan bottom dia punyala berbintat2 besar...tak dapat aku nak imagine camnela sakitnya tu..mmg nampak ganas sungguh2 ganas chicken pox yg attack aku dan gegirl kali ni..berlainan spesies sungguh dr my son punya..
My darling alhamdulillah..cume kene sikit2 aje...alhamdulillah..my darling somi sporting lagi mithali...terpaksa ambil alih kerja2 aku uruskan anak2 dan rumah...tgk my darling lipat kain pon..aku mcm nak ketawa...aku siap tanya soalan bodoh:
'lipat kain ke tu my darling?'
Sepanjang perkahwinan kami, aku tak pernah nampak my darling lipat baju...kiranya baru pertama kali nampak dia melipat...barula tau mcmana kekdahnya somi sendiri melipat baju......nak tau jugak mcmana 'PERFECTIONIST' melipat baju...
Selang sehari aku kene chicken pox..my darling balik dr kerja..hari Jumaat seingat aku..siap belikan aku bunga kekwa hidup...katenya supaya aku cepat sembuh...Macam2 aje my darling...masa aku sihat..dok merengek2 kat dia minta belanja aku belikan bunga lily atau bunga ros..takde plak dia nak belikan...tapi, bila aku dah terlantar ni...barula dia terfikir nak belikan utk aku...agaknya dia mula faham..bunga dalam rumah ni menyegarkan...menghidupkan suasana...anyway, I appreciate very much for his flower...cume tak dapat nak kiss...sbb aku dah jadik 'UGLY URSULA' camni...
Semuanya bermula dr my son...3 weeks ago sewaktu cuti sekolah...pendek kata rancangan aku nak beriya mengajar my son hand out dr cikgunya sumenya tergendala..my son byk berehat..dan sewaktu dia dah nak mula recover..aku plak tiba2 demam panas sejuk..mengigil pon ade..selang beberapa hari...hah itu dia....muka aku naik blister2...mula2 tu merah dan kecik2 aje...aku sangkakan mungkin sbb allergic skin care...rupa2nya...aku dah terkena chicken pox! Sebelum ni tak pernah tahu pon chicken pox tu camne rupa bentuknya...Kiranya, inilah kali pertama...terkene penyakit melarat ni...bila umur dah tua2..
Mmg teruk aku kene attack kat muka..pastu ka belakang telinga, badan, tapak tangan dan jari pon ade! tawakkal ajela..semoga scar tu akan hilang...Gegirl kene selang sehari dr aku...mmg sedeyla tgk keadaan gegirl..habis merah2 muka dia..hari kedua gegirl kene...dia dok meroyan...menangis2..terbangkit2 dr tido..tergaru2 badan dan anunya...itupon aku rase gegirl jadik naik gatal2 sbb my darling kasik dia makan ayam, telur dan fish finger tanpa pengetahuan aku...kesian my darling kurang arif pasal jaga org tgh chicken pox..
Punya gegirl meroyan..aku yg tgh tak larat habis dibalunnya..tak pasal2 bila menstrualnya datang..aku plak dibalingnya dgn botol air dia..kesian betul dgn aku..masa tu barula aku terpiki..takpela...kalu my darling nak bawak gegirl balik Mesia...aku pon tak kisah..nak tinggalkan gegirl kat Mesia pon aku ok2 aje..sbb mase tu aku mmg tak larat dan hanya berbaringan saje..Pukul 4 pagi baru gegirl berenti nangis dan tertidur...barula aku dapat lega sama nak lelapkan mata....mmg dugaan besar sungguh utk aku menghadapinya...Dgn ini kerja2 aku mula tergendala semula...Tak tahula bila nak habisnya kerja2 aku ni..Aku mmg kesian betul tgk chicken pox gegirl..kat bahagian 'shi-shi' dan bottom dia punyala berbintat2 besar...tak dapat aku nak imagine camnela sakitnya tu..mmg nampak ganas sungguh2 ganas chicken pox yg attack aku dan gegirl kali ni..berlainan spesies sungguh dr my son punya..
My darling alhamdulillah..cume kene sikit2 aje...alhamdulillah..my darling somi sporting lagi mithali...terpaksa ambil alih kerja2 aku uruskan anak2 dan rumah...tgk my darling lipat kain pon..aku mcm nak ketawa...aku siap tanya soalan bodoh:
'lipat kain ke tu my darling?'
Sepanjang perkahwinan kami, aku tak pernah nampak my darling lipat baju...kiranya baru pertama kali nampak dia melipat...barula tau mcmana kekdahnya somi sendiri melipat baju......nak tau jugak mcmana 'PERFECTIONIST' melipat baju...
Selang sehari aku kene chicken pox..my darling balik dr kerja..hari Jumaat seingat aku..siap belikan aku bunga kekwa hidup...katenya supaya aku cepat sembuh...Macam2 aje my darling...masa aku sihat..dok merengek2 kat dia minta belanja aku belikan bunga lily atau bunga ros..takde plak dia nak belikan...tapi, bila aku dah terlantar ni...barula dia terfikir nak belikan utk aku...agaknya dia mula faham..bunga dalam rumah ni menyegarkan...menghidupkan suasana...anyway, I appreciate very much for his flower...cume tak dapat nak kiss...sbb aku dah jadik 'UGLY URSULA' camni...
Monday, April 21, 2008
As what I've planned..
As what I've planned in previous blog..this morning I came to see Mike. Hoping I could sort out at least 1 of my outstanding works. Unfortunately, it wasnt happened as I hope it should be. Mike told me..the person incharge for nano indentor was not in...I was totally numb..deep inside really frustated to hear his words. I just totally couldnt understand, why couldnt he double checked wether Paul was in this morning if he knew from the beginning we were about to see him???? I was trying to convince, maybe Mike already in his 60s...and that was the reason he couldnt make good senses out of these...
I was negotiating with him, if I could ever occupied my free time to do some photographing with his equipment. Because this was the only time that I had...and it wasnt that simple for my darling simply to take one day off work JUST because of me...I was explaining my situation, that at the moment my son is sick..so, someone has to take turn to look after the children when one of us is not at home. I was about to scream in my heart..but at the same time..trying to pretend that I was OK..again, he buffed me off..telling me...that I was just to quick to do everything...Arghhhh, why on earth I should be dealing a person like this...Throughout discussion, I could see, his trying to project he knew better than anybody! Well, I just dont bother....may be that is REALLY him..How could I change people to happy with me??? Leaving his lab...I was mumbling alone..how my times had been wasted this time..because of this improper Mike's planning...
I walked away his lab..peeking, Pete's lab..and I was lucky enough..his machine was available..in fact, I could do some data retrieving..and transferred them to my pocket drive..at least, COOL.. I had something to do today...
I was negotiating with him, if I could ever occupied my free time to do some photographing with his equipment. Because this was the only time that I had...and it wasnt that simple for my darling simply to take one day off work JUST because of me...I was explaining my situation, that at the moment my son is sick..so, someone has to take turn to look after the children when one of us is not at home. I was about to scream in my heart..but at the same time..trying to pretend that I was OK..again, he buffed me off..telling me...that I was just to quick to do everything...Arghhhh, why on earth I should be dealing a person like this...Throughout discussion, I could see, his trying to project he knew better than anybody! Well, I just dont bother....may be that is REALLY him..How could I change people to happy with me??? Leaving his lab...I was mumbling alone..how my times had been wasted this time..because of this improper Mike's planning...
I walked away his lab..peeking, Pete's lab..and I was lucky enough..his machine was available..in fact, I could do some data retrieving..and transferred them to my pocket drive..at least, COOL.. I had something to do today...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Oil of Olay..
I was lucky because met very good offer in Superdrug yesterday. I bought oil of olay 2 items for just £17.99. The package offer me to buy 'Olay Total Effects Moisturizer' and 'eye cream' together at definitely bargain price! I've been comparing the price all these while in other stores and none of them can beat Superdrug's deal for sure! Its nearly 40% off..and it really drove me crazy...How could I stop myself from buying them while it was more than a month I was moaning in wanting them..but was retarded many times..because sick of the price!
Olay products are quite pricey here. But still reasonable if you want to compare it with high end product such as Estee Lauder, Lancome, Dior and Chanel. I was with Estee Lauder's products in the past. Yet, until now still using its cleanser, serum and scrub. Had tried lancome once. But, Estee Lauder is always my choice! The reason I am now keen to give a try on Olay because of I was appealed to see my sister in law's bright and flawless skin! My preference on Olay over Estee Lauder's moisturizer is due the fact that..it is much cheaper, provely works with additional sun protection! This is just perfect moisturizer that am longing for...and I hope will suit me BEST! Otherwise, I may need to turn myself back to Estee Lauder..which means...more money to spend!
Olay products are quite pricey here. But still reasonable if you want to compare it with high end product such as Estee Lauder, Lancome, Dior and Chanel. I was with Estee Lauder's products in the past. Yet, until now still using its cleanser, serum and scrub. Had tried lancome once. But, Estee Lauder is always my choice! The reason I am now keen to give a try on Olay because of I was appealed to see my sister in law's bright and flawless skin! My preference on Olay over Estee Lauder's moisturizer is due the fact that..it is much cheaper, provely works with additional sun protection! This is just perfect moisturizer that am longing for...and I hope will suit me BEST! Otherwise, I may need to turn myself back to Estee Lauder..which means...more money to spend!
Hopeless me...
Aku dah naik hopeless...yesterday, I was like over the moon, today, I am very bloody hopeless and may be tomorrow, I can feel myself as totally useless..
Why on earth, I should be doing all of these? I just dont know? Am I really want to be a doctor? The answer is-I just dont know? All in my life, I just following the flow..wherever I should go..follow by the wind...without I even plan where should I go..Pity me..sometimes lost on her way..But, most of the time she is lucky..because she always hit her best luck with possibility of prosper future.
Tomorrow, am going to see Mike. To see wether their indentor is good enough for my work. I also about to ask him, wether he is kind enough to allow me to use his optical microscopy..I was about to see Pete too if am lucky enough. Just to ask his opinion about some of my works and hope he could be able to offer me some explainantions. May luck always be with me...
Why on earth, I should be doing all of these? I just dont know? Am I really want to be a doctor? The answer is-I just dont know? All in my life, I just following the flow..wherever I should go..follow by the wind...without I even plan where should I go..Pity me..sometimes lost on her way..But, most of the time she is lucky..because she always hit her best luck with possibility of prosper future.
Tomorrow, am going to see Mike. To see wether their indentor is good enough for my work. I also about to ask him, wether he is kind enough to allow me to use his optical microscopy..I was about to see Pete too if am lucky enough. Just to ask his opinion about some of my works and hope he could be able to offer me some explainantions. May luck always be with me...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Boboi oh boboi...
Sebenarnya mcm nak naik fed up buat kerja2 rumah..yg tak habis2..routine dan setiap kali buat bende yg sama.....really2 make me sick! rumah aku pon skrg dah rupa tak semenggah mcm kapal karam..malas aku nak beriya2 nak kemas selalu..sbb biasala...sekejap je rumah tu terkemas...selepas tu akan tetap bersepah..
Hari ni aku bagitau boboi yg he has to bring down his bottle to the kitchen first thing in the morning..boboi cume senyum2...aku dah letih nak naik hangin...kalu boboi throw on tantrum just because he wanted me to do his drink in prompt to..sedangkan..botol dia ntah bersepah2 ke mana2...many times, I stressed to him...not to rush on me while am in the middle of something...but he keeps doing and doing it..pestering me...so, pls son.....please be more sensible and not too demanding...So, I told boboi before he had his milo on bed upstair tonight..
Mom-"Every day, first thing in the morning, you should find and bring your bottle down to the kitchen. Ok, can you tell me know, what you should be doing everday early in the morning?"
Boboi just nodded and gazed back to me..
Boboi-"Bring my bottle down to the kitchen"
Mom-"Do you know why you have to do that?"
Boboi cume semyum2 tersipu2..
Boboi-"Why?"
Mom-"Because, it is easier..we not need to put ourselves in trouble while you are pestering wanting your drink in the bottle in immediate seconds"
Tak pastila sama ada boboi dapat atau tidak message aku tuh...Kkdg bebudak ni..everything needs reasoning...so, mudah sket dia nak terima message kita nih..elok plak saat2 camni sng jek aku nak temperature-mental sbb aku dah asik tido tak menentu...badan pon rase tak sedap.....tambah plak, boboikan tak sihat...
Semalam pon, aku siap train boboi vacuum lantai..mmgla tak perfect...sbb boboi cume budak umur 5 taun...tapi, okla..utk tahap budak kecik..SBBnya..mommy&daddy dah letih kene jadik maid kat rumah...soooo, sape buat sepah...silakan amik vacuum...dan vacuum balik tpt yg dorang sepahkan..Trick aku suh bebudak makan atas mat pon, dah nampak mcm menjadi...mula2 tu..mmgla si gegirl tu yg selalu buat spoil...tak mo dgr instruction..sesuka hati nak duduk dan lari sana sini...tak mo duduk dalam mat waktu makan...dah couple of days..nampaknya bebudak dah ok...kurangla sepahnya berbanding sblm2nya..
Dalam aku rushing2 ni..teringat plak si boboi dgn plan2 kitaorg sblm start cuti sekolah..'bake chocolate muffin' for the house.....konon2nya nak buat aktiviti bersama..tapi, sampai lani tak tersempat aku membuatnya...tgkla dulu boboi...mommy tak janji...si boboi pon aku ngk sejak aku wat keje lewat pagi..mata dia pon sama membengkak..sbb dok temankan mommy sekali buat keje lewat malam..sebenarnya, aku dah suh boboi tidur awal..tapi, dia yg mcm tak bule nak lelap..kalu tgk mommy berjaga....elok plak...skrg ni cuti sekolah..so, tak kisah sgt kalu boboi lambat bangun...Biasanya sblm dia tido...dia akan minta aku kertas dan pensil atau pen..sbb dia nak melukis katanya..Adela nampak skill melukisnya serba sedikit..siap aku kumpulkan satu fail..tak bagi bebudak tu sepah2..
Mata aku pon dah naik lain mcm...dah nampak dark circle..nampak no tak sihatnya aku nih...ingat nak cube gak...tido awai mlm dan buat keje awai pagi...nyampah tgk keadaan aku skrg..but, i guess sume dalam idup ni pon perlukan pengorbanan...Aku cube cover kehodohan kulit muka aku ni..dgn rewarding myself with in house facial...I found, exfoliating regularly...does irritate my skin..so, I chose rather not to do that too often..but, at the moment..I try my best to masker muka aku dgn yogurt+honey+mashed banana daily..Well, aku dah give up with commercial products..sume pon hampeh...buat muka aku jadik break out adela..from cheap to high end brand..sume pon..crapped! Natural mask...works really good on me..my skin's texture and complexion are much better now..in fact, I look fairer compared 2 mths back..So, hambik ko..busy body...yg dok kata muka aku dah terbako! I just sometimes cannot cope with people named 'busy body'..her comments sometimes..JUST totally UNSOUND and IRRITATIVE...I dont think I should feel sorry to ignore her..although at the same time..I knew her..fond by others...But, to be honest...I dont think she is truely a pleasant person..By the way, better off to keep my mouth shut..rather than saying..
Petang2 tadi jugak aku sempat testing gegirlnya IQ dgn flash card...about animals..cume beberapa jenis binatang& insect aje yg dia tahu nama dia..naik tergeletek aku dgr dia dok sebut nama2 binatang dan insects tu...yg lawaknya...tiger pon dikatanya miaw...tu yg aku terus propose kat my darling...kot2 sblm masuk sekolah ni..kami sekeluarga dapat lawat zoo...dapat gak gegirl ni kenal binatang2 kat dalam dunia ni...
spider-spaya
cat-kkdg sebut cat..kkdg sebut miaw
turtle-turtle
fish-fish
Sometimes tu, mmgla terasa kepuasan..jaga gegirl dgn tgn sendiri..adela butir english tu kuar dr mulut dia..but, yg aku pasan..dia lagi mudah speaking malay dr english..maybe because aku byk cakap malay..atau sbb bahasa melayu tu sendiri mudah org nak catch up...
Hari ni aku bagitau boboi yg he has to bring down his bottle to the kitchen first thing in the morning..boboi cume senyum2...aku dah letih nak naik hangin...kalu boboi throw on tantrum just because he wanted me to do his drink in prompt to..sedangkan..botol dia ntah bersepah2 ke mana2...many times, I stressed to him...not to rush on me while am in the middle of something...but he keeps doing and doing it..pestering me...so, pls son.....please be more sensible and not too demanding...So, I told boboi before he had his milo on bed upstair tonight..
Mom-"Every day, first thing in the morning, you should find and bring your bottle down to the kitchen. Ok, can you tell me know, what you should be doing everday early in the morning?"
Boboi just nodded and gazed back to me..
Boboi-"Bring my bottle down to the kitchen"
Mom-"Do you know why you have to do that?"
Boboi cume semyum2 tersipu2..
Boboi-"Why?"
Mom-"Because, it is easier..we not need to put ourselves in trouble while you are pestering wanting your drink in the bottle in immediate seconds"
Tak pastila sama ada boboi dapat atau tidak message aku tuh...Kkdg bebudak ni..everything needs reasoning...so, mudah sket dia nak terima message kita nih..elok plak saat2 camni sng jek aku nak temperature-mental sbb aku dah asik tido tak menentu...badan pon rase tak sedap.....tambah plak, boboikan tak sihat...
Semalam pon, aku siap train boboi vacuum lantai..mmgla tak perfect...sbb boboi cume budak umur 5 taun...tapi, okla..utk tahap budak kecik..SBBnya..mommy&daddy dah letih kene jadik maid kat rumah...soooo, sape buat sepah...silakan amik vacuum...dan vacuum balik tpt yg dorang sepahkan..Trick aku suh bebudak makan atas mat pon, dah nampak mcm menjadi...mula2 tu..mmgla si gegirl tu yg selalu buat spoil...tak mo dgr instruction..sesuka hati nak duduk dan lari sana sini...tak mo duduk dalam mat waktu makan...dah couple of days..nampaknya bebudak dah ok...kurangla sepahnya berbanding sblm2nya..
Dalam aku rushing2 ni..teringat plak si boboi dgn plan2 kitaorg sblm start cuti sekolah..'bake chocolate muffin' for the house.....konon2nya nak buat aktiviti bersama..tapi, sampai lani tak tersempat aku membuatnya...tgkla dulu boboi...mommy tak janji...si boboi pon aku ngk sejak aku wat keje lewat pagi..mata dia pon sama membengkak..sbb dok temankan mommy sekali buat keje lewat malam..sebenarnya, aku dah suh boboi tidur awal..tapi, dia yg mcm tak bule nak lelap..kalu tgk mommy berjaga....elok plak...skrg ni cuti sekolah..so, tak kisah sgt kalu boboi lambat bangun...Biasanya sblm dia tido...dia akan minta aku kertas dan pensil atau pen..sbb dia nak melukis katanya..Adela nampak skill melukisnya serba sedikit..siap aku kumpulkan satu fail..tak bagi bebudak tu sepah2..
Mata aku pon dah naik lain mcm...dah nampak dark circle..nampak no tak sihatnya aku nih...ingat nak cube gak...tido awai mlm dan buat keje awai pagi...nyampah tgk keadaan aku skrg..but, i guess sume dalam idup ni pon perlukan pengorbanan...Aku cube cover kehodohan kulit muka aku ni..dgn rewarding myself with in house facial...I found, exfoliating regularly...does irritate my skin..so, I chose rather not to do that too often..but, at the moment..I try my best to masker muka aku dgn yogurt+honey+mashed banana daily..Well, aku dah give up with commercial products..sume pon hampeh...buat muka aku jadik break out adela..from cheap to high end brand..sume pon..crapped! Natural mask...works really good on me..my skin's texture and complexion are much better now..in fact, I look fairer compared 2 mths back..So, hambik ko..busy body...yg dok kata muka aku dah terbako! I just sometimes cannot cope with people named 'busy body'..her comments sometimes..JUST totally UNSOUND and IRRITATIVE...I dont think I should feel sorry to ignore her..although at the same time..I knew her..fond by others...But, to be honest...I dont think she is truely a pleasant person..By the way, better off to keep my mouth shut..rather than saying..
Petang2 tadi jugak aku sempat testing gegirlnya IQ dgn flash card...about animals..cume beberapa jenis binatang& insect aje yg dia tahu nama dia..naik tergeletek aku dgr dia dok sebut nama2 binatang dan insects tu...yg lawaknya...tiger pon dikatanya miaw...tu yg aku terus propose kat my darling...kot2 sblm masuk sekolah ni..kami sekeluarga dapat lawat zoo...dapat gak gegirl ni kenal binatang2 kat dalam dunia ni...
spider-spaya
cat-kkdg sebut cat..kkdg sebut miaw
turtle-turtle
fish-fish
Sometimes tu, mmgla terasa kepuasan..jaga gegirl dgn tgn sendiri..adela butir english tu kuar dr mulut dia..but, yg aku pasan..dia lagi mudah speaking malay dr english..maybe because aku byk cakap malay..atau sbb bahasa melayu tu sendiri mudah org nak catch up...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Mas...oh Mas...
Hari ini aku nak bercerita ttg kawan lama aku...junior aku sms di MRSM dulu2...nama dia Mas...skrg sambung belaja PhD kat Aussie...
Seingat aku...mmg aku ngan dia agak baik masa di MRSM dulu2...walaupon, ade sorang kawan aku yg kurang berkenan aku ngamceng sgt dgn junior..tapi, ntah..aku sememangnya tak kisah..mmgla mase di MRSM dulu, ade org sgt2 particular junior tak bule nak selamba rock sgt dgn senior...ala2 ego gitu! by the way, as long as it wouldnt harm me..It definitely wouldnt bother..
Walaupon kami satu MRSM...kami dua masih rajin lagi exchange surat...sampaila kami di UKM...dan aku ingat lagi..dia bagitau aku sambil berseloroh sewaktu kami berjumpa semula setelah sekian lamanya kami tak jumpa...kat Kamsis Ibu Zain...
"satu UKM pon masih bersurat2an.."
Aku mmg sgt2 ingat Mas ni satu2nya junior aku...sbb...diala junior yg paing rajin mengcontact aku..walaupon dah habis MRSM...dan mmg sgt segar diingatan aku...Mas ni terror English...SBBNYA??? Kalu dia bercakap mcm ade bunyi slang2 sket...dan kalu kasik surat tu..siap ade poem Shakespeare!! sungguh mengagumkan! Aku kagum..sbb aku sendiri pon tak pandai nak ber'shakespeare'...
Dan aku ingat lagi..aku pernah let her down..sbb tak dpt nak hadir ke majlis akak dia kawen di Johor..bersungguh2 dia ajak aku...siap tepon dr Johor tak silap aku...still aku couldnt make it..ALASANNYA...sbb aku tgh POKAI and KOKAK sgt2 mase tu...mmg takde duit nak bayar tambang....huhuhuhu..kesiannya kat aku...
Yg terharunya, sms aku di UKM..dia bagitau aku..yg dia masuk UKM..sbb dia ikut2 aku...wah....terasa macam aku ni IDOLA...my GOD??? ade jugak org jadikan aku idola dorang???mmg sgt2la aku terharu...Dan yg paling percaya tak percaya..aku dan Mas skrg coicidently menceburkan diri dalam bidang akademik...dan lani memperjudikan diri pi buat PhD..cume bezanya...aku di UK dan dia di Aussie...Sebenarnya, aku mmg bangga dgn Mas..sbb setau aku, she did very well her job di UUM..siap sempat naik pangkat segala sblm further study kat Aussie...
Last sekali kami berjumpa...about 6-7 years back..kat warung roti canai..kat Semenyih...belanja Mas sarapan pagi...dan sampai skrg kami tak jumpa2 lagi...
Dan di pagi2 nihari, di waktu sume org nyenyak tido..aku berkomunikasi dgn dia setelah sekian lamanya kami tak berhubung through YM...and lucky enough..dia dgn baik hatinya tlg aku mendapatkan journal2 yg aku sdg dok godek2 tak jumpa dalam system ni..tapi, kene pi library...Thanks Mas..Big thanks to you...Syukur sgt2, di saat boboi kene chicken pox..dan mommy tak bule nak keluar pi skool..ade jugak yg sudi tlg mommy carikan journal2 utk mommy...Alhamdulillah..syukur....
Seingat aku...mmg aku ngan dia agak baik masa di MRSM dulu2...walaupon, ade sorang kawan aku yg kurang berkenan aku ngamceng sgt dgn junior..tapi, ntah..aku sememangnya tak kisah..mmgla mase di MRSM dulu, ade org sgt2 particular junior tak bule nak selamba rock sgt dgn senior...ala2 ego gitu! by the way, as long as it wouldnt harm me..It definitely wouldnt bother..
Walaupon kami satu MRSM...kami dua masih rajin lagi exchange surat...sampaila kami di UKM...dan aku ingat lagi..dia bagitau aku sambil berseloroh sewaktu kami berjumpa semula setelah sekian lamanya kami tak jumpa...kat Kamsis Ibu Zain...
"satu UKM pon masih bersurat2an.."
Aku mmg sgt2 ingat Mas ni satu2nya junior aku...sbb...diala junior yg paing rajin mengcontact aku..walaupon dah habis MRSM...dan mmg sgt segar diingatan aku...Mas ni terror English...SBBNYA??? Kalu dia bercakap mcm ade bunyi slang2 sket...dan kalu kasik surat tu..siap ade poem Shakespeare!! sungguh mengagumkan! Aku kagum..sbb aku sendiri pon tak pandai nak ber'shakespeare'...
Dan aku ingat lagi..aku pernah let her down..sbb tak dpt nak hadir ke majlis akak dia kawen di Johor..bersungguh2 dia ajak aku...siap tepon dr Johor tak silap aku...still aku couldnt make it..ALASANNYA...sbb aku tgh POKAI and KOKAK sgt2 mase tu...mmg takde duit nak bayar tambang....huhuhuhu..kesiannya kat aku...
Yg terharunya, sms aku di UKM..dia bagitau aku..yg dia masuk UKM..sbb dia ikut2 aku...wah....terasa macam aku ni IDOLA...my GOD??? ade jugak org jadikan aku idola dorang???mmg sgt2la aku terharu...Dan yg paling percaya tak percaya..aku dan Mas skrg coicidently menceburkan diri dalam bidang akademik...dan lani memperjudikan diri pi buat PhD..cume bezanya...aku di UK dan dia di Aussie...Sebenarnya, aku mmg bangga dgn Mas..sbb setau aku, she did very well her job di UUM..siap sempat naik pangkat segala sblm further study kat Aussie...
Last sekali kami berjumpa...about 6-7 years back..kat warung roti canai..kat Semenyih...belanja Mas sarapan pagi...dan sampai skrg kami tak jumpa2 lagi...
Dan di pagi2 nihari, di waktu sume org nyenyak tido..aku berkomunikasi dgn dia setelah sekian lamanya kami tak berhubung through YM...and lucky enough..dia dgn baik hatinya tlg aku mendapatkan journal2 yg aku sdg dok godek2 tak jumpa dalam system ni..tapi, kene pi library...Thanks Mas..Big thanks to you...Syukur sgt2, di saat boboi kene chicken pox..dan mommy tak bule nak keluar pi skool..ade jugak yg sudi tlg mommy carikan journal2 utk mommy...Alhamdulillah..syukur....
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Boboi kene chicken pox....
Hari ini dalam sejarah boboy kene cicken pox..sebenarnya since 2 days ago dia dah diserang chicken pox...cume, kami saje yg tak perasan..Ingatkan luka kat welly dia tu disebabkan dia kegatalan sbb kot2 cuci tak bersih lepas buang air kecik..Sebenarnya 'chicken pox' ni mmg penyakit yg aku rase parents dreading most..especially, aku yg tgh sibuk dgn study...doa2nya tuhan selamatkan aku dr terkena jangkitan chicken pox ni sbb mak aku sendiri pon tak ingat sama ada aku dah terkena penyakit ni ke belum...Apa2pon, aku tawakkal tu alallah sahaja...Amin..
Sebenarnya, aku dah dapat solution org nak jagakan anak aku...tapi, dah jadi begini..terpaksala aku mungkin posponekan..dek kerana aku takut2 gakla penyakit tu berjangkit kat member tu...since rumah yg aku nak tumpangkan si gegirl tu...tgh sarat peknen dan menanti nak melahirkan dalam bulan depan...so, should i be selfish???..definitely, my answer is 'NO'..again, my routine aku tetap mcm sebelum2nya...dok rumah sambil jaga anak..sambil tu wat keje aku...
Smlm, aku jumpa 'M' utk wat hardness test. Impression aku ttg 'M' sejak aku had phone conversation ngan dia ialah...aku rase dia ni ala2 mat salleh 'sarcastic'..Beriya dia cakap itu ini seolah2 testing aku ni tak possible..in fact, ade yg dia bebelkan..aku sendiri tak paham...atau dia sengaja nak buat aku tak paham...tapi, as usual..aku tak kisah pon org nak boasting atau nak cakap repek raban dgn aku..kemudian, dia pi suggest kat aku..aku should wat nanoindention..walaupon, sebenar2nya aku dah konfem ssgt aku mmg bule wat test kat situ..agaknya mungkin pasal 'M' ni dah tua..dah 60+ yrs aku rasa..sbb aku tgk tangan dia dah kuar spot2..kemudian, dia lukis bentuk kotak pon gigil2...dan aku pon tak pasti samaada aku ada mmg dia sengaja wat gambar kotak tu mengigil2..pastu, dia macam sengaja nak menyusahkan kerja aku..bagi alasan itu ini..termasuk kondem journal paper yg aku tunjukkan kat dia..ntah, katenya dia tak paham value hardness journal paper tu..kemudian, kata2 dia tu mcm tak mahu nak buat kerja aku...dalam hati aku, rasa geram pon ader..tapi, apa2 pon mcm biasa aku tetap kontrol macho aku...sebenarnya dah puas aku bagitau dia...yg particle aku tu sebesar 700 micron...so with micro indenter yg ade kat lab dia tu dah cukup sufficient..sbb dia bule indent at the min 3 micron...tapi, ntah kenapa..mungkin juga sbb diadah tua...dan hanya melihat sample yg aku bawa tu dgn mata kasar..dok, mulut dia kata balik2 tak possible..bila aku tunjuk gamba optical microcopy aku..barula dia nak agree dgn aku...kemudian aku mula terdetik..takkan kat kepala otak dia tu tak terdetik...size 600 micron tu berapa besarnya???? apa2pon, aku smmgnya sgt2 happy..sbb tahu yg bende aku nak buat tu possible...
At the same time, aku frust jugak..sbb Prof tu tak balas lagi email aku...mungkin jugak, Prof tu sendiri tatau camne nak wat experiment tu atau tak tahu nak jawab soalan aku...
Hari ini jugak, aku merajinkan diri mencuba resepi baru..'haddock vegetable pasta'..my darling cakap..rase pie aku macam hotel, luxurious and expensive food..naik kembang bontot aku dgr my darling kasik komen...aku pon dok asik bertamabh bersenduk2 makan pasta tu..sampai nak naik kembang perut aku..konon2 nak diet...tapi, setiap kali nak diet tula byk tul cabarannya...kalu ikutkan majalah Rosmary Conley tu..within 2 weeks aku bule susut 3-4kgs...tapi, itula..nak tahan makan sehari pon dah seksa..inikan plak, sampai 2 minggu???? walau apa pon, aku tetap cube nak minum air sbyk 2 liter sehari...sbb nak treat from inside...kulit aku yg skrg dah jadik kering kontang...
Sebenarnya, aku dah dapat solution org nak jagakan anak aku...tapi, dah jadi begini..terpaksala aku mungkin posponekan..dek kerana aku takut2 gakla penyakit tu berjangkit kat member tu...since rumah yg aku nak tumpangkan si gegirl tu...tgh sarat peknen dan menanti nak melahirkan dalam bulan depan...so, should i be selfish???..definitely, my answer is 'NO'..again, my routine aku tetap mcm sebelum2nya...dok rumah sambil jaga anak..sambil tu wat keje aku...
Smlm, aku jumpa 'M' utk wat hardness test. Impression aku ttg 'M' sejak aku had phone conversation ngan dia ialah...aku rase dia ni ala2 mat salleh 'sarcastic'..Beriya dia cakap itu ini seolah2 testing aku ni tak possible..in fact, ade yg dia bebelkan..aku sendiri tak paham...atau dia sengaja nak buat aku tak paham...tapi, as usual..aku tak kisah pon org nak boasting atau nak cakap repek raban dgn aku..kemudian, dia pi suggest kat aku..aku should wat nanoindention..walaupon, sebenar2nya aku dah konfem ssgt aku mmg bule wat test kat situ..agaknya mungkin pasal 'M' ni dah tua..dah 60+ yrs aku rasa..sbb aku tgk tangan dia dah kuar spot2..kemudian, dia lukis bentuk kotak pon gigil2...dan aku pon tak pasti samaada aku ada mmg dia sengaja wat gambar kotak tu mengigil2..pastu, dia macam sengaja nak menyusahkan kerja aku..bagi alasan itu ini..termasuk kondem journal paper yg aku tunjukkan kat dia..ntah, katenya dia tak paham value hardness journal paper tu..kemudian, kata2 dia tu mcm tak mahu nak buat kerja aku...dalam hati aku, rasa geram pon ader..tapi, apa2 pon mcm biasa aku tetap kontrol macho aku...sebenarnya dah puas aku bagitau dia...yg particle aku tu sebesar 700 micron...so with micro indenter yg ade kat lab dia tu dah cukup sufficient..sbb dia bule indent at the min 3 micron...tapi, ntah kenapa..mungkin juga sbb diadah tua...dan hanya melihat sample yg aku bawa tu dgn mata kasar..dok, mulut dia kata balik2 tak possible..bila aku tunjuk gamba optical microcopy aku..barula dia nak agree dgn aku...kemudian aku mula terdetik..takkan kat kepala otak dia tu tak terdetik...size 600 micron tu berapa besarnya???? apa2pon, aku smmgnya sgt2 happy..sbb tahu yg bende aku nak buat tu possible...
At the same time, aku frust jugak..sbb Prof tu tak balas lagi email aku...mungkin jugak, Prof tu sendiri tatau camne nak wat experiment tu atau tak tahu nak jawab soalan aku...
Hari ini jugak, aku merajinkan diri mencuba resepi baru..'haddock vegetable pasta'..my darling cakap..rase pie aku macam hotel, luxurious and expensive food..naik kembang bontot aku dgr my darling kasik komen...aku pon dok asik bertamabh bersenduk2 makan pasta tu..sampai nak naik kembang perut aku..konon2 nak diet...tapi, setiap kali nak diet tula byk tul cabarannya...kalu ikutkan majalah Rosmary Conley tu..within 2 weeks aku bule susut 3-4kgs...tapi, itula..nak tahan makan sehari pon dah seksa..inikan plak, sampai 2 minggu???? walau apa pon, aku tetap cube nak minum air sbyk 2 liter sehari...sbb nak treat from inside...kulit aku yg skrg dah jadik kering kontang...
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Gementar
Kelmarin, aku ctc this bulk handling expertise..dan tak sangka dorang nak gak jawap soalan aku promptly!...panjang lebar reply dia sampai aku pon naik tak paham..wahahhahah...
Hari ini, aku mcm kesuspenan, sbb aku email plak kat sorang professor tanya soalan basic..mungkin pada dia soalan budak kecik..tapi...aku just try my luck..and never mind kalu dia nak marah pon sbb aku mmg tak clear dgn certain2 parts dalam research aku..harap2..dia dgn baik atinya akan explain to me bit by bit..cume aku tataula sama ada response dia adakah secepat si Lyn Bates..Nervous pon ade...sbb paham2 ajela profesor ni kkdg susah nak jangka pemikiran dia..lagi2 bila dia rasakan soalan yg tak challenging...by the way..aku just guna nick name aku..dan dia tatau pon aku dr mana...
Senin baru ni aku ctc Mike ty pasal possibility aku nak wat hardness test..mmm for the first he sounds unhelpful..mungkin dia sendiri doubt and has no experience in measuring hardness for micron particles..I just dont bother..adela a few of his concerns but it never stop me from doing this test...whatever it si, I have too! I am so over the moon, because I discover something...that makes me feel...the satisfaction feeling as a researcher..
Citer pasal anak2 kat umah spjg cuti sekolah..dorang sume termasuk aku bangkit lewat...dan beberapa hari keje aku terbengkalai sbb excited pasal nak survey2 rumah...elok plak my son jatuh sakit dan kemudian gegirl plak terjangkit..cume yg aku musykil dgn se gegirl..lepas makan ubat...bukan main lincah macam org tak sakit..
Skrg ni aku cube aim utk gosok gigi gegirl kerap lagi..sbb aku tgk gigi kapak dia dah mula accumulate cavities..it looks ugly...aku rase cavities to sng build up sbb gegirl pernah jatuh kat bath tub masa dia kecik2 dulu..sbb aku tgk..gigi my son tu ok cantik je nampaknya...aku ajar gegirl tu open her mouth wide...and ask her to give me her tounge supaya mudah aku nak berus lidah dia..kalu tak tu..aku rase..semerbak je bau mulut dia...serupa mcm bau stool dia..
pagi ni gak aku rase excited..sbb games DK for my son yg aku won kat ebay with only 99p dah sampai...really worth of money walaupon postage dia mahal sket...tapi...sape nak kasik woooo...games tu dgn rega 99p..dah tu baru plaknya tu...yg aku menang sumenya ade 2 kotak games(numbers and alphabet)..pagi2, my son bangun..aku dah suruh dia buka present dia...punyala excited..tak sempat nak sarapan dah dan2 tu gak nak ajak aku main...game ni pada aku bagus...sbb aku nak mula stimulate my son..mula mengira...tambah dan tolak kalu bule..yg alphabet game tu pon bagus..sbb nak besakan my son dgn abjad2..kkdg ade gak my son suh aku baca dan eja itu dan ini...so, sambil2 tu..aku suh dia pk sendiri berdasarkan sound..mcmana nak eja words tu sume sendiri...aku pon kkdg tak larat nak layan..kalu dia asik nagging nak suruh aku eja dan mengeja sdgkan aku sibuk dgn keje2 umah dan sekolah aku kkdg tu...
Trick aku tuk gegirl stop from sucking her thumb pon dah nampak mcm ade hasil..tak perlu aku nak marah2..tak perlu aku nak beriya bubuh bende2 pahit kat thumb dia..cukup skdr aku bagitau dia berulang kali..sucking will hurt her thumb..nampaknya dia mcm paham...mmm, tapi itula susah juga nak kata..sbb aku baru mulakan trick tu hari ini..
my son pon dah nampak perubahannya..dah ade inisiatif kalu aku suruh2..walaupon kkdg tu polos juga...tapi, betterla fr in the past...
Hari ini, aku mcm kesuspenan, sbb aku email plak kat sorang professor tanya soalan basic..mungkin pada dia soalan budak kecik..tapi...aku just try my luck..and never mind kalu dia nak marah pon sbb aku mmg tak clear dgn certain2 parts dalam research aku..harap2..dia dgn baik atinya akan explain to me bit by bit..cume aku tataula sama ada response dia adakah secepat si Lyn Bates..Nervous pon ade...sbb paham2 ajela profesor ni kkdg susah nak jangka pemikiran dia..lagi2 bila dia rasakan soalan yg tak challenging...by the way..aku just guna nick name aku..dan dia tatau pon aku dr mana...
Senin baru ni aku ctc Mike ty pasal possibility aku nak wat hardness test..mmm for the first he sounds unhelpful..mungkin dia sendiri doubt and has no experience in measuring hardness for micron particles..I just dont bother..adela a few of his concerns but it never stop me from doing this test...whatever it si, I have too! I am so over the moon, because I discover something...that makes me feel...the satisfaction feeling as a researcher..
Citer pasal anak2 kat umah spjg cuti sekolah..dorang sume termasuk aku bangkit lewat...dan beberapa hari keje aku terbengkalai sbb excited pasal nak survey2 rumah...elok plak my son jatuh sakit dan kemudian gegirl plak terjangkit..cume yg aku musykil dgn se gegirl..lepas makan ubat...bukan main lincah macam org tak sakit..
Skrg ni aku cube aim utk gosok gigi gegirl kerap lagi..sbb aku tgk gigi kapak dia dah mula accumulate cavities..it looks ugly...aku rase cavities to sng build up sbb gegirl pernah jatuh kat bath tub masa dia kecik2 dulu..sbb aku tgk..gigi my son tu ok cantik je nampaknya...aku ajar gegirl tu open her mouth wide...and ask her to give me her tounge supaya mudah aku nak berus lidah dia..kalu tak tu..aku rase..semerbak je bau mulut dia...serupa mcm bau stool dia..
pagi ni gak aku rase excited..sbb games DK for my son yg aku won kat ebay with only 99p dah sampai...really worth of money walaupon postage dia mahal sket...tapi...sape nak kasik woooo...games tu dgn rega 99p..dah tu baru plaknya tu...yg aku menang sumenya ade 2 kotak games(numbers and alphabet)..pagi2, my son bangun..aku dah suruh dia buka present dia...punyala excited..tak sempat nak sarapan dah dan2 tu gak nak ajak aku main...game ni pada aku bagus...sbb aku nak mula stimulate my son..mula mengira...tambah dan tolak kalu bule..yg alphabet game tu pon bagus..sbb nak besakan my son dgn abjad2..kkdg ade gak my son suh aku baca dan eja itu dan ini...so, sambil2 tu..aku suh dia pk sendiri berdasarkan sound..mcmana nak eja words tu sume sendiri...aku pon kkdg tak larat nak layan..kalu dia asik nagging nak suruh aku eja dan mengeja sdgkan aku sibuk dgn keje2 umah dan sekolah aku kkdg tu...
Trick aku tuk gegirl stop from sucking her thumb pon dah nampak mcm ade hasil..tak perlu aku nak marah2..tak perlu aku nak beriya bubuh bende2 pahit kat thumb dia..cukup skdr aku bagitau dia berulang kali..sucking will hurt her thumb..nampaknya dia mcm paham...mmm, tapi itula susah juga nak kata..sbb aku baru mulakan trick tu hari ini..
my son pon dah nampak perubahannya..dah ade inisiatif kalu aku suruh2..walaupon kkdg tu polos juga...tapi, betterla fr in the past...
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