hari kurang marah..

Hari ni aku agak kurang marah..sbb apa aku kurang marah...sbb dua2 assistant aku sgt co-operative..aku kasik demand notice..terus derang wat settlement..so, save masa aku ngan my honey..cumenya skrg..ade 2 org je manusia degil..aku sms and whatapps mahupon e-mail, semuanya senyap sunyi..makna kata, kene gakla my honey menghadap yg muliaa J**. Bila derang da buat settlement..kurangla sket kebengangan aku ni..at least, aku lehla cakap kat bebudak yg ada..dont play2 if you want to blahhh fr here..kalu nak blahhh..pls, blahhh dgn cara yg betul..kalu nak blahh gitu2..hv to pay compensation..

Sbnrnya, aku dah gitau pon kat both my assistant..yg we dont want your money..but, we want your responsibility..tapi, ntah..masa aku gitau derang tu..mebe derang ingat aku main2 kot..atau salah aku juga yg tak buat action siap2 and cepat2 kat dua org budak yg peringkat awalnya buat taik...yelahkannnn, kitakan melayu..baik sgt..lagipon malas nak saman menyaman ni...tapi, lagi kita tak buat action..lagila plak derang ni nak pijak kepala..

Ha..bila da dtg surat saman..tau lak dia gabra..kalu tak..aku antar surat, whatappas and sms pon tak reti nak balas..

Yelah, kalu org da takde ati nak kije..tak yah nak paksa..nanti kang dia buat onar..aku ingat lagi my 2nd assistant..di hari2 terakhir dia kat sini..mcm org takde mood..almost everyday dtg lambat...

Aku tauu, bila aku strict, mmg ade manusia yg piss off dgn aku..tapi, gasak kolahhh..drpd ko menyesakkan kepala aku...aku ingat lagi my 1st experience pi naik court..hishhh mmg seriau..pehtu aku pi court plak sorang..takut gak weeyyy, manala tau on the way back aku kene tala...tak suspen..bila balik dr hearing, aku mesti akan cepat2 jalan..now, is my honey turn..tau plak dia suspen..hahahhaha...org cakap, kalu kita tak lalui...mmg kita takkan tahukannn..kan..kan...

Keparat!

04.04.16
Hari ni tajuk aku ade sedikit emo. Sbbnya, ade sorang important person keparat MIA without proper handover. Mmg kami maki habisla org mcm ini. Hati busuk, penting diri. Dr mula join pon sbnrnya da mcm ade gaya2 ketidakjujurannya. Hy join company for the sake nak dapatkan benefits. Semoga Allah berikan dia sebaik2 pengajaran utk org2 yg smcm ini..menyusahkan org!

Sblm tu aku da kasik muka dia cuti diam2 sebab nak b***k..da habis baik aku cube paham keadaan dia..and then aku kasik lagi dia chance utk dia cuti panjang for  m*******y...sewaktu ketiadaan dia..aku cube jugak utk paham yg mebe dia tak sempat nak handover betul2 sbb kelam kabut nak b***k...tinggalla sorang lagi assistant aku terkontang-kanting doing the job in the hard way..sampai tensen2..kesian gak aku ngk...

My 2nd assistant ni bukannya tak ok..so far aku suh wat kije..dia buat je...lebih pd ikut arahan...cume, dia tak independent sgt..kkdg aku ade gak teringatkan dia..such a nice girl..tapi, sygnya bila nak blah..main blah camtu je...tapi aku takdela terkilan sgt with my 2nd assistant ni...at least dia sempat nak mengajar budak temporary aku ni..kali ni aku amik budak belasan tahun..tapi, yg penting otak mesti pick uplakan..so, tak yahla aku nak bercakap berulang2 kali..besanya budak cerdik ni,.kalu kita cakap sekali..dia akan cepat sedar..dan takkan buat lagi..cumenya, kkdg agak berat mulut nak bertanya..mungkin segan takut org anggap dia mcm bodoh..

08.04.16
Yg paling aku sgt terkilan adalah dgn my 1st assistant..sepenuh kepercayaan aku berikan kepada dia..tapi, mcm ini plak caranya dia balas?? ko nak cuti pon aku tak kisah...ko dok cuti2 tak siap kije pon aku diam je tak byk songeh...rentak apa lagi yg dia nak aku tolerate ngan dia??? Aku bukanla minta balasan..tapi, at least biarla kalu nak blahh dgn cara yg elok..mmg seboleh mungkin aku cube nak paham keadaan dia..tp, bila dia buat mcm ni..sorry,,,aku dah tak nak paham apa2 dah..pada aku, apa yg dia buat adalah satu penganiayaan..sbb apa aku kata apa yg dia buat tu penganiayaan?? sbb aku ni sdg menunggu hari je nak melahirkan..untung Allah takdirkan aku bukan jenis beranak awal..sempatla, aku mengajar budak2 yg ada..pada aku..mengajar org ni adalah suatu kepuasaan jugak...Ntahla, mebe minah tu blahh sbb terpaksa atau terlalu ikut perasaan sbb tak sanggup berpisah ngan somi terchenta....tapi, pada pendapat akulakan..sblm blahhh...ko settlela dulu apa2 yg patut and bagitau apa yg settle and tak settle..takdela aku ni naik antu sgt...Alhamdullilah..so far, aku takdela tertekan sgt..cumenya, on Monday bila aku dapat berita..mmg aku rasa sgt2 terkilan...rasa mcm sampai hati betul budak ni buat kami mcm ni..Aku siap berdoa minah tu ditimpa musibah besar supaya dia belajar dr kesilapan dia..

Tapi, sekurang2nya, hari ni buatkan aku sedikit happy and lega..sbb, she responded to our e-mail and settlekan apa2 yg patut...Sblm tu aku mimpi, the girl came back to office to work with us again sambil tersenyum..Mebe she knew that she made mistake..Pagi tadi plak aku siap muntah2..dr situ aku belajar juga..tak yah nak siap2 doakan org nak ditimpa musibah..biar Allah sendiri je balas apa yg org buat kat kita..Perhaps she has learnt from mistake. Consider our case close when she has made necessary action. Aku rasa dia pon panas bontot kat nun luar negara sana..bila aku tulis surat yg we will lodge police report and masuk court case kalu dia tak settlekan apa2 yg patut..ko ingat aku tak nekad?? ye...aku nekad bila aku rasa amat2 dianiaya...

Dr sini juga aku dapat semangat to contact those troublemakers yg leaving the Company mcm tu je...we will not be taking any action, kalu tak jadi amalan dan ikutan..Selama ni derang ingat aku main2..inilah manusia..bila kita berlembut dia pijak muka..bila kita main kasar, baru nak terngadah..sblm tu my 2nd asst chiow...aku message langsung tak mo balas,..now bila da jadi mcm ni..aku da file case..baru nak settlekan apa2 yg patut..but, I'm glad if they settled this matter. At least derang tahu procedure..and they are much better dr org yg chiow..pehtu tak mo munculkan diri kat court or tak mo buat apa2 action...

Dan elok jugakla dijadikan pengajaran utk staff yg sedia ada..kalu nak blahhh..pikir betul2..dan buat dgn cara yg betul...

Semoga kami terus diberikan kekuatan menghadapi apa juga dugaaan yg mendatang..

Tupperware

Lately I was spending much of my time surveying for containers including jugs and pitchers. Surveying goods online can be time consuming and I personally sometimes it gives me more headache in finalizing my decision. Because the searching..

Jovians, Rizman&Family Story..

For this entry, I will be writing about Jovian collection. My 1st Jovian was bought last year. Nicely beaded long dress. Unfortunately, only best worn when you are slim and slender. I bought in size XL during sale of course. I've never had opportunity to put on the dress, cause when the dress was bought, I was gradually putting on more and more weight. Everything start from Raya 2015. My last weight was 61kg and diving up to 67kg. Poor me. End of last year, only then I realized I was pregnant. So, I think my weight was about 67-68kg when I started my 6th pregnancy. Its been a great relief when the children have grown up and independent. The pregnancy story its like a breaking NEWS for our family. Unexpected, speechless and I'm not ready for sure.

At first I was very excited cause I was dreaming to have 3 boys and 3 girls in the family. I was praying if the 6th could be a girl. But, I was wrong cause it is a boy in my womb. Hearing the truth after our 1st scan, I was saying to myself, this is more than enough in our family. There will be no more attempt for making babies..cause there answer could be 'boy'..and 'boy'..I have no intention to have many boys in my family. But, the kids keep on saying if we could have additional boy after Emil was born. Harris was suggesting if we could name our 6th as Throne on few years back even mommy is not yet conceived. Owh boy...now, your wish has come true.

In few months we will be expecting boy addition in the Family. We had several scan including the detail scan. It was real dreading when meeting the doctor and the nurse for scan when you are pregnant at age over 35 years. I just praying may Allah give us strength and healthy baby. I'm still and always praying may good thins happen. I hate when the doctor or nurse talking about indicator this and that. My 1st session after detail scan appointment was really daunting... with the signs they've found from the scan result. I had my 2nd detail scan few days back. Funny enough, the 1st daunting news not even been said by the nurse who did the scan. Sometimes, I just hate with the technology introduced nowadays cause it just can make your life unhappy and miserable-affecting your emotion. At my 1st scan, the nurse was talking about the baby was really down at my womb with his head breach. Such new, even though it is not a guarantee the baby will be born in breach condition...already make your life in misery and now in my 2nd detail scan, the nurse confirmed the baby has changed his position. Based from my story, to my dear friends out there, who are pregnant at age above 35...always be prepared mentally when seeing doctor and nurse..for any of their say..during your appointment session...whether good or bad news. I tried to comfort myself to be happy. Make myself busy with my children who always long for attention.

Lets talk back abt Jovian. For the first, I was not that keen to spend money on Jovians' collection. Few years back I was still conventional for online shopping. Worrying the money I spend only will be not as per expectation. After many times frustration with so many tailors that I've tried plus their expensive charged, I begin to swift my shopping for ready made clothes. Being a designer, I think Jovian knows what is the perfect match for his Clients. Name it the fabric as well as dimension or fitting. My 2nd Jovian was Jusira. Bought as well during last year fasting month. Unfortunately the sleeves are way too long for me. The kurung just hang on my dressing rail untouchable and wrapped in the plastic wrap.

Last Ramadhan, I was blessed for having opportunity to try with few designers touch. One of them was Rizman Ruzaini. I bought 1 peach kurung from his collection. Very nice. Again, unable to fit me after my weight damn rocketing up.

As this year, I was blessed cause Jovian open his outlet near to my work place. Bought my 3rd Jovian aka my 1st collection 2015 Art Decor-baju kurung and dress at crazy slashed price. Starting from there, Ive spent my ringgits at his outlet including Jubah that can fit well during my last pregnancy. For this pregnancy, I've found my shopping frenzy for overseas brand almost vanishing. Probably because nowadays, we have many good brands in Malaysia to try with. My 1st try Bella Amara wasn't that good. Only wore the jubah for few times as I hate to see my panties line when putting on the Jubah. Of course with current weather, I really hate to put so many layers on my body. I can say, Ive spent most in local brand for this time pregnancy. Wherever possible Ive tried to avoid pants as they can make me restless and very stuffy. Of course, If I had given a choice, I would rather not to wear anything. Argghhhh, I hate for being big like hippo. But, its no way for me to complain, cause it is really me who ruin and spoil my body. Almost everyday, I will haveTarik and sweet things in my body. I'm very much prone to sugar as my stress relief.

My 4th collection from Jovian was a long dress continued with my 5th and 6th are their long cardigan. I did spend on their anak tudung. Soft in colour but unfortunately does not fit well on my head. I did spend hundreds for my girls kurung..Worth spend for ready made and quality.

My long silence 2015...

Its been long time since my last post..Among the reasons why this blog has been long abandoned:

1. Busy with commitment. Harris was 12th last year..Being maidless with busy schedule at home and work..never been easy to juggle. Yes, we had maid on and off somewhere end of last year. The first last for about 3 months. Then, we were offered by agent for another replacement. Nonetheless, the replacement was even worst than the 1st..as she last only 2 weeks with us..The 2nd maid was with us for about 3-4 days. Very good, obedient and I can say hardworking too..I guess, she actually had better plan even before she joined us. She brought her heavy bag pack with her when we said to her that she would be staying with my mom for a week together with the kids. I can say, its never been cheap taking maid. We were paying about 7.5k to the agent and when the 1st maid ran away, we were obliged to pay the agent for additional RM 500 that she so called as registration fee and the 3 months salary. Our 1st maid in 2014 named was Tini. She is nice lady and clean. However, she is too fragile and homesick. Because of that reasons she became very sensitive even with every small things we talked to her. As an employer with another commitment at office, I have no interest to know in deep when she has started to 'mengada2'. But, I really pissed off when I came to know in the end that she was returned by her 1st employer because her tricked to be returned to her hometown was not working. Whether or not she was pretending with her ex-employer that she was sick, I really have no idea. But, the story broke when she was talking to my mom about her thought for being sick with her ex-employer to be sent back right away to Indon was unsuccessful. Instead, her ex-employer sent her back to agent. Everything was so pleasant in the 1st week she was with us and she started her drama during Raya Haji when she was asking for my SIL maid to call her husband. That was the starting point she started very weak and sick! She was vanishing from home when left her at house while attending my 3rd &4th born end of the year ceremonies. Few weeks past, we had replacement. Her name is Us. She was from the same origin as Tini. But, perhaps, it wasn't our luck to have a maid. Us was running away end of last year. The funny thing, she was running away from my mom house without any reasons. My mom kept saying, shes leaving because she didn't want follow me back home. I just ignored, whatever, my mom said. Because I knew, that I wasn't do anything wrong to her. She was with me only 3-4 days and the rest she was with my mom back at kampong and I knew she hadn't much work to do as compared when she was at my home. She was not even do any cooking at my mom house except helping. Beginning from this bad experience, we have no more trust to maid from Lombok. Even, based from my reading over the net, most maid from Lombok came here for stepping stone. After they been located with their employer, they will run away to find their loved ones. Just about the same story as Tini. Yes, it is true, very painful to see your money flowing out without much return or even break even. Investment on maid for last year, really not putting us in a good luck. Even though it was painful, I believe there is beauty behind the disguise. Better they are leaving us now cause we believe Allah knows what best for us.

2. We've been in tight schedule to juggle between work and family. Both of my elder kids went for night tuition. H/ever, we stopped them from the night tuition center and tried for private tuition teacher. The fees was damn expensive. But, kids were happy with the teachers.

3. I was pregnant again.

4. We have staff attitude issues at office that really drive me crazy and thanks Allah, now, our office environment getting better after those baddies leaving, huh! How can you work with someone who have no respect to you? Or staff although has been appointed as leader, taking advantage of his subordinate works without proper checking?? We had strict implementation commencing last year. Beginning from the strict impose we can see people start to respect policy and those unable to align with the Company is leaving. But, we have no regret, people leaving especially those unwillingly to show any improvement even though with number of counselling or improvement session.

5. Last but not least..I forgot what is the username and password of blog. Haha!

Moving..moving..

Tomorrow will be the date we are moving to new office..8.8.2014..what a lucky no..hahah..

Tomorrow..I shall be happy too..cause I was assured they will be another candidate..BAEK punya..will be attending the interview..and IA...will hv no issue to join us..altho just as an Intern Students..Actually, I really mmg over excited when seeing the students portfolio yesterday..and really looking fwd to welcome them to our E-family...

New candidates coming..

Today new candidates coming..for intern post..Honestly, am satisfied with their portfolio..even though they just students..their assignments are impressive..they could do banner, animation, web design..they just like our perfect candidates at this moment to join our team member...looking into their portfolio...surely enough i have so many ideas in mind..to think about what kind of job tasks they will be doing when they are with us..

Its been quite sometimes, I have not been involved for interviewing people. Nothing fancy or exciting except hearing people selling and presenting themselves. Long session does not mean we can secure the job or the candidates will be joining us. So, its really depend. One thing.. I've learnt about interviewing people is...to understand their dream and plan to pursue..

I was touched by hearing my candidate mentioning the course his taking is not as what he is keen to pursue. Its more to fulfil their parents advise and I can see he is happy to see his parents happy...So far, he is doing well in his study..even though.. not flying colour..yet, still he is a 2nd class upper student. Having conversation with him, has made me to think whether, I will be an insist parents to see I'm making my children to be what me wanted THEM to be...or INSTEAD? Honestly, I was pity to hear my candidate frank explanation...hes been too sincere and straight..and may GOD bless him for scarifying his dream for his family...

Menyampah..

Tajuk blog aku kali ini..ialah..MENYAMPAH..

Kalu ikutkan aku da tahap MENYAMPAH dengan perangai maid aku yg perasan DIVA..meluat pon ada..sombong pon ada...mebe sbb dia fikir yg dia tu KUAT sgt..makanya nak berlagak berlebihan..aku kalu da hangen..seme perkataan yg aku pendam..mmg seme aku luahkan..kalu dia bole luah apa yg dia suka ..why not me as majikan..Sebelum ni mmg aku bole bersabar..tapi, lama kelamaan...kesabaran aku goyah...nak aje aku pelempang minah sorang ni..sampai mulutnya senget..tak pon, humban je masuk penjara or send to immigration baru dia tahu baik buruk padahnya...bermulut laser...

Insidennya begini...di suatu pagi subuh..maid aku da terbangun lambat..dgn lansung tak rendam baju..aku pon dgn baik hatinya membangunkan dia..dgn mengetuk pintu bilik dia...agaknya sbb dia kemaluan sendiri dok bangun lambat..makanya dia da menuduh aku macam2..sampai aku pon naik angin...aku gitau dia elok2...if dia tak dgr cakap aku...adela sesuatu yg berlaku...terus je dia berdrama..berkata...

'Emangnya pembantu ni semuanya salah'..

Aku maleh nak layan...then, aku bagi 1 contoh...yg dia tak dgr cakap aku disebabkan dia da menjual barang2 plastik kat umah aku tanpa aku ada di rumah...dan tak pasal2 mcm da kene tipu ngan si penjual....

TETAP..maid aku mcm tak bule terima...kemudian dia dok cakap..

'kenapa? Puan takutke duitnya diambil oleh saya..patutla takde pembantu yang bertahan'

Cengkononnya..patutla tak ada sapa yg bertahan kerja dgn aku...then aku jawap balik kat dia..with slow intonation..

'OK... FINE....ko cakap takde pembantu yg bertahan ngan sy...tapi, my ex maid stay with me till 2+ year..cumenya kamu tu...sekiranya kamu berkahwin baru nanti..dan kamu tak berubah sikap..takkan ada siapa yang boleh bertahan dgn kamu'..

'kamu beritahu sy..yang kamu tak suke org yang sombong..tapi, kamu sendiri sepertinya org sombong..kamu sendiri beritahu yg mulut mentua kami judes..tapi, kamu sendiri orgnya judes..dan mengapa kamu tu bila bercakap dgn sy..seolah sy ni mcm org tak ade akal?'

KRONOLOGInya begini..

it was happened last Sunday, I brought her back to kampung..

1) bole plak dia naik sore ngan aku...kononnya aku nak pakai kasut org lain dibawa balik...apa??? ko ingat..aku ni da hilang akal sgtke??? nak bawak balik kasut org???
2) mempertikaikan/ memperlecehkan nasi yg aku beri kepada my honey..mcm sket sgt..macamla aku ni tak tahu jaga suami...so, ko nak ape??? da ketandusan sgtke nak layan suami org?? or ko da rasa mcm ko pandai sgt melayan suami?
3) maid aku kata aku garang sbb my niece nampak mcm ketakutan..sdgkan..Erin tu takut ngan kakak aku dan bukannya aku...tak habis2...maid aku ni nak perasan budak suka kat dia..sedangkan dia ngan anak2 aku tu garang bukan main...depan org je mcm pelakon hebat...rajin satu macam and dok nak jaga2 anak2 org lain..sedangkan dgn anak2 aku sendiri mcm org berperang...My Paed sendiri perasan yg dia tu garang..
4) yang paling aku tak boleh blahhh bila dia campak kertas atas meja..mcm org takde tatasusila..Waktu ni mmg aku hangen betul..mmg aku naik sore ngan dia..sampai dia menangis teresak2..gasak kola...yg ko tu mengada2 sgt tu kenapa??? gasak mak bapak n ex laki kola yg dok berlembut sgt ngan ko..sampai peel keras kepala tu dibawa2 sampai ke mesia..

Terus terang..aku tak suke ngan pembantu yg suke2 nak naik sore ngan aku...atau merendah2kan aku..

stuck at Mc Donald..

Skdrg dah nearly 8 pm..yet, aku n my elder kids still lg tersdi di Mc Donald..da 2x meals kitaorg order...now, tinggal tunggu kids to finish their exercise..I'm not that fancy to eat Mc Donanld...but, saje je bawak anak2 ke sini..sbb, knowing they cant concentrate if derang ade kat umah...sbb the other 3 siblings akan kacau2 n gelak2...

So, aku habiskan masa...baca paper..baca news kat FB...my honey selalu tegur..nape, aku selalu sibuk kat hp..actually bukannya sibuk..tapi, ini ajela masa yg ade utk aku nak baca berita...tak kirala yg genuine maupon yg rekaan..n its rainning outside there..Thanks GOD for the rain...rasanya, da byk minggu aku dok dgr mesia ade sekatan bekalan air dan masalah jerebu...and the latest...isu yg aku baca...MH 370 kene hijack...and aku berharap...isu tu selesai..and they can return back to mesia or China and live with their family happily..kkdg menakutkan juga bila jadi org pandai2 or org penting negara...silap2 hb, nyawa sendiri or anak bini tergadai..yg mana aku tgk dlm cita 'The Faces' on my way back fr Seoul...kkdg baik jugak jadi org tak ada..sbb, bila jadi org ado2..byk mata yg memandang...dlm citer 'The Faces'..yg kesiannya, anak dia kene korek bijik mata..and kene bunuh...Similarly mcm spekulasi MH 370..org buat andaian kenapa MH 370 kene hijack...sbb, ade few people pembawa patent penting...Demi duit and kuasa..sanggup org2 takde hati perut nak gadaikan nyawa 250+ manusia..and tak pasal2 plak pilot and co-pilot kene tuduh plak bersekongkol hilangkan pesawat...and berkait plak dgn DSAI..yg mana aku rasa tak masuk akal2..dlm keadaan hati2 manusia di luar sana begitu critical dan fragile..ade plak manusia yg buat andai2an dan tuduhan2 yg memacam...Tp, aku rasa..kesian jugakla ngan pemilik patent tu...mahu tak kene bunuh...kalu sblm tu hidup bahagia bersama keluarga..sbb, terlebih bijak pandai..da tak pasal2 tergadai nyawa...

Bebudak nak peksa..

Minggu ni aku agak busy sket..busy utk beberapa ketika...my elder kids nak exam..

Among of my kids..yg always like to drive me crazy is my 2nd child...keras kepala..n sesuka hati nak ikut kepala dia...and amik masa sket nak absorb pelajaran..especially, maths, bm and bi...kalu bab2 agama..biasanya dia OK..since aku ngk..ustazah dia kat skool pon mcm anti my kids...i was thinking to pull out my doter fr KAFA..Managed to speak with my ex-staff..n willing nak buat tuition 1 to 1 utk my kids..so, aku rasa..mcm its the right time aku nak panggil private teacher to teach my kids..no matterla org nak cakap ape abt it..the kids too young to for tuition...tapi, dgn keadaan aku yg tak cukup masa..yg asik nak naik hangin kalu mengajar my doter..elok ajela aku dapatkan private teacher utk dia..

Actually bukannya aku tak bantu my doter ni..cume dia ni ade 'short of memory' sket..the moment aku ajar dia..dan2 tu mmgla dia ingat..tapi, kalu aku da lama tak sit and refresh selalu her memory dia..mulala apa yg aku ajarkan tu hilang dari kepala dia...mmg, serius...kene bersabar tahap langit...My doter still got problem utk buat deduction bila bab pinjam meminjam puluh ratus ribu bermula...kalu ikutkan syllabus baru bebudak ni..terus-terang aku rasa mcm mencabarla..tak sama mcm KBSR...tapi, layan ajelakan..cakap lebih2 kat gomen pon..bukannya gomen nak take action sgt...tp, terus terang mmg aku sendiri da lost track ngan development my doter..my honey cakap...mmg aku kene bersabar n berterusan ajar..latih tubi my doter..sampai pelajaran masuk ke dalam otak dia dan disimpan...hrmmm..bukan mudahkan jadi ibu bapa..dulu2..waktu jadi anak...asik nak nampak salah parents...too busy kejela..tak sempat tgk anakla..but then, bila sendiri jadi parents barula nak tahu dan faham..memang pon ade masanya aku tgk mak aku terkocoh2 nak pi kije..ade masanya aku ngk mak aku terlantar atas kerusi sofa panjang sambil berdengkur...tu lom kene menghadapi komplen..kita cakap..'mak masak tak sedap'..yang anehnya bila da besar...aku rasa seme yg mak aku masak sedap...mungkin masa kecik2 tu..dok terlepas cakap mak masak tak sedap...dek kerana pengaruh kawan yg suke ngomel mak dia masak tak sedap...

My eldest son plak..manja...aduhai...bila nak peksa siap cakap..'Mom...you have to help me..'..aikkk, sape plak yg nak peksa ni? confuse..confuse...aku mmg takde plan lagi nak antar dia tuition...sbbnya..aku tak sempat nak pi survey tuition center..evernight when i passed thru kedai2 kat area umah aku..mmg nampak sgtla mcm goreng pisang panas sambutan pusat2 tuition ni..Kkdg aku rasakan..betapa bertuahnya anak2 zaman skrg..yg got their parents to shoulder to cry on...berbanding zaman aku kecik2..yg mak pak aku lepas je kami main sepah2 n survive sendiri..the moment i was feeling loved by my parents..when i was below 7 to 8 yo gitu..the rest of my life..da kene compete with my siblings...till then, i was not feeling being loved by them...walopon, kalu ikutkan mana plak parents tak sayang anak, yer tak?? actually, tu seme perasaan bebudak kecik yg tak matured...my opinion, my parents are just too busy to earn money to raise their children..

Speaking abt my 3rd plak..dia ni mmg jenis happy go lucky..tapi, cepat sgt penat nak belajar...aku baru ajar sket..mulala dia nak pengsan...sbnrnya aku berdesing gak bila cikgu sekolah Montessori tu gitau my 4th mcm tahap baby..its like..hrmmm..my kids not really in heart of their cikgu2 di situ..dahle susah nak dihubungi...kkdg tak angkat tepon..n then ade plak prosedur hanya pukul2 tertentu boleh jumpa derang...walaubagaimana pon aku tak nafikan..bab2 doa and ayat2 pendek mmg my 3rd bole baca..walopon tak perfect mana..and teacher ade komen my 5th ni tak kenal huruf segala...hrmmm, again...pendidikan bermula dr rumah..tak guna we spend thousands for kids..but, without follow up dr rumah...so, nak tak nak..mmgle kene juga ajar and drill dr umah...i dunno, some parents mebe have diff opinion dr aku..but, fr my experience with my doter..mmg pembelajaran ni sepatutnya kene bermula dr umur 4 yr plus lagi...kalu idakkkk...mmg seksa...seksanya mcm nak mengdrill my doter nilah...kejap ingat..kejap lupe...Nampaknya aku terpaksa menggunakan approach lama..kuasa VETO...mcm aku mengdrill my eldest when he was 5 yo...mmg aku drill dia supaya bole ingat numbers and alphabet...pehtu leh soundkan 50 frequency words...haiii...manala nak curi masa yg begitu cemburu dgn aku...

Next week will be busy day for me and my honey..we've got 2 presentation...20th and 21st...List of task..ade melambak menunggu..

1. Prepare payslip and EA&Register BA
2. Edit presentation for my honey..Follow up with geng PT..
3. Study CIDB and Petronas License for new Co.
4. Complete registration for CIDB and Petronas..I might have difficulty nak kene dapatkan socso payment info for CIDB...yg penting kene study dulu ape requirement CIDB
5. Send payment to Secretary..
6.  Update Petronas License for Company..
7.  Buat autocalculation for salary calculation and slip..
8. Advertise JOB STREET..
9. And the list goes on..

Bila tgk list2 keje di atas..rasanya, mcm dan2 pukul 8 pagi aku da kene terjegil kat opis...aku pon da malas nak follow up group IS yg macam..hrmmm....