Ntah kenapa skrg ni mudah je nak rasa mual dan letih. Tak pasti juga kalu aku ni pregnant...Mungkin ye..mungkin juga tidak..Kalu pregnant lagi..alamatttt, mmg aku tak ready lagi...Mana taknya, Baby masih kecik lagi tak sampai setahun..dah nak ada adik lagi...mcm unfair plak, sbb tak dapat perhatian lama dr mommy...
Atau mungkin aku skrg dilanda gastrik? Tak bule perut kosong..mulala nak rasa mual2?? Mmmmm, mungkin juga..siapa tahu, yerkan?? Kalu betul2, mommy pregnant lagi kali ini...mommy tak nak tangguh2 lagi pasang IUCD/IUS..Mommy letih..tak larat nak pregnant byk2 kali...Setakat ini, mommy dah cukup lega anak2 dah mulai membesar..Paling2 cume ade Baby yg mana mommy perlu berikan perhatian lebih...
Dlm kesibukan menjalani kehidupan..mommy cukup risau..sbb seems that Harris likes to dream in class. Sometimes, he cant really get his teacher's instruction right...and its really dissappoint me to come to know, he had one spelling wrong for yesterday EJAAN. Harris mudah saje buat careless mistake..mistake yg dia tak sepatutnya buat...tapi, dia buat...
Monday, January 25, 2010
Am I that mean?
For sometimes, bila dah tahap give up ngan my maid...I just don’t really bother and trying to mind every single word came fr my mouth when I was talking to her. I just don’t care and have had it enough and really am ready just to let her go…..
I noticed that my words can sometimes be harsh..but, I just couldn’t help to say it so..I just feel truly hopeless...hopeless and hopeless...No matter how good and nice am trying to treat her..often, she returns my kindness with disappointment..Perhaps, my agony will end…until…oncee she realizes..how lucky she is..having us as her employer…
Bila dah tahap muak, until my words can be threatening..
“Do you really want me to find another Employer for you”
And her replies…just..
“I don’t know”
Still remember, my last day babbling to her…saying that she is an “aneh” God’s creation..Couldnt really understand it..why this people on earth trying to take advantage to those people that are treating nice to her…
I noticed that my words can sometimes be harsh..but, I just couldn’t help to say it so..I just feel truly hopeless...hopeless and hopeless...No matter how good and nice am trying to treat her..often, she returns my kindness with disappointment..Perhaps, my agony will end…until…oncee she realizes..how lucky she is..having us as her employer…
Bila dah tahap muak, until my words can be threatening..
“Do you really want me to find another Employer for you”
And her replies…just..
“I don’t know”
Still remember, my last day babbling to her…saying that she is an “aneh” God’s creation..Couldnt really understand it..why this people on earth trying to take advantage to those people that are treating nice to her…
Friday, January 22, 2010
Progress anak2..
Harris..
Nampak dia enjoy very much at school. Dia nampak excited to learn new things..and his progress is much better if compared to during his kindy in term of initiative. He has interest to learn Jawi & Agama more..He was telling me his wish to be a school prefect one day. Still maintain his English speaking...
Milan--
Still not yet matured. Sometimes, still sleepy before leaving the house to school. Begins to sing A-Z at almost right...She has interest in recognizing Bahasa Melayu that been introduced at school..She now able to speak much proper than before. Can convey her message quite clear to me. Like if the bibik is not cleaning her bottom well, she knows to complaint to her mommy
Daniel**
Begins to stand up by support. His favourite now is to stand up while grabbing anything near to him to keep him standing. His has his own fancy toy. Very active and wriggly baby...can respond well to us and waving his hands to people. Looks a lil bit skinny after fell sick about 1 week ago.He starting to get to know people around him and seems attach to me. Always excited to see me and sometimes refuse to be with bibik. Same goes with my other kids...
Nampak dia enjoy very much at school. Dia nampak excited to learn new things..and his progress is much better if compared to during his kindy in term of initiative. He has interest to learn Jawi & Agama more..He was telling me his wish to be a school prefect one day. Still maintain his English speaking...
Milan--
Still not yet matured. Sometimes, still sleepy before leaving the house to school. Begins to sing A-Z at almost right...She has interest in recognizing Bahasa Melayu that been introduced at school..She now able to speak much proper than before. Can convey her message quite clear to me. Like if the bibik is not cleaning her bottom well, she knows to complaint to her mommy
Daniel**
Begins to stand up by support. His favourite now is to stand up while grabbing anything near to him to keep him standing. His has his own fancy toy. Very active and wriggly baby...can respond well to us and waving his hands to people. Looks a lil bit skinny after fell sick about 1 week ago.He starting to get to know people around him and seems attach to me. Always excited to see me and sometimes refuse to be with bibik. Same goes with my other kids...
Bibik menipu lagi..
Aku tak paham dgn masalah bibik aku yg suka menipu. Hari ni caught again she menipu..dia gitau yg katanya tak bule sarungkan plastik buku Harris. Walhal sebenarnya dia langsung tak mencuba pon...Bila aku gitau dia...
"Ni mesti bibik langsung tak cube.."
Dia cume senyum2 je kat aku..sbb pembohongannya itu lagi kantoi!
Silapla bibik aku menipu org yg cerdik mcm aku..Kalu org yg ditipunya tu bodoh..lainla citer...Huh! Lepas ni..jgn harap aku nak percaya cakap2 dia lagi....
"Ni mesti bibik langsung tak cube.."
Dia cume senyum2 je kat aku..sbb pembohongannya itu lagi kantoi!
Silapla bibik aku menipu org yg cerdik mcm aku..Kalu org yg ditipunya tu bodoh..lainla citer...Huh! Lepas ni..jgn harap aku nak percaya cakap2 dia lagi....
Hari ini hari Sabtu..
Hari ini hari Sabtu..Harris kene ke sekolah..ganti utk Raya Cina akan datang. In the beginning I was planning to let the kids and my bibik at home..but then, chgd mine last2 minute..Sambil2 tu aku susun buku2 Harris. Beginilah rutin harian aku menyusun buku utk anak. Kkdg aku wonder, masa zaman aku sek rendah dulu..ntah sape yg susunkan buku utk aku..mebe jugakla kakak aku kot..sbbnya kami abt 4 years different. Kalu nak harapkan mak aku..dia tu mmg sokmo bz..kalu nak harapkan pak aku..lagilaaa..manala nak hirau sgt pasal anak2..kalu bule sume nak dipasskan kat bahu isteri..typikal conservative malay man gamaknya...
Dah beberapa menjak jugak..lidah dan perut aku tak sedap. Tak pasti juga kalu2 aku ni pregnant lagi..Terus-terang aku katakan aku masih tak bersedia lagi..Aku harapkan period ni tak dtg disebabkan aku stress...sbb penyakit mata ikan asik datang dan pergi. Dada aku pon sakit sbb selsema dan batuk. Dan smlman juga aku asik tidur dan tidur..
Aku pon dah lama tak amik port bisnes my honey..cume sometimes je aku dtg menjenguk. Especially akhir bulan..since aku tau, all the engineers there kene report duty ngan my honey...nak plak2 kami dah appoint si J utk delegate kerja dan monitor our young engineers..
Malam tadi, my honey raise his hope again towards me...Hoping if I could take PE for the sake of our company..Soalannya, berkeyakinankah aku??
Dah beberapa menjak jugak..lidah dan perut aku tak sedap. Tak pasti juga kalu2 aku ni pregnant lagi..Terus-terang aku katakan aku masih tak bersedia lagi..Aku harapkan period ni tak dtg disebabkan aku stress...sbb penyakit mata ikan asik datang dan pergi. Dada aku pon sakit sbb selsema dan batuk. Dan smlman juga aku asik tidur dan tidur..
Aku pon dah lama tak amik port bisnes my honey..cume sometimes je aku dtg menjenguk. Especially akhir bulan..since aku tau, all the engineers there kene report duty ngan my honey...nak plak2 kami dah appoint si J utk delegate kerja dan monitor our young engineers..
Malam tadi, my honey raise his hope again towards me...Hoping if I could take PE for the sake of our company..Soalannya, berkeyakinankah aku??
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
20 days....
It was about 20 days..I havent written in my blog..ntah ape yg bznya..Tapi, antara faktor aku tak menulis adalah disebabkan oleh...internet di rumah yg hampir 10 hari kaput..
Kalu dihitung2..dah hampir 3 bulan si N kerja dgn aku...dgn graphnya yg naik turun...sekejap ok..sekejap tak ok...dan almost 2 weeks juga si N dihantar ke rumah my mil disebabkan aku pon dah tak larat nak menghadap rope dia dan asik stress spjg dia bekerja dgn aku..i found that this way, relief my stress a bit..and in fact aku dah mulai getting used utk naik suara dan menegur dia setiap hari..until up the point..i just dont mind if i dont have bibik..coz her existence in my life is not only makes things better but even chaos...
Terus-terang aku pasrah..and it makes me getting stronger and firm..especially, when I came to know that she was not eating the food that I asked her to take...Saje kot maid2 kat rumah mentua aku nak exaggerate..seolah2 mcm nak bagitau org yg aku tak nak kasik dia makan...mmmm...aku tak sure camne dia bule dpt idea cenggitu..sebab setahu aku..dia ni manusia yg tak tahu nak menolak makanan...bila dia sebut...takut termakan makanan anak2 aku...aku rasa mcm..eh?? dunia nak kiamatke?? dia tak pernah sepelik ini melainkan ade org lain yg ajarkan..so, di pagi hari lagi...aku dah provoke dia siap2...tanya dia cukup2..nape dia tak mo makanan yg aku kasik...dan jawapan dia mmg bermcm2...I was asking her the reason why she was doing it...was there any specific reason other than she's trying to make people think badly about me sbg anak menantu yg kejam...siap, aku gitau dia lagi...kalu dia buat fitnah pasal aku kat sana sampai buat gaduh...silala tanggung dosa tu sendiri...aku pon dah tak kuasa nak layan kerenah mana2 bibik yg suka bermuka2...
Kalu dihitung2..dah hampir 3 bulan si N kerja dgn aku...dgn graphnya yg naik turun...sekejap ok..sekejap tak ok...dan almost 2 weeks juga si N dihantar ke rumah my mil disebabkan aku pon dah tak larat nak menghadap rope dia dan asik stress spjg dia bekerja dgn aku..i found that this way, relief my stress a bit..and in fact aku dah mulai getting used utk naik suara dan menegur dia setiap hari..until up the point..i just dont mind if i dont have bibik..coz her existence in my life is not only makes things better but even chaos...
Terus-terang aku pasrah..and it makes me getting stronger and firm..especially, when I came to know that she was not eating the food that I asked her to take...Saje kot maid2 kat rumah mentua aku nak exaggerate..seolah2 mcm nak bagitau org yg aku tak nak kasik dia makan...mmmm...aku tak sure camne dia bule dpt idea cenggitu..sebab setahu aku..dia ni manusia yg tak tahu nak menolak makanan...bila dia sebut...takut termakan makanan anak2 aku...aku rasa mcm..eh?? dunia nak kiamatke?? dia tak pernah sepelik ini melainkan ade org lain yg ajarkan..so, di pagi hari lagi...aku dah provoke dia siap2...tanya dia cukup2..nape dia tak mo makanan yg aku kasik...dan jawapan dia mmg bermcm2...I was asking her the reason why she was doing it...was there any specific reason other than she's trying to make people think badly about me sbg anak menantu yg kejam...siap, aku gitau dia lagi...kalu dia buat fitnah pasal aku kat sana sampai buat gaduh...silala tanggung dosa tu sendiri...aku pon dah tak kuasa nak layan kerenah mana2 bibik yg suka bermuka2...
Friday, January 01, 2010
01 Jan 2010..
Its very special day for today..It is special because the date itu sendiri...01012010..siapakah agaknya lahir di tarikh ini agak2nya..sungguh very D lucky..
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