Semakin hari...semakin aku rasa tak selesa..Sesak..Tegang..Letih..Kesemuanya pon ada..Baby keeps on kicking in my tummy. Badan aku plak, semakin hari..semakin membesar..Perut pon dah mulai pecah2 disebabkan berat yg naik mendadak. Nak naik opis tingkat 2 pon rasa mcm dah tak larat. Tapi, kene jugak laratkan badan. Nak bising2 ngan bibik pon..rasanya dah tak kuasa sgt...
Yesterday, came to know..I may need to fly back UK for running an errand. Rasa sedih jugak nak tinggalkan anak2. But, seems got no choice. Just hope everything berjalan lancar. I was hoping not to stay too long. Must be very boring jugak coz anak2 dan somi takde di sisi. Its only me, sorang2 yg akan melayan diri sendiri.
Kkdg funny plak rasanya, why when all of us already in Mesia..I manage to do almost everything..Manage the hse, kids, family shopping, work n study segala. I've got no complaint at all, walaupon dalam keadaan berbadan dua..I have to go to hospital bawak anak2 cucuk atau jumpa Doktor. Shopping pon..I always convenient to do it alone. Without bibik, my hubby and also the kids. Ocassionally, mmg aku ade bawak my elder kids..But, then...I hardly feel ianya sbg beban. Sometimes, I feel like..having more kids, make my life more manageable. The obvious thing for this time pregnancy, I am more confident in leading people, clear wif what I want, firm wif my decision and langsung tak takut ngan critisms. I just feel comfortable to be myself. Mebe, sbb in my life nowadays, dah terlalu byk yg nak difikirkan...
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