stuck at Mc Donald..

Skdrg dah nearly 8 pm..yet, aku n my elder kids still lg tersdi di Mc Donald..da 2x meals kitaorg order...now, tinggal tunggu kids to finish their exercise..I'm not that fancy to eat Mc Donanld...but, saje je bawak anak2 ke sini..sbb, knowing they cant concentrate if derang ade kat umah...sbb the other 3 siblings akan kacau2 n gelak2...

So, aku habiskan masa...baca paper..baca news kat FB...my honey selalu tegur..nape, aku selalu sibuk kat hp..actually bukannya sibuk..tapi, ini ajela masa yg ade utk aku nak baca berita...tak kirala yg genuine maupon yg rekaan..n its rainning outside there..Thanks GOD for the rain...rasanya, da byk minggu aku dok dgr mesia ade sekatan bekalan air dan masalah jerebu...and the latest...isu yg aku baca...MH 370 kene hijack...and aku berharap...isu tu selesai..and they can return back to mesia or China and live with their family happily..kkdg menakutkan juga bila jadi org pandai2 or org penting negara...silap2 hb, nyawa sendiri or anak bini tergadai..yg mana aku tgk dlm cita 'The Faces' on my way back fr Seoul...kkdg baik jugak jadi org tak ada..sbb, bila jadi org ado2..byk mata yg memandang...dlm citer 'The Faces'..yg kesiannya, anak dia kene korek bijik mata..and kene bunuh...Similarly mcm spekulasi MH 370..org buat andaian kenapa MH 370 kene hijack...sbb, ade few people pembawa patent penting...Demi duit and kuasa..sanggup org2 takde hati perut nak gadaikan nyawa 250+ manusia..and tak pasal2 plak pilot and co-pilot kene tuduh plak bersekongkol hilangkan pesawat...and berkait plak dgn DSAI..yg mana aku rasa tak masuk akal2..dlm keadaan hati2 manusia di luar sana begitu critical dan fragile..ade plak manusia yg buat andai2an dan tuduhan2 yg memacam...Tp, aku rasa..kesian jugakla ngan pemilik patent tu...mahu tak kene bunuh...kalu sblm tu hidup bahagia bersama keluarga..sbb, terlebih bijak pandai..da tak pasal2 tergadai nyawa...

Bebudak nak peksa..

Minggu ni aku agak busy sket..busy utk beberapa ketika...my elder kids nak exam..

Among of my kids..yg always like to drive me crazy is my 2nd child...keras kepala..n sesuka hati nak ikut kepala dia...and amik masa sket nak absorb pelajaran..especially, maths, bm and bi...kalu bab2 agama..biasanya dia OK..since aku ngk..ustazah dia kat skool pon mcm anti my kids...i was thinking to pull out my doter fr KAFA..Managed to speak with my ex-staff..n willing nak buat tuition 1 to 1 utk my kids..so, aku rasa..mcm its the right time aku nak panggil private teacher to teach my kids..no matterla org nak cakap ape abt it..the kids too young to for tuition...tapi, dgn keadaan aku yg tak cukup masa..yg asik nak naik hangin kalu mengajar my doter..elok ajela aku dapatkan private teacher utk dia..

Actually bukannya aku tak bantu my doter ni..cume dia ni ade 'short of memory' sket..the moment aku ajar dia..dan2 tu mmgla dia ingat..tapi, kalu aku da lama tak sit and refresh selalu her memory dia..mulala apa yg aku ajarkan tu hilang dari kepala dia...mmg, serius...kene bersabar tahap langit...My doter still got problem utk buat deduction bila bab pinjam meminjam puluh ratus ribu bermula...kalu ikutkan syllabus baru bebudak ni..terus-terang aku rasa mcm mencabarla..tak sama mcm KBSR...tapi, layan ajelakan..cakap lebih2 kat gomen pon..bukannya gomen nak take action sgt...tp, terus terang mmg aku sendiri da lost track ngan development my doter..my honey cakap...mmg aku kene bersabar n berterusan ajar..latih tubi my doter..sampai pelajaran masuk ke dalam otak dia dan disimpan...hrmmm..bukan mudahkan jadi ibu bapa..dulu2..waktu jadi anak...asik nak nampak salah parents...too busy kejela..tak sempat tgk anakla..but then, bila sendiri jadi parents barula nak tahu dan faham..memang pon ade masanya aku tgk mak aku terkocoh2 nak pi kije..ade masanya aku ngk mak aku terlantar atas kerusi sofa panjang sambil berdengkur...tu lom kene menghadapi komplen..kita cakap..'mak masak tak sedap'..yang anehnya bila da besar...aku rasa seme yg mak aku masak sedap...mungkin masa kecik2 tu..dok terlepas cakap mak masak tak sedap...dek kerana pengaruh kawan yg suke ngomel mak dia masak tak sedap...

My eldest son plak..manja...aduhai...bila nak peksa siap cakap..'Mom...you have to help me..'..aikkk, sape plak yg nak peksa ni? confuse..confuse...aku mmg takde plan lagi nak antar dia tuition...sbbnya..aku tak sempat nak pi survey tuition center..evernight when i passed thru kedai2 kat area umah aku..mmg nampak sgtla mcm goreng pisang panas sambutan pusat2 tuition ni..Kkdg aku rasakan..betapa bertuahnya anak2 zaman skrg..yg got their parents to shoulder to cry on...berbanding zaman aku kecik2..yg mak pak aku lepas je kami main sepah2 n survive sendiri..the moment i was feeling loved by my parents..when i was below 7 to 8 yo gitu..the rest of my life..da kene compete with my siblings...till then, i was not feeling being loved by them...walopon, kalu ikutkan mana plak parents tak sayang anak, yer tak?? actually, tu seme perasaan bebudak kecik yg tak matured...my opinion, my parents are just too busy to earn money to raise their children..

Speaking abt my 3rd plak..dia ni mmg jenis happy go lucky..tapi, cepat sgt penat nak belajar...aku baru ajar sket..mulala dia nak pengsan...sbnrnya aku berdesing gak bila cikgu sekolah Montessori tu gitau my 4th mcm tahap baby..its like..hrmmm..my kids not really in heart of their cikgu2 di situ..dahle susah nak dihubungi...kkdg tak angkat tepon..n then ade plak prosedur hanya pukul2 tertentu boleh jumpa derang...walaubagaimana pon aku tak nafikan..bab2 doa and ayat2 pendek mmg my 3rd bole baca..walopon tak perfect mana..and teacher ade komen my 5th ni tak kenal huruf segala...hrmmm, again...pendidikan bermula dr rumah..tak guna we spend thousands for kids..but, without follow up dr rumah...so, nak tak nak..mmgle kene juga ajar and drill dr umah...i dunno, some parents mebe have diff opinion dr aku..but, fr my experience with my doter..mmg pembelajaran ni sepatutnya kene bermula dr umur 4 yr plus lagi...kalu idakkkk...mmg seksa...seksanya mcm nak mengdrill my doter nilah...kejap ingat..kejap lupe...Nampaknya aku terpaksa menggunakan approach lama..kuasa VETO...mcm aku mengdrill my eldest when he was 5 yo...mmg aku drill dia supaya bole ingat numbers and alphabet...pehtu leh soundkan 50 frequency words...haiii...manala nak curi masa yg begitu cemburu dgn aku...

Next week will be busy day for me and my honey..we've got 2 presentation...20th and 21st...List of task..ade melambak menunggu..

1. Prepare payslip and EA&Register BA
2. Edit presentation for my honey..Follow up with geng PT..
3. Study CIDB and Petronas License for new Co.
4. Complete registration for CIDB and Petronas..I might have difficulty nak kene dapatkan socso payment info for CIDB...yg penting kene study dulu ape requirement CIDB
5. Send payment to Secretary..
6.  Update Petronas License for Company..
7.  Buat autocalculation for salary calculation and slip..
8. Advertise JOB STREET..
9. And the list goes on..

Bila tgk list2 keje di atas..rasanya, mcm dan2 pukul 8 pagi aku da kene terjegil kat opis...aku pon da malas nak follow up group IS yg macam..hrmmm....

Lama tak menulis..

Lama betul aku tak menulis blog ni..bukan tak mau menulis..tp, sentiasa ade kekangan masa..tak pon, selalu ade problem nak log in into my blog during office hrs..sejak kebelakangan ni..almost all computers been blocked public website yg bole melaghakan org dr buat kije..

As usual ..my feveret website is always shopping website...walopon tak beli..just cuci2 mata pon da mencukupi..Most of the time, i was wasting my time looking into the website..spending hours yg kekononnya mcm org nak bershopping online..tp, ended up..buying nothing..so, ntah ape2lakan..thats my weakness..selalu pk lama sgt if wanted to buy something...

Yg menjadikan aku rasa mcm terkilan..i missed buying discounted TODS bag yg i saw at KLCC..at positive side..sebenarnya, it really save my money and it gives me more time to think off..okke nak beli bag ni?? berat ke idak??...at the negative side..i always feel mcm, sorry sesgt for not buying the bag in the 1st place..so, yesterday, i went to KLCC just for a peep kat TODS boutique..guess what?? The SA told me..most discounted bags already SOLD OUT and yg tak laku da diantar ke outlet kat somewhere near to Boulevard...She advised me to take train to go there..for surela aku malas nak botherkan..tak kose nyah nak travel sana-sini hy semata2 my dream bag! Could be somehow, one day, if i cant afford to buy it now..kot, ade rezeki we can travel oversea...IA, if God Wills...mana tau i'll be buying one..Usually, with budget yg agak ehem2..surela kene pk 2,3,4,5 kali utk membeli..mana things i have to consider..whether its really worth buying or i will end up like...rasa mcm menyesal plak after membeli...

My 1st Best handbag..

Now, we forget abt my TODS bag..My honey must be wondering, why i've been thinking so much about buying bag altho da melambak bag ade kat umah..my always feveret is my Gucci Charm..its canvas and lightweight...2nd best is my gucci sling bag..but its made of leather..3rd best is my Prada wallet..but, been so unhappy, cause the edges now get worn out...mebe sbb aku yg tak pandai handling..pi buh my wallet sesuka ati dlm my Cath Kidston bag..my 4th feveret..not that expensive..not even cost me thousands ringgit or more..is my Cath Kidston bag...as i could remember it well..it cost me less than 200 when i bought it at Bicester Outlet..since then, aku da mcm tak kemaruk sgt buying branded bag from outlet...cause my always preference is from boutique...always, i come across yg mana..if i bought bag on sales..mulala dpt bag lunyai or da tak perfect mana..or could be sbb dia da overstock..so, in terms of quality pon tak sebagus perhaps yg 1st grade eventhough we bought them genuinely from the outlet...sejak tu..aku da jd sceptical to buy something fr outlet.except for those items yg aku tahu the quality cam baju, luggage, pinggan mangkuk etc..and i think if i had been given chance to fly to UK or europe again..my 1st intention..might be to find their accesories...tak pon..their glass vase..yg mana kualitinya jauh lg devavom dr glass vase yg aku beli kat mesia pd rega yg sama...tak juga aku mendewakan brgn oversea...could be sbb aku da notice perbezaannya kot..and the worth shop that i should be visiting..ofkosle butik Laura Ashley or FCUK..last time, during my graduation..aku mmg rembat tak hengat brg2 kat LA..but then. ofkosla so worth it...dgn budget almost thousand ringgit..mmg aku dpt baju berhelai2 siap ngan coat lagi tu...jgn haraple nak dapat coat murah kat mesia..but, i managed to get it one from LA..

My 3rd Best..

My 4th Best Everyday Bag..

2nd Best..takde PIC..







Now, been told ..yg my in law family got plan to HK..yg khabarnya akan masuk musim bunga..could be..i can wear my trench coat waktu di sana..dan harap2nya mmg bole tahan sejuklakan...if not...mcm defeat the purpose gak...biar badan rasa sejuk...asalkan bergaya..and i dont think, am fall under that type of person...cause i like simplicity...bukannya Simply Siti ok!

My most memorable moment throughout this year actually, when we had chance to fly to Seoul recently for signing our 1st oversea's project..phewww...after been almost 5 years in this industry...hrmmm, baru skrg dapat mencipta nama dan juga peluang...bila makin dikenali..ofkosle makin byk kije...so, mmg kelam-kelibutlakan...now, i start to stabilize my own team..yg mana my preference to keep only 'pick up' or 'competent person' in my team sbb aku da tak larat nak sakit jatung lagi jiwa raga slps ni..especially when work with someone yg agak slow...Back to storey visiting Seoul...it was very sweet moment..cause..we managed to play with snow...arghhh...its been so many years tak jumpa snow..we were back fr UK for more than 5 years now..so, maknanya da 5 taunla tak jumpa snow..jakun sgtke jumpa snow??? takle jakun..tapi, rasa feeling2 best gitu..the moment i was in Seoul..it was freaking cold..sampai aku melompat2 to heat my body..and i totally have forgotten yg sbnrnya this year i will be 37?? now, i am starting feeling old..altho people said i look young than my age...but, at this age..i never bother what people say...except feeling their praise as complimentary, yet in my heart..i know that am getting old...and right after notice the feeling...i begin to feel worry that my kids will be growing and they could be apart from me..then, the mix feeling of guilty and satisfaction dtg dan pergi...guilty for not being able to spend most of my time with my kids...satisfaction when i start to absorb with the career that am pursuing right now..eventho would require more time than i suppose to be working...but, i feel it is very satisfying when i start to realize my potential and my strength...sometimes, i feel that i want to give up..give up with time that so envy with me..until i hardly had chance to put my body and mind at rest..and i presume, my honey has been putting lot of effort and energy more than me..for the sake of our Company...actually, i like the work that am doing right now...sbb, i can learn new things..and most importantly sbb the task is under my control..istilahnya, takdela sampai tahap mcm bangang aku tak bole buat kije tu..mcm, aku pening2 lalat waktu buat PhD dulukan..

Okla forget abt kije..kije dan kije..sbnrnya aku da muak citer pasal kije..until i told my honey,..till when we have to be working like hell like this?? we suppose to take break and enjoy our time...cause hidup hanya sementara...kalu tak enjoy with what you earn...then, sape jugak yg untung and joli katak slps ini?? dlm masa yg sama aku memanjatkan doa..semoga tuhan memberikan kami kekuatan, rezeki dan pjg umur sehingga anak2 dewasa...

Back to shopping story...i managed to replenish my GA stock at Lotte duty free, Seoul..mmg mahal bagai nak gile as compared to UK...tapi, sbb no choice punya pasal..i just bought them...i bought 2 compact foundation and 2 lipsticks..so, funny with women..lipstick sket punya byk ade stock...tapi, gatal je nak membeli...smlm, da teruja ngan liptick Chanel pink colour..but, managed tak beli..haha! skrg Chanel cosmetics pon da mahal..i think the lipstick cost nearly 100 jugakla..abt 90+ gitu...so, i decided to purchase next time..preferentially, if i had chance to fly oversea..yelahkan..rega pon sama..baik beli je during oversea trip..kurang2 ade gakla memori...like...owh..i bought this lipstick when i was in UKka..Koreaka...till now, i love my lipstick fr Chanel and GA which i bought them during my graduation trip..worth buying..sbb, kale dia so suit to me..cume, nasib tak baik..my younger kids dok memain ngan my GA lipstick and it gets broken...and aku cantumkan dia balik...n tetap calit kat bibir..sbb, i like the colour very much...pendek kata..almost all cosmetics i bought during that trip aku sukala...sampai ke tahap2 lip glossnya...

dan aku remember sgt2..when was i bought my 1st ever Marc Jacobs (Daisy) perfume..kat Harvey Nicholas...mmg masa tu teruja ngan botol dia yg punya tutup mcm bunga selain dr tempting sgt nak dptkan free Balenciaga Pouch (waktu tu dlm ati pk..tak dpt beli bag Balenciaga yg beribu2 ringgit..dpt merasa, free pouch dia jadilaaaakan)...till now, da almost 3 years..perfume to wujud lagi..cause i bought big size...my only weakness..is aku cepat boring ngan bau perfume..thats why..for somehow i like to opt to buy smaller size..walopon sbnrnya2 worth buying the bigger size...

and i love my 1st every YSL perfume that i bought fr Harrods during sales...(bought it for 100 tak silap aku..siap dpt lotion ke mandian dia)..and sampai skrg aku remember the smell...sbb aku suke sembur bila aku nak keluar dr YMCA and stay back duduk kat opis University memalam sampai esok pagi tak balik hingga kepala aku jadi weng! sometimes, it can be satisfying to buy something fr oversea..sbb, it reminds you back where were you on that time...and your moment...dan aku ingat sgt2 my feveret coat bought from LA...yg sampai bersusah pyh aku dok order and angkut dr collection port University...bought the coat ofkosle at affordable price..if kat mesia mesti konfem rega ratusan ringgit...but, back in UK...i managed to save my money...


Kat airport Korea..me and my honey dok shopping Chanel perfume..yg aku dok question..apesal org gile sgt ngan Chanel perfume..sdgkan aku bau..aik?? cam besa2 je...I bought my 1st ever Chanel perfume kat Incheon Airport..dok shopping sampai nak tertinggal ketebang..sbb dok ingat flight kul 11.30...ghupe2nya kul 11.00 pagi..gilokopo??? kalu miss ketebang..sah2 burn ribuan ringgit..langsung projek rugi..huhuhuhuh...Guess what?? aku pening ngan bau perfume Chanel..and till today..aku masih tak give up jugak nak dapatkan feel kenapa org suke ngan bau perfume Chanel ni...smlm dok sembur2 kat baju..mmg long lasting..aku tak nafikan...tapi, sad enough i dont really like the smell..sbb, strong sgt...smlm, sempat gak try perfume lancome..tresor kale purple..mmg i like the smell...tapi, unsure...my honey like it or not...jadinya, aku tak beli pon...plan to KIV...sbb, kat umah pon da berbotol2 perfume..and mcm besa...my always feveret perfume is 5th avenue...Elizabeth Arden..beli murah2 je pon during sales kat UK..tapi, sampai ke sudah da over 5                                                             years..perfume aku tak habis2 lagi..wakakakka..

Kerja oh kerja

Skrg da pukul 10.47 pm..yet aku masih di opis..kuar umah dlm kul 11.30 a.m..sempat b/fast combine with lunch..arrive at office around 12+ noon. buat keje gedebak gedubuk sana sini...and finally keje pon siap..

finally my outstanding task for reveiwing agreement, mou and appoinment letter pon siap..da dgn leganya send to the principal co..ntah ape feedbacknya aku pon tak pasti..hopefully, dia just amend sesikit and zassss siappppp dia signature and return back to us..

done complaining petronas license matter. its really wasting my time off to klcc and not worth my time stay back in the office late, yet problem x settle due to their back end problem of the system..so, hampehkan..the moment i was calling the technical support da mmg tahap nak marah..and their response pon sama 2x5 mcm nak marah org jugak..bila call derang..ofkos ade di antaranya tu cam cass bagus...mcmla kita not exploring the LRS site good enough..3 x times calling them..different person..asik nak explain benda yg sama..and i really give up and fed up. so, just need to wait them to respond back to us..

kalu ikutkan mmg berlambak proposal nak kene amik tahu..tapi, i just dont bother..takat baca sesikit ape yg patut to assist my honey...yg lain2 mmg hampeh aku maleh nak layan...

Now..the list continuesss.......

1. follow up with Co Sec in regards to transfer of share form
2. have to ensure BEM documentation properly sign (Monday or Tuesday nxt week aim nak submit)
3. CIDB registration
4. Petronas Registration for new Co
5. Proceed to apply SWEC (tapi, aku jangka benda ni will stuck sbb LRS site yg hampess tu only gv us result of Co update in 2 weeks time..by that time..cesss...BEM Cert pon dah expired..so, hantulakan...
6. Siap2 sediakan support docs for registration termasuk SWEC..sampai aku naik nak muntah tgk the MTR...aku confirm benci tahap gaban nak hadap LRS SAP system..so, slowww lagi lembap...really waste my time..nak kene print out the MTR..sbnrnya geram gak ngan BOSS yg simply instruct.."yes...yes..we want the Co. to register with this and that scope"...

Right enough my honey was asking me to work more to make business..bukan tak nak put effort..mengkayakan dan memperbanyakkan aset keluarga..al-kisahnya aku bukannya tak mo buat bisnes..but, my time oredi occupied to support him for management...keje management sket punya byk..tang policy pon kita yg nak kne draft..nak harap staff..aku mcm tak confident..or aku nikah yang terlebih PERFECTIONIST..at one time, i was asking my assistant to create new policy for the company...seriously aku cant agree totally with the content and finally ended up, i have to revamp back the content...dlm pd tu..hati da mcm nak menyumpah2..rasa mcm...haiii apesalla mangkak lagi lurus bendul sgt wat kije..main copy paste bulat2 apa yg dia jumpa di tenet...tanpa paham sepatah hapa pon akan isinya..main tampal sana sini..da mcm pelik satu mcm...adoyaiii...

Actually aku pon wat kije copy paste gak...tp, otak ni ofkosle kene berjalan..hanya filter yg ok saje...yg mana content tak relevant sila tolak tepiii....

Dan aku menyampah nak handle ISO...kali ni aku minta tlg my honey for his staff to support...staff yg dia puji2 tahap dewa pon..aku ngk pon same kureng...aku suh wat kije dr last week..hampeh..yg keluarkan hanya few linesss? What  the heckk?? its really drive me crazy...so, for ISO kali ni..I just want to see the report is out...Aku review the report..and lantak kolah nak terbalik tergolek bagai to maintain the file as according to the procedure..jgn nak suruh aku audit file derang yg melambak..paling hampagas, filing merapu..nak org Admin plak tolong fixkan..sorry naik lorry ok..byk lagi keje lain aku nak buat..i will just do random check...

Hampeh..

Hari ini 18hb Dec..So abt a week would be Christmas..
All in all..my maid has worked with us for almost 3 mos. She has made improvement from the past..

DULU..

1. Tak sabar dan asik nak marah bebudak
2. Marah bile ditegur..suka cakap nanti dulu
3. terlalu byk akal n tipu helah nak dapatkan passport dia..
4. sikit2 nak batal permit (mcm dia plak tauke yg nak terminate contract)
5. nak buat kije ikut kepala dia..

SKRG..

1. Agak OK ngan bebudak..walo kebykan masa she will leave my 3 kids upstairs..My 5th usually will be with her..ON and OFF adela my 4th and 5th with her..Ade masa dia suap anak2 aku makan..
2. Gosok baju and lipat baju cincai boncai..(yg ni aku paling tak suke..my ex is better)
3. buat kerja agak lambat...tapi, discpline bangun pagi..kebiasannya dia bangun kul 5..cume dia ni lembap sket pergerakannya..
4. agak lewa kalu bawa bebudak berjalan..
5. agak suke tersenyum

YANG AKU KURANG BERPUAS HATI

1. Suka tinggalkan bebudak di tingkat atas
2. jarang nak naik tingkat atas dan kemas (sbb pada dia..buat ape nak kemas..nanti bebudak akan sepahkan..so, kkdg bila balik kije dan penat..tgk umah sesepah..mestila kepala jadi semakkan..kebiasaanya dia hy maintain kekemasan di tingkat bawah
3. iron baju cincai boncai..kkdg aku mmg pasan..dia iron baju punyala sekejap..takkan nak kene gitau berkali2 baru nak paham..
4. cincai boncai kalu kemas, lipat baju dan susun baju

TABIAT&CHARACTER

1. Suka melawa..kalu nak keluar rumah kebiasaannya suka pakai cologne dan berlipstick bagai..bau colognennya punyala menusuk..aku takdela nak komplen itu dan ini cam dia..sbb yelah..byk lagi perkara aku nk pikir..kebiasaannya bibik aku kat umah akan pakai baju mcm org nak pi jejalan..t-shirt and jeans or slack (walhal mem kkdg punyala sempoi lagi serabai)..Btw, aku pasan dia ni jenis agak pembersih
2. suka hati main langgar2 org and campak barang..eh, ko majikanke aku majikan?
3. suka cakap 'eh' or 'hei'..am sorry..that sounds soooo unacceptable
4. keras kepala for surelakan..tp. skrg agak mellow sket..ade pros n cons org berhati batu..pronya..dia akan cube buat keje sehabis baik (walo tak perfect)..consnya ofkos buat sakit hati majikan kalu dia melawan
5. ala2 pemalu tahap gaban ngan lelaki..kalu ade lelaki..kkdg bole jadi tune mcm gadis ala2 sopan...kekdah mcm perempuan Indon terakhir...walhal..at the back..kalu bercakap ngan mem punyala mcm org suka hati..(yang ni mmg nasib tak baikla bagi lelaki2 yg di luar sana..yg hanya judge pompuan ngan melihat luarannya...sbb hakikatnya...my maid ni mmg agak brutal orgnya...)..sooo mmg she is really 'PLASTICK'
6. orgnya agak rajin bekerja...pandaila jugak cari kerja kalu takde keje..cumenya dia ni tak suka ditegur..mcm ala2 pride kekdahnya..sprtnya...mcm rasa 'mangkak' sgt kalu ditegur majikan
7. bole buat keje tapi tak begitu teliti..
8. selalu perasan bagus atau diva..
9. kategori mulut laser gakla. ckp main suka ati..tapi, mudah sakit ati kalu tersentuh hati dgn perckpan kita..
10. mmg tak begitu pandai memasak
11. bole jadi actress..ade masa nampak sopan..ade masa nampak brutal..maklumla by translation her name is 'ASKAR'..jd perangai pon mcm panglima perang

KESIMPULAN

1. Kalu ikutkan my ex bibik yg aku suke komplen in my past posts much better dari my current maid..dia lebih suka melayan bebudak and terima aje kalu aku suh wat kije..whereas my current maid ..pd kbykan masa mmg suke menjawab dan bercakap..my ex tak byk berckp..bukan jenis kaki gayut..lebih kemas iron baju, kemas katil and kemas baju..cumenya my ex bibik ade sket panjang tangan...tapi, kebiasaannya dia akan amik brg yg dia fikir hilang..
2. aku tak nak letak jaminan that she will be staying longer with me..pd aku asal habis kontrak sudahla..better aku tukar org lain..
3. Better amik maid dr org yg kita tak kenal..so, aku nak hanginke..halauke..suka ati akulakan..

I hate exam!

Esok ade exam..mmg tahap menyampah..tak jugakla nak aim be the top flyers..janji lulus sudahla...

7th Nov..

Today is 7th Nov..da masuk sebulan lebih my bibik is working with me..so far, takde masalah sgt bangun pagi..adela cheating sket2..kkdg tak buat ape yg aku suruh...cume ade dua tiga perkara yg aku annoying sket ngan minah ni.. 1) bila aku suruh tak terus buat..sebaliknya nak settlekan dulu apa yg dia rasakan patut..ataupon dia jawab..'esok aje..'..nanti aje..' 2) bila aku suh masak..kkdg dia menjawab...cthnya..'sape aja nak makan, puan'.. 3) bila aku bantu dia..dia ilang ntah ke mana...katanya sibuk nak sidai kain..atau buat kerja lain.. Pagi tadi dok bawa dia pi klinik..takde plak nak beriya nak ngk2 anak2 aku..mmg sgt2 blurrr...tukang jaga klinik tu pon dok cakap maid aku lembap..actually, dia tu bukannya jenis lembap..tp, jenis pemalas nak layan kerenah bebudak...tak reti sabar...over je nak mengamuk...ke dia mmg jenis minah over?? Sejak pagi tadi aku mmg asik marah2..mebe sbb aku tak cukup tidur dek kerana anak2 dok muntah2.. Actually bibik aku tu okla jugak..ade sket2 gedik..dok ade masanya perasan dirinya cantik..ade masanya dia rasa diri dia jelek..ade masa ok..ade masa ko..ade masa menghiburkan..ade masa menyakitkan...mmg betul2 manusia tak stabil dlm dunia ni.....

Maid 2013..

Hai..hai..hai..setelah Yuning meninggalkan kami hampir 2.5 tahun lamanya..kami, akhirnya mendapat pengganti yg baru..pon begitu..maid kali ni tak jauh beza dr yuning..cumenya, Nat ni org Madura..umurnya baru awal 30an...janda anak 3...agak manja..mungkin sbb sewaktu menjadi isteri org..dia seorang yg manja...dan sentiasa diberi perhatian oleh suami.. Wajahnya lembut tetapi agak keras kepala..selalu buat kerja mengikut apa yg dia rasakan betul difikiran...jarang buat aku sakit ati...walaupon ada masanya mmg ade gakla dia buat aku sakit ati...sometimes, aku dok wonder..napa aku asik hot temper ngan si Yuning dulu2..mebe, sbb dengan pertambahan usia..dan sejak menjadi supervisor kpd 2 assistant aku di opis yg mana kedua2nya tak perfect performance dia cam Miss M sampai buat aku pening kepala dan hampir nak sack salah sorang dr derang...tahap keperfectionistan aku semakin berkurang...byk masa aku cube tutup mata dgn kekurangan Nat..apatah lagi, dgn keadaan aku..punya anak berderet...pasti sgtla..belum apa2 lg..kebiasaannya calon2 maid da surrender..paling tidak..mebe nak kije ngan aku...tp, demand gaji over! Maid aku kali ni..dibayar ngan gaji RM700...takde potongan gaji sbb dia spent tambang dan passport sendiri...permit ditanggung sepenuhnya oleh aku..kalu ikutkan mcm win2 situation gak..unless maid lari..mmg majikan yg rugi...mana taknya permit and fomema da bayar..maid plak tak serve the contract...memandangkan Nat nak gaji dia bulat2 diserahkan kepada makcik dia..kira punya kira..bukannya Nat tak untung..mmg untung...sbb, kalu ikutkan secara avenrage per year gaji bulanan dia sepanjang 2 tahun bekerja dgn aku adalah RM 800 sebulan termasuk permit bulanan RM 100 Kalu ikutkan Yuning mmg lagi better dr Nat..except Yuning ni lembap..tapi, nak jugakla dgr cakap kita...Yuning berusia hampir 40 tahun..dan Nat plak muda lagi dlm 31 gitu..mula2 aku sangkakan..kalu amik maid muda..yg muda akan hormat yg tua or dgr cakap..tp, sebaliknya...Nat orgny jenis tak bule ditegur dan adakalanya menjawab...dan mungkin sbb mukanya yg lembut..barangkali juga orgnya jadi cepat sensitip dan mudah merajuk...kalu ikutkan Nat da di sini hampir sebulan...pada permulaaannya mmg aku baik dgn Nat...tapi, sejak bergaduh balik dr Raya Haji...segala2nya telah berubah..pd kebanyakan masa..aku bercakap dgn dia apa yg perlu..Orgnya tak begitu pandai mengemas sgt...ada masanya mengemas..tp, tetap ade sampah yg tertinggal di bawah kabinet atau meja...tp, lepas dibanding2 dgn maid yg lain di luar sana..actually Nat not bad orgnya..yet, still cant challange Yuning..ni yg kkdg buatkan aku teringatkan si Yuning...itulah org cakap..bila depan mata asik nak gaduh...bila berjauhan lagi dikenang2...Nat orgnya kurang berbau kalu nak banding si Yuning..kebiasaannya mmg suke cari kerja..cume, lately jek aku ngk da mcm malas...mebe sbb masih tak biasa bekerja berat..jadi, bila buat kije berat sket..dia jadi cepat letih..or..mungkinkah sbb dia da kekenyangan dok makan durian malam tadi??? Orgnya tak begitu pandai menggosok..kije mmg cepat...tapo, kebiasaannya sbb nak cepat2..makanya cthnya lantai dan pinggan mop tak bersih or tak di cuci bersih..masih lg berminyak..

Malam yg semakin larut..

Malam makin larut..badan pon mula letih. Training yg patutnya aku attend esok..aku da postpone ke hari yg lain. Kkdg dpt aku rasakan...rasa badan letih my honey sure lagi berkali2 ganda dr aku SBBnya.... 1) he works in KL 2) he holds important post in the Company 3) kkdg he has to handle masalah management and also people he works with. dealing with people can be sooo stressful. inikan aku yg meghadap sorang bibik pon bila bibik x perform aku mula nak saiko ngan maki2..inikan plak bila anak2 buah aku buat hal..dan inilah jugak yg terjadi...buatkan hati aku kkdg berdebar2...bila rasa nak naik angin..and rasa nak pelempang anak2 buah aku sorang2...orrrr am I too perfectionist? Being a leader has taught me to accept the strength and weakness of our assistant. People is not born perfect..so, iron ladies out there please stay cool...yehaa! actually i was disappointing today cause my assistant start to speak malay with me sedangkan yesterday she was totally fine. bukanla masalah atau isunya di sini aku tak bangga dgn bahasa ibonda..tetapi, yg nyatanya...if she wants to improve her speaking, this would only the opportunity.and then when i was asking her to do something, i hv not seen her writting any notes causing her misses few points that i would like her to ask to the supplier..or she is totally blank??

Blogku yg senyap sunyi..

Blog aku ni da lama sgt dibiarkan menyepi..bukan tak mahu menulis..tp, aku sgt2la kesuntukan masa..masa yg bergitu terhad sgt2 tak mengizinkan aku nak merewang menulis blog.. Sejak tahun 2013..byk perkara yg da berubah..aku bangkit awal..jd supir hantar dan amik anak2 skool&taska..pi keje almost in daily basis from 8.30 to 6.00 p.m..memasak di rumah, menggosok baju...pendek kata mmg padatla jadual aku..by the time malam menjelma..aku terus jadik flat gile..

Hai hai hai..

Hai..hai..hai..dah lama betulkan aku tak menulis dlm blog..kalu ikutkan mmg ade aje idea aku nak menulis..cume sayangnya masa tak mengizinkan..at this time being aku busy dgn kerja..kerja dan kerja...walaupon ada masanya ade gakla yg aku dtg lambat ke ofis.. like today..am exhausted pi pick up baju from Jess..thinking that I can bring back all of new clothes fr him...nampaknya sangkaan aku meleset...ngk2, ari ni gak aku kene menyinggah ke kedai dia semula..bosan..bosan..bosankan...letih betul mak cik dibuatnya...masalah gum aku pon tak settle lg..dicampur lg ngan problem org baru masuk yg nampaknya belum mencapai piawaian std aku di ofis.. mendengar luahan rakan di tpt kerja...menyebabkan aku da mcm seriau plak nak keje luar..they way she told me the story..gile outspoken lagi straightfwd his boss commenting abt her work..mau taknya if i were in my shoes can make me feel like sebeban batu singgah di bahu aku.. dlm dok busy keje..kepala aku terganggu ngan kain baju raya yg nak dibeli dan ditempah..

Hari2 yg berlalu..

Hari2 yg berlalu..begitu byk suka duka perit jenuh yg dilalui..terbaru..my youngest oredi over 1 yr...Eppi belated Besday my Queennnn Baby..and in 10 days time...Milan would be offically 7 yo..Time flies..Milan is growing and taller plus matured..cume, ade gak perangai mengada2 dia..especially bilamasa aku jadik supir pi antar-amik-antar-amik anak2 fr skool..memang flat gile..nak2 bila kene pick bebudak tang panas2 terik..gosh...sgt2 cubaan..bilamana si Milan meragam..main2 dgn aku dan jalan jauh2 dr aku..konon2nya budget merajuk..sdgnkan aku dok kalut2 nak pi balik opis semula cepat..kebiasaannya..if am not back to opis..i will be staying n work fr home..kbykan masanya..i will terus take a bath sbb terasa panas dan sumuk gile.. Few weeks ago..finally Milan settle naik van sendiri..ade masanya sume2 ni nak kene paksa..otherwise mulala mengada2.. Terbaru..last Monday my honey had to undergo appendix operation..kaedah tebukan..appendix yg rosak..adela berupa jantung ayam..

Perkembangan anak2 as per Oct 2012..

Harris.. Kelihatannya skrg dia gemar menyanyi..tak sangka plak my son yg sentimental ni suke menyanyi...walopon ornya pemalu yg berlebihan...sejak akhir2 ni my harris da menunjukkan keberanian utk participate in persembahan...da siap2 minta kat his dad utk printkan lagu payphone..da pandai compare diri dia ngan friends yg da awal2 siapkan buku latihan sekolah kat umah dan hanya perlu lepak2 while other students dok pulun kene siapkan keje..prestasi pelajaran..aku kirakan semakin menurun..mebe, sbb aku pon da tak amik perhatian sgt ngan his study progress..bebaru ni his score 70+ jek for BM and the rest dlm 80+ except for BM penulisan got 90+.. Wat masa ni..aku dlm proses mengasah bakat dia utk menyanyi dan berani menyuarakan pendapatan or complaint if the foods served did not suit to our taste.. Milan.. Masih cheeky sprt dulu..tekun dlm membuat keje umah..tak perlu aku nak bersuruh sgt..andai moodnya dia baik..automatic je dia bole wat kije tak kira da malam da makin tua..dia tetap nak abiskan keje satu buku...sampai aku kene tegur dia..coz aku sendiri pon tak larat nak berjaga...in terms of english literacy da menunjukkan byk improvement..da kenal alif sampai ya...cumenya, reading jawi aku tak test lagi her capability..mathslak nampaknya perlukan perhatian serius..sgt2 ke laut her understanding in maths..mebe, kene lebih berusaha n byk exercise...dr segi membaca BM and BI takde masalah...sbbnya E-XRa pon dia da khatam..kalu bagi buku BM&BI..mmg dia da bule baca..dan takdela merangkak2.. My Baby.. My Baby yg manja dan dulunya sgt2 behave...skrg da bertukar menjadi cheeky boy..yg tetap jugak manja..kkdg tak pasal2 dilempang dan ditolaknya si Mika..ade masanya mereka berdua berkawan..dan ada masanya dorang bergado..huiii mcm org bergusti..My Baby da pandai tak pakai diapers..My Baby tak amik masa lama utk nak off diapers ..ade gakla sekali aku bising2 mulut kat dia..lepas aku ajar dia utk kencing kat dlm baby pot dia dan tgk kencing dia sendiri dlm tu..dia jadi mcm excited dan takdela susah sgt kalu nak disuruh kencing sendiri...mulut pon byk cakap sampai aku pon poning nak melayan...tapi, My Baby orgnya cepat pick up..bebaru ni aku ajar dia cakap... I-'Sayang ibu atau sayang bapak?' MB-'Sayang ibu dan bapak' I-'Sayang kakak atau abang?' MB-'Sayang kakak dan abang' Mika.. Mika orgnya rapi..ade masa sgt cool..ade masanya..alahai...baran tak bertempat..habis cawan pinggan mangkuk pon dia bole campak cam tu saje dr baby seat dia...perangai dia yg dulunya suka nak terus terbaring kat lantai kalu tak puas ati pon da berkurang...Mika da pandai menerima arahan...kat nursery..Mika mendapat gelaran budak behave dan disukai oleh cikgu2 nursery.. Nia.. Tepat 8 bulan..Nia da mula pandai merangkak...laju pulaknya..orgnya suke tersenyum bila diacah dan sgt2 determine..Oleh kerana sifat keazamannya itu..makanya Nia cepat belajar berbanding kakak dan abang2nya sblm ni..skrg Nia da mula pandai merambat..tak berapa suke sgt nak makan..orgnya gedebab...manja...dan gaya dia menyusu mcm si Harris...sambil berdiri pon bole menyusu badan..heheh

Hari ni aku aku tak masuk...

Hari ni aku tak masuk ofis..sejak lepas raya..aku rasa amat2 penat..dan rasa penatnya itu tak habis2 hingga ke sekarang...keje melambak2..baik keje umah maupon keje opis..almost in daily basis aku dtg ofis walo not for full day. bila aku masuk kije awal..aku rasa mcm sgt2 exhausted..bila balik umah plak..anak2 da makin membesar..Sara pon semakin gebot..sampai mommy pon tak larat nak dukung..mujur aje..Sara orgnya agak independent.. Bila hari2 pi opis..keje2 umah pon tak tertgk..baju bertimbun2..yg mana nak cuci tangan, cuci mesin nak lipat n iron..kkdg rasa mcm nak hantar dobi je bila ngk sume2 baju yg bertimbun,,minggu ni..mmg minggu hancus aku menguruskan kije2 umah..sbbnya..aku hanya gosok beberapa helai baju sekolah anak2 aku..yg lain..da mcm bior aku maleh nak pikir..biorla crumple baju derang..sbbnya, aku da tahap tak larat..n almost everyday aku tido lewat pagi..everyday bole dikatakan kul 2-3 pagi...mcm teruk sgt life aku sgt..da mcm tak keruan..n takde masa utk diri sendiri..yelah..mana taknya..balik umah..sediakan food for family..bagi derang makan..kemas dapur n cuci pinggan mangkuk...kalu nasib baik..kul 10 malam..dptla aku naik ke tingkat atas..mcm, malam tadi..sampai nursery to pick the kids je da pukul 11.00 malam...so, mana tidaknya aku masuk tidopon pukul 2 pagi..1.30 pagi tula baru aku nak pump susu..dan ari ni jek..aku start pump susu kul 1 ptg..mana taknya, produksi susu aku skrg da mulai merudum..sesi petang tadi je susu hy terhasil 7-8 oz..mmg jauh berbeza dr memula dulu...susu terhasil sampai 20 oz bila dipam setiap pagi..n sessi malamnya bila aku pam sekali lagi akan dapat 20 oz lagi.. Yg tak bestnya..job opis aku da mcm bertambah2..kkdg mcm buang masa asik kene attend meeting...kalu ikutkan..aku ni takdela berkira or kisah sgt..janji aku ade masa utkk diri sendiri dan dpt belajar sesuatu yg baru..tp, kalu job tu makin bertimpa2..aku rasa mcm...erkkk??? aku kene buat sume keje2 neh? sbnrnya keje2 tu sume kalu dilistkan idakla byk mana..yg penting perlukan konsentrasi..masalahnya bila aku nak konsentrate mulala ade halangan itu dan ini...nak melayan org yg tak patut dilayan pon dikira buang masa juga...cthnya..plan nak amik loan ngan RHB..tapi, at the same time dok panggil bankers of dif branches fr the same bank..sekali derang dtg..mestila mase aku pon turut sama terbuang..tu lom lagi dikira buang karen dok hantar e-mail and kertas2 supporting document utk derang..pehtu yg tak bestnya..dah aku providekan the docs..bolehlak ctc aku lagi nak minta docs yg sama...da tahap camne..konfem2kanla aku pon da malas nak layan..makanya aku terus kasik job kat another banker...walopon minah tu banker pertama yg aku jumpa..bila pk2 balik..semua ni adalah rezeki..

Aku serabut..

Lately aku mcm serabut sket..mebe sbb byk perkara x settle..buatkan aku rasa sgt2 unhappy..List of my outstanding tasks.. 1) buying process of property A.. 2) buying process of property B.. 3) advertising JDs...find potential platform to place advertisement.. 4) check payment record 5) check the capability of the payroll system 6) plan for project E... 7) registration SC 8) update registration PET

Enjoying my post..

As for today...i still busy as bee looking for honey...or shall i say money??? well, it does not matter..but, to tell you the situation right now..am not a big earner..in fact am earning much lower than my assistant does in the Company..but, yet..funny enough am still happy doing my job..perhaps, because i like to see my honey smilling... Shall i say...this is all about companionship of both parties willing to sacrifice for happiness in life? sometimes, i feel sad too..because at this age..only i have the opportunity to explore the field that i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hoping that i can be IN during my young age. it just matter during that time, i wasnt have anyone to tell me about or maybe lack of exposure... to say..which step that i shall take to pursue my career..i just lost in space...letting my fate to be carried and decided by the time..let the time tells what should happen to me next..but, i am no longer in that kind of position at the moment...altho i could be some sort of it for somehow...am waiting for the task or depending on my passion to find WHAT SHOULD BE MY NEXT?? i guess, maybe becase i've been spoilt for so long..only at this time being..i see..i have been pushing myself to deliver the unexpected POSITION that i shall take into responsibility..and only then...i do realize my own POTENTIAL.. Now, i was sitting infront of my lappy...reviewing few contracts for the sake of Company..it can be boring at the time..but, it can be fun as well for somehow..but, i do enjoy every moment i learn new things..altho for sometimes..i do see myself still in GRASPING mode to get used with several terms written in the agreement..and i do appreciate every seconds that i have to deal with people..and i believe very much..sooner or later..i will be pretty much experience in reviewing the agreement in no time... Getting to know closely many new people in my life..give me better chance to improve my character as well as my skill.. TBC

August, 2012 is coming

Its been long silent since i've last visited this blog...writting about the friction that i did encounter wif lil bro..now, the problem sorted out..but, here we go another issue is coming in...not related to wif my lil bro though...its more about something else and nothing related as well wif my happy family..no worries..i believe..theres always light by end of the tunnel..no matter how hard is the situation, i'm positively thought..we will finally find the solution...eventhough, i may emotianally distracted..i guess, i could back to concentrate with my work and enjoy every seconds of my life.. Trust me or not..rara is now over 6 mos..shes rolling and learning to lift her body to prepare herself to crawl..and honestly..i enjoy every moments spending time with my child..eventhough i cant really tell you..how tiring is my life without bibik in my our family..but, rest assured..am totally happier that i did whenever i have bibik..cause i was feeling more stressfully having stranger in my house..especially if her commitment and quality of works below than my expectations.. While my baby is becoming more chatty..he talks a lot..until i cant stop..hes been funny and cheeky boy since he is 3...i presume, thats pretty common for kids around that age as i had experienced with milan..most of the time, we need to be in cool position to control the emotion for not easily getting angry when shes doing wrong...yeah...wrong in the meaning of being naughty and cause damages and people surrounding her to cry...of course during that time..bibik will be the victim to answer of her wrong doing...especially when we suffer with losses and damages due to bibik negligence in looking after her...hahah.. Mika is going to be 2 in this Sept..he is lesser sensitive but yet still adores his mommy more than anyone else..the funny thing about him..he likes to copy whatever his siblings do..no matter...the way they talk or move..seems to us..he is a happy toddler..like to help others..understand simple instruction..and believe me or not..hes been mommy little helper! Harris is getting matured...hes infact attended his white belt Taekwando exam last nite..hes been so sensitive with whatever his cousins have or talking about..and for sometimes can be so demanding when he starts doing comparison between him and his cousins...i know..it sometimes can be very unfair to him..unfair in terms of..he cant enjoy very much his child time...as what his cousins did..cause at the moment..we do not have maid...so, he definitely needs to be more independent that his cousin..helping his mom to care her lil bros and lil sis... TBC

friction..friction..

I had friction 2day wif my lil bro..dan terus terang mmg aku kecewa to read his sms reply. But, knowing my lil bro since he is young..then, aku takdela nak emo sgt..cume, pd permulaan i was reading his sms aku terasa sgt2la terbakar.. perasaan terbakar itu tersgt2la meluap2 sampai aku rasa mcm nak meletup dan mengigil2 sambil driving..sampai aku x lalu nak makan dan berfikir lebih waras lagi..di saat ni mulala aku benci dgn post pekerjaan aku sbg HR..HR yg nak kene bergado dgn org or settlekan problem staff termasuk adik aku sendiri.. Dr sini aku belajar..baik ajela..x yah nak baik ati or concern sgt ttg future adik beradik. let them draw their future by themself dan lepas neh takdela masalah nak fingerpointing..tp, as a sister aku rasa..aku da buat yg terbaik for them..apa yg dia nak minta tlg..aku da tlg..if in the past he said..he was not happy to work with pipeline..then, kami usahakan juga carikan lubang utk dia work as according to his qualification as electrical engineering graduate. after been working wif us as graduate trainee..he left us and work wif our fren co as an instrument engineer...cumenya, he was unfortunate and rasa secure tak menentu cause recently his company starts to pay their salary late till 15th of April and he was very concern yg co dia tak dapat project, xde certification ISO as well as Petronas License. Yelah, mmgle our co has been accredited with those certs...tp, itupon bukan jaminan yg we always getting job fr outside.. People see org bisnes neh sng and byk duit..but, when looking into the mthly capital..then, only people can realize bukannya sng nak niaga..nak2 bebudak zaman skrg yg dok fikir..baru setaun jagung da minta gaji sampai ribu2 lemon..walhal experience takat tak sampai setaun.. Actually, the problem is simple..hes been working part time wif us..and he feels so annoyed sbb my staff keeps ctcting him several times for 10x per week to make follow up of his progress. tp, aku rasakan mcm ade sesuatu yg bothering him membuatkan dia tak kisah akan lansung nak amik his progress payment sbb aku pon da tahap fed up..yg aku tau..aku nak bank in jek terus ke akaun dia..and let the project close..

aku fed-up..

skrg jam da menunjukkan pukul 4:08 a.m..tapi, aku masih lagi tak lelapkan mata..bukan sbb aku x mengantuk..tapi, disebabkan oleh aku terlalu letih. hari ini merupakan hari pertabalan agung..pon, aku tetap pi kerja..reason being-ini sajela masa yg aku ade utk cilok pi opis siap bawa my dear Sara..sekali sekala ade jugala si baby merengek..dok buat kije sambil jaga baby sampai aku tak menang tangan nak pump susu badan..takat bawak breastpump memberat2kan bahu...bukan aku tak mahu nak pump susu..tp, aku rasa cam tak cukup masa nak pi cuci breast pump aku dan kemudiannya nak lap2 sampai kering sblm digunakan..inilah masalahnya bila pakai pump medela freestyle..certain parts nak kene make sure kering..kalu idak mulala dia takkan pump efficiently...cadangnya, esok pagi ajela while waiting the van to pick up my son to KAFA..masa tulah aku amik peluang to pump susu kat tingkat bawah..malam tadi pon aku tak sempat nak pump susu..disebabkan oleh balik umah MIL je da dekat kul 12..fed up..fed up..sejak beranak 5 dgn ketiadaan maid..aku rasa mcm tak cukup masa..paling aku fed up..umah asik aje nak dikemas spjg masa..letih tatau nak cakap ape..setakat 1-2 hari ajela bule menten OK..da lepas tu mulala tonggang terbalik semula..i wasnt planned to take cleaner for more than 3 times..sbb, bila derang ade..mulala aku pon turut sama nak pi wat kije..end up, tiap kali pas cleaner balik..aku pon sama pengsan..rasa mcm nak bobok kat atas katil sambil pasang air cond..itu lom lagi masa aku been occupied with pumping my breastmilk..yg mana besanya aku buat dlm 2-3 kali sehari..most likely sehari adela 3x aku mengepam..letih u know! i'm totally flat! nak2 aku lak baru baik dr masalah keracunan makanan..sampai naik demam dan sengal2 aku dikerjakan bakteria campuran telur dan tomato busuk..walo hanya makan sket..tp, effectnya..mak aiii...sampai aku susut jadik 64.2kg! bunyinya mcm menarik tapi, hanya tuhan saje yg tahu...betapa hazabnya aku masa tu...temperature naik and till now tekak aku mcm sakit..tataula ape hal..mebe, sbb toksin2 tu tak habis lg keluar..dok terkumpul dlm perut aku..since utk hari ni saje.. aku takde berak2 spjg hari..

overall, aku suka jugala wat kije2 umah..but, since aku takdela totally fit lagi..on 26/04 baru aku complete 100 days berpantang..makanya, aku takdela keen sgt nak wat kije buruh am lagi...nak2 baru lepas dr berpenyakit...pagi tadi jek celik mata aku da pi cuci baju baby n my lingerie pakai tangan, dok pam susu, pi cuci baju pakai mesin, mandikan baby dan sidai baju...paling aku stress bilamana aku nak kene pack keperluan bebrg bebudak tu sume sblm kami bergerak ke mana2..cthnya, mcm ari neh..aku tinggalkan bebudak ke umah mentua aku dan bawak Sara ke ofis..dan oleh krn aku hv to pump my milk 2-3 times a day..maka, terpaksala aku usung breastpump aku sekali..bayangkanla..mana nk sedian baju dan pampers bebudak, bekalan susu badan for Mika, susu tepung for Danny, bottle warmer, breast pump, coolant and the liners...seriously buat aku stress dan rasa mcm nak marah2..aku marah2 mebe..sbb, aku penat dgn kerja yg tak putus2...nak2 lak ngan aku yg tak lagi recover lg fr my sickness...bangun pagi..ya Allah, rasa tulang aku sakit yg banget2..mcm tak boleh nak bangun..and yet, esok pagi..utk hilangkan ngantuk..kenala aku berjaga...dok, iron baju sampai cleaner aku sampai..dlm pukul 9-10 pagi..sbnr2nya..aku tak perlu nak rasa stress banget2..kalu aku da siap2kan sume bbrg tu dr awal..tp, masalahnya..smlm mmg aku flat gila2..sbb, aku asik dok berak2..sampai lemah lg terkulai..tak boleh nak bergerak2 sgt..itu belum dicampur lagi dok kene sakit kepala..

cam ni ari..patutnya, aku da kene sediakan bekalan air anak2 siang..tp, oleh krn aku sgt2 kepenatan..makanya, aku tak terbuat apa yg patutnya aku buat..sampai2 jek dr umah MIL..aku terus kuarkan baju kat washing mashine..dan masukkan baju dlm bakul..pehtu pi cuci pinggan mangkuk cawan yg berlambak kat sink..sbb, aku tak sempat nak kemaskan sblm pi opis tadi..lepas siap aku clearkan sink..aku wat kije lain..dok sortingkan my extra EBM to the liners utk difrozenkan..and then aku kuarkan my coolant block dan gantikan yg baru...siap satu kerja...aku pi sidai baju..mana baju2 kering..aku dok campak2 jek kat mana2 tpt yg aku nak campak..sbb, aku da kepenatan gila..sib baik, my honey nak tolong mandikan dan tukarkan baju si Sara..mungkin sbb, dia nampak aku da habis letih..yg tadinya dr jam 5 ke 9.45 malam dok wat kije2 opis..dan aku pon sama fed up ngan kije2 opis yg tak putus2..rasa nak je aku menjerit n settlekan closing account neh cepat2..sbb, aku nak move to my other task...hah..yer...my promise to my ex-supervisor yg da berpostpone ntah ke berapa ratus kali...sampai da naik setahun masa berlalu..jadi, aku berharap2 sgtla yg aku bule settle by saturday..sbb pasni aku nak kene visit Petronas License dan MOF and oso nak kene curi masa nak register for Co..yer, aku fed up and boring hoccay..cause aku penat fizikal dan mentally, aku tak berapa nak bole berfikir..mebe, sbb aku da mengong and short circuit sket!

Things that i like to do for my family..:

1) lipat baju..tp, nyampah nak masukkan baju ke tpt masing2..dan baju yang paling aku tak suka nak lipat is sleepsuit..sbb, aku jenuh nak membutangkan baju..baru kendiannya aku leh lipat sleepsuit tu dgn betul..

2) cuci baju baby and my lingerie pakai tangan walo agak letih sbb nak kene bilas bbrp kali..**sorrylah..aku mmg kkdg ada masalah was2 ttg kebersihan..tu yg besanya aku bilas baju sampai 2-3 kali..bilas guna 2-3 baldi kekdahnya..

3) ironing only for certain clothes..tp, aku nyampah nak gosok yg bulky2 cthnya cam king size duvet cover..apatah lg baju2 opis my honey..lagila gua surrender..jgn suruh aku hoccay...mau kedut seribu..sedangkan baju sekolah bebudak, baju dlm rumah and our bedding set we all pon aku gosok just ala kadar..hy nak kejar masa sementara baby aku tak menguwek tiap kali aku nak wat kije..yg aku pasan sejak ade bb kecik..aku terpaksa jadi multi tasking n berkerja dgn 'super pantas'

4) bagi makan bebudak dgn syarat dorang mmg bersungguh nk makan...tapi, aku paling tak suke nak kene kemas dan mop makanan2 yg da berjatuhan kat lantai..dan aku paling anti ngan cicak2 yg kurang ajar..yg suka sgt nak berak2 kat our dinning area dgn tanpa berhemah altho my cleaner baru je lepas mopkan lantai aku..

5) mandikan baby..pakaikan losyen dan bedak JJ kat my baby..suka bau wangi baby slps mandi..

6) masukkan baju dlm mesin dan pusing mesin..tp, aku paling tak suka nak sidai kain baju yg bulky2..kat luar rumah..kes malas nak kelam kabut bila hari hujan..paling tak best, baju2 yg aku sidai..mulala nak gatal berterbangan bila ditiup angin yg mana aku terpaksa kene kutip dan cuci semula..

7) memasak yg simple2..tp, tak berapa nak happy nak stay lama2 kat dapur tanpa lap kaki..dan aku tak suka anak2 dok bermain air paip kat sinki dapur..plus, aku stress setiap kali melihat my new wet kitchen cabinet yg siap direnovate sblm aku melahirkan my baby..sgt2 disaster dan menakutkan...sejak kami tukar ke lantai tiles..mebe, sbb dlm tu sejuk..suke jek binatang2 nak bertengek maupon melepak kat situ..dan aku paling anti ngan sejenis serangga ala2 agas kecik yg suke berterbangan dan kendiannya hinggap di pinggan2 yg aku da cuci..sungguh tak hygenic g2...sbb, setau aku..agas kecik tu terjadi dr maggots...SO, YUCKS!

Day 39@69.4kgs..overall reduction..17.1kgs

Hari ni dah masuk hari ke-39 aku berpantang. Dan guess what..berat aku statik dah nak masuk 2 weeks..pada 69.4kgs..ade gakla sekali tu aku timbang..dpt berat 68.9kgs..sket aku punye girang..dok menjangkakan i can reduce more by the end of the week..tgk2 apa yg aku harapkan tidak sprt yg dijangkakan..coz berat aku naik semula fr 68.9 menjadi 69.4kg..tambah lagi 500g..mungkin juga method penjagaan makan aku tu silap..mana taknya..i was having my dinner dlm kul 7-8 pm..sedangkan waktu pantang si Mika..aku besa dinner at 6 pm..dinner aku kali ni agak lewat sbb sekalian aku nak turun bukakan pagar utk anak bujang aku..normally, i will have my noon sleep dlm kul 3-4pm..depends on situation..ade masanya..mmg aku tak tido disebabkan aku dok leka ngk tv or berlayar internet..

Awal2 pantang..ade gakla aku kkdg wat kije opis..esok nampaknya aku kene plan to settle apa2 yg patut di awal pagi..coz aku nak kene issue gaji for staff...dan nak kene check my assitant punye kije..sambil nak kene buat slip gaji for pekerja..i guess, this shouldnt take long for me to settle...lagipon aku da issue kwsp and socso pekerja till february..so, takdela aku nak kalut sgt..

Sebenarnya aku agak frust nonggeng gak..berat aku statik pada 69.4kgs..so, hari ni..aku tukar plan..dok makan biskut cicah milo je for my dinner..aku ingat..esok aku nak makan biskut cicah milo jugak..cume, aku nak makan epal sebiji sbg tambahan...jadi, kenela aku angkut epal dlm 1-2 biji sehari ke tingkat atas...nak tau jugak samaada dgn kaedah ini..aku leh susut berat..Mmg tensen tgk badan bulat depan cermin..mana taknya dgn ketinggian aku yg tak seberapa..mmg langsung tak balance ngan berat 69.4kgs..yg aku pasan..peha aku sket punya besar..sampai suar size 14 pon aku tak bule nak fit...kronik bukan?