Bulan ini dalam sejarah..the whole family terkene chicken pox..tatau dr mana virus chicken pox ni kami dapat..sebab kami mmg tak bertemu langsung dgn manusia yg berpenyakit chicken pox..yg aku dapat agakkan mungkin semua ni gara2 sewaktu kami excited survey2 rumah yg agak kurang kehygenicannya di 'A' road...Mak aku pon pelik, dia sangka kat UK takkan ada penyakit chicken pox begitu..tapi rupa2nya macam2 penyakit ada...yg dia dah tak pernah kene..cucu2 dan anak menantunya KENA!
Semuanya bermula dr my son...3 weeks ago sewaktu cuti sekolah...pendek kata rancangan aku nak beriya mengajar my son hand out dr cikgunya sumenya tergendala..my son byk berehat..dan sewaktu dia dah nak mula recover..aku plak tiba2 demam panas sejuk..mengigil pon ade..selang beberapa hari...hah itu dia....muka aku naik blister2...mula2 tu merah dan kecik2 aje...aku sangkakan mungkin sbb allergic skin care...rupa2nya...aku dah terkena chicken pox! Sebelum ni tak pernah tahu pon chicken pox tu camne rupa bentuknya...Kiranya, inilah kali pertama...terkene penyakit melarat ni...bila umur dah tua2..
Mmg teruk aku kene attack kat muka..pastu ka belakang telinga, badan, tapak tangan dan jari pon ade! tawakkal ajela..semoga scar tu akan hilang...Gegirl kene selang sehari dr aku...mmg sedeyla tgk keadaan gegirl..habis merah2 muka dia..hari kedua gegirl kene...dia dok meroyan...menangis2..terbangkit2 dr tido..tergaru2 badan dan anunya...itupon aku rase gegirl jadik naik gatal2 sbb my darling kasik dia makan ayam, telur dan fish finger tanpa pengetahuan aku...kesian my darling kurang arif pasal jaga org tgh chicken pox..
Punya gegirl meroyan..aku yg tgh tak larat habis dibalunnya..tak pasal2 bila menstrualnya datang..aku plak dibalingnya dgn botol air dia..kesian betul dgn aku..masa tu barula aku terpiki..takpela...kalu my darling nak bawak gegirl balik Mesia...aku pon tak kisah..nak tinggalkan gegirl kat Mesia pon aku ok2 aje..sbb mase tu aku mmg tak larat dan hanya berbaringan saje..Pukul 4 pagi baru gegirl berenti nangis dan tertidur...barula aku dapat lega sama nak lelapkan mata....mmg dugaan besar sungguh utk aku menghadapinya...Dgn ini kerja2 aku mula tergendala semula...Tak tahula bila nak habisnya kerja2 aku ni..Aku mmg kesian betul tgk chicken pox gegirl..kat bahagian 'shi-shi' dan bottom dia punyala berbintat2 besar...tak dapat aku nak imagine camnela sakitnya tu..mmg nampak ganas sungguh2 ganas chicken pox yg attack aku dan gegirl kali ni..berlainan spesies sungguh dr my son punya..
My darling alhamdulillah..cume kene sikit2 aje...alhamdulillah..my darling somi sporting lagi mithali...terpaksa ambil alih kerja2 aku uruskan anak2 dan rumah...tgk my darling lipat kain pon..aku mcm nak ketawa...aku siap tanya soalan bodoh:
'lipat kain ke tu my darling?'
Sepanjang perkahwinan kami, aku tak pernah nampak my darling lipat baju...kiranya baru pertama kali nampak dia melipat...barula tau mcmana kekdahnya somi sendiri melipat baju......nak tau jugak mcmana 'PERFECTIONIST' melipat baju...
Selang sehari aku kene chicken pox..my darling balik dr kerja..hari Jumaat seingat aku..siap belikan aku bunga kekwa hidup...katenya supaya aku cepat sembuh...Macam2 aje my darling...masa aku sihat..dok merengek2 kat dia minta belanja aku belikan bunga lily atau bunga ros..takde plak dia nak belikan...tapi, bila aku dah terlantar ni...barula dia terfikir nak belikan utk aku...agaknya dia mula faham..bunga dalam rumah ni menyegarkan...menghidupkan suasana...anyway, I appreciate very much for his flower...cume tak dapat nak kiss...sbb aku dah jadik 'UGLY URSULA' camni...
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
As what I've planned..
As what I've planned in previous blog..this morning I came to see Mike. Hoping I could sort out at least 1 of my outstanding works. Unfortunately, it wasnt happened as I hope it should be. Mike told me..the person incharge for nano indentor was not in...I was totally numb..deep inside really frustated to hear his words. I just totally couldnt understand, why couldnt he double checked wether Paul was in this morning if he knew from the beginning we were about to see him???? I was trying to convince, maybe Mike already in his 60s...and that was the reason he couldnt make good senses out of these...
I was negotiating with him, if I could ever occupied my free time to do some photographing with his equipment. Because this was the only time that I had...and it wasnt that simple for my darling simply to take one day off work JUST because of me...I was explaining my situation, that at the moment my son is sick..so, someone has to take turn to look after the children when one of us is not at home. I was about to scream in my heart..but at the same time..trying to pretend that I was OK..again, he buffed me off..telling me...that I was just to quick to do everything...Arghhhh, why on earth I should be dealing a person like this...Throughout discussion, I could see, his trying to project he knew better than anybody! Well, I just dont bother....may be that is REALLY him..How could I change people to happy with me??? Leaving his lab...I was mumbling alone..how my times had been wasted this time..because of this improper Mike's planning...
I walked away his lab..peeking, Pete's lab..and I was lucky enough..his machine was available..in fact, I could do some data retrieving..and transferred them to my pocket drive..at least, COOL.. I had something to do today...
I was negotiating with him, if I could ever occupied my free time to do some photographing with his equipment. Because this was the only time that I had...and it wasnt that simple for my darling simply to take one day off work JUST because of me...I was explaining my situation, that at the moment my son is sick..so, someone has to take turn to look after the children when one of us is not at home. I was about to scream in my heart..but at the same time..trying to pretend that I was OK..again, he buffed me off..telling me...that I was just to quick to do everything...Arghhhh, why on earth I should be dealing a person like this...Throughout discussion, I could see, his trying to project he knew better than anybody! Well, I just dont bother....may be that is REALLY him..How could I change people to happy with me??? Leaving his lab...I was mumbling alone..how my times had been wasted this time..because of this improper Mike's planning...
I walked away his lab..peeking, Pete's lab..and I was lucky enough..his machine was available..in fact, I could do some data retrieving..and transferred them to my pocket drive..at least, COOL.. I had something to do today...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Oil of Olay..
I was lucky because met very good offer in Superdrug yesterday. I bought oil of olay 2 items for just £17.99. The package offer me to buy 'Olay Total Effects Moisturizer' and 'eye cream' together at definitely bargain price! I've been comparing the price all these while in other stores and none of them can beat Superdrug's deal for sure! Its nearly 40% off..and it really drove me crazy...How could I stop myself from buying them while it was more than a month I was moaning in wanting them..but was retarded many times..because sick of the price!
Olay products are quite pricey here. But still reasonable if you want to compare it with high end product such as Estee Lauder, Lancome, Dior and Chanel. I was with Estee Lauder's products in the past. Yet, until now still using its cleanser, serum and scrub. Had tried lancome once. But, Estee Lauder is always my choice! The reason I am now keen to give a try on Olay because of I was appealed to see my sister in law's bright and flawless skin! My preference on Olay over Estee Lauder's moisturizer is due the fact that..it is much cheaper, provely works with additional sun protection! This is just perfect moisturizer that am longing for...and I hope will suit me BEST! Otherwise, I may need to turn myself back to Estee Lauder..which means...more money to spend!
Olay products are quite pricey here. But still reasonable if you want to compare it with high end product such as Estee Lauder, Lancome, Dior and Chanel. I was with Estee Lauder's products in the past. Yet, until now still using its cleanser, serum and scrub. Had tried lancome once. But, Estee Lauder is always my choice! The reason I am now keen to give a try on Olay because of I was appealed to see my sister in law's bright and flawless skin! My preference on Olay over Estee Lauder's moisturizer is due the fact that..it is much cheaper, provely works with additional sun protection! This is just perfect moisturizer that am longing for...and I hope will suit me BEST! Otherwise, I may need to turn myself back to Estee Lauder..which means...more money to spend!
Hopeless me...
Aku dah naik hopeless...yesterday, I was like over the moon, today, I am very bloody hopeless and may be tomorrow, I can feel myself as totally useless..
Why on earth, I should be doing all of these? I just dont know? Am I really want to be a doctor? The answer is-I just dont know? All in my life, I just following the flow..wherever I should go..follow by the wind...without I even plan where should I go..Pity me..sometimes lost on her way..But, most of the time she is lucky..because she always hit her best luck with possibility of prosper future.
Tomorrow, am going to see Mike. To see wether their indentor is good enough for my work. I also about to ask him, wether he is kind enough to allow me to use his optical microscopy..I was about to see Pete too if am lucky enough. Just to ask his opinion about some of my works and hope he could be able to offer me some explainantions. May luck always be with me...
Why on earth, I should be doing all of these? I just dont know? Am I really want to be a doctor? The answer is-I just dont know? All in my life, I just following the flow..wherever I should go..follow by the wind...without I even plan where should I go..Pity me..sometimes lost on her way..But, most of the time she is lucky..because she always hit her best luck with possibility of prosper future.
Tomorrow, am going to see Mike. To see wether their indentor is good enough for my work. I also about to ask him, wether he is kind enough to allow me to use his optical microscopy..I was about to see Pete too if am lucky enough. Just to ask his opinion about some of my works and hope he could be able to offer me some explainantions. May luck always be with me...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Boboi oh boboi...
Sebenarnya mcm nak naik fed up buat kerja2 rumah..yg tak habis2..routine dan setiap kali buat bende yg sama.....really2 make me sick! rumah aku pon skrg dah rupa tak semenggah mcm kapal karam..malas aku nak beriya2 nak kemas selalu..sbb biasala...sekejap je rumah tu terkemas...selepas tu akan tetap bersepah..
Hari ni aku bagitau boboi yg he has to bring down his bottle to the kitchen first thing in the morning..boboi cume senyum2...aku dah letih nak naik hangin...kalu boboi throw on tantrum just because he wanted me to do his drink in prompt to..sedangkan..botol dia ntah bersepah2 ke mana2...many times, I stressed to him...not to rush on me while am in the middle of something...but he keeps doing and doing it..pestering me...so, pls son.....please be more sensible and not too demanding...So, I told boboi before he had his milo on bed upstair tonight..
Mom-"Every day, first thing in the morning, you should find and bring your bottle down to the kitchen. Ok, can you tell me know, what you should be doing everday early in the morning?"
Boboi just nodded and gazed back to me..
Boboi-"Bring my bottle down to the kitchen"
Mom-"Do you know why you have to do that?"
Boboi cume semyum2 tersipu2..
Boboi-"Why?"
Mom-"Because, it is easier..we not need to put ourselves in trouble while you are pestering wanting your drink in the bottle in immediate seconds"
Tak pastila sama ada boboi dapat atau tidak message aku tuh...Kkdg bebudak ni..everything needs reasoning...so, mudah sket dia nak terima message kita nih..elok plak saat2 camni sng jek aku nak temperature-mental sbb aku dah asik tido tak menentu...badan pon rase tak sedap.....tambah plak, boboikan tak sihat...
Semalam pon, aku siap train boboi vacuum lantai..mmgla tak perfect...sbb boboi cume budak umur 5 taun...tapi, okla..utk tahap budak kecik..SBBnya..mommy&daddy dah letih kene jadik maid kat rumah...soooo, sape buat sepah...silakan amik vacuum...dan vacuum balik tpt yg dorang sepahkan..Trick aku suh bebudak makan atas mat pon, dah nampak mcm menjadi...mula2 tu..mmgla si gegirl tu yg selalu buat spoil...tak mo dgr instruction..sesuka hati nak duduk dan lari sana sini...tak mo duduk dalam mat waktu makan...dah couple of days..nampaknya bebudak dah ok...kurangla sepahnya berbanding sblm2nya..
Dalam aku rushing2 ni..teringat plak si boboi dgn plan2 kitaorg sblm start cuti sekolah..'bake chocolate muffin' for the house.....konon2nya nak buat aktiviti bersama..tapi, sampai lani tak tersempat aku membuatnya...tgkla dulu boboi...mommy tak janji...si boboi pon aku ngk sejak aku wat keje lewat pagi..mata dia pon sama membengkak..sbb dok temankan mommy sekali buat keje lewat malam..sebenarnya, aku dah suh boboi tidur awal..tapi, dia yg mcm tak bule nak lelap..kalu tgk mommy berjaga....elok plak...skrg ni cuti sekolah..so, tak kisah sgt kalu boboi lambat bangun...Biasanya sblm dia tido...dia akan minta aku kertas dan pensil atau pen..sbb dia nak melukis katanya..Adela nampak skill melukisnya serba sedikit..siap aku kumpulkan satu fail..tak bagi bebudak tu sepah2..
Mata aku pon dah naik lain mcm...dah nampak dark circle..nampak no tak sihatnya aku nih...ingat nak cube gak...tido awai mlm dan buat keje awai pagi...nyampah tgk keadaan aku skrg..but, i guess sume dalam idup ni pon perlukan pengorbanan...Aku cube cover kehodohan kulit muka aku ni..dgn rewarding myself with in house facial...I found, exfoliating regularly...does irritate my skin..so, I chose rather not to do that too often..but, at the moment..I try my best to masker muka aku dgn yogurt+honey+mashed banana daily..Well, aku dah give up with commercial products..sume pon hampeh...buat muka aku jadik break out adela..from cheap to high end brand..sume pon..crapped! Natural mask...works really good on me..my skin's texture and complexion are much better now..in fact, I look fairer compared 2 mths back..So, hambik ko..busy body...yg dok kata muka aku dah terbako! I just sometimes cannot cope with people named 'busy body'..her comments sometimes..JUST totally UNSOUND and IRRITATIVE...I dont think I should feel sorry to ignore her..although at the same time..I knew her..fond by others...But, to be honest...I dont think she is truely a pleasant person..By the way, better off to keep my mouth shut..rather than saying..
Petang2 tadi jugak aku sempat testing gegirlnya IQ dgn flash card...about animals..cume beberapa jenis binatang& insect aje yg dia tahu nama dia..naik tergeletek aku dgr dia dok sebut nama2 binatang dan insects tu...yg lawaknya...tiger pon dikatanya miaw...tu yg aku terus propose kat my darling...kot2 sblm masuk sekolah ni..kami sekeluarga dapat lawat zoo...dapat gak gegirl ni kenal binatang2 kat dalam dunia ni...
spider-spaya
cat-kkdg sebut cat..kkdg sebut miaw
turtle-turtle
fish-fish
Sometimes tu, mmgla terasa kepuasan..jaga gegirl dgn tgn sendiri..adela butir english tu kuar dr mulut dia..but, yg aku pasan..dia lagi mudah speaking malay dr english..maybe because aku byk cakap malay..atau sbb bahasa melayu tu sendiri mudah org nak catch up...
Hari ni aku bagitau boboi yg he has to bring down his bottle to the kitchen first thing in the morning..boboi cume senyum2...aku dah letih nak naik hangin...kalu boboi throw on tantrum just because he wanted me to do his drink in prompt to..sedangkan..botol dia ntah bersepah2 ke mana2...many times, I stressed to him...not to rush on me while am in the middle of something...but he keeps doing and doing it..pestering me...so, pls son.....please be more sensible and not too demanding...So, I told boboi before he had his milo on bed upstair tonight..
Mom-"Every day, first thing in the morning, you should find and bring your bottle down to the kitchen. Ok, can you tell me know, what you should be doing everday early in the morning?"
Boboi just nodded and gazed back to me..
Boboi-"Bring my bottle down to the kitchen"
Mom-"Do you know why you have to do that?"
Boboi cume semyum2 tersipu2..
Boboi-"Why?"
Mom-"Because, it is easier..we not need to put ourselves in trouble while you are pestering wanting your drink in the bottle in immediate seconds"
Tak pastila sama ada boboi dapat atau tidak message aku tuh...Kkdg bebudak ni..everything needs reasoning...so, mudah sket dia nak terima message kita nih..elok plak saat2 camni sng jek aku nak temperature-mental sbb aku dah asik tido tak menentu...badan pon rase tak sedap.....tambah plak, boboikan tak sihat...
Semalam pon, aku siap train boboi vacuum lantai..mmgla tak perfect...sbb boboi cume budak umur 5 taun...tapi, okla..utk tahap budak kecik..SBBnya..mommy&daddy dah letih kene jadik maid kat rumah...soooo, sape buat sepah...silakan amik vacuum...dan vacuum balik tpt yg dorang sepahkan..Trick aku suh bebudak makan atas mat pon, dah nampak mcm menjadi...mula2 tu..mmgla si gegirl tu yg selalu buat spoil...tak mo dgr instruction..sesuka hati nak duduk dan lari sana sini...tak mo duduk dalam mat waktu makan...dah couple of days..nampaknya bebudak dah ok...kurangla sepahnya berbanding sblm2nya..
Dalam aku rushing2 ni..teringat plak si boboi dgn plan2 kitaorg sblm start cuti sekolah..'bake chocolate muffin' for the house.....konon2nya nak buat aktiviti bersama..tapi, sampai lani tak tersempat aku membuatnya...tgkla dulu boboi...mommy tak janji...si boboi pon aku ngk sejak aku wat keje lewat pagi..mata dia pon sama membengkak..sbb dok temankan mommy sekali buat keje lewat malam..sebenarnya, aku dah suh boboi tidur awal..tapi, dia yg mcm tak bule nak lelap..kalu tgk mommy berjaga....elok plak...skrg ni cuti sekolah..so, tak kisah sgt kalu boboi lambat bangun...Biasanya sblm dia tido...dia akan minta aku kertas dan pensil atau pen..sbb dia nak melukis katanya..Adela nampak skill melukisnya serba sedikit..siap aku kumpulkan satu fail..tak bagi bebudak tu sepah2..
Mata aku pon dah naik lain mcm...dah nampak dark circle..nampak no tak sihatnya aku nih...ingat nak cube gak...tido awai mlm dan buat keje awai pagi...nyampah tgk keadaan aku skrg..but, i guess sume dalam idup ni pon perlukan pengorbanan...Aku cube cover kehodohan kulit muka aku ni..dgn rewarding myself with in house facial...I found, exfoliating regularly...does irritate my skin..so, I chose rather not to do that too often..but, at the moment..I try my best to masker muka aku dgn yogurt+honey+mashed banana daily..Well, aku dah give up with commercial products..sume pon hampeh...buat muka aku jadik break out adela..from cheap to high end brand..sume pon..crapped! Natural mask...works really good on me..my skin's texture and complexion are much better now..in fact, I look fairer compared 2 mths back..So, hambik ko..busy body...yg dok kata muka aku dah terbako! I just sometimes cannot cope with people named 'busy body'..her comments sometimes..JUST totally UNSOUND and IRRITATIVE...I dont think I should feel sorry to ignore her..although at the same time..I knew her..fond by others...But, to be honest...I dont think she is truely a pleasant person..By the way, better off to keep my mouth shut..rather than saying..
Petang2 tadi jugak aku sempat testing gegirlnya IQ dgn flash card...about animals..cume beberapa jenis binatang& insect aje yg dia tahu nama dia..naik tergeletek aku dgr dia dok sebut nama2 binatang dan insects tu...yg lawaknya...tiger pon dikatanya miaw...tu yg aku terus propose kat my darling...kot2 sblm masuk sekolah ni..kami sekeluarga dapat lawat zoo...dapat gak gegirl ni kenal binatang2 kat dalam dunia ni...
spider-spaya
cat-kkdg sebut cat..kkdg sebut miaw
turtle-turtle
fish-fish
Sometimes tu, mmgla terasa kepuasan..jaga gegirl dgn tgn sendiri..adela butir english tu kuar dr mulut dia..but, yg aku pasan..dia lagi mudah speaking malay dr english..maybe because aku byk cakap malay..atau sbb bahasa melayu tu sendiri mudah org nak catch up...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Mas...oh Mas...
Hari ini aku nak bercerita ttg kawan lama aku...junior aku sms di MRSM dulu2...nama dia Mas...skrg sambung belaja PhD kat Aussie...
Seingat aku...mmg aku ngan dia agak baik masa di MRSM dulu2...walaupon, ade sorang kawan aku yg kurang berkenan aku ngamceng sgt dgn junior..tapi, ntah..aku sememangnya tak kisah..mmgla mase di MRSM dulu, ade org sgt2 particular junior tak bule nak selamba rock sgt dgn senior...ala2 ego gitu! by the way, as long as it wouldnt harm me..It definitely wouldnt bother..
Walaupon kami satu MRSM...kami dua masih rajin lagi exchange surat...sampaila kami di UKM...dan aku ingat lagi..dia bagitau aku sambil berseloroh sewaktu kami berjumpa semula setelah sekian lamanya kami tak jumpa...kat Kamsis Ibu Zain...
"satu UKM pon masih bersurat2an.."
Aku mmg sgt2 ingat Mas ni satu2nya junior aku...sbb...diala junior yg paing rajin mengcontact aku..walaupon dah habis MRSM...dan mmg sgt segar diingatan aku...Mas ni terror English...SBBNYA??? Kalu dia bercakap mcm ade bunyi slang2 sket...dan kalu kasik surat tu..siap ade poem Shakespeare!! sungguh mengagumkan! Aku kagum..sbb aku sendiri pon tak pandai nak ber'shakespeare'...
Dan aku ingat lagi..aku pernah let her down..sbb tak dpt nak hadir ke majlis akak dia kawen di Johor..bersungguh2 dia ajak aku...siap tepon dr Johor tak silap aku...still aku couldnt make it..ALASANNYA...sbb aku tgh POKAI and KOKAK sgt2 mase tu...mmg takde duit nak bayar tambang....huhuhuhu..kesiannya kat aku...
Yg terharunya, sms aku di UKM..dia bagitau aku..yg dia masuk UKM..sbb dia ikut2 aku...wah....terasa macam aku ni IDOLA...my GOD??? ade jugak org jadikan aku idola dorang???mmg sgt2la aku terharu...Dan yg paling percaya tak percaya..aku dan Mas skrg coicidently menceburkan diri dalam bidang akademik...dan lani memperjudikan diri pi buat PhD..cume bezanya...aku di UK dan dia di Aussie...Sebenarnya, aku mmg bangga dgn Mas..sbb setau aku, she did very well her job di UUM..siap sempat naik pangkat segala sblm further study kat Aussie...
Last sekali kami berjumpa...about 6-7 years back..kat warung roti canai..kat Semenyih...belanja Mas sarapan pagi...dan sampai skrg kami tak jumpa2 lagi...
Dan di pagi2 nihari, di waktu sume org nyenyak tido..aku berkomunikasi dgn dia setelah sekian lamanya kami tak berhubung through YM...and lucky enough..dia dgn baik hatinya tlg aku mendapatkan journal2 yg aku sdg dok godek2 tak jumpa dalam system ni..tapi, kene pi library...Thanks Mas..Big thanks to you...Syukur sgt2, di saat boboi kene chicken pox..dan mommy tak bule nak keluar pi skool..ade jugak yg sudi tlg mommy carikan journal2 utk mommy...Alhamdulillah..syukur....
Seingat aku...mmg aku ngan dia agak baik masa di MRSM dulu2...walaupon, ade sorang kawan aku yg kurang berkenan aku ngamceng sgt dgn junior..tapi, ntah..aku sememangnya tak kisah..mmgla mase di MRSM dulu, ade org sgt2 particular junior tak bule nak selamba rock sgt dgn senior...ala2 ego gitu! by the way, as long as it wouldnt harm me..It definitely wouldnt bother..
Walaupon kami satu MRSM...kami dua masih rajin lagi exchange surat...sampaila kami di UKM...dan aku ingat lagi..dia bagitau aku sambil berseloroh sewaktu kami berjumpa semula setelah sekian lamanya kami tak jumpa...kat Kamsis Ibu Zain...
"satu UKM pon masih bersurat2an.."
Aku mmg sgt2 ingat Mas ni satu2nya junior aku...sbb...diala junior yg paing rajin mengcontact aku..walaupon dah habis MRSM...dan mmg sgt segar diingatan aku...Mas ni terror English...SBBNYA??? Kalu dia bercakap mcm ade bunyi slang2 sket...dan kalu kasik surat tu..siap ade poem Shakespeare!! sungguh mengagumkan! Aku kagum..sbb aku sendiri pon tak pandai nak ber'shakespeare'...
Dan aku ingat lagi..aku pernah let her down..sbb tak dpt nak hadir ke majlis akak dia kawen di Johor..bersungguh2 dia ajak aku...siap tepon dr Johor tak silap aku...still aku couldnt make it..ALASANNYA...sbb aku tgh POKAI and KOKAK sgt2 mase tu...mmg takde duit nak bayar tambang....huhuhuhu..kesiannya kat aku...
Yg terharunya, sms aku di UKM..dia bagitau aku..yg dia masuk UKM..sbb dia ikut2 aku...wah....terasa macam aku ni IDOLA...my GOD??? ade jugak org jadikan aku idola dorang???mmg sgt2la aku terharu...Dan yg paling percaya tak percaya..aku dan Mas skrg coicidently menceburkan diri dalam bidang akademik...dan lani memperjudikan diri pi buat PhD..cume bezanya...aku di UK dan dia di Aussie...Sebenarnya, aku mmg bangga dgn Mas..sbb setau aku, she did very well her job di UUM..siap sempat naik pangkat segala sblm further study kat Aussie...
Last sekali kami berjumpa...about 6-7 years back..kat warung roti canai..kat Semenyih...belanja Mas sarapan pagi...dan sampai skrg kami tak jumpa2 lagi...
Dan di pagi2 nihari, di waktu sume org nyenyak tido..aku berkomunikasi dgn dia setelah sekian lamanya kami tak berhubung through YM...and lucky enough..dia dgn baik hatinya tlg aku mendapatkan journal2 yg aku sdg dok godek2 tak jumpa dalam system ni..tapi, kene pi library...Thanks Mas..Big thanks to you...Syukur sgt2, di saat boboi kene chicken pox..dan mommy tak bule nak keluar pi skool..ade jugak yg sudi tlg mommy carikan journal2 utk mommy...Alhamdulillah..syukur....
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Boboi kene chicken pox....
Hari ini dalam sejarah boboy kene cicken pox..sebenarnya since 2 days ago dia dah diserang chicken pox...cume, kami saje yg tak perasan..Ingatkan luka kat welly dia tu disebabkan dia kegatalan sbb kot2 cuci tak bersih lepas buang air kecik..Sebenarnya 'chicken pox' ni mmg penyakit yg aku rase parents dreading most..especially, aku yg tgh sibuk dgn study...doa2nya tuhan selamatkan aku dr terkena jangkitan chicken pox ni sbb mak aku sendiri pon tak ingat sama ada aku dah terkena penyakit ni ke belum...Apa2pon, aku tawakkal tu alallah sahaja...Amin..
Sebenarnya, aku dah dapat solution org nak jagakan anak aku...tapi, dah jadi begini..terpaksala aku mungkin posponekan..dek kerana aku takut2 gakla penyakit tu berjangkit kat member tu...since rumah yg aku nak tumpangkan si gegirl tu...tgh sarat peknen dan menanti nak melahirkan dalam bulan depan...so, should i be selfish???..definitely, my answer is 'NO'..again, my routine aku tetap mcm sebelum2nya...dok rumah sambil jaga anak..sambil tu wat keje aku...
Smlm, aku jumpa 'M' utk wat hardness test. Impression aku ttg 'M' sejak aku had phone conversation ngan dia ialah...aku rase dia ni ala2 mat salleh 'sarcastic'..Beriya dia cakap itu ini seolah2 testing aku ni tak possible..in fact, ade yg dia bebelkan..aku sendiri tak paham...atau dia sengaja nak buat aku tak paham...tapi, as usual..aku tak kisah pon org nak boasting atau nak cakap repek raban dgn aku..kemudian, dia pi suggest kat aku..aku should wat nanoindention..walaupon, sebenar2nya aku dah konfem ssgt aku mmg bule wat test kat situ..agaknya mungkin pasal 'M' ni dah tua..dah 60+ yrs aku rasa..sbb aku tgk tangan dia dah kuar spot2..kemudian, dia lukis bentuk kotak pon gigil2...dan aku pon tak pasti samaada aku ada mmg dia sengaja wat gambar kotak tu mengigil2..pastu, dia macam sengaja nak menyusahkan kerja aku..bagi alasan itu ini..termasuk kondem journal paper yg aku tunjukkan kat dia..ntah, katenya dia tak paham value hardness journal paper tu..kemudian, kata2 dia tu mcm tak mahu nak buat kerja aku...dalam hati aku, rasa geram pon ader..tapi, apa2 pon mcm biasa aku tetap kontrol macho aku...sebenarnya dah puas aku bagitau dia...yg particle aku tu sebesar 700 micron...so with micro indenter yg ade kat lab dia tu dah cukup sufficient..sbb dia bule indent at the min 3 micron...tapi, ntah kenapa..mungkin juga sbb diadah tua...dan hanya melihat sample yg aku bawa tu dgn mata kasar..dok, mulut dia kata balik2 tak possible..bila aku tunjuk gamba optical microcopy aku..barula dia nak agree dgn aku...kemudian aku mula terdetik..takkan kat kepala otak dia tu tak terdetik...size 600 micron tu berapa besarnya???? apa2pon, aku smmgnya sgt2 happy..sbb tahu yg bende aku nak buat tu possible...
At the same time, aku frust jugak..sbb Prof tu tak balas lagi email aku...mungkin jugak, Prof tu sendiri tatau camne nak wat experiment tu atau tak tahu nak jawab soalan aku...
Hari ini jugak, aku merajinkan diri mencuba resepi baru..'haddock vegetable pasta'..my darling cakap..rase pie aku macam hotel, luxurious and expensive food..naik kembang bontot aku dgr my darling kasik komen...aku pon dok asik bertamabh bersenduk2 makan pasta tu..sampai nak naik kembang perut aku..konon2 nak diet...tapi, setiap kali nak diet tula byk tul cabarannya...kalu ikutkan majalah Rosmary Conley tu..within 2 weeks aku bule susut 3-4kgs...tapi, itula..nak tahan makan sehari pon dah seksa..inikan plak, sampai 2 minggu???? walau apa pon, aku tetap cube nak minum air sbyk 2 liter sehari...sbb nak treat from inside...kulit aku yg skrg dah jadik kering kontang...
Sebenarnya, aku dah dapat solution org nak jagakan anak aku...tapi, dah jadi begini..terpaksala aku mungkin posponekan..dek kerana aku takut2 gakla penyakit tu berjangkit kat member tu...since rumah yg aku nak tumpangkan si gegirl tu...tgh sarat peknen dan menanti nak melahirkan dalam bulan depan...so, should i be selfish???..definitely, my answer is 'NO'..again, my routine aku tetap mcm sebelum2nya...dok rumah sambil jaga anak..sambil tu wat keje aku...
Smlm, aku jumpa 'M' utk wat hardness test. Impression aku ttg 'M' sejak aku had phone conversation ngan dia ialah...aku rase dia ni ala2 mat salleh 'sarcastic'..Beriya dia cakap itu ini seolah2 testing aku ni tak possible..in fact, ade yg dia bebelkan..aku sendiri tak paham...atau dia sengaja nak buat aku tak paham...tapi, as usual..aku tak kisah pon org nak boasting atau nak cakap repek raban dgn aku..kemudian, dia pi suggest kat aku..aku should wat nanoindention..walaupon, sebenar2nya aku dah konfem ssgt aku mmg bule wat test kat situ..agaknya mungkin pasal 'M' ni dah tua..dah 60+ yrs aku rasa..sbb aku tgk tangan dia dah kuar spot2..kemudian, dia lukis bentuk kotak pon gigil2...dan aku pon tak pasti samaada aku ada mmg dia sengaja wat gambar kotak tu mengigil2..pastu, dia macam sengaja nak menyusahkan kerja aku..bagi alasan itu ini..termasuk kondem journal paper yg aku tunjukkan kat dia..ntah, katenya dia tak paham value hardness journal paper tu..kemudian, kata2 dia tu mcm tak mahu nak buat kerja aku...dalam hati aku, rasa geram pon ader..tapi, apa2 pon mcm biasa aku tetap kontrol macho aku...sebenarnya dah puas aku bagitau dia...yg particle aku tu sebesar 700 micron...so with micro indenter yg ade kat lab dia tu dah cukup sufficient..sbb dia bule indent at the min 3 micron...tapi, ntah kenapa..mungkin juga sbb diadah tua...dan hanya melihat sample yg aku bawa tu dgn mata kasar..dok, mulut dia kata balik2 tak possible..bila aku tunjuk gamba optical microcopy aku..barula dia nak agree dgn aku...kemudian aku mula terdetik..takkan kat kepala otak dia tu tak terdetik...size 600 micron tu berapa besarnya???? apa2pon, aku smmgnya sgt2 happy..sbb tahu yg bende aku nak buat tu possible...
At the same time, aku frust jugak..sbb Prof tu tak balas lagi email aku...mungkin jugak, Prof tu sendiri tatau camne nak wat experiment tu atau tak tahu nak jawab soalan aku...
Hari ini jugak, aku merajinkan diri mencuba resepi baru..'haddock vegetable pasta'..my darling cakap..rase pie aku macam hotel, luxurious and expensive food..naik kembang bontot aku dgr my darling kasik komen...aku pon dok asik bertamabh bersenduk2 makan pasta tu..sampai nak naik kembang perut aku..konon2 nak diet...tapi, setiap kali nak diet tula byk tul cabarannya...kalu ikutkan majalah Rosmary Conley tu..within 2 weeks aku bule susut 3-4kgs...tapi, itula..nak tahan makan sehari pon dah seksa..inikan plak, sampai 2 minggu???? walau apa pon, aku tetap cube nak minum air sbyk 2 liter sehari...sbb nak treat from inside...kulit aku yg skrg dah jadik kering kontang...
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Gementar
Kelmarin, aku ctc this bulk handling expertise..dan tak sangka dorang nak gak jawap soalan aku promptly!...panjang lebar reply dia sampai aku pon naik tak paham..wahahhahah...
Hari ini, aku mcm kesuspenan, sbb aku email plak kat sorang professor tanya soalan basic..mungkin pada dia soalan budak kecik..tapi...aku just try my luck..and never mind kalu dia nak marah pon sbb aku mmg tak clear dgn certain2 parts dalam research aku..harap2..dia dgn baik atinya akan explain to me bit by bit..cume aku tataula sama ada response dia adakah secepat si Lyn Bates..Nervous pon ade...sbb paham2 ajela profesor ni kkdg susah nak jangka pemikiran dia..lagi2 bila dia rasakan soalan yg tak challenging...by the way..aku just guna nick name aku..dan dia tatau pon aku dr mana...
Senin baru ni aku ctc Mike ty pasal possibility aku nak wat hardness test..mmm for the first he sounds unhelpful..mungkin dia sendiri doubt and has no experience in measuring hardness for micron particles..I just dont bother..adela a few of his concerns but it never stop me from doing this test...whatever it si, I have too! I am so over the moon, because I discover something...that makes me feel...the satisfaction feeling as a researcher..
Citer pasal anak2 kat umah spjg cuti sekolah..dorang sume termasuk aku bangkit lewat...dan beberapa hari keje aku terbengkalai sbb excited pasal nak survey2 rumah...elok plak my son jatuh sakit dan kemudian gegirl plak terjangkit..cume yg aku musykil dgn se gegirl..lepas makan ubat...bukan main lincah macam org tak sakit..
Skrg ni aku cube aim utk gosok gigi gegirl kerap lagi..sbb aku tgk gigi kapak dia dah mula accumulate cavities..it looks ugly...aku rase cavities to sng build up sbb gegirl pernah jatuh kat bath tub masa dia kecik2 dulu..sbb aku tgk..gigi my son tu ok cantik je nampaknya...aku ajar gegirl tu open her mouth wide...and ask her to give me her tounge supaya mudah aku nak berus lidah dia..kalu tak tu..aku rase..semerbak je bau mulut dia...serupa mcm bau stool dia..
pagi ni gak aku rase excited..sbb games DK for my son yg aku won kat ebay with only 99p dah sampai...really worth of money walaupon postage dia mahal sket...tapi...sape nak kasik woooo...games tu dgn rega 99p..dah tu baru plaknya tu...yg aku menang sumenya ade 2 kotak games(numbers and alphabet)..pagi2, my son bangun..aku dah suruh dia buka present dia...punyala excited..tak sempat nak sarapan dah dan2 tu gak nak ajak aku main...game ni pada aku bagus...sbb aku nak mula stimulate my son..mula mengira...tambah dan tolak kalu bule..yg alphabet game tu pon bagus..sbb nak besakan my son dgn abjad2..kkdg ade gak my son suh aku baca dan eja itu dan ini...so, sambil2 tu..aku suh dia pk sendiri berdasarkan sound..mcmana nak eja words tu sume sendiri...aku pon kkdg tak larat nak layan..kalu dia asik nagging nak suruh aku eja dan mengeja sdgkan aku sibuk dgn keje2 umah dan sekolah aku kkdg tu...
Trick aku tuk gegirl stop from sucking her thumb pon dah nampak mcm ade hasil..tak perlu aku nak marah2..tak perlu aku nak beriya bubuh bende2 pahit kat thumb dia..cukup skdr aku bagitau dia berulang kali..sucking will hurt her thumb..nampaknya dia mcm paham...mmm, tapi itula susah juga nak kata..sbb aku baru mulakan trick tu hari ini..
my son pon dah nampak perubahannya..dah ade inisiatif kalu aku suruh2..walaupon kkdg tu polos juga...tapi, betterla fr in the past...
Hari ini, aku mcm kesuspenan, sbb aku email plak kat sorang professor tanya soalan basic..mungkin pada dia soalan budak kecik..tapi...aku just try my luck..and never mind kalu dia nak marah pon sbb aku mmg tak clear dgn certain2 parts dalam research aku..harap2..dia dgn baik atinya akan explain to me bit by bit..cume aku tataula sama ada response dia adakah secepat si Lyn Bates..Nervous pon ade...sbb paham2 ajela profesor ni kkdg susah nak jangka pemikiran dia..lagi2 bila dia rasakan soalan yg tak challenging...by the way..aku just guna nick name aku..dan dia tatau pon aku dr mana...
Senin baru ni aku ctc Mike ty pasal possibility aku nak wat hardness test..mmm for the first he sounds unhelpful..mungkin dia sendiri doubt and has no experience in measuring hardness for micron particles..I just dont bother..adela a few of his concerns but it never stop me from doing this test...whatever it si, I have too! I am so over the moon, because I discover something...that makes me feel...the satisfaction feeling as a researcher..
Citer pasal anak2 kat umah spjg cuti sekolah..dorang sume termasuk aku bangkit lewat...dan beberapa hari keje aku terbengkalai sbb excited pasal nak survey2 rumah...elok plak my son jatuh sakit dan kemudian gegirl plak terjangkit..cume yg aku musykil dgn se gegirl..lepas makan ubat...bukan main lincah macam org tak sakit..
Skrg ni aku cube aim utk gosok gigi gegirl kerap lagi..sbb aku tgk gigi kapak dia dah mula accumulate cavities..it looks ugly...aku rase cavities to sng build up sbb gegirl pernah jatuh kat bath tub masa dia kecik2 dulu..sbb aku tgk..gigi my son tu ok cantik je nampaknya...aku ajar gegirl tu open her mouth wide...and ask her to give me her tounge supaya mudah aku nak berus lidah dia..kalu tak tu..aku rase..semerbak je bau mulut dia...serupa mcm bau stool dia..
pagi ni gak aku rase excited..sbb games DK for my son yg aku won kat ebay with only 99p dah sampai...really worth of money walaupon postage dia mahal sket...tapi...sape nak kasik woooo...games tu dgn rega 99p..dah tu baru plaknya tu...yg aku menang sumenya ade 2 kotak games(numbers and alphabet)..pagi2, my son bangun..aku dah suruh dia buka present dia...punyala excited..tak sempat nak sarapan dah dan2 tu gak nak ajak aku main...game ni pada aku bagus...sbb aku nak mula stimulate my son..mula mengira...tambah dan tolak kalu bule..yg alphabet game tu pon bagus..sbb nak besakan my son dgn abjad2..kkdg ade gak my son suh aku baca dan eja itu dan ini...so, sambil2 tu..aku suh dia pk sendiri berdasarkan sound..mcmana nak eja words tu sume sendiri...aku pon kkdg tak larat nak layan..kalu dia asik nagging nak suruh aku eja dan mengeja sdgkan aku sibuk dgn keje2 umah dan sekolah aku kkdg tu...
Trick aku tuk gegirl stop from sucking her thumb pon dah nampak mcm ade hasil..tak perlu aku nak marah2..tak perlu aku nak beriya bubuh bende2 pahit kat thumb dia..cukup skdr aku bagitau dia berulang kali..sucking will hurt her thumb..nampaknya dia mcm paham...mmm, tapi itula susah juga nak kata..sbb aku baru mulakan trick tu hari ini..
my son pon dah nampak perubahannya..dah ade inisiatif kalu aku suruh2..walaupon kkdg tu polos juga...tapi, betterla fr in the past...
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Happy Besday My Darling...
Tanggal 04.04.08, was my darling 38th besday..Aku tak sempat nak beli besday present on time..sbb dok pk berkali2..last2 wat jugak keputusan last2 minute order brg thru online..card pon aku beli last2 minute kat town..pendek kata sume last minute..termasuk baking the cake and cooking laksa for the celebration. It wasnt just lasted with those 2 kind of menus..as for today, we still have special dishes-had roasted potatoes and chicken for our dinner..nyum..nyum..everyone was fulled.
Usually, for my children's besday..I was baking chocolate cake for them..but, for this time, I made a carrot cake as per birthday boy's request..It was my first experience with carrot cake..and guess what..the cake was rising, ultimately soft and moist..Gegirl loves my carrot cake very much. So, does my darling..my boy is not a big fan of fruit cake though..and as for usual..myself enjoy very much with sweetie cake..Apparently, only me and gegirl keep eating the cake until only 3 slices of them are left...
And the consequences are..........I can feel my tummy bulging like 5mths pregnant women..what dreading me most, after weighing myself on the scale..My GOD! I was 2kgs overweighted already...It is really alarming...What am going to do???? Eating apples for the whole course for 2 weeks to shed the weight off? Can I restrain from overindulging myself with food again???? Thats really a big question to answer, really especially for me-THE FOOD LOVER! My jeans all are tight..my thigh and calf are getting bigger..my face looks round and chubby...its really ugly! How can writting thesis, can turn myself to an awful women???
Usually, for my children's besday..I was baking chocolate cake for them..but, for this time, I made a carrot cake as per birthday boy's request..It was my first experience with carrot cake..and guess what..the cake was rising, ultimately soft and moist..Gegirl loves my carrot cake very much. So, does my darling..my boy is not a big fan of fruit cake though..and as for usual..myself enjoy very much with sweetie cake..Apparently, only me and gegirl keep eating the cake until only 3 slices of them are left...
And the consequences are..........I can feel my tummy bulging like 5mths pregnant women..what dreading me most, after weighing myself on the scale..My GOD! I was 2kgs overweighted already...It is really alarming...What am going to do???? Eating apples for the whole course for 2 weeks to shed the weight off? Can I restrain from overindulging myself with food again???? Thats really a big question to answer, really especially for me-THE FOOD LOVER! My jeans all are tight..my thigh and calf are getting bigger..my face looks round and chubby...its really ugly! How can writting thesis, can turn myself to an awful women???
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Resultku yg mengong..
Dah couple of days or maybe almost a week, aku dok mengodek2 data yg result aku yg mengong..di saat2 kecemasan camnila bende2 tu nak mengong..sampai aku naik hopeless...tensen pon ade..
smlm aku ber YM ngan Hal..dia pon sama tgh tension ngan writting dia..tapi, dia tu okla gak..sbb katenya tgh finalise the whole chapter sbb nak submit dah april or may ni...dan aku????? masih lagi stuck kat sini..aku dapat offline message dr wahi..katenya dia pon tgh stuck..simulation dia tgh mengong..dia pon tgh demotivated...tapi, tula..sampai bila kita nak demotivated??? itu persoalannya..aku tak merujuk apa yg aku tulis ni kepada wahi..tapi, kepada diri aku sendiri..yg pon sama demotivate, bosan dan hopeless bila apa yg diexpect tu tak menjadi..rase mcm owh..arghhhh..grrrrr...sume pon ade...bila dah jadik camni..nak bukak atau proceed wat writting pon malas...
so, ape perlu aku buat???? kene fight..and fight...jgn cepat give up..kene carik solution...secepat mungkin..kene sit down and focus...jgn cepat distracted..itu pengalaman aku..aku kene dok diam2dan miki..insya-allah akan selesai permasalahan tu...masalahnya di sini, aku dok jaga anak sambil buat keje..kendian mulala si anak2 tu nak memunggah2 sume brg2 aku..itu pon antara penyumbang aku jadik give up jugak..sbb bila aku dah susun elok2..bebudak ni tabur2..pi punggah2...itula namanya cabaran...
By the way., I envy u Hal..u dah nak habis...besnya Hal....u dah nak balik Mesia...bess...and bess...and bess....
sebenarnya ade gak mende lain yg aku demotivate, menyampah ngk badan dah montel..tapi, at the same time tak larat nak jaga2 makan..alasannya...GUE PERLU ENERGY!..kalu aku tahan2 makan...langsung tak bertenaga aku nak buat kerja...smlm aku hantar my son pi dan balik sekolah pon flat seharian..natijahnya, smlm aku buat keje hanya seciput..dan malam kul 8.30 aku dah collapse..kendian aku bangun kejap buat keje, gegirl dah kacau..terasa badan plak letih smcm..so, aku tido dalam pukul 2.30 pagi gitu..dalam keadaan skrg..kalu aku dapat tido kul 2.30 pon dah syok..itu lebih baik dr aku kene tidur tiap2 ari kul 5.30 pagi!
smlm aku ber YM ngan Hal..dia pon sama tgh tension ngan writting dia..tapi, dia tu okla gak..sbb katenya tgh finalise the whole chapter sbb nak submit dah april or may ni...dan aku????? masih lagi stuck kat sini..aku dapat offline message dr wahi..katenya dia pon tgh stuck..simulation dia tgh mengong..dia pon tgh demotivated...tapi, tula..sampai bila kita nak demotivated??? itu persoalannya..aku tak merujuk apa yg aku tulis ni kepada wahi..tapi, kepada diri aku sendiri..yg pon sama demotivate, bosan dan hopeless bila apa yg diexpect tu tak menjadi..rase mcm owh..arghhhh..grrrrr...sume pon ade...bila dah jadik camni..nak bukak atau proceed wat writting pon malas...
so, ape perlu aku buat???? kene fight..and fight...jgn cepat give up..kene carik solution...secepat mungkin..kene sit down and focus...jgn cepat distracted..itu pengalaman aku..aku kene dok diam2dan miki..insya-allah akan selesai permasalahan tu...masalahnya di sini, aku dok jaga anak sambil buat keje..kendian mulala si anak2 tu nak memunggah2 sume brg2 aku..itu pon antara penyumbang aku jadik give up jugak..sbb bila aku dah susun elok2..bebudak ni tabur2..pi punggah2...itula namanya cabaran...
By the way., I envy u Hal..u dah nak habis...besnya Hal....u dah nak balik Mesia...bess...and bess...and bess....
sebenarnya ade gak mende lain yg aku demotivate, menyampah ngk badan dah montel..tapi, at the same time tak larat nak jaga2 makan..alasannya...GUE PERLU ENERGY!..kalu aku tahan2 makan...langsung tak bertenaga aku nak buat kerja...smlm aku hantar my son pi dan balik sekolah pon flat seharian..natijahnya, smlm aku buat keje hanya seciput..dan malam kul 8.30 aku dah collapse..kendian aku bangun kejap buat keje, gegirl dah kacau..terasa badan plak letih smcm..so, aku tido dalam pukul 2.30 pagi gitu..dalam keadaan skrg..kalu aku dapat tido kul 2.30 pon dah syok..itu lebih baik dr aku kene tidur tiap2 ari kul 5.30 pagi!
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