Teringat akan my x-bibik..

Ermmm, how long my x-bibik da meninggalkan kami?? since 24th of November..and now, we are nearly in mid January oredi..meaning dekat2 2 bulanla..tapi, aku rasa..tak sempat lagi duit tabungan si bibik tu abis...so, when should i've made in ctc wif her again?? perhaps after 3-4 mths...when my newborn baby is about 2 mths old..at least i have reasons to tell her, that am busy wif my family and only then i would be able to communicate wif her back..just to know whether she is still in Bandung as only that time..i would be able to print out all of her photos while she was here working wif us..and perhaps we can chat a bit..to tell her that our family is growing and the kids here are doing well..they've grown up and being more independent..my elder kids can wake up and bathe by themselves too..Harris is going to sekolah agama and sekolah rendah for full day..while milan..she is going to kindy...and back a bit later..so, eventhough my kids will count as 5..whoever being my maid wont feel that burden..because in the end, she only needs to look after solely my 3 younger kids..and 2 of them, so far as what i can see and observe they are well behaved and is under control..and i dont see my children as a clinging monkey...where my maid has all the times need to carry them here and there...its actually a big NO-NO for me...

People who is reading my en3..maybe will thought..why is that i need to contact my bibik back..although she has left all the pain to me and my family?? from my positive point of view..we can never know..whether we need her or not in future..even sometimes me and hubby is making joke about her..and as for me communicating with my old nannies and maid is all about to maintain the relationship..even until now..i still have made in ctc wif Nor..my ex-nanny..she is now mother of 3 kids..we're knowing each other..when she is still single and now her family is growing...

Being far away from someone who had present in yourself make yourself judge them better than they are in front of you...although my ex-bibik tu mcm bodoh sket..tapi, idakla sampai dia lari..cumenya, dia tu jenis cepat terpengaruh..

Monitoring my child progress..

Ari neh kami balik lambat ke rumah..lepas balik kije..amik Harris fr skool and then shoot to nursery to pick up our 3 other kids..and then terus ke Cziplee dok carik buku teks, muzik and oso latihan for Harris..selesai di Cziplee we had our dinner at KFC..sayang enough, akulak rasa tekak geli2 nak muntah lepas makan KFC walopon sblmnya mcm meroyan nak makan ayam dia..huhuhu...now, dalam kepala..i was thinking to have my last Starbuck JCF..or minum air orange-apricot di Secret Recepie..tak surela sempat ke idak..only God will know..tapi, dlm hati..aku still berharap..biarla tuhan berikan aku masa berehat for 2-3 days..sbb, aku mmg tak habis letih lagi..dgn segala urusan2 rumah, kuarga and oso opis...

As for today..oleh kerana da balik lambat..ditambahlaks..aku kene mengemas sket2..rumah yg da mula bersepah semula walo da dikemas oleh si Ana cleaner for 8 hrs on last Tuesday..balik dr umah si Idan..terus kami laki bini sibuk2 kemaskan anak2..suh bebudak mandi and tuko baju...bagi susu and let them tido..especially yg kecik2 dua di bawah...dan aku sempat gak sental bilik air tingkat bawah..mungkin sbb tu jugak..badan aku terasa mcm letih2...done cleaninhg the toilet..i was bringing mana2 bebarang yg perlu ke tingkat atas..i was relieved sbb da almost abis kemas bilik bebudak..only now, i have to kemas my own bilik..petang tadik pon..aku da mula sorting bebrg bibik baru and then continue till this nite..yg mana, aku da splitkan toileteries for her bila dia datang nanti...

Sempatla jugak aku monitor progress anak2 aku..as usual aku bising2 to my eldest..rush him to do his homework yg berlonggok..siap pesan lagi kat dia..lenkali if bawak buku..biorla lengkap ngan buku teks, buku aktiviti dan buku rampaian..supaya, biar siap kije di sekolah dan bukannya balik umah baru nak bersengkang mata sampai 12 malam nak siapkan kije2 sekolah..yg aku pasan..ni ari harris start does his homework kul 10.30 mlm..and only at 12.30 barula dia siap..sian..sian...itupon jenuh jugak..adela aku pi tunjuk2an apa yg patut..sbb, besala..syllabus makin lama makin tough...if the parents didnt help..sape lagi yg derang leh harapkan especially bab2 spelling neh...

Milan mcm besa suka main2..but, i can see that she is progressing..da tak mcm waktu dia 5 y.o..mebe, skrg dia da mentally prepared...penat jugakla aku bebel2 kat anak dara aku..sbb dia suke main2..dan mcm besa jugakla..when the time nak ngaja bebudak..mulala aku mcm nak kene high blood and nak marah2..sabo jelakan...harris was asking me..why didnt me being a teacher..mebe, sbb dia ngk aku ade potensi jadik cikgu..and i know almost everything..i was the one who is teaching him..and also her lil sister..kalu takat suku kata sempoi2..i know milan can read it..aku pon da mula follow up her Ex-Ra...now, dia dlm progress book 3,4&5..cumenya, dlm dia 6 tahun..mmg aku kene betul2 monitor her progress supaya she will not being left behind mcm tahun2 yg sblmnya..paling lawak is tahun lepas..when i was informed..she got no.8 in class..tapi, 8/12...tu dah kira mcm kedudukan corotlakan walopon her average is 80+..sabo jela aku..when i was coming to sign her report card..deep in my heart aku mmg terasa gile2..and mulala aku dok terpk..why cant Milan be like Harris? but, still in my mind..aku try berpk logik..yg Harris got strong foundation when he was in UK..in fact, aku pon usaha gigih jugak for him to get the concept as early as at his age was 5 y.o..so, bila sampai mesia..mmg Harris tak byk masalah..because he knows how to read BM through his phonics reading skill while he was in UK...

visiting my cousin...their newborn arrival..and labour experience..

Hari neh..aku sempat jugak akhirnya aku rumah Idan..visiting her wife..si Shidah and also their newborn baby..its been long time..i have made plan to see them..tapi, asik jek postpone..last2, managed to pay them a visit..and also kasik hadiah for baby...shidah was sharing me her experience being ceasered for her 3rd child..mau tak seriau dgr citer dia..haru..haru...

if other people telling me..they like being ceasered..tapi, lain lak kesnya ngan si shidah...takuttt......kesian jugak kat dia..mana taknya..dah merasa natural pain for labour..ngk2 terpaksa jugak ditolak ke bilik bedah...atas alasan..kepala baby senget...so, baby tak dapat nak kuar..

sblm balik..shidah was giving me..bunga akar fatimah..for air selusuh..tapi, akulak yg mcm seriau nak minum...rasa, dlm hati..baek jek aku minum air kelapa..drpd nak minum air akar fatimah..sbbnya??? setau aku..kalu salah time minum..silap2 hb..lain plak jadiknya...waktu yg sepatutnya banak..tak plak nanti kang kita neh beranak...as aku ingat lagi..citer kawan aku si ewin..she drank the air selusuh sblm kembang ke camne ek..tak pasal2..sakit banaknya jadik lain mcmla plak..

funny enough sedara mara aku berketurunan jawa..takdeklak praktiskan air selusuh segala..kbykannya kalu pantang harap telan jamu, pakai param and berpilis bagai termasuk berbengkung..takdenya nak bertangas..bertungku mcm adat org2 piau melayu..cume, aku jek yg dok buat jugak..sbb dok ikut2 dr my own reading..lawak gilekan...sama jugak bab2 makan dlm pantang..dr mak aku sampai ke mentua..sume pon main bedal..hahahahha...dan seingat aku...pantang yg paling worst..was during my 4th child..tak kose aku nak menahan nafsu tak minum air sejuk..ade gakle aku minum beberapa kali sip tuk hilangkan kempunan...

My new bibik..

I was told by my agent today..my new bibik will be expecting to arrive in Mesia by latest on 25th..but, i have no worries..as i oredi planned for having confinement lady during period of confinement..perhaps for 2-3 weeks..or shall i say dependent on my confinement lady availability..by right she should be free by 18th Jan..

I hope, there is no rushing for my bibik to stay in my hse while my CL is at home..nanti takdek place plak my bibik nak tido..so, harapnya my MIL will compromise and let my new bibik to stay at her home..sbb, i dont like the idea..outsider is living in the house together2 wif my bibik...coz, i dont like people to interframe my life yg boleh buatkan my bibik plak terlebih pandai or memandai2..am hoping..biorla she is being trainned in my MIL hse..and i dont really mind...kalu terpaksa my kids have to overnite at my MIL hse while my CL tendering her service..takat beza dlm 6 hari..apela sgtnya..biarla bibik tu belajar tatacara di rumah my MIL termasuk her expecting daily routine..

My EDD is today..

Today is my EDD-12.01.12..but yet, aku still tak rasa sakit2 lagi..byk lagi benda yg aku kene settlekan..sampai aku pon jadi naek bosan..and i dont really bother nak beranak cepat atau pon lambat..as am always overdue..dari anak no.1 hinggala yg ke-3...only yg ke-4 jek special case..i was having contraction a day earlier than my EDD..i think, it might be because...aku telah diurut oleh mak cik urut..dan urutan mak cik tu punyala sakit..tangkap urat segala..dan aku tak pernah rasa diurut sesakit itu..

Smlm, aku berkesempatan to see my gynae..and she was giving me chance to come back to see her again by 18th..and i hope...by weekend or early next week, i will begin to feel the pain and having a natural labour..i just hope..biarla kelahiran kali neh dipermudahkan..as what i had experienced wif Milan..i had my water bag naturally ruptured instead of its artificially broken...

Siapala yg tak suspen bila nak melahirkan..macam2 yg difikirkan..smcm dihantar menemui ajal..astagfirullahalazim..and harap2nya esok aku dpt pi beli Quran for mengaji..sbb, aku pon naek tak faham mana hilangnya buku2 amalan mengandung...yg biasa aku baca di saat2 aku preggy..

I'm having my personal cleaner

Aku kirakan my life is a bit settle down although living w/o bibik. my head feels light headed eventhough kondisi umah takdela seperfect sblm ini..I'm start working fr home..walaopon I cant really fully utilize my time memandangkan sering distracted dgn kerja2 umah yg lain...

But at least, it still not too bad having cleaner cleaning the house one or twice a week..sprtnya mcm takdek beza aje dgn keadaannya kalu kita ade bibik..rata2 bila aku ty kengkawan yg lain..derang takdepon mop lantai dan cuci toilet hari..kbykannya, hanya mop lantai dan cuci toilet tingkat bawah everyday dan looking after tingkat atas once or twice a week. Perhaps, this what I'm going to compromise if a new bibik is coming. Is either cleaning the toilet 3-4 times per week or only do ironing for baju2 tertentu unlike in the past..most of the time my maid has to clean the toilet, do the mopping dan mengosok kesemua baju daily. I probably going to compromise dr segi..if she needs to clean my room..then, I have to take turn to bathe my younger kids and cook for the whole family. Ada masa, perhaps, aku kene pejam mata, if bibik sleeps during day time, while my younger kids are sleeping so that she could energize to bring forward to perform the ironing work for the whole family clothes in the night time...benda2 neh sbnrnya bergantung..dan aku jugak depends pada keadaan bibik aku samaada orgnya suka amik kesempatan atau pon pandai mengambil hati...

life w/o bibik Part 2

Hari neh dah dikira cukup sebulan..we've been living w/o maid..ade pros and consnya life without stranger living in the hse..antaranya..

PROS
1) I know my kids better
2) My kids being more independent
3) I've got to be more active doing houseworks
4) I know how to appreciate people doing houseworks..most important thing, I know roughly when certain chores can be completed
5) I'm being more discpline..wake up early in the morning..buat keje umah dan pada masa yg sama nak uruskan hal ehwal memasak
6) We've got our privacy

CONS
1) Everywhere you go, kene bawak sekali semua bebudak
2) I find difficult to concentrate doing my office work unless I am in the office rather than at home
3) You have to spend more money for childcare and cleaner. Surely, cleaner quality work mmg tak bule dicompare ngan bibik sendiri

Cume apa yg aku bule katakan, having 4 kids in life..memerlukan kesabaran yg tinggi...perhaps, sbb aku pon baru nak membiasakan diri ngan keje2 umah dan menguruskan anak2..ditambah lagi plak, aku sdg sarat mengandung..menunggu hari utk melahirkan..Otherwise, aku tak nampak di mana susahnya...itupon, kalu ikutkan...dlm kebiasaannya aku akan start buat keje2 umah dlm 7.30 pagi...dan mebe, utk masa akan dtg..I have to wake up a bit early utk memasak..

Bila difikir2 balik..x-maid aku bole jugakla diharap dibuat keje..cumenya, dia tu lembap sket..dan buat kije ikut mood dia..ade masanya bule siap cepat..dan ade masanya dok siap lambat...tapi, yg aku pasan..dlm dia smgt nak renew her ctrct wif me..by 11 dia da dan siap wat keje2 menggosok dan have her own time at 11 or 11.30p.m. Itupon, disebabkan oleh kkdg dia lambat naik tingkat atas utk mula menggosok baju...Kalu ikutkan, for our new bibik..bole jek, aku nak compromise for her to rileks on the day time..tapi, wat keje2 menggosok di malam hari..Kalu ikut standard si Siti (my cleaner)..sebakul setengah baju dia leh siap dlm masa 3 ke 3.5 jam..So, by right kalu baju yg nak digosok tu tak byk..mebe dlm 2 ke 2.5 jam maid baru aku tuh leh siap wat menggosok sume baju..

life w/o bibik..

Its been almost 3 weeks we are living w/o bibik. So far so good. Altho rasa mcm leceh sket..but, we've got our privacy and I'm not need to feel stress sbb asik nk kene follow up org or memikirkan pasal permasalahan maid yg kebiasannya timbul dr semasa ke semasa..

Pendek kata, aku redha our bibik leaving d she..altho the way she opts to discontinue her service lebih kpd sikap dia yg mementinglkan diri sendiri..but, I can simply imagine mesti akan byk lg halnya yg timbul andai she is allowed to return and coming back to Mesia agaian. After all, we thanked for her service.

Buat masa neh, mmg rumah tak perfectly clean.m!ut, I simply don't complaint..w/pon penat..I just take it as part of my daiy exercise and getting to know my kids..I found it is very fun to have 4 kids around..dan aku x tasanya ianya suatu yg membebankan..w/pon terkadang I hv to clean the floor everytime they have their meal..

The most touching..my elder kids seem memahami..as this morning, my girl automatically telah bangun tido and was asking whether she needs to bathe herself..and I told her YES..and at the same time i remind her too for tidy up her bed and watching tv area. There is no more, the kids simply pretending they can't wake up..but, they more at best make an attempt to show to their mom that they are independent enough..

Harris final exam result-Average 89.6

Aku da dapat result keseluruhan Harris..as per below..

Maths 92
BM Objective 85
BM Penulisan 87
English 96
Science 88
PI 86
B.Arab 80

Average inc PI&BA = 87.7
Average exc PI&BA = 89.6

Terus-terang aku mmg frust dgn keputusan Harris. Aku frust sbb, everytime final exam is coming..he will not that perform..tapi, w/ bagaimanapon..aku tetap bersyukur sbb Harith scores straight As for all subjects..sbg seorang ibu hanya sekadar redha..mebe bukan rezeki utk kami anak beranak..sbb, setau aku in order to get no. 1,2,3..you have to be in average of 90 plus..Harris byk buat careless mistake kali ni..including..

1) kat kertas soalan bulat jawapan lain..dan kat kertas jawapan..pi hitamkan jawapan lain
2) salah pengiraan...5+4=10?? mak cik sgt da tu!
3) gambo da terang2 si A lebih taller dr si B..dia leh jawab..si A is shorther than si B?? so, mabuk bukan??

kkdg aku rasa mcm..ntah apa2 je malaysian education system neh..buat syllabus punya habis advance..mana taknya..aku sendiri yg dah ade PhD cam terdiam sebentar nak jawap soalan Science anak aku...baik soalan homework or exercise..mahupon soalan final exam..aku rasa, ade 2 soalan dlm paper science yg misleading..if in the situation am the one who needs to sit for the exam akan mcm terkial2 nak jawap soalan...atau anak aku sebenarnya yg tak berapa paham jawab soalan??

pada aku..melihat dr paper exam si Harris..bebudak skrg kene ade skill pahamkan soalan..kalu tak paham soalan..makanya..langsung tak bule nak jawap...

Harris progress-final exam and Milan's current education progress

Final exam is coming again...summary of Harris performance is as below:

Maths 92
BM Objective 85
BM Penulisan 87
English
Science
Agama 86
B.Arab 80

Average tak dapat ditentukan lagi. Overall as per to date he scores A in all subjects..tinggal nak tunggu English and Science. Aku tak letak harapan tinggi for him to score for Science..sbb, aku ngk dia cam confuse2 jek ngan subject Science..as for BI..yesterday da dapat 1 paper..dia salah 2 soalan..makanya, perhaps..the maximum he can go..dalam 96 gitu..i was hoping for him to maintain an average of 90+ for 5 subjects..tapi, kalu da suratan menyatakan Harris will ONLY score an average of 85+..aku skdr redha..

On our way to send Harris to school dia pon ade citer..his friend was asking him..why is that his result kian merundum..i think its all about..:
1) Harris da malas belajar and hook very much with lappy or GAME at home
2) Harris da overconfident..because he thinks he could get no.1 without studying based on her performance in early and mid exam..score dapat no.3 kemudian no.2..so, derang jangkakan..dgn hanya main game...he could manage to get no.1..apa punya hypothesis daaaaaaaaaaaaa............

Apa2pon, aku tetap bersyukur..if Harris can score all straight As..sbb, aku pon tak sangka dia bule dapat OK for Agama and Arab..walhal belajar last2 minute sahaja..kalu nak banding Maths yg da habis kitaorg pulun sakan..perhaps, for next year kene usaha lebih gigih for BM..Harris ade masalah dlm imbuhan..banyak soalan imbuhan yg dia salah selain dr dok buat careless mistake..

As for Maths..Harris ade buat careless mistake gak..yelah, how come 4+5 equals to 10?? langsung tak betullakan...sabo jelaha...

This week is Milan's exam week..aku tak push dia pon..or even temankan dia belajar..pandai2la dia nak score..mebe, sbb aku rasa...she still young..apekehenya nak press budak 5 tahun nak belajar over2 sgt..paling2 at home, aku akan monitor her reading progress...both BM & BI..alhamdulillah..buat masa ini...dia da mula kenal huruf..cumenya, dia ade sedikit masalah nak menulis dgn sendirinya A-Z..kebiasaannya..dia akan miss 1-2 alphabets..dr segi suku kata..alhamdulillah dia da mulai kenal suku kata..both BM & BI..skdr yg simple2 ajela..sbb, dia pon nak cater reading skill sekali 2 bahasakan..kalu nak compare ngan si abang..memangla tak tercompare..sbb, kalu kat UK..bebudak 5 tahun sudah semestinya dah kene pandai membaca mengikut kaedah phonics...Btw, wat setakat ni..aku rasa mcm agak lega sket..sbbnya, Milan dah mulai pandai blend words tak kira in BM & BI..walopon kkdg my doter ade mcm 'short circuit' sket..almaklumla..my gegirl nikan mood orgnya..

masa untuk bekerja..

Sejak the Co. Mula beroperasi pd end 2009, da mcm2 yg aku pelajari. W/pon aku sgt2 berpuas hati dgn hasil yg kami usahakan sendiri..nyatanya, tanpa aku sedari..aku punya skill dlm membaca arahan..ini adalah disebabkan segala lesen petronas, mof dan bem mmg kami sendiri yg usahakan to apply. Ade jugak kami lepaskan to our employees..tak pasal2 application kene bounce..

Mika Jab Day..1 y.o

Hari ni Mika jab for 1 y.o. Jumpa Dr A di KPJ. Kali ni..byklak citer dia..as usual..Dr A, mmg orgnya good taste..or can I say..high taste?? yer, somi isteri derang mmg high taste..yelah, dua2 pon da keje pakar..umur pon i guess both of them oredi 40 plus..so, smmgnya they deserve to get what they have right now..he was talking abt emirates..yg lawaknya, aku lak tatau sgt abt emirates..so, takdela aku reti sgt nak komen..other than, as far as i know..emirates has spacious seat..

We came to see him wif my baby as well..Dr A commented, my baby has narrow nose shape..sbb tula dia susah sket nak bernafas or hv sensitive nose..jadi, mudah kene penyakit related to nose sickness..

While we were in the hospital..bibik was at Tesco..spending her 1 hr 15 mins time, beli groceries for her family back home and oso for our family too...i know, she was tired..nah, now u know..shopping can be tiring..so, pikir2la kalu nak suh aku suka2 ati at anytime, nak beli brg itu dan ini di last2 minute..dlm ati, mula aku nak padankan muka dia..sbb, luggage beg yg dia dok sibuk citer kat aku..bole dpt murah banget kat TESCO tu..tak dijual di situ..dan yg ade..hanya big luggage costs about 100+rm..so, now u know..luggage bag is not cheap..and dont simply tell me, am not helping you as much as i can..if i didnt come back fr shopping without things that she wants..aku pon da maleh nak belikan bbrg tuk dia..just let her buy, whatever she wants by her own..only then, she can appreciate, kesusahan org..dok mencarikan brg2 yg she pesan ke sana dan ke mari..after all, malam ni..aku nampak gak dia happy...lama da actually bibik da tak kene marah dgn aku..but, on and off ade gakla kene bantai sound ngan aku..sbb, aku da malas nak simpan2 perasaan..

Ni ari gak, Harris starts his exam..unlucky betul..dia demam selsema..jadik, kepala asik pusing..and we did our last minute revision for B.Arab..so, what we can do just now...hanyala tawakkal..asal lulus pon da memadai..takat ni, kita da hampir full swing gak for maths, even i still notice yg he still confuse wif JAM dan MEASUREMENT..I had rectified his problem so far for MONEY issue..and for BM, we just do apa2 exercise yg patut...English langsung aku tak sentuh to teach him..tapi, hanya skdr ask him to do his exercise..

Sungguh mengejutkan..when exam time is around the corner..i found my son didnt do his homework for 60 pages..and eventhough, his teacher da denda dia sbb tak bawak buku..PON..Harris still cool..itu yg kkdg aku sendiri tak paham ngan anak aku..but, now...i can simply detect, why my son..recently becoming so sensitip..JAWAPANnya is because he needs our attention for MORE! terus-terang aku rasa sgt2 penat..bila exam week menjelang..as is..akulak yg nak peksa..sampai, now..aku lak yg rasa mcm nak pening2 kepala...just hope, our effort will well paid off...diharapnya, Harris wont get markah teruk2 sgt..and maintain his average at 90+..

As for Milan..she now is getting better..da mula kenal huruf..it just matter..aku lom full swing test her knowledge in matching small and big letter together..sblm ni, i just ask her to copy from the reference to pair the small and big letter...Milan, da mula menunjukkan perkembangan positif..she can read BM&BI..walopon, the technique that she was learning..sgt2 berbeza wif her abang..kaedah Milan membaca lebih kpd...sbb, dia jumpa frequency words berulang kali di samping hafalan mengikut bentuk perkataan...aku pon, malas nak make fuss or push hard her tadika..sbb, in the end..our objective is to transfer her to new school for the sake..we want her to know whatever basic knowledge for 5 years old should get..I understand, mmg bagus kalu dapat masukkan anak2 ke Smart Reader or Q-dees..tapi, aku rasa...subject derang is far too advance..especially Q-dees...it is more suitable for those yg mmg da pandai membaca

Harris exam week is coming again..

Lama betul aku tak menulis dlm blog. bz amat..sampai mcm maleh nak menulis kat sini..atau, aku sendiri da muak nak menulis dlm ni??..sbb, yg dikisarkan tetap sama..yakni..isu BIBIK..kekdahnya, mcm takdek isu lain yg lebih menarik nampaknya nak ditulis dr alkisah BIBIK..but, the moment...I am writting this N3, I do admit..kepala aku da kurang serabut dgn masalah bibik walopon..adela gak minah tu..menyakiti ati aku..cam.. wat keje tak perfect mana..but, wherever possible aku tak mola nak fussy2 sgt or looking for perfection...sbb, aku sendiri pon just get tired..penat dgn keje barangkali..selain dr penat otak dan mulut sbb asik nak kena ulang cakap benda yg sama kat bibik aku nan sorang..i just hope, bibik dpt memberikan servis yg terbaek..memandangkan..we all da naekkan gaji dia fr 450 to 650..so, sendiri mau ingatla, hoccay?? mau gaji byk..tapi, mana bole nak keje senang lenang...aku pon da naek malas nak pk..if bibik chg her mind tiba2 tak mo balik mesia semula..as gaji dia sbyk rm2k akan aku tahan di sini...dan, minta maaf bbyk..buat pada masa ini..aku da menetapkan..STRICTLY NO REFUND...jadik, pandai2 bibikla nak buat keputusan or nego ngan family kat kg dia camne sekali pon..as the agreement has been agreed btw us..makanya, kalu ko tak datang balik..hangus rentung ajela duit rm2k si bibik sbg ganti rugi oleh kerana dia da menyusahkan hidup aku...as well as da menghabiskan harta aku dok spend benda2 yg tak sepatutnya disebabkan oleh lidahnya yg bercabang..

As for today, my honey was expressing his feelings abt the staff peel in the office..and suprisingly, i was just as cool as an ice. perhaps, sbb aku pon malas nak amik pot sgt2...memandangkan stkt ni..aku takdela buat apa2 lagi statement yg misleading to our staff..whenever, i know and confident wif what i should be talking, yes, i will tell them..otherwise, i would rather choose to shut my mouth dr memberi salah tanggap kpd org. So, as for tomorrow, my honey has been seen ready to defend with his saying of which I believed it has been manipulated by our previous staff yg sebenarnya tak paham with my honey's instruction dan kendiannya telah mengconveykan message yg salah kpd yg lain..as the company is growing dan akulak da mula get involved in Petronas License Renewal, QA and oso software project..aku tak rasa mcm fear sgt, kalu kot2 ade pekerja nak resign..OR, mebe sbb aku pon kkdg da masuk tahap fed up nak rely keje kat org...i was trying as good as i can..to assume..yg bebudak kat opis tu lebih to be as my assistant...berbanding org penting..sampai rasa susah ati..if my assistant is not around..

My best..joyful moment working wif the Co, when i get an opportunity to market the software product..yg mana, aku sendiri tak tahu..dr mana my confident is coming...i can just simply talk to our potential client without rasa gementar..and enjoy very much to be as much as informative as i can to the them...

TBC..

shopping raya 2011..

As for today, both me and my honey off we go to Alamanda. Got my suprise pressie at HJ..my honey been so generous..I have my treat at HJ..buying 3 gold pendants, 1 necklace and 1 bracelet amounting nearly 8.5k..

usaha yg berbaloi..

After almost a mth, I was focusing on Milan to progress in her study, as a result, she begins to recognize most of the letters. She can put in sequence the small letters it just matter for me to check whether or not she knows big letters well. As yesterday, I was buying her and Dan magnetic alphabets so that both of them can have fun playing while knowing letters.

Lama tak menulis..

Da lama aku tak menulis..Walo pada hari jadi sendiri yg lepas..langsung tak sempat and ade mood nak menulis..

As usual...my favourite things to talk is abt my bibik..bibik aku nak balik da by end of Oct, 2011. Lagi dia nak balik Indon..lagila dia mcm takde mood keje..walhal ade 2 bulan lagi nak jalan..agaknya pasal rindu kat anak dia kot..ntahla..aku tgk pon pergerakan dia skrg..sungguhla slow motion..sampai aku pon maleh nak layan..smlm aje dia tidur sambil gosok baju..jadi, this noon aku ingat nak test tak kasik dia keje..and jeng..jeng..agak2nya dia akan gosok baju tak siang ari?? atau langsung wat tatau? aku rasa mcm...most likely dia takkan gosok baju..so, she will take her own sweet time in the noon time...dan still bawak keje2 menggosok sampai lewat malam...kalu gitu, still salah aku lagike kalu keje dia drag sampai ke lewat malam..sbb, dia yg awal2 yg asik merileks2 diri..aku ngk keje2 membasuh pon yg besanya dia leh buat for 45 mins siap membilas..now, amik masa mau dekat2 1 jam baru nak siap..itu pon, bertuah sgt dia leh abih cepat..kkdg tu aku ngk..1/2 jam jek da siap...so, bila dia pon da nak balik indon..and oso buat hal..aku da rasa mcm nak layan..its like..suka ati kola bibik ko nak buat ape..sbb, aku tau sampai stkt mana suppose keje dia leh settle..ini pon dgn pergerakan yg slow motion dia still manage leh siap kemas atas bawah dr kul 5:50 to 9.15 a.m gitu..

Citer lain kat opis, we've been very busy utk submit for License Renewal. Letih jugakla kepala aku dok sit down to understand the procedure. For somehow, mmg tak bule rely kat bebudak junior ni..still, kita as senior has to take role..kalu tak...mmg payah! nak harap derang gerak sendiri mmg susah...ada masa, mmg ade movement..tp, dianye output, still kita nak kene repair atau kene sendiri wat judgement..ntah, kkdg tu terpk jugak..nape bebudak zaman skrg cam takde common sense? atau derang ni takde pengalaman?

Tiada apa2 yg memberangsangkan..

I browse onto the web...sumenya bagaikan hambar lagi membosankan...kepala aku pening...perut aku mual..tapi, pon gitu... my honey pon bukannya nak perasan...almaklumla anak nak masuk 5...usia perkahwinan pon da menginjak 11 tahun..tiada lagi versi2 manja atau concern melampau..mcm kisah percintaan sblm memasuki gerbang perkahwinan..in his mind..sarat dgn isu2 kerja2...tu yg mcm tak sabar sungguh nak dtg masuk ke ofis semula..konon2nya saje nak stay in the office for few hrs..ngk2 sampai skrg..masih aje lagi ade kat opis...

bangun pagi..bibik ketiduran..

Hari ini entah mcmana aku bole terbangkit awal.tiba2 je aku rasa senyap sunyi rupa2nya bibik sambung tido lagi..ngada2la bibik..mentang2la da nak balik inmdon..buat keje pon cincai2..tu ari dahle bangun kul 6..pehtu ade gak bangun kul 5.15 a.m. Mula2 mmg aku malas nak bising2..tapi, kalu da mula wat peel tu berulang2 aku pon maleh. Nampak sgt suka ngambil kesempatan..ingat bos x bising mulala nak postpone2 bangun tido..

Sejak dua menjak ni aku ngk si bibik cepat siap buat keje..jadi, betulla waktu cuti sekolah yg lepas yg dia asik dok dreaming manjang..sampai sidai kaen pon amik masa 1/2 jam..tak masuk akalkan???

Now, bila mem depan mata..mulala rajin..kalu bole sume benda pon dia nak lap..al-konon2nya berlakon. Hai..ini baru penipu pertama..lepas ni..penipu indon manala yg aku dpt..

Smlm jugak aku check memory bibik aku..mmg sah2 dia hafal no boss tong gas tu..maknanya mmg silap besarla aku kasik no outsider kat bibik aku..next time..pengajarannya..never..never and never..give to your bibik no org laen..tak kirala termasuk ipar kita ke hape..yg lawaknya..pandai plak si bibik tu ingat no bf dia..tp, no yg laen cam ipar or mentua aku takdela plak dia lekat kat kepala..mula2 tu..somi aku cam pujila..hebat bibik aku neh leh ingat no..setelah diuji2..mmg yer dia leh ingat no dgn cepat..tapi, hanya no2 yg ade kepentingan ngan dia..cthnya..skrg..no.hp kekasih hatinya.. Sebagai majikan x yahla kita tertipu ngan air muka, ala2 bodoh bibik kita..sbb, dlm konon2nya mcm bodoh tula kepala otak dia berjalan and ade mcm2 plan. Kalu dulu aku cakap konon2 dia tu mcm xde tendency nak lari..skrg bibit2 nalk lari tu mmg ade..kalu da gila berboifren..Kalu ikutkan somi aku mmg nak kasik 2nd chance kat bibik aku..konon2 nak offer dia max 600 kalu dia nak keje sini sambung utk setaun lg..provided anto dia balik indon dulu..tapi, aku tataula insaf dia di mana..stkt pus2 ajek kot..yg pasti, mmg secara tiba2 aku tergerak nak spot check bag dia..Kalu da mula pandai nipu and dlm kepala da set nak balik..mmg sket tak byk..org kaki penipu and besa mencuri aku mula mengumpul reta sket2.

Bibik&mamat bangla...

Alkisahnya terjadi pada Jumaat minggu yg lepas..pada 24hb June..yg malangnya CCTV aku laks OFF...Seorang bangla tong gas telah datang ke rumah aku utk hantar tong gas pada pukul 9.30 pagi..di waktu ketiadaan aku..and guess wat happen..bangla tu da mengajak bibik aku..'gitu2'...dgn menyogok rm50 sekali 'MAEN'..and bibik aku sungguhla teruja...siap mereka2 citer kat aku..yg konon2nya...ade wallet bf dia yg tertinggal...kat umah aku..dan beriyala minta izin kat aku..utk telepon bos bf dia...konon2 mcm nak buat citerla...nak suh bf dia datang kat umah aku dan nak ajak bermukah kot gamaknya..Apadaaaa punya bibik! sanggup menjual maruah diri hanya kerana rm50 dan nak rasa sedap..pastu mulala nak diselubungi rasa bersalah krn curang dgn suami...alaaa...ape kisah nak curang kat suami..yg mana suami pon da sedia curang...jadi, aku kiranya mcm ade rasa dendam kot dlm jiwa dia..tanpa, mengira akan kesan2 yg bakal terjadi..yelah, kot2 terboyot anak bangla tuke lepas kene penyedap...Klu ikut penjelasan dia..yg adeih...malehla aku nak caya si PENIPU ni...konon2nya..nak callla bf dia..nak tanya betul2..betulke mamat tu betul2 suka dia..kalu suka....bolehla ON...Celakak betulla...ingat umah aku ni...umah pelacuranke ape????

Nasib baik, benda ni aku da tau dr awal2 lagi..aku siap bengang2 di pagi senin sbb telah ditipu pasal bibik aku..mcm2 helah dia buat...slps mengaku yg dia bohong aku..yg dia tak berjumpa dgn mamat bangla tu...sbb, gitau aku..yg dia geli dan tak suka...bangla tu dok pegang2 tangan dia..siap bagitau aku lagi..yg konon2nya wallet tu dia da buang dlm longkang dan da hanyut dlm longkang dlm hanya satu hari..dan sanggup plaknya..pura2 dok cari wallet tu kat depan dan gitau..wallet tu takde..apadaaa bibik aku neh...dah gatal sgt da nak berlakila tu gamaknua..aku sampai provoke dia..

'Cuba ko cakap baik2..ko dah romance atau dah projek ke dgn mamat bangla tu?'
'Cube ko bagitau aku terus-terang sblm aku naek antu..mmg ko suka kat bangla tu ke ape?'
'Takkanla da 2 tahun ko tak dapat, ko tak nak kalu bangla tu dekat2 kat ko?'

BIBIK JAWAB..

'Saya ini kuat sembahyang buk...kalu cinta yg saya mahu, tapi, kalu hanya kerana nafsu ya saya tak mahu..tapi, kalu org dekat2 ya, lama2 mahu..'

SEE...HER ANSWER?????

pehtu dia tau aku sakit ati..bule plak terus terang dgn tersengih2...yg sebenarnya..dia mmg suka kat bangla tu...ntah hapa2 bibik aku neh..siap ngaku...

'Ya..kalu dah 1 tahun 9 bulan..saya ya..jadik tidak kuat'

KEKDAHNYA????? Mahu aku berani nak suh laki aku masuk umah tinggal dia berdua kalu aku takde??? Moralnya, bibik jugak ade napsu..jadi, mmg ade possibility..bibik nak menggelenyarrr tak kirala dia tu berlaki atau tidak...

Bila aku dah Ques and Ans dia..akhirnya, dia realize..yg dia tu sbnrnya, dahagakan kasih lelaki...dan konon2nya da ada pak cik tua seusia bapanya da get ready..menunggu dia..siap citer kat aku lagik..pak cik tu tu..ajak dia 'MAEN'..Apadaaaa nak jadik ngan Indon neh? Sosial sgtke idup kat kampung bibik aku neh???? Siap main belasah2 ajek...ajak2 projek sesuka ati...tak kira..laki atau pon bini org...mmg hancusssssssssssssssssssssssss....Bila aku borak2 ngan bibik aku..nampak sgtla bibik aku ni mcm sng ditipu, pendek akal dan jenis tak fikir panjang...

Pehtu aku cakap kat bibik aku..

'Kalu kamu mmg nak bersuami...ceraila dulu..kenapa mesti nak curang? Kamu masih suka suami kamu ataupon tidak?'

JAWAPAN DIA...

'Mahu lihat suami saya berubah atau tidak dalam masa sebulan'

Harris mid year exam..90.0++..Update

Finally, setelah skool dibuka...Harris mula dapat satu persatu his paper...Resultnya adelah sprt di bawah..takdela gempak mana..but, at least improve dr yg Ujian I yg sblmnya...this time exam..aku pon da tahap malas nak monitor study anak2 aku...sbb, aku pon da mula keje dan masuk opis...so, ape yg aku buat...hanya membantu my kids mana yg termampu..

BM Penulisan- 85 (Harith buat lawak bagi jawapan kata dasar menaip sbg 'naip'..selain tu Harris susun ayat lawak gile...)
BM Objective- 93
Agama - 92 (sgt suprise..walaubagaimanapon dr segi pengamatan, soalan Agama kali ni amat2la sng)
BI - 98 (as usual...Harris scores in BI..tapi, tak dapat nak challange his performance masa darjah 1 yg besa scores 100 for this subject)
Science - 96
B. Arab - 84 (kira oraitla tu 1st time dapat A for Arab)
Matematik - 89

Average excluding B. Arab - 91.4
Average including B. Arab - 90.2

Bila aku terbaca dalam facebook kengkawan punya result anak2..terus-terang aku katakan result anak2 ni suatu isu yg sensitip..yg aku rasa..mcm tak berapa nak beriya diskus sgt ngan kengkawan waktu Harris join Smart Reader and Darjah 1 dedulu..mebe, sbb..bila Harris da masuk darjah 1..aku da macam rileks sket..dan kurang tekanan..apatah lagi bila berborak2 ngan kengkawan lain termasuk jugak ahkak2 yang aku jumpa di Giant maupon ngan sepupu2 aku di kampung..keputusan bebudak ni sebenarnya ada pasang surutnya..Kiranya, kalu anak aku ni tak dapat markah averga 95 plus or dapat markah 100 dlm sume subjek..ia bukanla suatu yg luar biasa..sbb, org lain anak2 derang pon takdela jugak sumenya menten ke tahap hebat cenggitu. Perhaps. aku saje...yg as parents terlalu meletakkan high expectation to my eldest son..dan mulala frust menonggeng lebih emak dr si anak..bila Harris tak menten his performance...siap nangis2 and marah2 my honey lagik tuh..hahahah...dan satu perkara yg aku pelajari bila Harris memasuki alam sekolah rendah adalah...TIDAK TERLALU MEMBERIKAN HARAPAN YG TINGGI KEPADA ANAK2...Pada aku..asal dapat most of subject A udahle....bukannya ditunjuk pon dlm kertas keputusan UPSR tu nanti..samaada anak kita ni dapat markah 100% ke idak..betul tak? Jadinya, bila Harris masuk darjah 2..dan tak dapat markah sume 90..or none of the paper dia score 100%...aku mcm takdelah nak ambil pusing sgt...atau akukah ibu yg tak nak amik tahu...atau tak monitor betul2 perkembangan anak2? ntah..mebe, sbb aku pon da penat ngan keje..ngan anak2 yg da berderet 4 org..ditambah plak ngan pening2 pregnancy yg ke-5..terasa begitu...punyala mcm tak cukup masa....

Berbalik pada isu sensitip pasal markah anak2 ni...tiadala niat aku nak nunjuk2 anak aku ni terror bila dok tulis average markah or Harris dapat no. berapa dlm kelas di dalam blog..sbb, asalnya aku tulis blog pon kekdahnya cam menulis diary utk diri sendiri...dr blog ni jugak aku monitor berat aku pas pantang, lepas pantang, bila aku lulus belaja, perkembangan anak2, Milan ok ke tak...dan, aku pon tak rasa...pembaca2 blog pernah kenal or bertembung dgn aku..sbb, aku sendiri pon takde follower..hahahahah....