staff talking...

takde ape aku nak bebel di tengahari buta ni..melainkan talking abt my staff. w/ever i feel, i need to tegur them, i dont feel any guilty to do it so. just write them an e-mail and after that wether or not they want to take it as a lesson learnt, i would never bother. i just couldnt help to keep all perasaan tak puas hati dlm hati lagi...so, whatever, i feel they do it wrongly, i just tegur them straight away w/out hesitation. at least i am frank...dan tak cakap belakang..so, nak tak nak..all of them, hv belajar to face wif the reality kalu boss tak happy with their work ke or whatsoever.

Analysis

Finally, dapat gak aku repair dan siapkan satu analysis daripada 3 sample aku. tension tul..sbb, distribution results aku tu mcm ntah apa2. Aku rasa, aku pon dah naik give up ngan akunye results and at the same time, takde apa yg aku hide from my research...jadi, tak mungkin jugakla my data collection salah. makanya, apa data aku tu benar2 belaka. it just matter...aku perlu to report what is my current finding so that the others would refine my work. punyala nasib aku sungguh2 tak baik..mana, taknya, rupa2nya analysis2 aku yg sblm2 ni..ada yg tersalah data..cet! aku plak mcm nak tergelak..dapat aku rasakan engineers kat opis aku ni serabut buat analysis dorang...sampai berbahang kepala dorang memikirkan utk selesaikan projek dorang..sama jugak ngan aku yg serabut tuk selesaikan permasalahan aku.

kalu ikutkan skrg dah kul 2.49 dan aku masih tak makan lagi...hopefully, aku cld settle at least satu lagi analysis...dan after the analysis, apa yg aku perlu buat adalah duduk diam2, sambil berfikir the logic behind my results and then mulala buat karangan...oh my..and my...aku rasa sungguh2 sgt exhausted...at the same time, my kids are longing to spend time wif me in which unfortunately i couldnt...be patient ye my dear kids...i'll make sure what we've gone thru will be paid off. and my honey pon should not complaint if aku tak byk masa wif kids...coz, aku rasa inilah yg sume mak2 kena alami bila sibuk ngan keje....

Ke rumah mentua..

Tadi aku ke rumah mentua to dropkan Harris. Nampak sgt, Harris mcm rindu kat aku..Nak baca story book ngan aku, nak aku yg hantar n pick dia to school. Kkdg sedih pon ade..Sbb, aku tak dapat nak spend byk masa dgn dia. Apatah lagi dgn Milan&Daniel. Waktu aku ke rumah my mil, ada jugak dia tegur, perut aku yg makin sarat. Mmg pon, perut aku nampak over sarat mcm esok je nak melahirkan..mana taknya, aku put on weight byk sangat. Aku pon dah sampai tahap malas nak pk, how to susutkan berat..yg penting, masa pantang aku mmg kene sgt2 kuat smgt. It could be possible for me to lose for 17-20kg..Tapi, nak susut sampai 30kg..bukan satu yg mudah nak dilakukan jugak...

My mil mula bertanya, adakah my honey would accompany me if I flew to UK this time. My answered just..Aku sendiri pon tak kisah wether or not he wants to follow..because after all, mmg aku tak sanggup nak bertangguh lagi...

Sebenarnya, aku pon agak sayu jugak nak tinggalkan anak2. Nampak jugakla, bibik aku pon cam sedey when I was telling her, yg she would not be seeing me for couple of weeks time. Mebe, dia cuak kot..Aku sendiri pon tak pasti...Kalu ikutkan, aku pon heran jugak ngan my eldest son, kalu sblm2 ni tak pernah acuh dan selalu jek tak kisah nak balik ngan his nenek, and now dia cam longing to be always with me. Apa2pon, semua org kene tabah menghadapi perpisahan sementara ini...

Kontena sampai..

Hari ni kontena yg ditunggu2 telah sampai..So, aku dgn excitednya telah pi ke rumah kawan aku di Kajang. Secara conclusionnya, brg2 yg penting cam safety gate, baby dan, stroller, baby rocker telah pon sampai termasuk threadmill my honey. Agak kecewa jugak bila ngk akunye bedding tak masuk dlm kontena sekali..huhuuh..dah rasa bosan tahap cipan asik dok pakai bedding yg sama setiap masa...maksudnya, kenala aku bersabar menunggu sebulan lagi utk trip brg2 seterusnya sampai di depan rumah. mebe dlm 1 bulan lagi kalu lucky.

At the same time, hati aku takut2 jugak..kalu2 akunye brg2 tu sangkut atau lost di pertengahan jalan. Aduiiii, terpaksala menelan rugi. Insya-allah, 2 minggu lagi..my 2nd kontena will arrive. Rasa tak sabar nak ngk brg2 yg dibeli!

Tak start,,,

Aku masih tak start apa2 lagi..kepala ni mcm bengap..Baru tetiba dapat idea nak continue semula keje..

As for the office work mmg dah 2-3 ari abandoned. Just hope, I could settle my personal work by today. Have found out my file in my old computer. Harap aku tak lupa to bring my pen drive to transfer the file before leaving my opis today.

Citer lain..Harris dah dapat result exam. Average marks dia stkt ini dlm 95. He scored 99 for English, 95 for BM and baru dapat paper I for her Maths in which he scored 37/40 for that paper. Maksudnya, ade lagi 2 papers yg belum dpt lagi..Sains&Agama. Apa2pon I am not hoping yg dia will get no.1 in class. Sbb, setau aku sume kawan dia hebat2. For BI&BM aje ade 5 org scored 100%. So, mmg aku tak dapat imaginela nombor berapa Harris will get in his class nanti...Silap2 haribulan no. belas2. Dan aku pon takdela pressure sgt for his exam kali ni coz..dia pon baru baik demam. Kira syukur ajela kalu dia tahu jawab soalan..Kalu ikutkan dr 1st streaming exam ke skrg..her marks are average...kalu sblm2 ni ade naik turun..now, nampak mcm consistent..

Marah..

Hari ini aku telah memarahi bibik dan dia menangis..Aku rasa dia nangis, sbb mebe dia sensitip coz smlm dia lapar tak makan nasi..Actually, aku pon dah pesan kat dia sblm aku off to opis yesterday, for her cook 1 pot of rice kalu nasi dah habis..but, then she didnt do it. I was asking her, samaada dia tu ada pemikiran atau pon tidak, yg nasi tu tak enough for her and the kids..and her answered was, she afraid nak masak lagi eventhough aku dah siap2 pesan. So, supposekah aku dipersalahkan kalu dia tak makan nasi malam tadi..as for the lauk mmg sure ade..sbb, aku dah suh dia amik sushi sendiri...dah aku pon dah keletihan sgt almost everday kene mai opis..so, takde masa nak suruh dia itu dan ini..atau nak cedokkan atau nak amikkan dia makanan sentiasa..

Kemuncaknya happened..disebabkan oleh dia masak sayur tak sprt yg aku arahkan selalu..pada pagi tadi..I was helping him cooking..so, maksudnya..takde apala dia nak buat lagi pas she fed my baby except fr cooking sayur air aka sayur bening. And I was really mad to know, that she was putting perasa ikan bilis...the ingredient that I had never told her to add in in our sayur bening as I would like the sayur to be cooked freshly with fresh ikan bilis and furthermore, Milan doesnt like to eat soup yg berwarna keruh( tak clear org kata)..I just could think why, susah sgt dia nak masuk sayur bening yg besa kami makan..sbb, aku dah tolong ringankan beban keje dia pagi tadi..

I was banging her with my Qs..samaada yg dia masak itu utk diri dia atau utk kami sekeluarga..dan dia jawab..yg she was doing it supaya sayur tu lagi berperisa..I was answering her back..yg..I just dont mind if the sayur is cooked specially utk diri dia....But, now...our family yg nak makan...dan kalu bibik letak rempah ikan bilis sket2 tu tak apa2la..ini kalu dah sampai kale keruh camtu...sape plak lalu nak memakannya...Maksud aku, aku tak kisah, whatever ingredient dia nak buh kalu nak masak utk perut dia..but, for us...I would rather prefer everything to be as natural as possible sbb my kids are still young to hold for preservative.

Aku skdr ignore dia memangis..Sambil kasik advice...yg dia tu harus berpk macam org berpkran..Alahaiii, takkan nasi nampak dah nak abis..Dia tak reti nak masak semula..walaupon, dah disuruh masak..Kalu rasa takut sgt...Apa salahnya amik tepon, tepon aku gitau apa yg patut n bukannya wat keputusan sendiri2 yg akhirnya menyusahkan hidup dia...Ker dia rather prefer nak makan nasik panas..so, sbb tu dia let my kids makan nasi baki..Kalu tak clear wif my instruction, just asked me..and not need to shy...as aku pon punya hati dan perasaan dan takkan sampai hati nak biarkan dia kelaparan...Mcmla dia tak nampak portion sbyk mana nasi yg aku selalu amikkan utk dia??? Hai, ntahla...malas aku nak fikir..Baik je aku sambung keje skrg ni dr dok sesak2 kepala pkkan masalah org..

Sunday...

Today at almost 12 noon, both my honey & I, dah sampai kat our opis. Dtg opis bukan sbb nak siapkan keje opis...but more come to here coz hv to finish my personal work. I know my kids must be missing me a lot. Too bz wif my own things but theres nothing I could do at the moment. But, at least, yesterday's night we had our night time stroy in my bed. We read together "Toy Story-3 Book" that I bought about a week ago for Harris. While for Milan, I just read in glance "Sleeping Beauty" story book for her, as she loves very much anything about being Prince&Princess. Tak baca apa2 story book pon for Daniel as he has fallen asleep. Terlalu mengantuk coz we were arrived at home about 12 midnight. Alhamdulillah nothing happened on our way back home walaupon mata aku dah macam layu2 n drivers on the road plak aku ngk mcm org ting tong dok bawak kete ke kiri dan ke kanan.

My mom pon didnt expect I will be coming 2 work today. Yelah, my family back home, they all work wif government so hardly they really have to come to work during weekend..melainkan kalu betul2 ade keje. My mom was expecting for me to overnigth at her hse yesterday but sad to say, I really couldnt do it coz got something urgent to settle for today. Ini pon rasa bdn mcm lenguh2. Tak habis penat...Letih..Disamping badan aku yg dah mulai berisi dan berisi..

Infact, aku pon dah tak bother sgt hal2 rumah and just hope my bibik could be independent. Adalah jugak aku buat spot check sket2. Bebel sket2. But, still everything is controllable. Aku ngk bibik pon dah makin bule adapt ngan her keje. Cume, aku pon tak harap she to stay lama wif us. Sbb, dia pon ade hak wether or not to continue her contract wif us.

Buat keje..

Hati aku sprt berbunga2...sbb my honey told me, that..it might be possible for him to accompany me to UK. Mmmm, manja betulla aku nikan..semua pon nak berteman..Bukannya tak bule buat sendiri. We were planning for me to fly first to UK and he will be following me later. Yelahkan, apa plak dia nak buat kat UK for 1 week while I am bz catching up my things kat sana.

I just hope, I really can make it to submit my work by early next week in which I still working it out until late night yesterday. Aku rasa, mcm tak bule lelapkan mata till kul 3.00 a.m. Aku doa sgt2, everything goes smoothly. Supaya, berakhirla satu lagi episod misi perjalanan dlm hidup aku. If I would be given an opportunity, aku mmg nak sgt2 come to UK again for next year for another mission to be accomplished. Walaupon aku sendiri agak gementar, but I just do it for the sake of everybody...yg mana, aku sendiri pon tak jangka I really have to past all these paces dlm spjg hidup aku..

For me, its not an easy task too, to become a mom, student and also working at one go...as I really need to pandai2 membahagikan masa. Nak2 plak, when the time, my son has to sit for exam, usually, mmg akula yg bz dok spend time wif him for ulangkaji segala. Bila balik dr opis plak, mmg aku tak sempat nak rehat panjang, terus jek bz di dapur..I guess, every women has to face the same thing like I did nowadays...Cume, I still among the lucky wives sbb got bibik at home to assist me for house cleaning. Walaupon, bibik adakalanya membebankan kepala aku...at least, her presence take off some of the house work loads yg aku rasa..aku tak larat nak buat di kala preggy...At the same time, my kids still perlukan their mommy's attention, yg mana aku cube sebaik mungkin to spend some of my time wif them sekiranya berkesempatan. Mmg aku tak nafikan, all my kids sgt2 manja ngan aku...no matter, how garang aku at home, they still in the end looking for their mommy. Especially, Daniel yg mmg tak lekang and very fond of me. Aku jugak sgt2 bersyukur, sbb Daniel so far can be indepent yg mana aku tak susah nak jaga sejak usianya masih bayi lagi..

Mood..

Hari ni masuk opis lambat..mcm kurang mood nak buat keje..Badan sakit2, betis pon lenguh..Nak stay rumah plak..aircond tak begitu function selain dr my doter yg asik suka mengacau.

Hari ni pon aku bangkit agak lambat. Badan pon rasa mcm agak better sket dr hari sblmnya. Kalu tak, pasti aje mata ni nak layu..

Tak ke opis...

Ari ni aku tak ke opis..badan rasa sakit2...aku rasa asik nak mengantuk..So, lepas lunch jek aku terus zasss tido...letih sgt nampaknya..Betis kiri pon terasa sakit...

As usual, bila am at home, takde keje yg aku bule buat sgt melainkan melayan bebudak dan memasak. Itupon nasib baik sgt2 kalu dapat masuk bilik dan mengunci diri..Kalu tak, mmg tak habis2 kene kacau. At least, hari ni aku dapat berehat sepuas2nya, walaupon ade gak a few minutes aku spent to look into my work at home. Aku just mcm tak bule berfikir sbb anak2 asik buat bising. Dgn bunyi game yg kuat, my doter plak menjerit2 and then feeling pity plak kat my youngest son yg asik dok dlm baby cot selain asik nak kene follow up bibik dah done her work atau pon belum. Pendek kata, mmg aku takkan berhenti berehat kalu dah duduk di rumah. Nak ke opis plak, badan aku letih2.

I have looked again into my outstanding work. Kalu ikutkan takdela byk mana nak kene repair..It just matter, I have to sit and spend my time for couple of days...and hopefully by next week I could get in touch with my superior again. Aku just gamble..Just harapnya, my haunting days will end very soon and I maybe looking fwd to come to UK again somewhere in April next year. Insya-Allah!

Semakin hari..

Semakin hari...semakin aku rasa tak selesa..Sesak..Tegang..Letih..Kesemuanya pon ada..Baby keeps on kicking in my tummy. Badan aku plak, semakin hari..semakin membesar..Perut pon dah mulai pecah2 disebabkan berat yg naik mendadak. Nak naik opis tingkat 2 pon rasa mcm dah tak larat. Tapi, kene jugak laratkan badan. Nak bising2 ngan bibik pon..rasanya dah tak kuasa sgt...

Yesterday, came to know..I may need to fly back UK for running an errand. Rasa sedih jugak nak tinggalkan anak2. But, seems got no choice. Just hope everything berjalan lancar. I was hoping not to stay too long. Must be very boring jugak coz anak2 dan somi takde di sisi. Its only me, sorang2 yg akan melayan diri sendiri.

Kkdg funny plak rasanya, why when all of us already in Mesia..I manage to do almost everything..Manage the hse, kids, family shopping, work n study segala. I've got no complaint at all, walaupon dalam keadaan berbadan dua..I have to go to hospital bawak anak2 cucuk atau jumpa Doktor. Shopping pon..I always convenient to do it alone. Without bibik, my hubby and also the kids. Ocassionally, mmg aku ade bawak my elder kids..But, then...I hardly feel ianya sbg beban. Sometimes, I feel like..having more kids, make my life more manageable. The obvious thing for this time pregnancy, I am more confident in leading people, clear wif what I want, firm wif my decision and langsung tak takut ngan critisms. I just feel comfortable to be myself. Mebe, sbb in my life nowadays, dah terlalu byk yg nak difikirkan...

Cant wait..

Rasa tak sabar nak tunggu brg2 yg aku order tu sampai..especially the bedding n the toys..Mcm dah boring plak asik2 dok pakai bedding yg sama setiap masa..Hopefully, mmg Eza tak lupa nak masukkan bedding aku dlm kontena dia awal2..

Hari ni aku masuk opis awal...Buat filing apa2 yg patut. PV pon dah almost siap...so, pasni bulela get ready to manage our account using UBS or excel semata.

Cuti2 Malaysia..

Plan utk bercuti ke sebuah Pulau...Mebe nak ke Langkawi. Dah tgk rega tiket dalam rm700+. Accomodation, mebe pilih yg murah2 je..dalam rm100-200++. Sbb, just nak dapatkan accomodation yg bule berteduh dan tidur sementara menunggu hari2 seterusnya nak berjalan2. aku dapat bygkan mesti kitaorg akan flat gile. Coz, mmg tak plan nak bawak bibik sekali. Bibik hs to stay home. Jaga rumah...Takut2 pencuri pecah masuk..Sambil tu, bulela bibik relax puas2..Takde sape nak kaco..dan takde sape gak nak memekak kat dia..Nak bising2 mulut. So, bibik bule stay ngan aman...At the same time, aku rasa..mesti jugak dia miss ngan sore2 kami sume..Hahahahha..

Plan kali ni..mcm nak ke Langkawi. I would say, perhaps my last trip before my young baby due to arrive. Harris already asked abt my promise to have a break during his schoold holiday. But, I just turning back his question...Sama ada dia ade score 100 for any of his subject..Again, aku pon tak harap Harris to score sgt coz dia baru baik dr demam waktu nak exam. I would imagine..mesti dia dapat nombor berbelas2..sbb, dalam kelas dia kesemuanya pandai2. Markah utk BM berlambak dlm 100. As long as Harris average mark is 90+, it should be fine for me. The best, kalu dia dapat average 95+, itu dah memadai buat aku utk masa ini. Aku pon, takdela pulun sgt suh dia study gila2 for his exam coz kami dah buat preparation agak awal. Sampai, dia pon dah masuk tahap bosan..asik kene belajar dan belajar during week of exam. Kalu ikutkan waktu exam week jek Harris bz study. Dah lepas2 tu, mulai santai...Ikut suka2 aturkan jadual dia sendiri...

Hari ini, Harris minta aku buatkan aktiviti utk dia..Nampakla dia try to follow the jadual. Yg herannya, by 12 noon,sume org dah siap makan..berbanding kalu aku tak monitor schedule di rumah..Mmg alamatnya, sampai kul 2-3.30 petang si Bibik masih lagi terkial2 mencuci pinggan atau nak mop lantai.

D**H..

Baru jek call D**H. Takat ni, aku takdela rasa inferior banget nak kal mana2 badan kerajaan. Ibaratnya mcm peanut! Tak jumpa lagi difficult person to deal wif. Melainkan kalu Prof/ AP/ Technician yg skema...pada aku, sume org pon macam manusia biasa jugak.

Cant wait to have deal wif D**H. After seeing sent invoice fr Llyod register, mmg terus-terang we really cant put our project onto "ONHOLD' anymore. Kalu takat, everytime wait and see and just harapkan our staff to perform execution, aku confirm banget, all of us will be dissapointed! Susah nak percaya cakap org..SBBnya, most of the time, for sure dorang akan try deliver the best to The Company, but in the end, The Superior has to take role to check their work yg selalu sgt depa gitau already "DONE" tapi masih jugak tak "DONE".

To be honest, I've got no complaint at all wif regards to this matter. Rasa mcm buang karen nak bising2. Sometimes, peope cant just think 2 different things in parallel. Nak2 dorang plak masih muda lagi..Byk benda nak kene gagau. So, might as well, I make use my practical trainee sms dorang masih lagi berkhidmat utk kami di opis ni. For whatever errands.., aku takdela rasa bersalah sgt nak suh dorang wat keje. But, at least, keje2 aku takdela berat sgt sbb ade balaci2 yg sedia membantu and my task to just double check their work and also rectify their problem wherever is possible.

Daging steak..

Sejak dua menjak ni, kami sekeluarga rajin nau makan daging steak. Just homely cooked by me. Tak susah mana pon nak buat. Perap aje ngan minced garlic, sprinkle wif salt, pepper, rosemary and parsely..kalu rajin bule add some Lea&Perrins Sos and finally, wrap over the meats wif HP BBQ sos. For the sayur plak, we just had steamed asparagus wif baby tomatoes. Yg kemudainnya kami makan bersama2 fries and nasi putih.

Anak2 pon nampaknya sama tumpang sekaki..join makan daging steak. Rasa nyesal plak aku tak beli steak knife kat TESCO smlm. Cancel the tot of having the steak knife yesterday sbb konon2nya dah beli Viners knife fr UK. Itupon aku just beli 6 pieces of them. Bila pk2 balik..Eishhh, mcm sayang plak aku nak lanyak steak knives Viners ni habis2an. Nak2 reganya aje dah dekat rm100 compare to TESCO brand yg cume 1/4 dr rega Viners. Bila pk2, terasa rugi plak, nape tu ari aku tak terus beli sekali 2 set. Sebut pasal shopping ni, kkdg mmg kene tarik nafas dlm2, tak bule nak ikutkan hati sgt...Just spend mana2 yg penting2 saje sudah memadai.

Bila ngk menu kami sejak dua menjak ni..mmg no wonderla if I am carrying a baby boy again.

Lain citer, Daniel semakin dah mulai berani berjalan hingga 5 tapak. Aku pon dah siap2 transfer duit ke bapak maid aku di Indon. My fren ade gak yg takut2kan, better pi counter to transfer money rather than we just do it on the web. Tapi, aku dah biasa buat byk urusan guna web. Nak2, aku lak skrg tgh berbadan dua..Tak kuasa nak ke sana ke mari cari parking dan berpanas2 hanya nak buat transfer. Org yg nak ditransferkan duit plak, asik je leka2...Mana taknya, bila aku suh dia double check the info yg dia kasik kat aku..Masih lagi ade pembetulan yg perlu dibuat walaupon di saat pagi tadi aku transferkan duit tu ke bapak dia. Dahle, I was told yg kalu info tak betul, the money will not be credited to her father's account. Hai, ntahlaaa...

Cuti sekolah ni mmg kami tak ke mana2 sgt. Aku just bawak bebudak ke playground n KLCC..ade masa mebela bule ke Pavillion. Itupon, kalu my honey betul2 free. Sale pon dah nak mula..cume tataula nak pergi atau pon tidak. Takde errand apa2 pon kalu nak KLCC kali ni..melainkan shopping baju atau jeans anak2.

hari ahad

hari ahad..takde ke mana2..just pi breakfast roti canai n ayam goreng kat kedai mamak wif my honey and then terus ke tesco membeli belah keperluan opis and rumah. balik dr tesco..pi plak umah mak cik siti..anak lelaki dia kawen...kenyang perut suka ati..sbbnya, makanan yg dihidangkan sumenya lazat2 belaka..yg paling aku suke sekali is carrot cake dia..mmm, pandai betul mak cik siti ni merasa makanan..memang pueh hati bagi duit sumbangan rm50. selain sedekah, dapat jugak merasakan masakan sedap. kenduri kali ni, aku just pi ngan ayu, jiran depan. ayu, mak budak 5 org anak..umur pon dah 35 tahun, tapi, aku ngk sentiasa ada seri nampak muda. sbb tu jugak, aku takde pon memanggei dia ngan panggilan kakak. harap2nya tidakla dia terasa..kalu ni, aku pi tanpa my honey...sbb, my honey terpaksa rushing pi opis sbb server man dah sampai nak fixkan our server dlm opis. natijahnya, terpaksala aku layan bebudak dua org ni sorang2. as usual, terpaksala aku ke hulu ke hilir dahulukan perut anak2 dan kendian barula sibuk2 nak uruskan diri sendiri. ayu plak dah hint2 nak kene balik cepat. sbb, aku pon paham gak...mesti tak sedap ati...coz dia pi kenduri..tapi, tinggaikan anak 5 kat umah sendiri2. kalu ikutkan, kalu nak sng mmgla elok je angkut sume org..tapi, again yg letihnya si mak tu jugak sbb nak kene entertain sume bebudak tu sorang2. ade gak terpk nak bawak bibik. but hv 2 cancel d plan. coz n then aku gak yg susah nk kene tunggu bibik plak abis mkn. lig ke smlm, pon bibik seems prefer to eat at home waktu kami kuar mkn di restoren. kalu ikutkan, mmg resposibility bibik to entertain anak2 aku terdahulu baru kendiannya pk nak entertain akan diri dia..smlm pon, nampak bibik mcm tak lepaskan peluang..sbb dia tau yg my honey bayar bill for almost rm100 utk kami anak beranak makan.

balik umah, aku dok layan anak2. si daniel dah pandai main tembak2 and pegang control x-box mcm org beriya2 main game. si milan, dah makin pandai melukis..while si harris as usual..dok bz ngan his life wif his x-box game..

cadangnya nak pi opis sambung keje..tapi, terpaksa cancel...

Petronas Application..

Finally, aku dah selamat key in all the necessary infos for the above application. It just matter to compile all the relevant supporting documents to be submitted to Petronas which we are hoping to make it somewhere next week. I am not keen at all to hold this matter too long.

cuti-cuti

Plannya nak amik cuti..Tapi, tak tahu bila..Cumenya, mmg konfem kalu pi bercuti..aku mmg tak minat nak bawak bibik bersama. Alasannya adalah disebabkan:

-Rumah tak ada sape jaga. So, bibik has to stay home to look at the house. Teringat waktu 1st time aku nak tinggalkan dia bercuti di Pangkor..bibik was requesting to stay at MIL's hse. Suppose, bibik kene faham tanggungjawab dan juga pekerjaan dia sebaik menjejakkan kaki di bumi Mesia...yg dia ke Mesia sbg pembantu..dan bukannya jalan2 cari makan kat Mesia..suka2 nak buat apa yg dia nak kat sini..macam ala2 dia plak majikan..nak tentukan apa yg perlu dia buat bila duduk di rumah majikan.

-Bibik aku jenis lembap dan lewa. Dr aku stress asik nak kene push dia wat keje cepat sket dlm uruskan anak2. Better ajelah biar aku yg penat sendiri...Letih kalu asik nak remind org..Dah pernah test beberapa kali bawak bibik jalan2. Tapi, nampaknya, mcm aku lak yg kene jaga anak2..dan bibik plak yg melayan diri dia sendiri..sambil tak peka dgn keselamatan anak2 aku. Sampai naik nyampah plak aku dibuatnya. Manalah aku tak menyampah, kalu org yg kita bagi peluang tu...mcm tak tahu berterima kasih..dan buat tak faham dgn tanggungjawab sendiri. It happened one time, anak2 aku dibiarkan keluar dr kereta..dan dia plak dok melayan pikirannya dia sendiri..Tak tahu pon nak fikir, kot2 anak2 tu melintas jalan sendirian dan tak pasal2 kene langgar kereta. Dan berlaku jugak, kat rumah mak aku sewaktu kenduri kawen..dia mcm berlagak ala2 tetamu..Tak tahupon nak cari pekerjaan bila di rumah mak aku..Tapi, aku dan somi plak sibuk ke hulu ke hilir dok cari kerja. Dan dia duduk berehat2an di kerusi malas bapak aku. Sementara, anak2 aku ntah ke mana..tidak pulak dia mencarinya (yg nila yg aku katakan bibik aku ni mcm takde sense of responsibility dan suka bekerja sambil lewa).

Pon jadik gak, waktu aku bawak dia sekali kuar Mc Donald, takde dia cepat2 nak kasik my baby makan. Tapi, yg dia buat adalah...menikmati suasana di Mc Donald dgn memandang org sana dan sini..Dan sewaktu, aku bawak majlis makan2 kat rumah kakak ipar aku..Takde plak dia nak perhatikan anak2 aku..sebaliknya, matanya plak diguna utk melayan tv mcm dia tu ala2 tetamu. Same goes, waktu aku bawak dia pi umah mentua. Bukannya, dia nak tolong ngk bebudak..sebaliknya, dia pi melayan diri dia..ke belakang..berborak2 dgn pembantu rumah my mil di kitchen..sementara anak2 aku yg lain dia biar di ruang tamu.

Pada pendapat akulakan, tak yah nak kasik chance ngan org2 yg smcm ini. Fikir mcm diri tu cerdik sgt..tak pon mcm seolah2, dia plak org mcm mem. Sdgkan org yg membayar gaji dia...dibuat seolah2 mcm nak kene ikut segala cakap dia...

Dan yg paling tak best, setiap kali kami ade plan nak keluar jalan2..always ending up aku yg kene tunggu dia bersiap. Ade jek brg2 bebudak yg tertinggal...Takde sense of responsibility nak tutup lampu n kipas...dan pintu..Tak tahu, nak bersiap awal2 pakai tudung..Nak ajak anak2 kencing dulu..Eiiiii, sungguhla penat...asik nak ulang cakap benda2 yg sama kat bibik...sampai dah capai tahap bosan pon ade..

Sblm aku blahh fr opis pon, aku dah sound bibik..jgn lambat buat kerja. Dan at 3 pm + aku made a follow up call to her..yg herannya, lepas dibising2 tahu plak nak buat kerja cepat segala.

Today..today..

Nothing interesting happened as for today. Went off to Office late abt 2 pm. But, before that drop by dulu kat kedai kain dan kedai runcit dkt ngan opis. Found out, kedai kain tu ade jual portmeirion 1st and 2nds quality. Reganya, for surela mahallakan coz its already inclusive postage segala. So, I wont complaint at all for sure if the seller is selling the price like seller in Malaysia normally does. I was told that, someone fr Putrajaya had borong the Portmeirion lot sampai rm 4k..Pon, again..aku takdela heran sgt..sbb, kalu org dah berkenan and minat..kendian, afford laknya tu..sometimes, price wont be that matter. Ade jugak aku belek2 kain batik Trengganu and came to know jugak yg that shop also taking order for those nak buat baju kurung kat situ at price of rm40-55.Kalu ikutkan lampu kuning kedai tu..mmgla segalanya nampak cantik..The owner for sure knows the tactic best, to make all of her goods look perfectly eye-catching for the customer. Dan aku pon, tak nakla jugak tertipu..dgn alasan tak nak tertipu jugak, I didnt straight made up any decision to shop any kain in that kedai.

Apparently at 11.15pm today, I found out..Daniel is getting more confident to walk..I'm happy to see his improvement..Milan plak is getting better in her drawing..Skrg ni dah pandai lukis rabbit lg tuh!

Bangun awal..

Hari ni, almost of us bangun awal. Cume, Milan je sampai skrg masih tak bangkit2 lagi. Dua2 my son dah bangun sambil melayan tv. Aku lak masih tak mandi lagi coz my bilik masih dibersihkan oleh cik bibik. Kalu ikutkan hari ni byk benda nak kene settlekan..Nak pi beli ayam, crab, i-talk selain nak kene update web Petronas and settlekan invoice2 yg terbengkalai kat opis.

Rasa malas nak pi market pon ye, mana taknya...kalu dah ke market..sah2 aku penat..and mau 1-2 jam termasuk perjalanan pergi balik jugak masa akan dihabiskan bila ke sana nanti.