sepital check up

hari ni aku kuar wif my honey wat check up. sampai sepital kul 8.45 am..dalam kul 10.40 am baru dapat jumpa doktor. aku amik kesempatan gak amik 3d scan. rupa2nya tak mahal sgt chargenya kalu kita mmg loyal patient for KPJ Hospital. Sprt biasa baby aku malu2 miaw..jual mahal tak nak tunjuk muka. perkembangan lain-at 32 weeks now berat aku dah 78+kgs.

lepas balik sepital..aku singgah makan ngan my honey kat Hailam Kopitiam. Takdela sedap mana pon..tapi, berhabis jugak sampai rm 24++.

sampai umah, aku mcm nak naik antu sbb umah bersepah2. aku tataula nape bibik asik suka tangguh keje. last2 keje dia jadik melambak2. aku pon tataula camne dia nak settle. aku pon dah bosan nak bebel2 ngan bibik aku. yg aku tak paham, eventhough hari ni dia tak kemas bilik aku...by 12.30 am aku sampai umah, still dapur aku tak terkemas...sedangkan kalu aku ade rumah, besa dlm kul 11.30 aku pasan dia dah siap kemas2 dapur. pehtu aku perasan belakang kabinet aku dia tak de pon nak sapu..mentang2 aku dah lama tak tgk..dia boleh sengaja buat2 tak nampak. citer lain, aku bengang gak ngan bibik aku sbb dia pi letak kuih aku kat dalam peti sejuk sedangkan aku dah pesan jgn dimasukkan dalam peti sejuk. aku ngk bibik aku skrg byk berkhayal.

Aku bengang..

Aku bengang tul ngan sv aku hari ni..pasalnya dia pi antar my draft thru Aisure Service yg org dok kasik review ntah hapa2 kat web. Skrg ni aku baik aje aku tawakkal. Kalu tak dapat viva sblm melahirkan its better je aku viva slps melahirkan. Memandangkan aku skrg pon dah macam tak larat nak bawak badan. Dia dok cakap yg rega FEDEX tu adalah 80gbp..so, mahal nak antar dan ianya amik masa 3-4 days baru nak sampai kat tpt aku. Lagi aku sakit ati bila dia cakap aku ni panicking over nothing...

Mengantuk..

Hari ni aku sgt2 mengantuk..Rasa frust pon ade sbb tak dapat confirmation date for my exam. Ntahla..patah smgt plak aku dibuatnya. Apa2pon aku berserah pada Allah s.w.t. He knows the best for us. Kalu ditakdirkan aku exam pas melahirkan..aku tetap redha..baik je aku joli katak sakan dan tidakla juga aku ni begitu rushing nak ke UK tanpa apa2 notis atau sempat nak study my piece of work sblm pergi.

Btw, aku pon happy gak sbb cume dapat minor correction from my sv. Jadi, mebe by next week Monday mebe aku dah bule submit my full draft thesis.

Shopping GAP KLCC&Pavillion

Ntah apa mimpinya hari ini..aku terbangun kul 4.15 pagi..pi bukak komputer ngk2 sv aku dah response thru my email. so, sempatla aku wat keje ni ari abt 3hrs sampai kul almost 8 pagi..Pehtu siap2 terus nak pi KLCC.

Sblm pi shopping, my honey dah tanya..Nak wat ape pi KLCC? I was telling him..coz I want to buy baju rayas for my kids sbb tgh sale. This time saje we only afford to buy..Dan sekali beli....Haaaaaaaaaaa...amik ko..terus je dapat bukak membership! Mula2 shopping kat Pavillion dulu..pehtu sambung lagi kat KLCC. Kat KLCC pon same aku berhabis ratusan ringgit..Dah kuar outlet baru rasa mcm nervous..like..takut my honey marah..spending berlebih2. Nak kata aku overspending..pon tak jugak..sbb, coz this time I was buying terus for our 4 kids..kendian, siap beli 1 size up..sbb, yelah bila lagi nak layan sale mcm ini...So, mebela...for our shopping time for kids baju only will happen once a year. Tak yah nak susah2 nak order sampai jauh2 kat US. Beli jek kat KL bila masa time sale. Kalu dulu, mcm nak bercinta nak beli 5 barang sekaligus..tapi, kali ni..nampaknya...mcm nak capai beli clothes sampai 5 helai.. tu mmg tak susah nak direalisasikan...

Sempat jugak aku singgah ke LV outlet di KLCC. Dok poyo2 try Galliera GM, Neverfull GM and Delightful GM. Kalu ikutkan aku takdela fancy sgt ngan Delightful ni..sbb, bentuknya yg tak reti nak diam..setiap kali aku menggayakan dia..disebabkan bag ni so sempoi and takde base. Kalu nak ikut nampak cantik..mestila Galliera lagi cantik..tapi, kalu dr segi praktikaliti...baik ajela aku beli Delightful GM ni...walaupon buruk..tapi, aku pasti..mesti aku akan sukakan dia...sbb boleh sumbat macam2.

Bila sampai jek KLCC pas habis shopping kat Pavillion..Mulala kaki aku rasa sakit2. Sempat jugak aku pi M&S kot2 ade sale. Pi beli panties sbb dah seksa sgt pakai suar ketat dek kerana kegemukan aku yg terlampau...and believe it or not..bila aku pi buat measurement kat Mothercare..SA tu kate, it is recommended aku pakai saiz 18! Mmg aku admit...aku mmg dalam keadaan gemuk yg melampau. Aku pon mmg ade amik gamba waktu nak masuk KLCC sebaik saje my honey dropkan aku kat depan KLCC. Bila aku view gamba aku semula...OMG...rasa takut je nak ngk rope sendiri. But that is the truth..it is me for being soooo gemuk...and sad to say I have another 2 mths journey to gain more weight. Berbalik pada citer shopping di M&S..oleh kerana terlalu letih..aku pon selamba duduk sambil pilih briefs. Gasakla org nak cakap ape..sbb, aku smmgnya letih...

Done my shopping kat M&S..aku heading plak ke GAPKIDS...shopping lagi baju bebudak..pehtu pi ke Chanel Isetan sbb konon2nya nak beli compact foundation dia..Cessss, aku rasa...Chanel ni hanya skdr brand..sbb,a ku selalu sgt nampak their SA yg make up mcm serba tak kena. SAnya plak cam tak helpful..so, aku chow plak ke counter DIOR. Try DIORnya new range compact foundation. After all, my conclusion..I am much happy dgn GA. Mebe, kena tahan sabar sket..tunggu sampai aku dapat ke UK. So, that I could do my GA shopping kat sana...

Aku mengantuk..

Hari ni aku sgt2 mengantuk..mebe, sbb aku pon lewat tido. get to know ade satu agency kat UK can ship brg2 ke mesia. Aku ingat nak buat additional order for my steak plate, duvet and viners cook&serve dish..tapi, tgkla dulu keadaannya macamana. budget sume2 tu mebe dalam 1kplusla kot.

ade gak aku survey2 handbag baru from louis vuitton..kot2 ade yg ringan yg aku bule bawak pi keje selalu. aku dah bosan bawak beg yg berat sbb lenguh plak bahu aku dibuatnya. lain2 pembelian rasanya takdela kot stkt ni..melainkan nak beli baju raya utk diri sendiri, anak2, somi and bibik. mebe nak place order lagi baju gap selain nak kene beli baju for my newborn baby yg mana aku plan nak shop aje di UK nanti.

rasa tak sabar2 nak ke KLCC&Pavillion pon ade..sbb nak pi beli..baju utk anak2 sementelah skrg tgh sale. cume tulah tatau plak bilanya nak curi masa...

my supervisor dah response yg the examiners dah ready to examine me. kesian jugak kat supervisor aku..sbb, tak pasal2 dok kene bombard ngan e-mail aku yg bertalu2. dan dia pon tak expect kot yg aku bule jadik se-efficient ini. Ntah..kkdg aku rasa mcm minah customer service yg menjawab soalan e-mail dr pelbagai customers. Hopefully, by the time aku kat UK..masa tu still in hot sales..Bolelah aku beli baju for bebudak..and of course mmg aku akan minimumkan segala brg2 aku supaya mudahla sket aku nak bawak apa2 yg patut dr sini nanti..:)

Aku pon happy gak hari ni..sbb, one of my dorma bedlinen dah sampai. 300 thread count. mmg lembut gila...sgt2 syok bila menyentuhnya. kalenya pon bunga2. so takdela aku boring sgt sbb asik nak menghadap beb linen yg sama tiap masa.

Efficient..

Tak sangka plak aku ni leh jadik manusia efficient. Secara mendadaknya aku telah jadi berubah kpd a better person utk hari ini...hahahha..mana taknya, in one day..segala mcm benda aku telah settlekan pada hari ini..termasuk sending my outstanding chapters to my supervisor. so, now, aku cume owe dia chapter introduction...itu pon..aku dah siap wat draft sesikit dan tinggal nak polish sedikit sahaja. yg lain2 kalu ye pon aku nak tambah..aku mebe kene buat satu lagi appendix derivation. bila ngk balik equation yg aku buat..rasa nak melompat pon ade..yelah, manala aku sangka otak aku leh jadi segeliga ini? haaaa...kalu dah sampai tahap wat equation sendiri..now, aku confident sketla nak attend for viva exam. Just hope sgt2 aku akan pass. Just berharap sgt2 aku leh sit for oral exam before beranak..kalu tak...mmmmm, gamaknya...aku akan enjoy mak katak terlebih dahulula utk beberapa bulan ni..

Selain tu, aku da dapat settle akunye registration, viva form and draft of my thesis. walaupon aku agak bengang ngan minah yg binding draft aku tu..dok pi binding salah2. tensen aku dibuatnya..yelah, dah cantik2 draft aku tu...dia boleh plak pi buat cacat binding tonggang terbalik...dahle buat kemek kertas2 aku...ishkkkkkk...

I had my wonderful day jugak wif my kids after FEDEX came to pick my draft...spend time ngan anak2 bawak dorang naik scooters yg baru sampai dr UK sambil bawak Daniel jalan2 lihat sekitar. lama dah aku tak spend masa ngan anak2 dan sudah semestinya aku rasa amat gembira..walaupon letih sbb kene berjalan ke taman...pehtu kene patah balik plak halfway..sbb, si Milan kepenatan nak bawak skooter dan decided nak kayuh basikal pi ke taman permainan. aku ngk, Daniel pon sgt2 happy. While Harris plak had fun time..helping his younger sister yg kesusahan..dek kerana basikal Milan yg dah terbabas dlm puddle.

Sejak dua menjak ni..aku mmg happy gile..sbb barang2 yg aku order fr UK dah sampai..pehtu, brg yg aku order fr US pon sama termasuk brg2 yg aku beli di ebay. so, now mmg umah aku penuh ngan kids toys..but, who cares sbb anak2 aku pon ramai...

Cant wait..

Rasa mcm tak bule nak tunggu jek..nak abiskan keje2 aku. Ingatkan esok nak pi merendek ke Pavillion atau KLCC..nampaknya terpaksala plan aku ni ditunda semula memandangkan keje aku sampai ke ari ni masih lagi tak siap. Ade kemungkinan jugak keje aku leh settle..cumenya...still aku kene pi opis jugak for tomorrow sbb nak post barang org tua ni ke UK. Kalu tak pon, mebe nak kene minta tlg my honey to post my things from his office.

Lain citer..dgn excitednya aku dah ke rumah my frens to pick up all my things. Aku belikan toys utk anak2 and hope they will be very happy. Aku pon happy gak sbb bedding aku dah sampai. So, takdela boring sgt dok asik pakai bedding yg sama setiap masa..Yg pastinya, balik umah, aku akan beriya2 suh bibik rendam sume pakaian n bedding aku supaya aku leh terus pakai/ cube...yeyeyeyey..Rasa tak sabar plak brg2 aku dr 3rd batch sampai. Ntah bilela agaknya nak sampai brg2 aku tu sume..memandangkan dah 1.5 bulan telah pon berlalu. Mebe, hv to be patient a bit..wait till end of this month to see if my things sumenya dah sampai depan umah...

Daniel pandai berjalan..

Horray...Daniel dah mulai pandai berjalan...Mentang2 dah dapat kaki, mmg tak henti2 dia berjalan ke sana ke mari. Lebih mudah, sbb dia dah pandai duduk kerusi sendiri..so, bibik tak yah susah2 nak duduk di atas lantai to feed Daniel lagi. Pada aku, Daniel sgt2 menghiburkan...menyejukkan dan setiap kali aku terpandang gambar dia di pc, pasti buatkan aku sgt2 rindu...rindu dgn wajah daniel...rindu dgn kemanjaan Daniel...

Sedih..

Hari ni..aku berasa sgt sedih....sbb, my mil nampak mcm bengang ngan aku coz i wasnt attending her kenduri yesterday. for the 1st aku dok terpk gak, awatnya org tua ni wat kenduri di waktu keje..nak2 plak di waktu aku tgh bz..lagi stress, bila org tua tu terus tolak tak mo terima kuih yg aku nak kasik..tapi, aku paham jugakla kalu dia tak mo kuih tu sbbnya kuih kat umah dia mebela dah berlambak2 sampai takde org nak makan. sbb tu jugak, i have no wonder nape my mil tak de kasik buah tangan kat kami.

misunderstanding bermula, when my honey just gitau his sister yg aku tak bule nak join smlm dgn harapan kami, kot2 my sil akan gitau my mil. ntahlaa..aku pon sungguh2 malas nak pk, di saat2 aku kelam-kabut yg mcm ini..but then, aku mcm terasa plak..yg its no point for me to ask for my mil's help anymore in future..dan kalu bule mmg pon aku tak mo menyusahkan dia..sbb lagian dia pon dah tua..aku mmg sgt2 terasa...tapi, yelah..kenapa plak aku nak terasa sbb aku pon bukannya anak dia..walaupon in law, sedikit sbyk mmg aku masih rasa diri aku ni asing dr kuarga mentua..cume, kkdg je..aku rasa aku bule adapt ngan dorang..but, for somehow, aku rasa mcm kekok pon ade especially ngan mak mentua..btw, nak tahu bengang ke tak bengang mak mentua aku ni..takdela susah mana...sbb mmg dapat dilihat dr airmuka dia..

okla kita lupakan rasa gundah gulana aku buat seketika..atau mebela, aku ni yg terover sensitip sbb aku ni tgh byk keje dan jugak tgh pregnant. cume, aku pon tak dela patah smgt sgt kalu my mil nak pulaukan aku...yg ditokok2 tambah lagi dgn pembantu rumah dia yg mcm "cipan".

aku rasa sedikit lega..at least i've got an assitance in opis yg bule buat keje efficiently. so part of my work aku dah past kat my assistance sama gak ngan pembantu rumah aku yg nampak bolehlaaaaa buat masa ni. I bet, she must be gradually happy bila dah lama dok sini, walaupon aku ni majikan angin kush2 and also strict, at the same time, aku bagi jugak dia kebebasan nak belajar memasak kuih muih segala..itu lom masuk waktu raya lagi..nak berbelanja 2 pasang baju dan kasut raya utk dia..so, hari ini..aku nampak air mukanya happy, sbb aku gitau pada dia yg kuih lapis dia hampir menjadi..senyum2 kambing org tua tu dibuatnya..nak2 plak, aku gitau dia...yg lepas ni...bibik kene belajar masak kek pisang, kek coklat dan kek carrot supaya senang nak bawak buah tangan ke rumah org nanti. Dan aku ade gitau dia jugak yg...utk kenduri arwah mak aku nanti..bibik has to masak kuih lapis sbg buah tangan dr kami...yelah, lagipon, saturday tu...aku keje...mana nak sempat ade masa nak memasak segala..n then, cik bibik plak tak perlu nak mengemas bilik aku segala...so, mmg cukup masa nak memasak apa2 yg patut..hehehheh...

kek pisang

http://blogchef.net/banana-cake-recipe/

Finally..

Finally, dapat jugak aku submit my work to my superior. Eventhough not 100% complete, at least acceptablela jugak.

Yg aku bengang minah yg jawab tepon tu leh cakap...

"I am familiar with your name. You are one of our di*****g s******s we have in here".

Cesss, kurang ajaq...gasakla ko..whatever you want to call me or to give name on me...asalkan hutang aku kat dorang dah selamat terbayar. Just dunnola..apa persepsi my superior kat aku...apa2la..janji mission aku tercapai. People may be looked down on me now..but, org yg di bawah tak selamanya di bawah ye..At least, ade jugak kemajuan yg aku buat..cumenya, sbb aku ni foreigner suka2 mak pak diala dia nak cakap aku mcm2. Lagipon, apehal sgt aku nak layan mentality stkt pekerja HR. Bercakap pandai..tapi, kat takuk tu jugak dorang berada.

Kuih Lapis

Resepi Kuih Lapis...

KUIH LAPIS
Bahan-bahan:
1 1/2 cwn tepung gandum
1/4 cwn tepung beras
1/4 cwn tepung jagung
1/2 cwn gula pasir..boleh tambah jika suka lebih manis
3 cwn santan..tambah jika perlu
1 camca teh garam
Pewarna merah
1/2 camca teh esen ros (optional)

Cara-cara:
1. Panaskan kukusan. Sapukan loyang (8 inci/20 cm) dgn sedikit minyak. Masuk loyang dlm kukusan.
2. Campurkan kesemua bahan kecuali pewarna merah dan esen ros.
3. Tapis adunan dan bahagikan kepada dua bahagian.
4. Satu bahagian warnakan dengan merah dan campurkan juga esen ros. Satu bahagian lagi tanpa warna.
5. Mulakan lapisan bawah dgn warna putih. Biarkan selama 6min-8min atau hingga masak baru tindih dgn lapisan seterusnya. Ini tip utk membolehkan lapisan dikopek selapis demi selapis. Lakukan hingga habis.

*TIPS utk mendaptkan hasil kukusan yg tidak keras atau tidak terlalu lembik:
(i)Sekiranya sukatan semua tepung adalah 2 cwn, maka adunan yg telah dicampur santan hendaklah menjadi 4 cwn. Maksudnya jumlah adunan cair adalah 2 kali ganda jumlah adunan tepung.
(ii)Gunakan cwn yg sama utk semua sukatan.
(iii)Kalau tak de pewarna merah, rinn kekadang guna Rose Syrup F&N..brand lain pun boleh. Kalau guna yg ini tak payah bubuh esen ros daaaahh...

http://rinnchan.fotopages.com/?entry=1194520

sampai lewat...

hari ni aku sampai lewat di opis. dlm pukul 11.31 pagi. lewat sbb, harris longing for me to buy him roti canai..on d way b4 buying the roti canai plak, aku dah berhabis masa di kedai suar to repair my honey's pants and kedai am to buy harris' clothes and umbrella sbb elok plak skrg musim hujan. dlm masa yg sama, aku ade gak beli bola memo which cost me only rm10 for my kids to play in the house.

Citer lain, we depart fr home dlm 9.40pagi. it happened because harris pon tak siap2 mandi before my honey leaving the house. bibik finished cleaning my room and toilet pon around 9.00 a.m. kebetulan plak, when bibik dah habis keje, daniel woke up..yg mana aku terus made up my mind to bath daniel and harris sekali. kemudian, dgn nasib tak baiknya...daniel dah kencing di atas katil aku yg ribu rabannn...mmmmm...mmg nasib tak baiklakan...so. i was rushing to call up bibik to the rescue. tapi, still air kencing baby terlepas menyerap ke dalam tilam. antara alasan lain yg melambatkan kami kuar umah, disebabkan we had our funtime breakfast together di meja makan.

Badan aku sgt2 letih pada hari ni. sampai buatkan aku mcm hilang konsentrasi while driving. i was coming back late around 9 pm...arrived at home, terus masak dinner for two of us. mmg sgt2 letih..hinggakan aku rasa badan aku mcm nak melayang2. hari ni plak, aku drive kete mcm org takde tumpuan...sampai aku rasa mcm nak langgar kereta depan...

Aku dah buat testing taste kat bibiknya kek. nampaknya kek bibik tak menjadi..terlalu byk pisang kot. ari ni lak aku testing suh org tua tu masak ayam kicap. tataula bebudak tu suka atau pon tidak nak menjamahnya nanti.

Bibik belajar memasak muffin pisang..

Hari ni aku saje testing power kat bibik..ntah jadik ntah idak..drpada mata dia asik layu nak tido..baik aje aku kasik dia keje sket..and at the same time bole jugak dia belajar memasak dan merasa apa yg dia makan...Berikut adalah resepi apam pisang yg aku modified for bibik to bake them as set of muffin.

APAM PISANG KUKUS (DianaA)

Ingredients :
2 cups flour
8 ripe bananas ( I used 12 as the bananas I used are not so big)
3/4 cups margarine ~ melted and cooled - I used 150 ml canola-olive oil
4 eggs
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon bicarbonate soda
1 cup sugar ( I used lesser sugar - 200 gm)
a pinch of salt

Method :
1. Sift flour with baking powder.
2. Mash the bananas and put in bicarbonate of soda. Mix well.
3. Beat eggs with sugar. Add in melted margarine.(oil)
4. Add in flour. Mix well.
5. Add in the mashed bananas and mix well.
6. Pour mixture into a well greased bundt pan.
7. Steam for 45 minutes.

Aku siap terkekeh2 sewaktu kal si bibik. at least kurang sket stress aku nih....lepas tepon bibik for her to try baking d cake.

Kerugian..

Hari ni aku dapat peluang to view our latest credit card statement. Aku rasa lagi untung if aku place order guna my own credit card. sbbnya, they charged less than rm5 for 1gbp. Dan kendian takdela jugak charge2 melalut mcm aku kene sblm ni..rasanya, after this mmg aku sgt2 tobat nak kirim kat minah tu lagi...sbb, sgt2 rugi!

Overcharged..

Sebenarnya aku mcm agak terkilan jugak coz mcm dah teroverchrgd by this lady..rasanya might as well for next order better jek aku place wif someone else...or ask someone to post my item fr UK on behalf or me. Still the result is the same..yg mana, aku hanya perlu menunggu for 7 days and then lg jimat minyak sbb x perlu nak gi jumpa manusia tu kat somewhere and somewhere...nak2 plak aku ni drive kete merz yg mmg boros minyaknya...huhuuh

3d/4d scan

I went 3d/4d scan at 11 am this morning...terpaksa angkut sekali Harris in the scan room because depart fr home pon dah kul 10.35 pagi. Nak harap bibik buat keje cepat2 pon...susah nak cakap..sbb, dah mmg orgnya slow motion macam tu. Itupon, aku dah siap tolong bibik mandikan dua org Harris&Daniel dan jugak masak nasik putih berserta tapawkan makanan Harris kot2 aku nak hantar dia kat rumah Bude.

Sampai klinik dlm kul 11.05 pagi. Okla lambat dlm 5 min gitu..sbb, jalan pon agak jam sedikit waktu di Kajang. I was excited to see the scan results. As I can see his nose, face much clearer than before. Yg aku pasti, my baby this time..nampak seiras mcm Daniel selain dr hidungnya yg besar dan tinggi. I wonder where gets this gene..Hidung besar smcm..Pipi my baby pon nampak chubby...Mana tak chubby kalu dah maknya pon dah berat naik mencanak2 sampai ke 75kgs in 29 weeks of my pregnancy. After had this scan, I think I am much confident to go back and deliver at my previous hospital in KPJ. Walaupon, takdela bilik dia tip top sgt...Tapi, rasanya takdela cramp mcm klinik yg aku pergi tadi..because has its own building dan bukan rumah kedai yg diconvert ke hospital atau pon klinik. Dan lagi satu, kalu aku melahirkan di KPJ takdela aku tergopoh gapah nak ke Bangi..hanya kerana nak melahirkan di Bangi...

Sunday Story..

Smlm kami pi ke Alamanda..Watching movie Toy Story 3. Takdela excited mana pon ngk movie kat panggung. Rasanya, lagi syok ngk citer kat umah dr pi panggung.

Selain dr pi watcing movie sbg hadiah Harris got no.3 in his class exam...Kami ada gak pusing2 Parkson, Habib Jewel and Mothercare. Dok membuang duit pi beli briefs disebabkan punggung aku yg semakin melebar...Kami ke Habib Jewel pon sbb konon2nya nak cari gantian neklace aku yg putus..Tapi, bila ngk rega seutas rantai jek dah rm700...aku rasa mcm malas plak nak beli. Kat Mothercare, aku just beli pjs for Daniel and extention for our safety gate.

Citer lain..Daniel semakin cerdik day by day...Semakin confident berjalan. Dah pandai kissing my cheeks kalu di suruh. Bila ngk perkembangan Daniel..Aku jadi mcm tak kisah nak beranak lagi..For me lelaki atau pompuan tetap sama...Still kehadiran dorang menyerikan kehidupan kami semua..

max 35th week..

Sgt2 lega bila came 2 know yg pregnant women can fly abroad at maximum of 35 weeks of her pregnancy. Dan hari jugak, I had my 1st experience meeting new doctor from new hospital with regards to my maternity check up. Doktor yg aku jumpa tadi sgt2 informative orgnya...walaupon siap cakap berslang2.

My assistant kelihatannya sgt2 bz...mebe stress atau pening kepala sbb kene explore new software for the company. although my honey very much keen for budak accounting to do the exploration, but for me..aku lebih prefer brainy student fr engineering background to learn the software utk kami. Biasanya sgt2 jarang bebudak engineering yg tak pick up. Dan sudah semestinya jugak, bebudak yg aku amik to undergo their practical trainning di sini, must be with excellent SPM result and aku takdela kisah sgt kalu result dorang stkt border line 3.0. My suggestion would be..biar budak engineering do the exploration 1st and then after me and assitant dah master dlm software ni..bulela kami calling in bebudak account to join is onboard and integrate some of their knowledges in accounting with the software yg kita ada di opis.

Saturday...

Hari ni hari sabtu..I am now still in the opis. Yg binawenya, early in the morning when my honey called d opis, nobody was picking up d phone, which is an indcation yg takde seorang manusia pon yg dtg opis ari ni.

So, I was spending my day redo surat rasmi petronas application n e-mails to my assitant. Left him a message so that he would know what he has to do for next week. The good thing abt my assistant, he is now getting improved dr segi wat keje selain dr has begun communcating wif me in english rather than bm sprt sblm2 ni..

Rasa cant wait betulla nak cari masa senggang nak pi klcc after i am sending my outstanding works....sbb, nak tgk sale kat Gap selain nak pi Chanel counter sbb akunye compact foundation powder dah pecah disebabkan aku terjatuhkan dia dr atas meja. Hampagas betul!

Harith must be looking fwd to wath movie for tomorrow sbg hadiah he got no.3 in class. Mesti dia happy, coz finally dia dapat peluang tgk wayang lebih dahulu dr sepupu2nya.

Harris Report Card Day..

Sebenarnya, hari ni ..dikira sbg hari yg agak menggembirakan bagi aku walaupon I have to come a bit later to opis. I woke up early this morning and had my b/fast wif my kids and then, terus bersiap2 ke skool Harris to collect his report card from the class teacher.

Finally, dapat jugak aku berjumpa ngan Harris new class teacher. Her name is Sapiyah. She teaches Harris Science and English. After seeing her, I have no doubts at all why Harris is happy to be in his class. Sbb, teacher Sapiyah is a vogeh teacher..Kiranya tahap "acun" jugakla cikgu Harris ni..and nampak lagi muda..siap bercontact lense segala..selain dr his class environment yg lebih nampak welcoming dr class yg sblmnya. Dan yg lebih membangga, sejambak bunga hadiah hari guru Harris kepada Cikgu Sapiyah telah diletakkan di atas meja cikgu tersebut. After then, I was telling Harris, that he should be proud that his present has been selected to be among of her teacher favourite gifts. Yg funny, hanya baru hari ni aku dapat tahu yg jambangan bunga kami tu telah diletakkan di situ sbb Harris tak pernah pon citer kat aku berkenaan hal ini. Sblm aku dismiss fr the discussion session wif teacher Sapiyah, dia siap tegur wether aku nak pi sambung shoppingke slps ini...Her Q makes me thinks..yg.. mcm gaya org kayakah aku ini..dan mungkin krn itu cikgu tu ingat aku nak pi bershopping. And it also happened one time kat one restaurant in Bangi..the waitress was passing me bill...mcmla aku yg byk duit to pay the order during that day...

Dan yg lebih menghappykan....Harris got number 3 in class despite of strong competition among the students yg mana aku selalu sgt dgr dr Harris hampir ke semua subjek ade je yg score 100%. The good thing abt Harris, eventhough he only scores 1 subject 100%, yg lain hampir kesemuanya he maintain above 95. Hanya Matematik je dia dapat 94. So, in average Harris scores dlm 96.6%, for me just OK than my target yg expecting for him to maintain 95% for all marks. Dan aku pon tak tahu menahu, yg Harris dapat no.2 in his previous waktu streaming exam yg lepas. Syukur..Alhamdulillah...sgt2 berbaloi usaha kita walaupon bukan dapat yg no.1. At least better than our expectation sblm ni..yg mana aku jangkakan mebe Harris just akan dapat no. 10 ke bawah disebabkan bebudak di dlm kelas dia yg terror2. Nak2 palk Harris waktu nak exam tempohari..baru je baik drpd demam..Yg mana, itu pon dia takdela recover mana...dan krn itu jugak aku tak berharap yg dia akan perform. Aku pon tak sangka..sbb, Cikgu Sapiyah pon ade mention jugak yg mmg susah nak dapat no.1,2,3 dlm kelas Harris sbb bebudak dlm kelas dia yg cerdik2 belaka. And again from this good news aku pon takdelah hebah2kan sgt kat kuarga blah mentua aku since Harris is in the same class as his cousin. Aku tak mo, dgn berita gembira ini akan hanya buat the other party pressure..So, I just wat tatau..melainkan ditanya...

Dan hari ini menjadi semakin lebih menghappykan bagi aku..sbb, ade sorang kakak ni tegur and thought aku tgh mengandung anak yg sulung sdgkan aku skrg sdg mengandung anak ke-4. Terasa plak keawetan mudaan aku..Hahahahah. Kalu sblm2 ni aku ambil kisah tak kisah ngan all those compliments...as for today, aku rasa..mebe, what people thought abt me are right..sbb, it wasnt only that kakak yg tegur aku camtu..sblm2 ni..waktu aku di KPJ pon people ingatkan aku mengandung anak pertama...Mula2 tu aku buat tak kisah..Tapi, bila dorang emphasizekan lagi apa yg dia dikatakan pada aku by saying..aku masih lagi nampak cantik and thats the reason dia ingat aku mengandungkan anak pertama. dan hinggalah yg keseterusnya, yg ade org tegur aku preggykan anak ke-2...Whateverlakan..Janji, my honey happy dgn aku dan tak de intention nak even peeping kat mak we lain. I much prefer what God has given to me to be more appreciated by my husband berbanding yg lain...

Lain citer, Milan is getting more improved dr segi speaking n learning. Tiba2 plak, aku dok dgr dia berspeaking. I just wonder ntah dr mana dia dapat all those words. Sbb, selama ni dah jrg2 sgt dah minah ni speaking. Mebe, jugakla she got it from watching DVD..tak pon, mebe gak apa yg dia pelajari kat sekolah dah mulai menyerap di minda dia skrg...Dan aku nampak juga perbezaannya antara anak pompuan and lelaki..yg mana...Milan langsung tak kisah dan tanpa disuruh2 can take her books and do exercise kat mana2 pages yg dia suka..

As for Daniel plak, he is becoming cleverer. Dah pandai copy sounds...dan dah pandai jugak tolong carikkan brg2 utk kakak dia...Dah mulai confident berjalan...dan aku rasa kejap lagi dlm 1 mth mebe dah bule jadi tak berhenti asik nak ke sana ke mari..

Harris Mid Year Exam--Report Card Collection Day..

Wah..akhirnya masa yg ditunggu2 telah tiba. My son, dah terima most of the results for his Mid Year Exam. On average he scored 95 and above in which mmg lebih dr my expectation since waktu exam pon dia dah jatuh demam and aku pon takdela monitor sgt study dia sbb persediaan telah dibuat dr awal.

Overall his results adalah sprt di bawah:

Maths-95
Bahasa Melayu-96
Bahasa Inggeris-99
Sains-96
Agama-100
Bahasa Arab-71(yg ni play safe jugakla sbb dikira sbg Gred saje instead of cumulative mark.

Esok merupakan hari aku bule dapat tahu ranking anak aku. Aku pon tak harap dia dapat no.1 sbbnya, setahu aku ramai je kawan dlm kelas dia tu yg pandai2. Sokmo je sume subjek ade yg score 100 sampai 3-4 org. My aim, janji my son menten dlm top class di sekolah dia. Perkara dapat no.1 atau no.2 atau no.3...itu dah jadik perkara kedua..Sbbnya, tak nak push bebudak ni over sgt..Takut stress plak jadiknya.

Yg lawaknya, Milan plak yg baru 4 tahun dah kene sit for exam..tapi, aku just wat dek jek..sbb now tgh bz. Perhaps aku akan concentrate on Milan's education bile dia dah 5-6 years nanti sbb pada aku..4 yrs adalah umur for fun!

Staying home..

Hari ni aku skdr dok rumah. Smlm aku tak tido. Hanya melelapkan mata bila jam menunjukkan pukul 5.10 pagi. Kkdg pon tatau apa yg dibuat sampai berjam2. Bahananya, skrg kul 3 ptg baru nak mula memandang keje2 aku semula.

Plannya mmg nak ke opis today. Tp, because of org XEROX tu kata yg dia nak dtg ni ari...so, I was decided to stay. Lagipon kepala aku mcm bengong dek kerana tido lambat..maka, sbb tu jugak I was rather to stay at home while waiting the printer to be fixed. Unfortunately, at last minute mamat binawe tu had to cancell his appoinment. Rasa bengang pon ade..

So, as usual, when aku kat rumah. Nothing much I could do. My kids prefer to attach wif me.

Keje opis..

Finally, keje opis aku settle..tapi, nasib tak baik keje personal aku lak pending. Takdela byk sgt keje aku kat opis ni..kalu betul2 aku concentrate. Nak2 plak skrg dah ade budak praktikal yg aku bule harap utk disuruh2 utk membantu aku. At the moment focus aku lebih kpd nak settlekan keje2 personal aku berbanding nak buat keje2 opis sgt..Sbb, at the moment aku lebih byk buat keje monitoring...

Rasa lega bila satu benda dah settle.....Harapnya aku dapat settlekan keje personal aku secepat mungkin..

Diam tak diam lagi 5 days my 2nd kontena nak sampai. Wah very d excited sbb brg2 yg aku kirim kali ni ade toys utk anak2 berserta ngan 1 set bedding. Jadi takdela aku bosan sgt asik nak pakai bedding yg ade skrg. Selain tu ade gak aku purchase cutlery set bersama2 ngan brgn baby like baby cot...Pregnant kali ni takdela aku rasa excited sgt. Kkdg tu mcm terlupa jek yg aku ni pregnant sbb asik sibuk ke hulu dan ke hilir. Teringat diri ni preggy pon sbb rasa berat nak bawak perut tak pon masa susah nak cari posisi waktu nak tido...Alangkah bznya menjadi seorang mommy dan jugak bekerja pada masa yg sama...Elok aje rasanya jadi surirumah kelek anak dan kat umah sekali-sekala...

Monday&Tuesday story...

Alamak..today is Tuesday..and yet keje aku tak siap lagi..ade 2.5 coloums lagi yg aku hv to put it on writting...arghhh...what so busy life. Yesterday, we had a talk in our bed before fell asleep..talking abt my honey dissapoinment coz his Petronas License application has to be declined due to the fact that he was not born in Malaysia. So, eventhough he is Malay...They still consider him as "non-Bumiputera". Then, we came out wif an idea, this could possibily be fixed by revising our shareholder percentage which then would effect, someone else not from our family would be holding the sole authority for the company where I am afraid that I have to disagree wif this.

I guess, we really have to put something in our life in pace and not too hurry which means, I may have another task to accomplish for my honey to achieve for his dream OR our dreams..

Smlm jugak aku berang..sbb, bibik dah rosakkan cadar yg aku beli ratusan ringgit kat KLCC. Rasa nak maki je minah tu pon ade...Tapi, just maki dlm hati sajela..I was frustrated to come to know, my fitted sheet has torn..sdgkan aku dah pesan dah kat bibik tu handle it wif care n sementelah lagi my cadar tu tak sampai pon umurnya sebulan! so, aku dah bertegas ngan bibik..that I would cut her salary sbb dah merosakkan harta kesayangan aku...Bibik as usual mcm org terkial2..Dahle smlm keje tipu2...lantai dapur tak dimop as per yg diarahkan..ini lom lagi... otak dia mcm org tak bule berfikir dok kasik baby aku makan kat kawasan dapur..yg dia mop pon tak bersih and then...dibiarnya baby aku tu main grill yg berhabuk sampai naik rashes pipi kiri dan kanan...

Citer lain, Harris was not at home yesterday. He had his fun time at his granny's house..staying overnight there...When I entered the house...terasa sungguh kesunyiannya...Its like something is missing...Until I feel like to drop off my tears...Sometimes, I feel like..its fun having many kids in the house..they kind of penghibur di kala keboringan although ocassionally bule bikin stress jugak...While for Milan plak...asik bertanya..where is Harris...sbb, katanya dia nak tido ngan Abg Harris...

As for today plak..I went late to the opis..dok sambung tido sampai dekat2 kul 10.30 pagi...sbb...badan sakit2..coz yesterday, I was balik lambat..cracking my head in the opis. So, balik umah mmg dah tak larat nak sambung keje...aku terus cari bantal dan tidoooo lepas habis borak2 ngan my honey..Pehtu, before naik opis, aku curi2 masa pi book an appoinment kat Klinik An-Nur. Ok jugakla..tapi, sad to say the front desk people ade yg brutal n tak professional..Kiranya, org2 di KPJ tu lagi way better dr kat An-Nur tu..aku lom lagi jumpa doktor di situ..tapi, would probably give a try one day..nak tau, takat mana servis consultation di sana..Aku pon dah siap2 booking for 3d/4d scan...utk next week. Kkdg tu, rasa funny gak, bila anak dah berderet..aku dah tak kisah..if my honey is not around to accompany me for check up or pi mana2. Aku dah malas nak bother over small things but the most important thing he should be stand by me..bila aku nak beranak nanti melainkan mmg masa tak mengizinkan...

Weekend story..

Today is Sunday. We just staying at home most of the time. Cooking some delicious dishes for the family. Eventhough, I was a bit busy..still ade masa nak curi2 ngk resepi on the net. Mmg agak meletihkan but yet fun!

Seawal 5.10 pagi aku dah bangun. Bibik still tak bangun lagi..katanya, jam yg aku kasik tu dah tak berfungsi. Mmm, kalu aku tak turun bawah tu..mmg alamatla..ntah kul bape bibik aku tu reti nak bangun. Dlm pagi hari...akhirnya aku dapat idea..how, to manipulate my writting setelah beberapa hari otakku telah menjadi beku. It is dreading too, when come to know, tomorrow is Monday. Argggh, sungguh cepat masa berlalu. Yet, aku masih tak siap keje..Dlm kul 8 pagi..I was decided to find back my katil dan sambung tido..and after that woke up again dlm kul 9.15 pagi terus keluar date for b/fast kat D'Bukit wif my honey. Lepas b/fast aku terus pi pasar. Beli garlic, 2 whole chickens, daun bawang, tempe, kiub ayam, kailan. Balik rumah, terus dropkan groceries..dan terus zoom ke opis sbb my honey nak serah kunci kat this IT guy to fix for our server. On d way to opis, aku bawak sekali Daniel. Nampak sungguh dia happy...tapi, alamak...punyala tak reti nak diam dok ke sana dan ke mari...

Sampai umah, terus bersilat kat dapur..masak ketam goreng, daun ubi rebus, kentang rebus, telur besa dan telur asin rebus. Pehtu, pilih2 ayam yg nak dibuat anak2 makan utk esok harinya. Kendian, terus sambung perap apa2 bahan yg patut utk roasted chicken resipe recommended by Jamie Oliver. Perghhhh, mana ajela aku sempat nak buat apa2..kalu dah asik sibuk manjang...

28 weeks pregnant..

Believe it or not..I am currently 28 weeks pregnant. Berat pon dah naik ke 73kg kot..adaku kisah??? sgt2 ku tak kisah...sebenarnya mmg ade jugakla kisah sket2..tapi, malas nak pk2 sgt..

dah baca dlm artikel yg maximum i could fly is dlm 36 weeks..jadi, aku really hv to make my dreams happen sblm i am reaching 36 weeks. kalu tk alamat aku akan stranded di uk sorang2. but, aku pon sendiri tak kisah..whatever it is..aku akan tetap harungi juga dgn tabah..kalu takdirnya baby aku kene lahir di uk..takkan aku nak menidakkan ketentuan tuhan..yg penting, aku sudah berusaha sebaik mungkin...

staff talking...

takde ape aku nak bebel di tengahari buta ni..melainkan talking abt my staff. w/ever i feel, i need to tegur them, i dont feel any guilty to do it so. just write them an e-mail and after that wether or not they want to take it as a lesson learnt, i would never bother. i just couldnt help to keep all perasaan tak puas hati dlm hati lagi...so, whatever, i feel they do it wrongly, i just tegur them straight away w/out hesitation. at least i am frank...dan tak cakap belakang..so, nak tak nak..all of them, hv belajar to face wif the reality kalu boss tak happy with their work ke or whatsoever.

Analysis

Finally, dapat gak aku repair dan siapkan satu analysis daripada 3 sample aku. tension tul..sbb, distribution results aku tu mcm ntah apa2. Aku rasa, aku pon dah naik give up ngan akunye results and at the same time, takde apa yg aku hide from my research...jadi, tak mungkin jugakla my data collection salah. makanya, apa data aku tu benar2 belaka. it just matter...aku perlu to report what is my current finding so that the others would refine my work. punyala nasib aku sungguh2 tak baik..mana, taknya, rupa2nya analysis2 aku yg sblm2 ni..ada yg tersalah data..cet! aku plak mcm nak tergelak..dapat aku rasakan engineers kat opis aku ni serabut buat analysis dorang...sampai berbahang kepala dorang memikirkan utk selesaikan projek dorang..sama jugak ngan aku yg serabut tuk selesaikan permasalahan aku.

kalu ikutkan skrg dah kul 2.49 dan aku masih tak makan lagi...hopefully, aku cld settle at least satu lagi analysis...dan after the analysis, apa yg aku perlu buat adalah duduk diam2, sambil berfikir the logic behind my results and then mulala buat karangan...oh my..and my...aku rasa sungguh2 sgt exhausted...at the same time, my kids are longing to spend time wif me in which unfortunately i couldnt...be patient ye my dear kids...i'll make sure what we've gone thru will be paid off. and my honey pon should not complaint if aku tak byk masa wif kids...coz, aku rasa inilah yg sume mak2 kena alami bila sibuk ngan keje....

Ke rumah mentua..

Tadi aku ke rumah mentua to dropkan Harris. Nampak sgt, Harris mcm rindu kat aku..Nak baca story book ngan aku, nak aku yg hantar n pick dia to school. Kkdg sedih pon ade..Sbb, aku tak dapat nak spend byk masa dgn dia. Apatah lagi dgn Milan&Daniel. Waktu aku ke rumah my mil, ada jugak dia tegur, perut aku yg makin sarat. Mmg pon, perut aku nampak over sarat mcm esok je nak melahirkan..mana taknya, aku put on weight byk sangat. Aku pon dah sampai tahap malas nak pk, how to susutkan berat..yg penting, masa pantang aku mmg kene sgt2 kuat smgt. It could be possible for me to lose for 17-20kg..Tapi, nak susut sampai 30kg..bukan satu yg mudah nak dilakukan jugak...

My mil mula bertanya, adakah my honey would accompany me if I flew to UK this time. My answered just..Aku sendiri pon tak kisah wether or not he wants to follow..because after all, mmg aku tak sanggup nak bertangguh lagi...

Sebenarnya, aku pon agak sayu jugak nak tinggalkan anak2. Nampak jugakla, bibik aku pon cam sedey when I was telling her, yg she would not be seeing me for couple of weeks time. Mebe, dia cuak kot..Aku sendiri pon tak pasti...Kalu ikutkan, aku pon heran jugak ngan my eldest son, kalu sblm2 ni tak pernah acuh dan selalu jek tak kisah nak balik ngan his nenek, and now dia cam longing to be always with me. Apa2pon, semua org kene tabah menghadapi perpisahan sementara ini...

Kontena sampai..

Hari ni kontena yg ditunggu2 telah sampai..So, aku dgn excitednya telah pi ke rumah kawan aku di Kajang. Secara conclusionnya, brg2 yg penting cam safety gate, baby dan, stroller, baby rocker telah pon sampai termasuk threadmill my honey. Agak kecewa jugak bila ngk akunye bedding tak masuk dlm kontena sekali..huhuuh..dah rasa bosan tahap cipan asik dok pakai bedding yg sama setiap masa...maksudnya, kenala aku bersabar menunggu sebulan lagi utk trip brg2 seterusnya sampai di depan rumah. mebe dlm 1 bulan lagi kalu lucky.

At the same time, hati aku takut2 jugak..kalu2 akunye brg2 tu sangkut atau lost di pertengahan jalan. Aduiiii, terpaksala menelan rugi. Insya-allah, 2 minggu lagi..my 2nd kontena will arrive. Rasa tak sabar nak ngk brg2 yg dibeli!

Tak start,,,

Aku masih tak start apa2 lagi..kepala ni mcm bengap..Baru tetiba dapat idea nak continue semula keje..

As for the office work mmg dah 2-3 ari abandoned. Just hope, I could settle my personal work by today. Have found out my file in my old computer. Harap aku tak lupa to bring my pen drive to transfer the file before leaving my opis today.

Citer lain..Harris dah dapat result exam. Average marks dia stkt ini dlm 95. He scored 99 for English, 95 for BM and baru dapat paper I for her Maths in which he scored 37/40 for that paper. Maksudnya, ade lagi 2 papers yg belum dpt lagi..Sains&Agama. Apa2pon I am not hoping yg dia will get no.1 in class. Sbb, setau aku sume kawan dia hebat2. For BI&BM aje ade 5 org scored 100%. So, mmg aku tak dapat imaginela nombor berapa Harris will get in his class nanti...Silap2 haribulan no. belas2. Dan aku pon takdela pressure sgt for his exam kali ni coz..dia pon baru baik demam. Kira syukur ajela kalu dia tahu jawab soalan..Kalu ikutkan dr 1st streaming exam ke skrg..her marks are average...kalu sblm2 ni ade naik turun..now, nampak mcm consistent..

Marah..

Hari ini aku telah memarahi bibik dan dia menangis..Aku rasa dia nangis, sbb mebe dia sensitip coz smlm dia lapar tak makan nasi..Actually, aku pon dah pesan kat dia sblm aku off to opis yesterday, for her cook 1 pot of rice kalu nasi dah habis..but, then she didnt do it. I was asking her, samaada dia tu ada pemikiran atau pon tidak, yg nasi tu tak enough for her and the kids..and her answered was, she afraid nak masak lagi eventhough aku dah siap2 pesan. So, supposekah aku dipersalahkan kalu dia tak makan nasi malam tadi..as for the lauk mmg sure ade..sbb, aku dah suh dia amik sushi sendiri...dah aku pon dah keletihan sgt almost everday kene mai opis..so, takde masa nak suruh dia itu dan ini..atau nak cedokkan atau nak amikkan dia makanan sentiasa..

Kemuncaknya happened..disebabkan oleh dia masak sayur tak sprt yg aku arahkan selalu..pada pagi tadi..I was helping him cooking..so, maksudnya..takde apala dia nak buat lagi pas she fed my baby except fr cooking sayur air aka sayur bening. And I was really mad to know, that she was putting perasa ikan bilis...the ingredient that I had never told her to add in in our sayur bening as I would like the sayur to be cooked freshly with fresh ikan bilis and furthermore, Milan doesnt like to eat soup yg berwarna keruh( tak clear org kata)..I just could think why, susah sgt dia nak masuk sayur bening yg besa kami makan..sbb, aku dah tolong ringankan beban keje dia pagi tadi..

I was banging her with my Qs..samaada yg dia masak itu utk diri dia atau utk kami sekeluarga..dan dia jawab..yg she was doing it supaya sayur tu lagi berperisa..I was answering her back..yg..I just dont mind if the sayur is cooked specially utk diri dia....But, now...our family yg nak makan...dan kalu bibik letak rempah ikan bilis sket2 tu tak apa2la..ini kalu dah sampai kale keruh camtu...sape plak lalu nak memakannya...Maksud aku, aku tak kisah, whatever ingredient dia nak buh kalu nak masak utk perut dia..but, for us...I would rather prefer everything to be as natural as possible sbb my kids are still young to hold for preservative.

Aku skdr ignore dia memangis..Sambil kasik advice...yg dia tu harus berpk macam org berpkran..Alahaiii, takkan nasi nampak dah nak abis..Dia tak reti nak masak semula..walaupon, dah disuruh masak..Kalu rasa takut sgt...Apa salahnya amik tepon, tepon aku gitau apa yg patut n bukannya wat keputusan sendiri2 yg akhirnya menyusahkan hidup dia...Ker dia rather prefer nak makan nasik panas..so, sbb tu dia let my kids makan nasi baki..Kalu tak clear wif my instruction, just asked me..and not need to shy...as aku pon punya hati dan perasaan dan takkan sampai hati nak biarkan dia kelaparan...Mcmla dia tak nampak portion sbyk mana nasi yg aku selalu amikkan utk dia??? Hai, ntahla...malas aku nak fikir..Baik je aku sambung keje skrg ni dr dok sesak2 kepala pkkan masalah org..

Sunday...

Today at almost 12 noon, both my honey & I, dah sampai kat our opis. Dtg opis bukan sbb nak siapkan keje opis...but more come to here coz hv to finish my personal work. I know my kids must be missing me a lot. Too bz wif my own things but theres nothing I could do at the moment. But, at least, yesterday's night we had our night time stroy in my bed. We read together "Toy Story-3 Book" that I bought about a week ago for Harris. While for Milan, I just read in glance "Sleeping Beauty" story book for her, as she loves very much anything about being Prince&Princess. Tak baca apa2 story book pon for Daniel as he has fallen asleep. Terlalu mengantuk coz we were arrived at home about 12 midnight. Alhamdulillah nothing happened on our way back home walaupon mata aku dah macam layu2 n drivers on the road plak aku ngk mcm org ting tong dok bawak kete ke kiri dan ke kanan.

My mom pon didnt expect I will be coming 2 work today. Yelah, my family back home, they all work wif government so hardly they really have to come to work during weekend..melainkan kalu betul2 ade keje. My mom was expecting for me to overnigth at her hse yesterday but sad to say, I really couldnt do it coz got something urgent to settle for today. Ini pon rasa bdn mcm lenguh2. Tak habis penat...Letih..Disamping badan aku yg dah mulai berisi dan berisi..

Infact, aku pon dah tak bother sgt hal2 rumah and just hope my bibik could be independent. Adalah jugak aku buat spot check sket2. Bebel sket2. But, still everything is controllable. Aku ngk bibik pon dah makin bule adapt ngan her keje. Cume, aku pon tak harap she to stay lama wif us. Sbb, dia pon ade hak wether or not to continue her contract wif us.

Buat keje..

Hati aku sprt berbunga2...sbb my honey told me, that..it might be possible for him to accompany me to UK. Mmmm, manja betulla aku nikan..semua pon nak berteman..Bukannya tak bule buat sendiri. We were planning for me to fly first to UK and he will be following me later. Yelahkan, apa plak dia nak buat kat UK for 1 week while I am bz catching up my things kat sana.

I just hope, I really can make it to submit my work by early next week in which I still working it out until late night yesterday. Aku rasa, mcm tak bule lelapkan mata till kul 3.00 a.m. Aku doa sgt2, everything goes smoothly. Supaya, berakhirla satu lagi episod misi perjalanan dlm hidup aku. If I would be given an opportunity, aku mmg nak sgt2 come to UK again for next year for another mission to be accomplished. Walaupon aku sendiri agak gementar, but I just do it for the sake of everybody...yg mana, aku sendiri pon tak jangka I really have to past all these paces dlm spjg hidup aku..

For me, its not an easy task too, to become a mom, student and also working at one go...as I really need to pandai2 membahagikan masa. Nak2 plak, when the time, my son has to sit for exam, usually, mmg akula yg bz dok spend time wif him for ulangkaji segala. Bila balik dr opis plak, mmg aku tak sempat nak rehat panjang, terus jek bz di dapur..I guess, every women has to face the same thing like I did nowadays...Cume, I still among the lucky wives sbb got bibik at home to assist me for house cleaning. Walaupon, bibik adakalanya membebankan kepala aku...at least, her presence take off some of the house work loads yg aku rasa..aku tak larat nak buat di kala preggy...At the same time, my kids still perlukan their mommy's attention, yg mana aku cube sebaik mungkin to spend some of my time wif them sekiranya berkesempatan. Mmg aku tak nafikan, all my kids sgt2 manja ngan aku...no matter, how garang aku at home, they still in the end looking for their mommy. Especially, Daniel yg mmg tak lekang and very fond of me. Aku jugak sgt2 bersyukur, sbb Daniel so far can be indepent yg mana aku tak susah nak jaga sejak usianya masih bayi lagi..

Mood..

Hari ni masuk opis lambat..mcm kurang mood nak buat keje..Badan sakit2, betis pon lenguh..Nak stay rumah plak..aircond tak begitu function selain dr my doter yg asik suka mengacau.

Hari ni pon aku bangkit agak lambat. Badan pon rasa mcm agak better sket dr hari sblmnya. Kalu tak, pasti aje mata ni nak layu..

Tak ke opis...

Ari ni aku tak ke opis..badan rasa sakit2...aku rasa asik nak mengantuk..So, lepas lunch jek aku terus zasss tido...letih sgt nampaknya..Betis kiri pon terasa sakit...

As usual, bila am at home, takde keje yg aku bule buat sgt melainkan melayan bebudak dan memasak. Itupon nasib baik sgt2 kalu dapat masuk bilik dan mengunci diri..Kalu tak, mmg tak habis2 kene kacau. At least, hari ni aku dapat berehat sepuas2nya, walaupon ade gak a few minutes aku spent to look into my work at home. Aku just mcm tak bule berfikir sbb anak2 asik buat bising. Dgn bunyi game yg kuat, my doter plak menjerit2 and then feeling pity plak kat my youngest son yg asik dok dlm baby cot selain asik nak kene follow up bibik dah done her work atau pon belum. Pendek kata, mmg aku takkan berhenti berehat kalu dah duduk di rumah. Nak ke opis plak, badan aku letih2.

I have looked again into my outstanding work. Kalu ikutkan takdela byk mana nak kene repair..It just matter, I have to sit and spend my time for couple of days...and hopefully by next week I could get in touch with my superior again. Aku just gamble..Just harapnya, my haunting days will end very soon and I maybe looking fwd to come to UK again somewhere in April next year. Insya-Allah!

Semakin hari..

Semakin hari...semakin aku rasa tak selesa..Sesak..Tegang..Letih..Kesemuanya pon ada..Baby keeps on kicking in my tummy. Badan aku plak, semakin hari..semakin membesar..Perut pon dah mulai pecah2 disebabkan berat yg naik mendadak. Nak naik opis tingkat 2 pon rasa mcm dah tak larat. Tapi, kene jugak laratkan badan. Nak bising2 ngan bibik pon..rasanya dah tak kuasa sgt...

Yesterday, came to know..I may need to fly back UK for running an errand. Rasa sedih jugak nak tinggalkan anak2. But, seems got no choice. Just hope everything berjalan lancar. I was hoping not to stay too long. Must be very boring jugak coz anak2 dan somi takde di sisi. Its only me, sorang2 yg akan melayan diri sendiri.

Kkdg funny plak rasanya, why when all of us already in Mesia..I manage to do almost everything..Manage the hse, kids, family shopping, work n study segala. I've got no complaint at all, walaupon dalam keadaan berbadan dua..I have to go to hospital bawak anak2 cucuk atau jumpa Doktor. Shopping pon..I always convenient to do it alone. Without bibik, my hubby and also the kids. Ocassionally, mmg aku ade bawak my elder kids..But, then...I hardly feel ianya sbg beban. Sometimes, I feel like..having more kids, make my life more manageable. The obvious thing for this time pregnancy, I am more confident in leading people, clear wif what I want, firm wif my decision and langsung tak takut ngan critisms. I just feel comfortable to be myself. Mebe, sbb in my life nowadays, dah terlalu byk yg nak difikirkan...

Cant wait..

Rasa tak sabar nak tunggu brg2 yg aku order tu sampai..especially the bedding n the toys..Mcm dah boring plak asik2 dok pakai bedding yg sama setiap masa..Hopefully, mmg Eza tak lupa nak masukkan bedding aku dlm kontena dia awal2..

Hari ni aku masuk opis awal...Buat filing apa2 yg patut. PV pon dah almost siap...so, pasni bulela get ready to manage our account using UBS or excel semata.

Cuti2 Malaysia..

Plan utk bercuti ke sebuah Pulau...Mebe nak ke Langkawi. Dah tgk rega tiket dalam rm700+. Accomodation, mebe pilih yg murah2 je..dalam rm100-200++. Sbb, just nak dapatkan accomodation yg bule berteduh dan tidur sementara menunggu hari2 seterusnya nak berjalan2. aku dapat bygkan mesti kitaorg akan flat gile. Coz, mmg tak plan nak bawak bibik sekali. Bibik hs to stay home. Jaga rumah...Takut2 pencuri pecah masuk..Sambil tu, bulela bibik relax puas2..Takde sape nak kaco..dan takde sape gak nak memekak kat dia..Nak bising2 mulut. So, bibik bule stay ngan aman...At the same time, aku rasa..mesti jugak dia miss ngan sore2 kami sume..Hahahahha..

Plan kali ni..mcm nak ke Langkawi. I would say, perhaps my last trip before my young baby due to arrive. Harris already asked abt my promise to have a break during his schoold holiday. But, I just turning back his question...Sama ada dia ade score 100 for any of his subject..Again, aku pon tak harap Harris to score sgt coz dia baru baik dr demam waktu nak exam. I would imagine..mesti dia dapat nombor berbelas2..sbb, dalam kelas dia kesemuanya pandai2. Markah utk BM berlambak dlm 100. As long as Harris average mark is 90+, it should be fine for me. The best, kalu dia dapat average 95+, itu dah memadai buat aku utk masa ini. Aku pon, takdela pulun sgt suh dia study gila2 for his exam coz kami dah buat preparation agak awal. Sampai, dia pon dah masuk tahap bosan..asik kene belajar dan belajar during week of exam. Kalu ikutkan waktu exam week jek Harris bz study. Dah lepas2 tu, mulai santai...Ikut suka2 aturkan jadual dia sendiri...

Hari ini, Harris minta aku buatkan aktiviti utk dia..Nampakla dia try to follow the jadual. Yg herannya, by 12 noon,sume org dah siap makan..berbanding kalu aku tak monitor schedule di rumah..Mmg alamatnya, sampai kul 2-3.30 petang si Bibik masih lagi terkial2 mencuci pinggan atau nak mop lantai.

D**H..

Baru jek call D**H. Takat ni, aku takdela rasa inferior banget nak kal mana2 badan kerajaan. Ibaratnya mcm peanut! Tak jumpa lagi difficult person to deal wif. Melainkan kalu Prof/ AP/ Technician yg skema...pada aku, sume org pon macam manusia biasa jugak.

Cant wait to have deal wif D**H. After seeing sent invoice fr Llyod register, mmg terus-terang we really cant put our project onto "ONHOLD' anymore. Kalu takat, everytime wait and see and just harapkan our staff to perform execution, aku confirm banget, all of us will be dissapointed! Susah nak percaya cakap org..SBBnya, most of the time, for sure dorang akan try deliver the best to The Company, but in the end, The Superior has to take role to check their work yg selalu sgt depa gitau already "DONE" tapi masih jugak tak "DONE".

To be honest, I've got no complaint at all wif regards to this matter. Rasa mcm buang karen nak bising2. Sometimes, peope cant just think 2 different things in parallel. Nak2 dorang plak masih muda lagi..Byk benda nak kene gagau. So, might as well, I make use my practical trainee sms dorang masih lagi berkhidmat utk kami di opis ni. For whatever errands.., aku takdela rasa bersalah sgt nak suh dorang wat keje. But, at least, keje2 aku takdela berat sgt sbb ade balaci2 yg sedia membantu and my task to just double check their work and also rectify their problem wherever is possible.

Daging steak..

Sejak dua menjak ni, kami sekeluarga rajin nau makan daging steak. Just homely cooked by me. Tak susah mana pon nak buat. Perap aje ngan minced garlic, sprinkle wif salt, pepper, rosemary and parsely..kalu rajin bule add some Lea&Perrins Sos and finally, wrap over the meats wif HP BBQ sos. For the sayur plak, we just had steamed asparagus wif baby tomatoes. Yg kemudainnya kami makan bersama2 fries and nasi putih.

Anak2 pon nampaknya sama tumpang sekaki..join makan daging steak. Rasa nyesal plak aku tak beli steak knife kat TESCO smlm. Cancel the tot of having the steak knife yesterday sbb konon2nya dah beli Viners knife fr UK. Itupon aku just beli 6 pieces of them. Bila pk2 balik..Eishhh, mcm sayang plak aku nak lanyak steak knives Viners ni habis2an. Nak2 reganya aje dah dekat rm100 compare to TESCO brand yg cume 1/4 dr rega Viners. Bila pk2, terasa rugi plak, nape tu ari aku tak terus beli sekali 2 set. Sebut pasal shopping ni, kkdg mmg kene tarik nafas dlm2, tak bule nak ikutkan hati sgt...Just spend mana2 yg penting2 saje sudah memadai.

Bila ngk menu kami sejak dua menjak ni..mmg no wonderla if I am carrying a baby boy again.

Lain citer, Daniel semakin dah mulai berani berjalan hingga 5 tapak. Aku pon dah siap2 transfer duit ke bapak maid aku di Indon. My fren ade gak yg takut2kan, better pi counter to transfer money rather than we just do it on the web. Tapi, aku dah biasa buat byk urusan guna web. Nak2, aku lak skrg tgh berbadan dua..Tak kuasa nak ke sana ke mari cari parking dan berpanas2 hanya nak buat transfer. Org yg nak ditransferkan duit plak, asik je leka2...Mana taknya, bila aku suh dia double check the info yg dia kasik kat aku..Masih lagi ade pembetulan yg perlu dibuat walaupon di saat pagi tadi aku transferkan duit tu ke bapak dia. Dahle, I was told yg kalu info tak betul, the money will not be credited to her father's account. Hai, ntahlaaa...

Cuti sekolah ni mmg kami tak ke mana2 sgt. Aku just bawak bebudak ke playground n KLCC..ade masa mebela bule ke Pavillion. Itupon, kalu my honey betul2 free. Sale pon dah nak mula..cume tataula nak pergi atau pon tidak. Takde errand apa2 pon kalu nak KLCC kali ni..melainkan shopping baju atau jeans anak2.

hari ahad

hari ahad..takde ke mana2..just pi breakfast roti canai n ayam goreng kat kedai mamak wif my honey and then terus ke tesco membeli belah keperluan opis and rumah. balik dr tesco..pi plak umah mak cik siti..anak lelaki dia kawen...kenyang perut suka ati..sbbnya, makanan yg dihidangkan sumenya lazat2 belaka..yg paling aku suke sekali is carrot cake dia..mmm, pandai betul mak cik siti ni merasa makanan..memang pueh hati bagi duit sumbangan rm50. selain sedekah, dapat jugak merasakan masakan sedap. kenduri kali ni, aku just pi ngan ayu, jiran depan. ayu, mak budak 5 org anak..umur pon dah 35 tahun, tapi, aku ngk sentiasa ada seri nampak muda. sbb tu jugak, aku takde pon memanggei dia ngan panggilan kakak. harap2nya tidakla dia terasa..kalu ni, aku pi tanpa my honey...sbb, my honey terpaksa rushing pi opis sbb server man dah sampai nak fixkan our server dlm opis. natijahnya, terpaksala aku layan bebudak dua org ni sorang2. as usual, terpaksala aku ke hulu ke hilir dahulukan perut anak2 dan kendian barula sibuk2 nak uruskan diri sendiri. ayu plak dah hint2 nak kene balik cepat. sbb, aku pon paham gak...mesti tak sedap ati...coz dia pi kenduri..tapi, tinggaikan anak 5 kat umah sendiri2. kalu ikutkan, kalu nak sng mmgla elok je angkut sume org..tapi, again yg letihnya si mak tu jugak sbb nak kene entertain sume bebudak tu sorang2. ade gak terpk nak bawak bibik. but hv 2 cancel d plan. coz n then aku gak yg susah nk kene tunggu bibik plak abis mkn. lig ke smlm, pon bibik seems prefer to eat at home waktu kami kuar mkn di restoren. kalu ikutkan, mmg resposibility bibik to entertain anak2 aku terdahulu baru kendiannya pk nak entertain akan diri dia..smlm pon, nampak bibik mcm tak lepaskan peluang..sbb dia tau yg my honey bayar bill for almost rm100 utk kami anak beranak makan.

balik umah, aku dok layan anak2. si daniel dah pandai main tembak2 and pegang control x-box mcm org beriya2 main game. si milan, dah makin pandai melukis..while si harris as usual..dok bz ngan his life wif his x-box game..

cadangnya nak pi opis sambung keje..tapi, terpaksa cancel...

Petronas Application..

Finally, aku dah selamat key in all the necessary infos for the above application. It just matter to compile all the relevant supporting documents to be submitted to Petronas which we are hoping to make it somewhere next week. I am not keen at all to hold this matter too long.

cuti-cuti

Plannya nak amik cuti..Tapi, tak tahu bila..Cumenya, mmg konfem kalu pi bercuti..aku mmg tak minat nak bawak bibik bersama. Alasannya adalah disebabkan:

-Rumah tak ada sape jaga. So, bibik has to stay home to look at the house. Teringat waktu 1st time aku nak tinggalkan dia bercuti di Pangkor..bibik was requesting to stay at MIL's hse. Suppose, bibik kene faham tanggungjawab dan juga pekerjaan dia sebaik menjejakkan kaki di bumi Mesia...yg dia ke Mesia sbg pembantu..dan bukannya jalan2 cari makan kat Mesia..suka2 nak buat apa yg dia nak kat sini..macam ala2 dia plak majikan..nak tentukan apa yg perlu dia buat bila duduk di rumah majikan.

-Bibik aku jenis lembap dan lewa. Dr aku stress asik nak kene push dia wat keje cepat sket dlm uruskan anak2. Better ajelah biar aku yg penat sendiri...Letih kalu asik nak remind org..Dah pernah test beberapa kali bawak bibik jalan2. Tapi, nampaknya, mcm aku lak yg kene jaga anak2..dan bibik plak yg melayan diri dia sendiri..sambil tak peka dgn keselamatan anak2 aku. Sampai naik nyampah plak aku dibuatnya. Manalah aku tak menyampah, kalu org yg kita bagi peluang tu...mcm tak tahu berterima kasih..dan buat tak faham dgn tanggungjawab sendiri. It happened one time, anak2 aku dibiarkan keluar dr kereta..dan dia plak dok melayan pikirannya dia sendiri..Tak tahu pon nak fikir, kot2 anak2 tu melintas jalan sendirian dan tak pasal2 kene langgar kereta. Dan berlaku jugak, kat rumah mak aku sewaktu kenduri kawen..dia mcm berlagak ala2 tetamu..Tak tahupon nak cari pekerjaan bila di rumah mak aku..Tapi, aku dan somi plak sibuk ke hulu ke hilir dok cari kerja. Dan dia duduk berehat2an di kerusi malas bapak aku. Sementara, anak2 aku ntah ke mana..tidak pulak dia mencarinya (yg nila yg aku katakan bibik aku ni mcm takde sense of responsibility dan suka bekerja sambil lewa).

Pon jadik gak, waktu aku bawak dia sekali kuar Mc Donald, takde dia cepat2 nak kasik my baby makan. Tapi, yg dia buat adalah...menikmati suasana di Mc Donald dgn memandang org sana dan sini..Dan sewaktu, aku bawak majlis makan2 kat rumah kakak ipar aku..Takde plak dia nak perhatikan anak2 aku..sebaliknya, matanya plak diguna utk melayan tv mcm dia tu ala2 tetamu. Same goes, waktu aku bawak dia pi umah mentua. Bukannya, dia nak tolong ngk bebudak..sebaliknya, dia pi melayan diri dia..ke belakang..berborak2 dgn pembantu rumah my mil di kitchen..sementara anak2 aku yg lain dia biar di ruang tamu.

Pada pendapat akulakan, tak yah nak kasik chance ngan org2 yg smcm ini. Fikir mcm diri tu cerdik sgt..tak pon mcm seolah2, dia plak org mcm mem. Sdgkan org yg membayar gaji dia...dibuat seolah2 mcm nak kene ikut segala cakap dia...

Dan yg paling tak best, setiap kali kami ade plan nak keluar jalan2..always ending up aku yg kene tunggu dia bersiap. Ade jek brg2 bebudak yg tertinggal...Takde sense of responsibility nak tutup lampu n kipas...dan pintu..Tak tahu, nak bersiap awal2 pakai tudung..Nak ajak anak2 kencing dulu..Eiiiii, sungguhla penat...asik nak ulang cakap benda2 yg sama kat bibik...sampai dah capai tahap bosan pon ade..

Sblm aku blahh fr opis pon, aku dah sound bibik..jgn lambat buat kerja. Dan at 3 pm + aku made a follow up call to her..yg herannya, lepas dibising2 tahu plak nak buat kerja cepat segala.

Today..today..

Nothing interesting happened as for today. Went off to Office late abt 2 pm. But, before that drop by dulu kat kedai kain dan kedai runcit dkt ngan opis. Found out, kedai kain tu ade jual portmeirion 1st and 2nds quality. Reganya, for surela mahallakan coz its already inclusive postage segala. So, I wont complaint at all for sure if the seller is selling the price like seller in Malaysia normally does. I was told that, someone fr Putrajaya had borong the Portmeirion lot sampai rm 4k..Pon, again..aku takdela heran sgt..sbb, kalu org dah berkenan and minat..kendian, afford laknya tu..sometimes, price wont be that matter. Ade jugak aku belek2 kain batik Trengganu and came to know jugak yg that shop also taking order for those nak buat baju kurung kat situ at price of rm40-55.Kalu ikutkan lampu kuning kedai tu..mmgla segalanya nampak cantik..The owner for sure knows the tactic best, to make all of her goods look perfectly eye-catching for the customer. Dan aku pon, tak nakla jugak tertipu..dgn alasan tak nak tertipu jugak, I didnt straight made up any decision to shop any kain in that kedai.

Apparently at 11.15pm today, I found out..Daniel is getting more confident to walk..I'm happy to see his improvement..Milan plak is getting better in her drawing..Skrg ni dah pandai lukis rabbit lg tuh!

Bangun awal..

Hari ni, almost of us bangun awal. Cume, Milan je sampai skrg masih tak bangkit2 lagi. Dua2 my son dah bangun sambil melayan tv. Aku lak masih tak mandi lagi coz my bilik masih dibersihkan oleh cik bibik. Kalu ikutkan hari ni byk benda nak kene settlekan..Nak pi beli ayam, crab, i-talk selain nak kene update web Petronas and settlekan invoice2 yg terbengkalai kat opis.

Rasa malas nak pi market pon ye, mana taknya...kalu dah ke market..sah2 aku penat..and mau 1-2 jam termasuk perjalanan pergi balik jugak masa akan dihabiskan bila ke sana nanti.

Never trust wif what people say..

My honey just calling me from his car..saying that on of his friends was telling him, it can be sometimes difficult to get a project if we dont know people(like org dalamla kiranya niiii..)..so, i just comforting him back, that we cant always trust people wif whatever they say, unless we already been in that situation. I know, my honey is a bit down..But, for me, we cant always easily give up or believe wif people if we dont really know the real situation. N have been through these things a lot until I've got really fed up.

It sometimes can be very funny too, when people who do not know something, but yet pretending that he/ she knows better that anyone else. It can be very stupid too, when someone is trying to menegakkan sesuatu yg totally wrong..Konon nak tunjuk pandai, tapi, serupa jugak mcm org bodoh..I maybe blunt..but, I hardly to say lie, ok..

Kurma..

Hari ni aku masak daging kurma. So, sebaik my honey dah inform he is on d way back home..bolehla aku cepat2 masak nasi. makanan kami sejak akhir2 ni sgt2 sempoi..but, at least..merasa jugakla my honey air tangan masakan isteri sendiri. anak2 pon, nampaknya lebih berminat nak makan sayur air and daging steak. so, nampakla sket variasi pattern makanan dorang berbanding sblmnya. si daniel lak aku dah separatekan portion kurma utk di buat makan petang..sbb, aku tau daniel ni ala2 melayu terakhir yg makan kari dan kurma berbanding kakak dan abgnya...mebe, lepas ni bolela kot aku masak spaghetti..kalu ikutkan memasak ni keje sempoi..tak sampai 1 jam pon leh siap masak..untung jugak ade bibik bole kemas dapur..kalu idak, alamat lagi semputla aku dibuatnya..

masa pon sgt2 cepat berlalu hari ni..dr celik bangun pagi sampai ke petang..aku byk menghabiskan masa di dlm bilik. bibik plak dok tonggang terbalik sejak tengahari melayan kerenah bebudak dan jugak kerja2 rumah.

akhirnya, bibik buat request jugak nak kal indon to get no. BNI account to transfer her money. elok plak, bila dah dapat no., ade detail lain lagi plak yg tertinggal..mcm bank branch, alamat bank, nama org yg diantar dan segala..makna kata, ni ari tak dapat jugakla aku nak buat transfer sbb detailnya tak cukup lagi...

citer lain..waktu aku dok tidy up peti sejuk..mcm2 je makanan ade..my kids dok beli yogurt lagi sdgkan kat umah dah ade yogurt..so, aku pon ape lagi bising2. i told gak my bibik, y did you buy the yogurt for the kids while u knowing that there are still yogurt at home?? and then she answered, it was because harris already picked it from the shelves..i was replying her back by saying..that she has to stand firm, whenever, the kids cannot buy..they cannot buy...and they still insist..just take the stuffs that they want..and then, when the time you are about to pay all your goods, just tell the counter lady, that u dont need them.

ntahla, mebela bibik aku ni tak reti say no..yg aku ngk, kalu anak aku merengek2 nak makan sesuatu say makanan kat rumah yg belum dibuka..dia mcm tak sampai hati nak ngk bebudak tu merengek lama2. sdgkan peel bebudak ni bukannya kita bole nak layan2 sgt!

i made another check of my bibik 1st trial shopping..for me, she is under category fail jugakla..like dunno what kind of groceries that she has to shop in the shopping store. kalu ikutkan, bukannya dia tak nampak all the types of onions, garlics, cabbage and also potatoes yg aku besa beli. yg dia beli..amboi..jenis yg mahal2 gitu..but then, aku takdela komplen menda..sbb, for me, my conclusion..my bibik ni satu hampeh pon tak bule buat..kecuali bab2 mop lantai, lap2 perabot, cuci2 baju(kkdg baju yg dibasuh masih berbau lagik dan dia leh buat bodoh mcm baju tu tak berbau..and it also happened twice..yg mana, akunye cadar kene taik burung..dia bole buat bangang..to still iron akunye cadar..dgn takde belas kasihan..aku kasik balik the cadar back to her, for her to handwash and iron semula...and it was unfortunate too..eventough bibik dah cuci sekali lagi..still, the taik burung marks tak ilang..so, i was explaining to her..there is no point to do a job twice..if u knew fr the beginning that the cadar is dirty, y you are fooling urself to still ironing the cadar? kanke now, dah kene buat keje sekali lg...)

UK spending,,,

Terus terang...aku pon tatau berapa byk duit dah dibelanjakan dlm bulan MEI dan JUNE tahun ni..rasa seriau jugak nak buat list and calculation segala brg2 yg dah dibeli..mahu cecah dekat2 15-20k agaknya2..but, for me, what we've been spending thus far is more for long run usage except for the baby stuff. I was thinking too, wether or not to sell my Phil&Teds kot2, my elder kids seem settle tak perlu pakai stroller if we berjalan ke mana2. So, before we really using it..I can always advertise to elsewhere, if someone is interested to buy.

Selain dr barangan baby, aku ade gak spending for brgn umah like bedding and cutlery....

Daniel is sick..

Malam tadi suhu Daniel naik tinggi. Aku plak risau..sbbnya, baru je dia baik dr demam abt 1-2 weeks ago and now..dia dah demam lagi..Pagi2, aku dah sibuk2 nak ke sepital. Sblm pi sepital, aku dropkan dulu bibik wif Harris and Milan kat Giant..Suh bibik bawak bebudak tu shopping and main kat playground di situ. Lama gak aku nunggu kat KPJ...sejak anak-3 ni, aku rasa..mcm takde perkara dlm dunia ni aku tak bule buat tanpa bibik..melainkan..bab nak sental2 umah sampai jadik berkilat..biar ajela kasik kat org..so, that aku leh concentrate ngan keje, somi and anak2. Bukannya, aku tak bule buat keje2 umah..sgt2 bole...bahkan lebih baik dr std bibik aku sendiri..

Aku tgk bibik mcm cuak2 dan letih pi bershopping ngan bebudak..haaaa...baru ko tahu,,,,yg selama ni aku pi bershopping tu pon makan tenaga gak and mmg jugak letih sambil melayan kerenah anak2. But, still i manage to do it eventhough bibik tak join sekali. Sometimes, kepala aku sprt berfikir..haiiii, takkanla nak bawak anak sorang pon mesti bawak bibik sekali??? Rasanya, mcm spoil the mood je kalu....sokmo ke sana ke mari mesti nak kene bawak bibik...

Ok, kita tinggalkan citer bibik..as for today, aku telah tanpa sengajanya membelikan Daniel kasut ala2 crocs..Rega rm10 jek...Kalu ikutkan, minat je aku nak beli yg original punya as what I did for Harris and Milan, but then..pada aku tak sume benda dlm dunia ni aku nak mengejar brgn branded...

Selain tu aku sgt2 gembira..sbb, dapat tau, yg ubat2 tu sume aku bule di KPJ dgn rega murah...tak yah dapatkan consultation doktor..tapi, beli jek ubatnya di situ..so, ok sgt2la kalu camtu..sbb, kkdg bila jumpa dr bukannya apa sgt yg dorang consultkan kat kita selain kene nunggu Q yg lama...To be honest, I hate going to hospital and I hate too nak telan2 ubat segala..

Office story..I've been checking my staff work fr home. Sorry to say, I am not satisfied wif what he has done. But, aku pon maleh nak bising2..as I know, I can manage to do it..Cume, I feel piss off, like the staff is taking advantage of his superior to check their work should any mistake to happen..Still, aku takleh nak salahkan my staff jugak..coz, suppose his work is more towards engineering and bukannya keje2 management..Just, harap sgt2la, aku leh control my emotion utk tak mudah melatah dan marah2. Sometimes, mebe jugakla betul cakap adik aku..yg I may be seemingly as a nice person tapi disebalik rope aku ni, I can be strict too wif people.
Sorryla yek, aku ni bukan manusia yg suka ditindas..dan lagi..mebe, aku pon skrg ni dah biasa asah bakat pi drill my own bibik almost everyday. Menyebabkan, aku dah tak kisah langsung nak tegur2 org if I feel dorang tak wat keje as according to my standard.

Selain tu, aku jugak happy sbb hari ni..I am able to know more..camne nak apply for Petronas License. Procedurenya lebih kurang jek ngan the way to apply for MOF cume adelah beza sket2..

My honey plak still hasnt finalize name for our trading co. Aku lak...mmg langsung kering idea nak letak nama co apa..Still remember lagi, camne aku dan my honey brainstorming to get the company and logo..rasanya, tak silap aku..waktu tu aku masih pantang lagi kot..Nampak sgt serabut gila my honey masa tu dok memk macam2 camne nak buat nama company..Dan dgn bangganya, within 1 day or tak sampai 1 week both of us can settlekan segala keserabutan my honey masa tu...Mmmm, mebela kot, kalu nak pilih isteri..tak semestinya yg cantik dan tau melawa sahaja..Tapi, carikla yg cerdik yg bule gunakan akal..yg bule selesaikan masalah somi ade ketikanya..

rumah sendiri vs Semi-D..

Mmm, dah lama aku tak menceceh dlm blog ni..pada hari ni..byk no tajuk and benda aku nak nulis..

this time entry is about rumah sendiri vs semi-d..we've been distracted from our focus to build our own house when passing through new Semi-D development in Bangi..and i was asking my honey again..whats really he is after in his life..is it his own made house or semi-D that he is hoping to have for our future property...and we've been discussing the pros and cons when buying a done-made property..hassle free but perhaps..you wont be fully 100% satisfied with it! like..maybe in term of workmanship..the hse design and etc. as for me...i dont have much complaint to live in any kind of house...and the funniest thing ever happen..eventhough, currently we are living in the semi-D house..still, we see that there is no enough space and room for us to breath! it just happen maybe because we have lots of things to be kept in the house and even one of our rooms has been spared just for storing our goods that we've bought back in UK. and another 1 room have been used just for working room to place or books, documents, computers and printers. almost everywhere look cramp in the house!

trading company..and well done..we've got the MOF certificate!

had a talk wif my honey abt 2 days ago. abt his intention to open a trading company as another separate company from his current consultant...and he was hoping for me to be able to handle this task..well, i dont see his favour to be very difficult for me to fulfill...it just matter, i have to spare some of my busy time in looking for the procedure. it might taken number of days for me to be able to ever done this job. but, i just happy to do it..as i dont really need to crack my head to death..in order to make it happen. all i need...maybe just to make some phone calls or perhaps follow up as what i did when i was handling the MOF application for the company..good news too, we've finally been awarded wif MOF certificate wich open us for more opportunity in joining any of government tender and presentation activities..and now, we are on our way to apply for PETRONAS license...which, i really pray hard..we wont face much difficulty in getting the license...

Shopping at KLCC..Sheridan bedding set..

Semalam hari yg paling best buat aku..sbbnya, aku berpeluang dpt shopping Sheridan Bedding set at affordable price kat KLCC that cant even be beaten at anywhere else in the world!

before this, i was eyeing like hell all my favourite bedding brands through web including Dorma, Sheridan and Sanderson and i dont really expect i can stumble upon yesterday's mad offer at Parkson of Sheridan brand. i had experienced wif Akemi and AUSSINO bedding set before...and my sincere comment..these 2 brands seem to be overly priced...eventough some people claim...the products are made from highly thread count of cotton material...still, the quality is way too far if you would like to compare them wif Sheridan, Dorma and Sanderson!

thanks my honey..for this ever sweet buying treat..surely, i will be working hard for you and to try my best to fulfill whatever your favour in future...not at all a BIG DEAL for me..:)

cerita lain..i am getting to know better abt Bohemia crystal..it were their candy containers that really caught my eyes yesterday. it still on sale till now at about rm200-350 each. nampak, so eye catching..sgt2 suitable if u want to put them in the display cabinet or nak guna during raya...from my estimation..3-4 containers should be enough for our family..sbb bukannya nak guna selalu pon...but if you really in a tight budget..there is another crsytal brand which they sell it at rm110 to 130 per container..it just matter, takdela qualitynya sebagus bohemia..but, again can fit the purpose...

Si menggeletis..

Dah pukul 2.37 pagi..tapi, mata aku masih lagi tak lelap..dok melayan internet. mengsetelkan my order. Came to know yg my friend's contena this time will punggah all the goods on 9th of June. Terkedu mak skjp coz tak sangka this would happen. I just pray hard that all of my orders to arrive before 9th. Kalu tak..alamatla, kene shipping charge mahal lagila aku gamaknya..frust nonggeng jugak kali ni..sbb, kontena my friend tu kosongla plak..unlike my other friend sblm ni..sampai tak muat brg2 nak masuk kontena..akibatnya..brg2 aku terpaksa dipost to mesia..thru shipping agency!

Aku pon dah settlekan problem yg menyerabutkan kepala aku sblm ni abt my bibik yg dok pakai baju2 terdedah dada, perut, pusat and spenda. Pagi tadi lagi aku dah settlekan perkara ni when I entering her room and asking abt her sleeveless top. I also really have no idea..dr mana I've got all the strength to be firm wif my maid. Its mebe because aku pon dah malas nak pk n pening2 pala.

When I refer this matter to my honey and my sil, their answer would be just warning her to keep her own baju and make sure she not wearing it in the house anymore. Tapi, sungguh2 aku dah tak confident ngan maid aku sendiri..Tak kirala, apa alasannya dia nak pakai baju terdedah2 and also seksi-meksi it hanya utk dipakai dlm bilik or whatsoever..still, possibility for my honey to stumble upon her..kot2 malam2 turun ke tingkat bawah dek nak makan atau nak minum tu tetap ada..while myself mase tu plak..dok berpantang n tak dapat ke tingkat bawah...and for surela kepala aku ni tak bole nak imagine banget2 camne kalu bibik aku tu menggelitis saje dok pakai baju2 tersebut bila my honey balik dr keje...Manakan aku tahu, apa aktiviti dorang kat tingkat bawah??? So, dr aku serabut2 kepala..baik aku settlekan perkara ni by asking her to give me all her tak senonoh punya baju...yg mana aku gantikan ngan new t-shirt sumenya...

Kalu ikutkan hati geram aku..mau jek aku nak buang sume baju2 tak senonoh tu dlm tong sampah..but then, I was adviced by my sister to still keep the bajus...sbb, baju tu milik maid aku...Mungkin jugakla..org yg not in my shoes will not know what is my feeling...but, once they have gone thru what I've been facing right now..sure, dorang pon akan melompat mcm aku...

Bila aku tanya my maid, why didnt she button her blouse 2 days ago till exposing her bra, tummy and navel..and her answer was..

"Tak tahu.."

and I was asking her again..

"Bibik sedar atau tidak baju kamu tu lagi terbuka.."

her response..

"Baju itu mmg lagi suka copot2"

dan aku still dgn tak putus asa terus bertanya..

"Kalu ye pon suka copot2, masakan kamu itu lagi tak perasan baju kamu lagi terbuka sampai nampak bra, perut dan pusat kamu. Apa kamu itu hilang malu? Paling2, malam itu saya yang nampak keadaan kamu begitu..Kalu bapak yg terlihat kamu begitu, apa kamu itu tidak segan? Lagian, kalu org lain yg melihat...Lagi dipikir pembantu sy itu otaknya sprt org senteng"

Mmmm..whatever you feella bibik...I know..I maybe blunt..Tapi, gua tak simpan dalam OK. Baik aje gue express dr gue diam2 tapi lepas tu gua makan hati..Kalu ikutkan, hati aku ni lagila sakit ngk bibik berpakaian mcm itu..sprt mcm ade agenda tersirat..kekdahnya, mcm saje nak tayang2 body kat suami majikan! Perangai persis menggeletis..Nasib2 je, aku tak pernah kantoi dia tu menggatal ngan laki aku...Kalu tak..mmg 24hours ko dah kene sack ngan aku w/out reason! Bila perkara ni berlaku..terus-terang aku dah mulai give up..dr bulan ke bulan..ade jek penyakit dia mcm2 yg aku kene pk..So, kalu dia buat hal lagi pasni...better ajelah aku let her go..Sbb, aku dah tak larat nak serabut kepala....

Bagai nak terbeliak bijik mataku ini...

Sesuwaila ngan tajuk di atas...ngan apa yg aku nak menceceh kat blog aku di pagi buta ini...pada pukul 3.07 pagi...al kisahnya aku tak dapat tido..maka, aku pon bukak lap top and layan internet...dan kepala aku masih tak habis berfikir...disebabkan oleh..pada malam smlm, iaitu bersamaan 6 jam yg lalu..pabila aku menanti pintu hall aku dibuka..bibikku bukak pintu dgn keadaan hanya baju atasnya berbutang..diulang semula...

Hanya 1-2 butang baju bibikku terbutang elok..yg lainnya tak terbutang..dan makanya telah mendedahkan perutnya yg leper beserta pusat dan branya yg berwarna gelap. aduhaiiii bibik aku ni..pelik2 je peel dia ni..aku ngk takde effort pon dia nak cover baju dia yg terbukak...dlm kepala aku ni mcm tak terimagine..haiiiii, macamanala kalu yg ade depan pintu tu adalah my honey??? adakah my honey akan honest dgn aku dgn apa yg dilihatnya???? atau hanya mendiamkan diri??? sebenarnya, bukan sekali aku ngk bibik aku pakai baju terdedah2..tapi, adalah 2-3 kali..mebe, mmg peel dia yg suka pakai baju singkat2..ala2 nak tunjukkan body dan juga her spenda kalu duduk terjongkok. Ntah berapa kali aku dah cuci mata nampak spenda dia yg kale putih, merah and etc...tapi, aku malas nak bising2. dan se-lagi..dah 2 kali aku perasa dia pakai baju terdedah di dada..tak butangkan pon baju t-shirt dia..sampai, kalu aku jenguk dr tingkat bawah pon boleh tahu bra dia pakai tu kale apa...apakah agaknya motif dia?? atau mmg dia tu gedik??? atau semmgnya dia tak sengaja??? dan sebenarnya baju yg dia pakai malam tadi pernah jugak terbuka butang bajunya sblm ini..dan yg sblm2 ni..butang baju yg terbuka tu hanya 1..dan bukannya..yg mcm 6 jam lalu..yg mcm nak berbogel dah aku ngk bibik aku tu dibuatnya....

sib baikla kulit tak putih mulus...kalu mulus, mmg sape2 pon bole tergoda...kalu ikutkan mmg bibik aku kulitnya cerah, badannya kecik mcm budak2..kalu org tak pasan..mmg nampakla bibik aku tu muda orgnya...cume, satu ajela minah ni..kulit dia jenis tak sekata...dan jugak ade kalanya, punya bau2an yg kurang menyenangkan...

Sabo jelaa....

Petang tadi, nampak aku sedikit caring ngan my maid. nampaknya kecaringan aku sekali lagi sprt diambil kesempatan. Malam aku keluar pada pukul 9 sbb nak menziarah rumah sepupu aku yg kene rompak. aku sangkakan dia akan buat kerja mcm biasa..kemas dapur segala..ngk2, tak pon dia buat apa2. kerusi tak tersusun, lantai dapur tak bersih..kalu ikutkan, my doter tu dah tidur ntah dari pukul berapa..tapi, dia bersyok2 plak duduk dalam bilik beraircond sampai tak dgr loceng rumah berbunyi ntah berapa kali..aku sahut2 nama dia dr luar pon dia tak dgr..tunggu my honey melaung jugak baru telinga dia nak dgr.. dan kebetulan plak aku tak bawak..dgn lampu bawah dibiar terang benderang and then carpet terbiar dan comforter dok terletak dia tak kemaskan, anak aku plak berak tak reti dia nak cebokkan..buat tak tahu jek macam takde apa yg berlaku...hai ntahlaaa manusia ni..malas aku nak kasik muka sgt...

my honey plak mulala naik berang sbb bibik lambat sgt bukak pintu. mana taknya, dia dok tergesa2 nak bawak my family cousin jumpa polis nak log report sbb kene rompak.

Mellow..

Hari ini aku nak menulis abt my maid. Things had changed this recently. It just happened because my maid made a phone called to Indon. Asking abt the family's health..in which in the conversation, she was told that her son now is no longer working while his husband only ocassionally gives money to their youngest doter. She was crying out loud. But, I just ignored and let her to do whatever, she would like to do. Not at all my intention too, to know in depth to dig whats really going on. But, for me, this sad story for her has given good news to me..Morale from this scenarios, to whatever reason..my maid has to stay stonger...determine in her will and work harder for her family own sake.

Yesterday, even I had a simple chat with her. Explaining in glance her saving account..How much money has been her accumulated thus far and she seemed happy with what she had achieved to this end. My advice to her is simple...

"OK, bibik, ini simpanan kamu utk 7.5 bulan bekerja. Kalu kamu itu, kerjaannya lagi bagus, bapak itu lagi nggak kisah kasik pada kamu bonus. Kalu kamu itu mmg bagus..yarrr, bonusnya mungkin lebih..Jadi, bukan stkt ini shj yg kamu bawa. Dgn duit sekian, mcm2 yg kamu bule beliin dan mulai kehidupan di Indonesia. Makanya, kami itu nggak usah pulang. Kalu kamu pulang, lagi berhabisan duit sampai 3 juta. Dgn 3 juta itu lagi mcm2 kamu bule gunakan. Yar..kamu itu seharusnya mesti tabah"

Bibik replied,

"Bukan apa buk, saya lagi mau kepingin jumpa anak2.."

Sorryla yer bik, kepingin ke tak kepingin..mmg takde maknanya aku nak kasik ko balik melainkan ko dah betul2 meroyan nak balik Indon. Aku nampak byk juga perubahan stkt ni..Aku nampak dia mcm dah rajin bekerja. Dan jarang buat aku asik angin..Thanks GOD...Boleh katakan dia dah tau jugak kerja dia..Walaupon, ade jugak sket2 yg aku kene ketuk.

Hari yg meletihkan..

Hari ini merupakan hari yg sungguh meletihkan..Aku keluar dr pukul 3.30 petang pergi kenduri rumah org kawen dan seterusnya berlegar2 di kawasan Metro dan sampaila ke episod bertandang di rumah kawan..Seronok jugak jumpa kawan lama. Abg I, masih lagi orgnya funny mcm kami dulu2 kenal. Wife Abg I pon menten cute and slim walaupon dah preggy 7 bulan unlike me yg mcm dah org nak terberanak kekdahnya btk badannya walaupon baru mengandung nak masuk 6 bulan. Paling excited bila dapat ngk they allnye BMW 5 series. Nampak berkilat2 and well look after eventhough it was bought 2nd hand from oversea.

Closing my order..

Finally, ringan sket kepala aku..bule mulai fokus wat keje lain..aku dah buat closing order tuk tumpang kontena one of my frens in UK. Byk jugak aku berhabis..termasuk siap menginvest double buggies for dua anak kecil aku..berjaya jugak, aku made up my mind..ttg mana satu buggies yg aku nak pilih..and good for me too, coz i am starting to learn..yg cantik dan mahal itu tak semestinya bagus..

phil n teds vibe costs 100 more than P&T sport. In term of representation mmg P&T Vibe nampak modern n superb. But, jgn tertipu dgn kecanggihan that buggies that might menyusahkan kita plak dikemudian hari..I know myself better than anyone else..tak suke ngan benda2 yg tak practical. Dah pernah try manouver P&T Vibe..I am feeling like I am pushing a trolley.

tbc..

lama tak jenguk blog..

nampak sgt aku dah lama tak jenguk blog..ntah, asik letih2 jek skrg..pi opis pon berselang2..mebe, sbb perut pon dah besar..dan takde outstanding yg significant yg perlu aku buat..yg mewajibkan aku masuk opis selalu2..nak2 plak, nak kene naik tangga sampai 44-48 steps..seriously, kalu takat sehari dua kali turun naik..masih lagi aku boleh bertahan..tapi, kalu lebih dr tu..nampak sgt aku mudah keletihan..

actually, this week i was so bz..sbb, dok menguruskan pembelian online brg2..sbb, nak menumpang kontena kawan yg nak ship ke mesia on 22nd of mei fr UK. byk gakla brg yg aku beli..n sblm membeli of coursela kene memk sampai berkali2..takut, teroverspending or lebih menakutkan..kesume brg tu dibeli atas dasar impulse buying...but, then lagi aku bertaguh..lagila benda ni tak settle2..so, lega dah sgt tinggal sket brg je tinggal utk dibeli..pendek kata, slps ni..memang aku akan duduk diam2..dah tak membeli sgt...sbb, kbykannya aku dah beli dr awal....now, my list goes on..

nak beli..

bb rocker
double buggies
spare cotbed
child booster(yg bule recline)
bath seat

Mak oh mak..

Aku tak berapa nak paham dgn mak aku..yg tak cube nak paham dgn aku..yg dia nampak cume kesalahan kita..salah dia sendiri, mcmana?

Smlm, dgn sengaja dia provoke yg aku dok mendera maid aku..dok tak bagi maid aku makan dr pagi sampai ke petang..cik bibik pon satu..pandai2la curik masa nak makan..takkan nak tunggu majikan always to follow up, baru tang tu gak nak terkulat2 ko nak makan??

Tak habis2 cik bibik ni asik ..dok nak menyesakkan kepala aku..btw, aku takdela dan2 dok menyerang my maid dlm hal ni..sbb, rasa mcm buang karen dok berconfront ngan org rendah akal ni..dan aku pon sedar dr awal lagi..yg dia ni ade..tendency, depan cakap lain..belakang cakap lain..selalu jek, setahu aku..apa yg dia citerkan kat org tu mcm 360 degree dari cerita sebenar..

like last time, diciternya kat aku..yg mak dia tu dah tua..jln pon mcm diseret2..walhal, bila mentua aku balik pi pas duit kat mak dia di indon..sihat walafiat je mak mentua aku ngk sedara dorang sume di kampung..pehtu, waktu awal2 keje ngan aku..katanya, kat umah aku takde makanan..kalu ikutkan, bukannya takde makanan..cume, makanan aku tak se-luxury mcm di rumah mak mentua aku...sbb di rumah mil aku tu..yg tinggal hanya anak2 yg dah besar pjg dan bule berdiri sendiri tanpa perlu nak kene entertain selalu...makanya, hidangan di rumah aku..kebiasaannya amat2 simple..cukup utk mengalas perut org kata...dan kalu nak makan besar..alamatnya, kene tunggu aku yg masak...barula semua org dapat makan besar...kalu nak harapkan bibik yg masak..hai.. ntah hapa2 jela org tua tu masak...konon2 je org gembar-gemburkan..yg org sunda ni pandai masak..hakikatnya..hai..ntahla...byk yg tak jadik dr yg jadik...actually, aku pon tak harap minah ni pandai masak...cume, saje testing2 power..nak ngk kebolehan dia..ker, dia saje pura2 buat2 tak tahu masak?? kalu nak makan sedap2, kenala bibik belajar masak sendiri..kalu all the time nak harapkan org..tuk masakkan tuk dia..not all the time jugak, org ni free nak entertain mentakedara dia..

Smlm, saje je aku berbuat2 baik dgn dia..citer pasal masakan..waktu dia bercerita pasal resepi tu sume..hai, mcm best2 plak bunyinya...mcm ala2 sedap belaka..tapi, bila aku rasa kuah pecah dia...alahaiiiiiii...camni ke taste cik bibik..manis tidak...masin pon tidak..mebela jugak dia rasa down..sbb, aku tak jamah makanan dia..dan aku plak..tak berkesempatan..nak explain kat dia..kenapa aku tak makan pecal dia smlm..sbb, aku pon kelam-kabut..dapat makan dinner pukul 10.30 mlm..balik hantar Harris, dok singgah pasar..layan kehendak anak2..nak buku mewarna, nak towel segala..pehtu, pi layan makan dorang..nak makan buah watermelon, honeydew n pisang..pehtu, singgah lagi pi market lagi satu..pi carik ikan, daun ubi dan sayur2an lain segala...dah selesai shopping kat market..balik umah sambung masak utk my honey nak makan...my honey balik..aku kuar lagi umah temankan dia pi klinik..pulang dr klinik..aku ngk umah punyala bersepah2 dr depan ke belakang...sbb, bibik salah paham..aku suruh dia hanya tumbuk kacang..tapi, dia plak pi sediakan sume preparation from A-Z kuah pecalnya..dah dia susah2 buat kuah pecal..aku plak, cume rasa sket dan re-do balik kuah pecah buatan aku sendiri..sbb, kuah pecal dia tak berasa selain dr kacang tanah dia yg tak masak..yg buatkan kita tak bule nak makan...kalu ikutkan sampai skrg aku masih lagi try n error..nak carik di mana strength dia..

Berbalik dr citer mak tadi..kkdg aku rasa, org luar ni sng aje nak buruk sangka..sdgkan diri sendiri tak pernah rasa keadaan kita bagaimana...skrg ni, aku just try to think positively, mcm yg kakak aku pesankan..yg penting kita dah tunaikan tanggungjawab kita...perkara org lain nak buat penilaian..atau maid kita tu nak cakap belakang..itu adalah antara dia dan tuhan..sama jugak..kalu dorang tu panjang tangan...sbb, aku pon malas nak sesak2an kepala..nak pk benda2 remeh..sdgkan ade lagi list yg lebih pjg aku nak pkkan..

Dan mak jugak tak pernah paham, kenapa aku tak dapat nak balik kg selalu2. Sdgkan bila masa aku free..kebetulan mak plak tak free...dan mak plak aku ngk..dia je yg bule kasik excuse...bila masa dia tak free kalu kami nak dtg atau bila dia tak bule dtg umah aku...Mcm2 ajela mak ni...Nak cakap byk2 pon namanya mak sendiri..

Apa2pon, slps was my happy dah..aku dah berjaya buat kuah pecal sendiri..Yeha!

My baby...

Kali ni aku nak tulis pasal my baby...believe me or not..my baby now dah nak masuk 1 yr 3 mos..but, yet still tak pandai jalan..again, mommy takdela begitu risau..sbb, daniel byk cakap orgnya..dan lagi satu mommy pon tak salahkan daniel..kalu daniel lambat jalan..sbb, most of the time, daniel kena duduk dlm walker..jadi, mebe sbb tu jugak...daniel lambat nak gain confidence menapakkan kaki..tapi, takpe..sbb, now sekurang2nya daniel dah pandai berdiri sendiri..

For me, Daniel is such an adorable boy..gentle..at the same time lasak and adventerous...manja..independent, kuat smgt dan tak juga mudah mengalah..permulaannya, mommy mmg rasa bersalah, coz, feeling like Daniel takkan sepenuhnya perhatian mcm abg dan kakaknya sblm ni..memandangkan dalam usianya 1 tahun 7 bulan..Daniel akan dapat adik lelaki...Rasanya, sepenuhnya, mommy dah cube beri perhatian dan masa pada Daniel...in fact, walaupon mommy menyusukan Daniel tak lama...sekurang2nya, sedari awal, mmg mommy exclusively breastfeed Daniel dlm tempoh tersebut..siap2 sediakan stok susu sblm di hantar ke nursery if mommy ade keje...

TBC...

Oficially submit MOF(online)

Finally, slps asik berkalling2 setiap masa ngan staff MOF...settle jugak urusan aku nak registerkan our company ngan MOF. Kalu ikutkan takdela susah mana nak apply..asalkan document sume cukup...So, apa yg perlu aku buat skrg is just to submit our supporting document offline. Once approved...barulaaaa...buat pembayaran sbyk rm450...I would say, mmg agak hassle jugakla nak apply MOF ni..tapi, rasanya leceh lagi kalu nak apply company for Petronas License.

Skrg bebudak opis pon dah mcm cool down..so, apa yg aku buat..just diverting my work to them. Let our engineer/ trainee studies the application process. Report to me what shall be doing...or siapkan document apa2 yg patut..so, that by the time..kita nak apply, everything dah ready..so, tak yah nak tunggu lama2 sgt..terus jek submit application..By that time, dah bule tutup buku pening2 kepala utk apply itu dan ini..Mebela, after this paling2 pon kene pening2 kepala sekejap utk find the procedure to apply for grant or whatsoever...

My another outsanding..yes, nak kene belaja UBS...nak kene revise employee handbook...and maybe by this Saturday nak kene prepare surat for Sy to officially mentioned yg now he is been seconded to company in KL. Kene state jelas2...yg he will be receiving transport allowance for rm300 per mth...to fuel up his spirit to always loyal wif the company..

Lain strategy...kalu dapat beli apartment or rumah murah2 for pekerja pon dah lebih dr bagus..dan kalu dapat project obersea pon sgt2la bagus..Tapi, sanggupke aku nak berjauhan ngan my honey demi duit????? Ntahla..malas aku nak pk...

Pon aku dah ctc kawan lama aku..lecterur di Poli Shah Alam..dalam usaha mendapatkan practical trainee...

My sweet tooth craving..

Nampaknya,aku masih lagi belum bisa my sweet tooth craving...Almost everday, aku akan singgah kat gerai akak jual pisang goreng dan karipap goreng. Mmm..manala berat aku tak naik drastik..dgn eating habit yg sebegini..After my own fault...nak whinning plak, feeling so horrible sbb dah piling up to 11kg. Honestly, if dont do something to treat my craving, alamat makin buntalla aku gamaknya..perhaps, i need to revamp myself..by chging my eating habit..stock up with lots of leafy vegetables and fruits..

Boring..boring..boring..

Dah beberapa hari ni..aku sgt2 boring...letih pon ade..sbb asik membelek2 catalogue mamas n papas..sampai aku sakit kepala..baring pon.. pk baby cot, duduk pon..pk bb cot..tido pon..mimpi bb cot! dalam byk sgt pikiran aku dikuasai utk membeli bb cot pujaan hati..web mamas n papas plak aku tak bule nak bukak..asik dok kuar..link appears to be broken...tak berbaloi sungguh..sbb kepala ni asik mmk bb cot..but in the end, tak bule nak bule sbb web dia yg asik mengong...

smlm aku tak pi opis..saje merilekskan diri..2 bebudak opis plak demam. Tinggal si Matt je yg dok dlm opis...Si Sy plak dan been seconded keluar...to enhance his skill...so, for period of 3 mos ni..I must be missed to hear people menyapa me...

"Saya balik dulu Puan"

sbb,Sy is now in KL. As pon sama amik cuti..Tak surela..he bercuti coz of personal matter atau to attend interview..kita pon, malas nak pk sgt...

citer lain..dah 2 kali aku perasan my ringgit notes in my car gone missing...aku pon tak mo menuduh cik bibik...but, the possibility is there...still my suspicion towards her never ends..since the first time..i caught her stealing..if this time, aku terjumpa lagi ringgit notes in her bag..maksudnya...mmg sah2 dia mencuri..sbb, sejak bulan lepas, aku dah tak bagi dia pegang cash and dia plak tak minta aku duit cash..mungkin, dia pk..buat apa nak pegang duit..sbb all the time..aku boleh tolak gaji...

perkembangan terbaru yg lain...Si Milan dah mula suku kata..ba,fa,ca,da...Kalu ikutkan buku reading BI dia dah pass semua wording..tapi, aku tak faham, kenapa dia masih tak move2 ke buku yg lain...For X-Ra plak..dia ade mood2..sometimes nak baca..sometimes tak nak baca..But, I was suprised too...dia boleh kenal suku kata dlm buku tersebut walaupon dah lama tak praktis membaca dgn aku..

Si Daniel..Dah mula memberanikan diri menapakkan kaki. Aku ngk..makin lama..makin ligat pergerakan dia..Smlm aje...dia dah mula panjat dan duduk atas his table toys. Pehtu, dah mula nak cube2 duduk atas Fisher Price Ride On Toy ngan hanya sebelah kaki. Dan jugak percubaan yg mana dia cube nak berdiri atas toy tu dgn keadaan lepas tgn. Selain tu, Daniel jugak pantang nampak sofa..mmg asik nak panjat2...dan kalu jumpa suis plak..sungguh2 dia suka nak on and offkan...especially, kaminya suis tv..cam syok plak dia ngk ekspresi kami yg mcm marah2 dan bising2 bila dia matikan suis tersebut...I was telling my honey..

"Camnila dia anak lelaki..Lasak..."

and mmg tak terimagine dek akal aku bila umah ni dipenuhi ngan 3 org budak lelaki...mana taknya, smlm aku ngk..si Daniel dah mula main fighting2 dan panjat atas badan si Harris...Harris plak bising2..dok gitau aku yg baby tu nakal...

Abt Harris...I can see he loves science very much. He is lucky because he's got a mom, yg can tell how interesting science subject is...Same goes to BM, BI, Agama, Maths and Bahasa Arab. I dont have much problem in explaining to my son...Aku pon kagum ngan tahap pemikiran aku skrg...yg mcm..eh!!!, takdela susah sgt subject2 ni sume..ke..mmg manusia tu sepatutnya akan mencapai tahap sprt apa yg aku capai dlm usia aku skrg?? Pendek kata, I've got no problem to switch myself...to learn something yg di luar bidang aku...

Chanel vs Dior Compact Foundation..

Mana satu aku nak pilih?? Kalu ngk tekstur Chanel powder..mmgla sgt halus..rega pon....mmm bule tahan halus gak...cume, yg aku tak suke...casing dia punyala beso..tak menarik hati betul! mmg makan space...bau dia...haaaaa...its better than Dior yg pernah aku cube...The only concern, aku risau..aku lak mcm tak puas pakai foundation ni mcm tekstur dia ringan sgt n mcm tak de impact like the Dior ones...